[Hehai] Memories are a city

25. People who want and those who can't give up

"Hey, why is Donghae here? Didn't you say he was going to Hyejae's side?" BY just entered the dormitory door and suddenly saw Cui Siwon who was surprised by Li Donghae.

"Hezai said he would catch a cold." Slowly glanced out the window at Li Donghai, who was extremely depressed.

"Huh?" Cui Siwon was confused by Lee Donghae's nonsensical words.

"It's raining, I don't have an umbrella." Continue to explain ING kindly

"Oh~" Following Li Donghai's gaze, he glanced out of the window, even an umbrella is useless in such a heavy rain.

"So it didn't pass~" Looking at Choi Siwon again, Li Donghae turned back and continued to be busy with the matter at hand.

Li Donghai, who had agreed with Lee Hyuk-jae to go to his dormitory, because it rained suddenly and the dormitory happened to have no umbrellas, was verbally forbidden by Lee Hyuk-jae to go out and stayed in the dormitory obediently.Lee Hyuk Jae had an umbrella, but because it was raining heavily, even having an umbrella was useless, so he was strictly asked not to go out by Lee Dong Hae.As a result, Li Donghai was bored and extremely depressed in the dormitory...

"What is Donghae doing?" Seeing Li Donghae staring at the laptop, busy with his hands, Cui Siwon was rarely curious.

"Kuuuu~" Li Donghai answered in his busy schedule.

"Ah?" He was stunned for a while before he could react, and looked at the screen with his head, Cui Siyuan's black line.

——Li Donghai□□chat ING...

"Donghae is chatting with Hyukjae" casually asked Choi Siwon who was absolutely not sure.

"En." Li Donghai was completely sure without thinking.

"==" Choi Siwon black line!these two people...

"What's the surprise? If Lee Donghae can get away from Lee Hyukjae, then it's not Lee Donghae!" Jin Kibum suddenly appeared inexplicably.

"Why is Kibum here?" Choi Siwon was surprised again.

"Ki Bum——" Li Donghae, who was extremely resentful, accidentally turned off the power with shaking hands because of Kim Ki Bum's words.

"Turn it off and don't turn it on, anyway, Hye Jae will call in 5 minutes."

Jin Jifan made a mistake ING.Because Li Donghai's cell phone was already ringing.

"Ki Bum..." Seeing Lee Dong Hae picking up his phone and answering the call quickly, Choi Siwon suddenly had infinite admiration for Kim Ki Bum.

"These two people have always been like this, and you will know it after getting along for a long time."

"As Kyuhyun said, can there be Hyejae in Donghae?" Choi Siwon recalled.

"Of course Kyuhyun doesn't mean that." After a pause, Kim Kibum glanced at Li Donghae on the phone, "It's not that Donghae can't live without Hyejae, it's just that he doesn't want to and doesn't want to."

In Lee Donghae’s world, there are parents, Kim Ki, Bum Jo, Kyuhyun, Lee Sungmin, Choi Siwon, and other relatives, friends, and classmates, and Lee Hyuk Jae is just one of them.Of course Lee Hyuk Jae cannot be Lee Dong Hae's world, but Lee Dong Hae filled Lee Hyuk Jae's entire world.

Just like Li Donghae, of course, it’s not that he can’t live without Lee Hyukjae, but that Li Donghae doesn’t want to, and doesn’t want to, without Lee Hyukjae!

Lee Hyuk-jae is Lee Dong-hae, no matter what, he can't give up.

"Is it okay for Ki Fan to skip class?"

"Anyway, it's an elective course, besides, Siwon will help me sign in."

"Siwon is so pitiful, he has to go to class in such heavy rain." Li Donghae sighed, "Ah! Kibum, you came here just to let Siwon sign in for you, right?" Li Donghae was shocked.

"——" Jin Jifan ignored ING on his PSP.

"Kibum, you are so ruthless!" Li Donghai continued to sigh with emotion.

"It's not like you have asked Hyejae to do this kind of thing." Jin Jifan continued to complain about ING on the PSP.

"Why am I the same as Hye Jae!" Lee Dong Hae proudly ING

"What's the difference between you and Hyejae, me and Siwon?"

"Hyuk Jae and I grew up together!" Lee Dong Hae continued to be proud ING

"Donghae, my brother and Han Geng brother and I grew up together, but they didn't treat me like Hyejae treated you." Han Geng treats my brother similarly to Hyejae treats you, but they are a couple.Of course, Jin Jifan didn't say this.

"That's because Hyejae is better." Suddenly, Li Donghai lost his temper, looking at Jin Kibum, he didn't know what to say.

"Then why doesn't Hezai treat others so well? Is it because Hezai and we didn't grow up together?"

"Huh?" Li Donghai was stunned.

"Do you think the difference between you and Hyejae, me and Siwon is just because you two grew up together?"

Kim Ki Bum saw Lee Dong Hae nodded and shook his head.

"Or to put it another way, can you accept that Hyejae treats another person like he treats you, and puts what he did to you for you on another person?"

Li Donghai was silent.

This question requires no answer, or even thought.The answer is obvious, he doesn't want to!

Li Donghae never thought of sharing Lee Hyuk-jae's favor with others. He wanted Lee Hyuk-jae to be by his side all the time and only treat him well.Lee Donghae wanted it, Lee Hyukjae was his alone.Whether it is the years of growing up together that have passed or the countless futures that will come.

Besides—

The room was very quiet, the rain had stopped, and the PSP was put aside because there was no electricity, Jin Kibum raised his neck and looked out the dark window, and then heard Li Donghai whispering as if talking to himself.

"Ki Fan, Hye Jae he, kissed me."

Unexpected answer.

Jin Kibum smiled and cursed: "Li Donghai, you idiot!"

Li Donghae didn't respond, because Choi Siwon came back from get out of class: "Ki Bum Donghae, I'm back, let's have supper."

Lee Hyuk-jae is Lee Dong-hae, no matter what, he can't give up.

Lee Hyuk Jae is, Lee Dong Hae wants to monopolize everyone all the time.

as well as,

Lee Hyuk Jae kissed Lee Dong Hae.

But what conclusion should be drawn from all these together?

26, want to kiss you, want to get closer

"Heza Heza, get up!"

Lee Hyuk Jae was awakened by the pressure.

A rare weekend to sleep in!

Sighing silently in my heart, I stretched out my hands to buckle the pile to wake up someone's waist, turned over and pressed the person under me.Opening his eyes, he caught a trace of panic in those dark eyes without any surprise, chuckled lightly, lowered his head and pecked lightly on the cool cheek, and said slowly: "Why does Donghai wake up so early?"

The breath sprayed on the ear was warm and moist, with the unique hoarse voice of the person on the body hitting the eardrum lightly in the early morning.Hum—the warm temperature spread from the pinna to the cheeks, and secretly burned on a piece of skin that had been kissed.

"Ah! Lee Hyuk-jae! It's already eleven o'clock?!!" He blushed and roared, and Lee Dong-hae punched someone on the shoulder, "Get up, my mothers are not here, I'm starving to death!~" Pushing hard against someone who is on top of you has little effect when someone is completely uncooperative.

"Well, what do Donghai want to eat?" He didn't move like a fool, buried his face in the warm nest of his neck and rubbed his lips against the sensitive skin intentionally or unintentionally. The voice was muffled, but it was enjoyable.

"Eat whatever you want - Hye Jae, don't make trouble, it's itchy!" Laughing lightly, he dodged, turned his head inadvertently, but bumped into the other party's focused gaze, slightly startled, Li Donghai closed his eyes gently as if bewitched .

More than one person was bewitched.

—wanted to kiss him.

When Li Donghae's gaze met his and then he closed his eyes with trembling eyelashes, this was the only thought in Li Hyukjae's mind.

I want to kiss him, I want to bite my seductive lips, I want to snatch his breath, I want to hold him tightly in my arms, I want to leave my mark on him, I want him Panting and calling my own name... I want to get closer!

"I'm going to wash my face." Kissing the corner of his lips lightly, Li Hyuk-jae said lightly, sighing faintly.Get up and go to the bathroom.

Want to make you mine!

——But in the end, I can only kiss the corner of your lips.

Li Hyuk-jae stared at himself in the mirror in a daze.

Since when have you wanted to kiss you?

Since when did you become uncontrollably wanting to kiss you?

Since when did you feel that being so close was not enough?

Since when did you want to take you for yourself?

Since when did 'I love you' turn into love?

Heh...it's me who loves you...

Lee Dong Hae, when I can't control myself more and more, how can I continue to let the 'Lee Hyuk Jae' you know stay by your side?

"Li Donghai, sleep right after eating, are you a pig?" pinching the cheek of a drowsy person leaning against her, watching him dissatisfiedly slapping her hand away, adjusting a comfortable posture, In the end, he simply lay down on his own legs.

"I'm not you, I didn't wake up until eleven o'clock, but I woke up early in the morning and did a lot of work!" Li Donghae muttered dissatisfiedly, and Li Donghae was completely rude and motioned to Li Hyukjae to cover himself with the blanket beside him, and slapped Yawning with inarticulate speech, "Besides, I fall asleep very easily when Hezai is around..."

"Hehe, that's still my fault?" With a low smile, he helped Dong Hai cover the blanket, took the remote control on the table and turned on the TV, "What did you do when you got up in the morning?"

"Of course!" Hearing the sound of the TV, Li Donghai turned around, "It's nothing, the end of the semester is coming soon, some subjects that don't have exams have to hand in papers, and it takes a lot of time to check the information. Give me the remote control~" He took Li Hyuk-jae's hand Press the channel on the remote control.

"Don't want to sleep again?" Pushing his hanging hair behind his ears, he naughtily pinched the soft earlobe.

"It's not because you harass me! Ah! Stop playing!" He was very dissatisfied with Li Hyuk-jae's behavior, but he didn't bother to reach out to stop it, anyway, even if he stopped it, it would be useless.

"Then let's go out for a stroll in the afternoon."

"Don't go, it's cold outside." Because he thought it was troublesome, he just ran over in a thin pajamas, just a short distance from the door to the door, he was already shivering from the cold, so he didn't want to go out foolishly Woolen cloth!

"Don't Donghae like snow very much? How can he be afraid of the cold~"

"It's not snowing now! Don't make noise, I'm going to sleep~" Putting down the remote control, he turned around again, reached out and gently grabbed Li Hyuk-jae's clothes.

"Go in and sleep well, it's uncomfortable to sleep like this."

"Well... will you be tired?"

"What?" Li Donghai's voice was a little vague.

"If you get tired, I'll go in and sleep, otherwise I'll sleep here, it's very comfortable~" whispering softly, Li Donghai curled up comfortably.

"Heh~ Let's Donghai sleep well..."

The days with you like this are warm and beautiful, but I am no longer only satisfied with these.

In his sleep, Li Donghai felt himself being gently lifted, and something lightly pressed his upper lip, soft and moist, with a familiar temperature.He indulged deeply without even a trace of resistance, just because his breath was full of the smell of Li Hyuk-jae...

Li Donghae dreamed of Kim Kibum, he saw Kim Kibum scolding "Li Donghae, you idiot!" with a slight smile, he heard himself say to Kim Kibum with a smile:

Kibum, Hyeokjae he kissed me.

It felt very comfortable and warm, just like now——

It is full of the taste of Hezai.

Since when have you wanted to kiss you?

Since when did I want your kiss...

27. The difference between I love you and I know I love you

Now Lee Hyuk Jae often recalls the [-] years he and Lee Dong Hae have known each other.

He always wondered when did he change his feelings for Li Donghai into the romantic word "love" from the bottom of his heart.

Regarding a long time ago, Lee Hyuk Jae can still say with certainty that he had nothing but family and friendship for Lee Dong Hae at that time.Although regarding this "before", Lee Hyuk Jae himself couldn't give a specific boundary.

Kindergarten?

Pass directly! Children who are older than P don’t even know what the word love is, and they might even ask “Can I eat it?” to make others laugh.At that time, Lee Hyuk-jae and Lee Dong-hae could only be regarded as playmates, but because the two lived close to each other and their parents were good friends, they were closer than other children.Lee Donghae would think of ways to put himself and Lee Hyukjae in the same class, and Lee Hyukjae would just wipe his tears away from the pain in his butt when he was thrown to the ground by the crying Lee Donghae.Lee Hyuk-jae said "Don't cry, don't cry" in a childish voice, and then looked at Lee Dong-hae crying even louder in panic.

primary school?

Lee Hyuk Jae thought carefully about his six years of elementary school.In the end, I can only laugh at my own nervousness.At that age when he only wanted to play, eat, laugh, and make trouble, falling in love was also the result of watching too many TV series because he was idle in his senior year, not to mention that he was never very keen on TV series.At that time, Lee Hyuk-jae and Lee Dong-hae were just enlarged versions of their kindergarten days, but there were more little secrets that could only be known to each other.Lee Donghae will pull Lee Hyukjae to talk about the little grievances in his heart and then shed tears, Lee Hyukjae will pull his small sleeves to wipe Lee Donghae's tears and then make him laugh.

junior high school?

Thinking of the time in junior high school, Lee Hyuk Jae finally had some hesitation.He remembers when Li Donghai asked his ideal type in junior high school, he was joking or joking, telling him that he likes people with beautiful eyes.In fact, he has never thought about this aspect, so where is his ideal type?It's just that Li Donghai's eyes were too beautiful when he raised his head to look at him, so he suddenly dazzled his eyes.Could it be just that one glance that lured him into this net called Li Donghai?Li Hyuk-jae chuckled, those eyes that have been big since childhood, no matter how beautiful they are, shouldn't have such an effect.

Lee Hyuk-jae and Lee Dong-hae in junior high school, Lee Dong-hae is still Lee Dong-hae, he pesters Lee Hyuk-jae every day and asks, "What kind of girl, Hye-jae do you like?" Dissatisfied?" He even told Lee Hyuk Jae what kind of girl he likes, and which girl in the class he thinks is closest to his ideal type.What changed was Lee Hyuk Jae.Lee Hyuk-jae is still with Lee Dong-hae every day, he treats Lee Dong-hae well, but slowly mixes a little bit of pampering into it.He will think that Li Donghae is very beautiful—although he has always thought so since he was a child, and he will want to be close to Li Donghae—although they have been very close since childhood, he will always want to stay by Li Donghae’s side no matter what, and look at him All right, smile happily.

Lee Hyuk Jae remembered what he said to Lee Dong Hae.

He said: "Xiao Hai, don't worry, I will always be with you!"

High school.

The three years of high school are very complicated!Lee Hyuk-jae smiled lightly.In those three years, did he change more or Donghai changed more?

At that time, Lee Donghae suddenly had a strong desire to monopolize Lee Hyukjae for some reason, and of course he also learned to be jealous.Thinking about it now, Lee Hyuk Jae seems to be extremely grateful for Lin Xiaoyou's appearance.

Lee Hyuk-jae remembers that Lee Dong-hae pulled him and said that he is not allowed to find someone with less beautiful eyes than his own as a girlfriend, remembers that Lee Dong-hae asked him obliquely if he likes Lin Xiaoyou, and remembered that Lee Dong-hae was so angry that he shouted that he didn't need him to apologize for others.Lee Hyuk Jae remembers every look of Lee Dong Hae, maybe it was then that he really fell in love, fell in love with Lee Dong Hae.

It was around that time that Lee Hyuk-jae fell in love with teasing Lee Dong-hae, he liked to kiss and hug him from time to time, he always wanted to get close to him involuntarily, and he always liked seeing his eyes widen with anger but helpless towards himself Tight, so pretty and so pretty.So much so that at that time, Li Donghae always yelled, "Lee Hyukjae, I'm a boy! Why do you keep saying you're pretty!"

Lee Hyuk Jae and Lee Dong Hae in high school, maybe it should be said to be an upgraded version of junior high school?Always together as before, but more intimate.Li Donghae, who started to have a desire for monopoly, put Li Donghae in his heart and pampered Lee Hyukjae who became more and more gentle.The person I like the most is the other person, the person I want to be with the most, the other person, I want myself to occupy the biggest position in the other person's heart, and, still unchanged, I want to stay together all the time.

Lee Hyuk Jae who is definitely in love with Lee Dong Hae but doesn't know it.

And

Everything is still unknown Lee Donghae...

University!

University is an absolute turning point, ah turning point!Lee Hyuk Jae sighed.

Beauty comes from distance.This sentence is the absolute truth, the truth.Otherwise, why did he not understand until now that he fell in love with Li Donghai for so many years?

Although the distance between the two of them was only a bus stop, and they went home together on weekends, it was enough to make him miss him.Lee Hyuk Jae missed Lee Dong Hae, couldn't wait to see him, worried about everything about him, almost forgot that Lee Dong Hae was the same age as him and had enough self-care ability.Even he himself finds it inconceivable that he misses it for no reason at all, except of course "I love you".

The real turning point is the kiss, right?That kiss that wasn't a kiss when Lee Dong Hae inadvertently brushed Lee Hyuk Jae's lips in his sleep!

Of course, Lee Donghae didn't know about that kiss at all, so the focus was on Lee Hyukjae.When Li Donghae's lips brushed against his lightly, Lee Hyukjae's mind had nothing but one thought - to kiss him.Of course, Lee Hyuk Jae didn’t at that time, he used his strong self-control to cover Lee Dong Hae with the quilt, then turned around and went out, and stayed alone in the study until his mother asked him to wake Dong Hae up for dinner.

Lee Hyuk Jae went and figured out all the problems at the moment when Lee Dong Hae called his name sleepily.

But not including Lee Dong Hae.

Until now, Lee Hyuk Jae has not figured out what Lee Dong Hae thinks.

That night Lee Hyuk Jae kissed Lee Dong Hae, both of them were fully awake, but Lee Dong Hae didn't say anything to reproach him, he just asked him why he did that?Of course Lee Hyuk Jae didn't give him an answer.

Li Donghai didn't ask, but then hid him for a month.At the end of that month, Lee Hyuk Jae fell ill, so he dragged Lee Dong Hae to sleep with him, and when he woke up, he recovered from his illness, and the two reconciled.But without saying anything.Lee Donghae didn't ask or say anything like selective amnesia, but Lee Hyukjae didn't know how to say it.He doesn't even know what kind of result he wants?

So it can only be procrastinated endlessly.

Thankfully, Lee Dong Hae likes being around him as much as ever, even more than ever.In other words, Lee Donghae is still Lee Donghae, but Lee Hyukjae is becoming less and less like Lee Hyukjae.He always involuntarily wants to get closer to him, wants to hug him, kiss him secretly when he is asleep, sometimes he even feels that Li Donghai knows he is kissing him, but pretends to be asleep on purpose.However, the sober Li Donghai faced his closeness with obvious panic in his eyes.

Sigh slightly.

Lee Hyuk Jae didn't know what to do with Lee Dong Hae.

Wouldn't it be better if he didn't realize he was in love with Lee Dong Hae?Just like in high school, try your best to be nice to him, so close, everything is natural.

The difference between I love you and I don't know it and I know I love you is:

I love you but I don't know - so I just do my best to treat you subconsciously, love you, spoil you, love you and protect you.

I know that I love you--in addition to loving you and loving you, I also want to be close to you, want to kiss, want to hug, and want to make you mine!

then

Li Donghai

What are your thoughts?

Author FT:

So Li Donghae, what exactly do you want?