Demon folding

Like an overly lucid dream, every breath passed day by day.

Winter Moon 23 I woke up, and within a few days of my life, there was an incident about the charm of Meiyuan Mountain. When I woke up again, I was already in Shangqiu Palace for half a month.

As soon as Shi Huan lay down, he lay down on 29's head.

Tomorrow's [-]th, the old and new years are changing, he is going to preside over the night of the New Year's Eve.

But he still didn't wake up.

Huo Zhengqi is an honest person, and he comes every day according to his word.

After waking up, Mr. thought that Shi Huan was lying in the side hall, and I might arouse other people's suspicion when I passed by every day, so he asked Huo Zhengqi to hold Shi Huan into my bedroom to guard, and moved to the side hall by himself.

At the end of the year, there are many things in the palace, and the palace people still dare not come to serve, so what's the point of suffering.

In addition to guarding Shi Huan, I also help her. My husband's shoulder injury is not healed. Even if he wants to, he can only do some light work. Most of the time, he guards Shi Huan for me.

On the other hand, Huo Zhengqi was caught by He Yong to do hard work, heavy work that he couldn't do during the day, and when he came at night, he hurriedly threw it all to him.

He was not annoyed at all, he rolled up his sleeves and did a clean job, he couldn't find any thorns, and the aggrieved words kept whispering in my ears every day, which made me helpless.

Tonight, it's time to put on a new New Year's lantern.

I handed the lantern in my hand to Huo Zhengqi, who was stepping on the ladder, and watched him lightly hang it under the eaves of the porch of the hall, then stepped back to get close to Mr., and watched from a distance that he hung it upright.

Why Yong always finds him disliked, now holding on to the ladder, he said deliberately, "It's crooked, it's crooked!"

"What's crooked?" Most likely Mr. He Yong has been yelling at her in the past few days, and immediately reprimanded her, "It's not good for you to be troublesome, and that's also disgusting, but you hang it yourself."

He Yong pursed his mouth and said aggrievedly to me, "Princess, princess, sir scolded me again! It's unreasonable!"

I pursed my lips and smiled, as if I didn't care about watching the show.

The older the husband is, the more he has a childish temper, why is he only 16 years old, the old and the young are all children, and they always have to fight over trivial matters every day. , He Yong ran to me in a grievance, and pulled the corner of his clothes to shed a few tears that he squeezed out with his heart.

I took care of it at first, but later I saw them arguing and arguing, and they gathered together to control me, either telling me to rest more or eat more food. In desperation, I let them toss by themselves, so they didn't give me a chance Let them all turn their spears against me.

Sure enough, the husband stared and blew his beard and said, "She listens to me, this is the truth! If you want to be reasonable, you must first learn my truth before you speak!"

Hearing the annoyed tone of my husband, I laughed even more.

I was watching Shihuan every day, and I couldn't deal with the master's plan to grab me to give lectures on Xiaoyaojuan, so I pushed it away.

He Yong is smart but smart, but since he was born in a poor family, he is used to being wild and has no chance to learn to read and write. If you ask her to do some work of serving people, she must be diligent and conscientious. Let her read and study the scriptures to calm down. That must be more distressing than a wild monkey falling into a circle in the mountains.

My husband is also troubled, because I put all my heart on Shi Huan, so I have no choice but to vent my anger.

"Your reasoning is unrealistic and too mysterious, so I don't want to listen to it."

He Yong stuck out his tongue, looked at Huo Zheng on the ladder, and said, "Master Huo Zheng, don't you all say that the old man's truth is mysterious, you don't understand, how can I understand?"

"Don't!" Huo Zhengqi fell down the ladder lightly, clapped his hands and looked at He Yong with a smile, "Don't turn the blame on me, I'm just a coolie, I don't know anything!"

He Yong shook the ladder and stomped his feet, "Okay, you all bully me together! Princess, why don't you help me?"

"Look, I knew you would throw down the ladder." Huo Zhengqi patted his heart pretending to be lucky and said smoothly, "It's a good thing I didn't come down the ladder wisely, or else you really got the chance."

Seeing how many people were playing around, I also became interested, and said with a wry smile, "One is a very reasonable gentleman, and the other is a very capable Mr. Huozheng, yet you come to beg me again for such a powerless and powerless person." Useless princess, there is nothing I can do to save you."

He Yong was surprised, and pointed at me with wide eyes, "Okay, okay, you all bullied me, and when my family recovers, I will definitely ask him to deal with you!"

When she mentioned Shan Mei, I thought of Shi Huan, and I couldn't help but lose my sense of playfulness, "Okay, the New Year's Lantern in the side hall has also been hung up. Everyone has worked hard these past few days. Tomorrow will keep the New Year's Eve. Master Zheng Qi will also Don't come again, let's have a good year with all the adults in Quebec Terrace."

Everyone knows that my thoughts are on the wounded Shi Huan. Seeing me like this, they forcefully put on a smile and dare not say anything.

It was Jingji who was embarrassed, and Huo Zhengqi laughed loudly, "That's natural. Watching the New Year's Eve is a major event every year, and the palace cannot take it lightly. However, the king has not appeared for ten days, and he has never established a reserve. Knowing the fight for power and position, I can't bear to move around, I will not be safe tomorrow, I have to go back and stabilize tomorrow's situation with my brothers, so I will go back."

He saluted me, and after bowing hands with Mr., he turned around and said to He Yong, "Girl, why don't you ask me to move the ladder for you?"

"Hmph!" He Yongbai gave him a look.

Huo Zhengqi laughed to himself otherwise, and went straight forward to put down the ladder, just as he was about to stand on his shoulders, He Yong pushed one end down.

When I saw her approaching, I lowered my eyes worriedly, nodded and smiled lightly, and she and Huo Zhengqi carried the ladder to the warehouse with a little reassurance.

I turned my eyes warmly, and met Mr.'s quiet and clear eyes.

"Sir." I bowed my head and saluted, firstly, to thank him for taking care of him after he came here, and secondly, because his eyes were too clear, making people afraid to look directly at him.

The gentleman stretched out his hand to help me, and when he looked up, what he saw turned into pity, and he said slowly, "You have the heart to accommodate everything, but it's just because of your obsession with idealism. If you don't get what you want in the future, I don't know how deeply you will feel resentment." At that time, you must remember what I said today."

"Huh?" The predictable words made me feel uneasy.

"When you are born, you see something, and when you see what you see, you see what you see. When you die, you see everything.

I was stunned at the same place as I was puzzled at the beginning when Mr. replied, "Sir, you said this when you first met me. Up to this moment, I still don't understand it, let alone why you said it again. this?"

He shook his head, turned around and walked towards my bedroom. I knew he had something to say, so I followed him and walked side by side with him.

"Birth has formlessness, which can be seen or not. Even so, we still can't escape the principle of transforming into other things after death. Therefore, death is not the end. In other words, it is the beginning of life, so Only this life is invisible, it sees other things in life, and sees the cause and effect of its heart in other things. What people see with their eyes is only a square inch of the world, and they can't see the infiniteness of the world after all. In the endless time, if you are stuck in a certain period of time in a certain form, if you walk before this period of time, or after this period of time, over time, there is actually no difference between seeing and not seeing."

He stopped and looked sideways, his brows were so deep that it was hard to see clearly.

"Sir, I don't understand your reasoning after all."

I bit my lower lip, settled my mind and said, "But I understand, I can't see my mother, and I can't see my father and king who will be kind to me, but I have seen a gentleman who is kind to me, master monk, Ah Yong , and Lord Huozheng from Que Botai, I have seen Xie Fusheng and Sister Huang who wanted to kill me, and I have also seen an existence who does not know whether it is a human or a demon. He protects me, saves me, raises me with blood, and tells me about Xie Fusheng. Many reasons are just the same as you, for my own good. I know that if you are good to me, I will be good to you, and I will always be good to you. I may see those bad people or things for a while, but After all, it will not remain in my heart for a long time, and I will not remember it in my heart."

"But you still hate."

The gentleman sighed and said softly, "Seeing parents is life, seeing love is heart, and if there is love and hatred in the heart, one must see bias, and it is one's own opinion. Like death, you don't know where to go, and you don't know what to turn into, or dust. , or stubborn rocks, to the invisible micro of vegetation. Whether it is clean or not, it is nothing more than seeking to see more, so as to fill and expand the desolation in the heart. The desire for things is nothing more than this."

"Permanent desire?" I vaguely thought of something, and tentatively asked, "Isn't that the principle of persevering seeing?"

"That's right," the gentleman sighed vaguely, "what you see is what you see and what you want, that's why you make the so-called choice. Ah Zhe, your choice is always up to you. If you have any grudges in the future, you won't be willing Read, you must remember what to rely on to make choices."

"it is good."

I nodded and responded seriously, "Ah Zhe understands, and I also know that the master is doing it for my own good, so I don't want me to think too much and do things that will betray your heart to protect me."

Mr. smiled, nodded and said, "People are always selfish, and I also use selfish methods for your own good. It's best if you understand, but if you can't understand, I can't force you. A person is always feeling alone. , in bearing, relying on the depth of this feeling, you can be sure what you want in your heart. The deepest is clear, and the shallow is confused. Based on this, the deepest and the superficial are all reasonable and can live in the world. There is no right or wrong that can be disputed. People belong to "I" and relative to "You". The beginning and end of the starting point are just a word "I". What we are walking is just a journey of mutual enlightenment. It is difficult to hold a lamp as a light, and the bumps on the road are also difficult, but fortunately it is difficult, so it is a bittersweet thing that can kill people's hearts."

I came to a realization, and asked, "Sir, are you afraid that Shi Huan and I won't be able to understand each other's thoughts?"

He shook his head and said, "People's hearts are complicated. What I fear most is the word 'good', and what I fear the most is the word 'good'. Between people, even with mountain and wild spirits, no matter how much they communicate with each other If you don’t understand, there will always be times of inconsistency. What you see, he may not see it, and what he sees, you may not be able to see it completely. Even if the eyes see the same, the mind is different. When making a decision, The same thing, depending on the choice of different people, its ending is also different. From this point of view, the complexity of the relationship in the world is just because of the difference in the eyes of 'you' and 'me', so It’s all about what it looks like.”

In a few words, the gentleman is like putting on a bright mirror, completely dissecting the words "you" and "me".

I thought that if I read Shi Huan, then I read it.I can live for him, and I can die for him, but I never think about what he thinks in his heart and what he wants?

Looking at the mirror, what I know that "I" wants to reach is just a word "you" from Shi Huan. It is clearly visible between the two bodies, but the heart and the heart are, after all, one standing outside the mirror and the other hidden in the mirror. up.

He in the mirror has no face, I don't know what he thinks, I don't know what he thinks...I'm afraid, I can't solve his worries...

"Sir... Then you and... Teacher's wife..." I thought of my teacher's wife and his singing, and I couldn't believe that my husband had completely lost his desire for humanity.

The husband walked away silently, and said indifferently, "She doesn't understand my heart, she may be by my side, she has been giving. I always take pleasure in understanding myself, and I have no attachment to what she wants. Let her do as she pleases, let her live as she pleases. Fortunately, she got it all by giving, and did not interfere with me.

My heart collapsed, all the joyful thoughts for my teacher's wife disappeared, I stared blankly at his back and said, "Then sir, never thought that there would be such a person who can relieve your worries and understand what you think?"

"Azhe, people have desires, and what they desire is different, so what they want is different. I am not limited to what people see, how can I seek to see what is above people's hearts?" "Zixiu has dreamed of a butterfly, but Ah Zhe forgot?"

Those satisfied eyes seemed light and pretty as if fluttering butterflies, as if returning to the scene of a young man in white clothes, Mr. holding a pair of dream butterfly wings, talking like the wind.

"A dream is like a butterfly, I am the happiest."

I was stunned, only felt that the clean and frail man in front of me had turned into a butterfly many years ago, I didn't know where he flew, and I didn't know what kind of joy and joy he had, which made him feel so refreshed live till now.

But me, how can I have a good time?

Since returning to Qingling Terrace, I have entered into a dream, but this dream is actually more painful than happy.Although I was lucky enough to meet Shi Huan, I fell into even greater helplessness. There was always a cloud of fog entangled and disturbed around me, and I never saw it clearly.

In the dense fog, there are all the outlines of ghosts and ghosts that I have never seen before. Apart from fear and confusion, how have I ever felt at ease, and how have I ever dared to think about a happy time?