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Linchuan Reservoir is an oxygen inhalation place surrounded by mountains and rivers, and it can hardly be called a tourist attraction.It is in the mountains, breathing the humid and haze-free weather, walking all the way along the stream, watching the spider webs on the green leaves by the roadside.The people who participated in the exchange set off on the first night, and went there to eat a meal in a small farmyard.

I don't know why now, it's just popular.

Because there were a lot of people, we directly roasted a whole sheep.Everyone seldom eats such things, so they are very excited when drinking around the rack of roasted lamb.Cheng Yang was chatting with his colleagues at the beginning, but was interrupted by Wang Shuanglei who came over with a wine bottle in the middle of the chat.

"Director Cheng, I respect you."

Wang Shuanglei raised the beer bottle, and Chu Shiqing silently moved it over after seeing it.Cheng Yang saw this process in his eyes and found it interesting.

Cheng Yang nodded, clinked glasses with Wang Shuanglei, and made a few jokes.

"You've worked hard today. You really did a great job. Why, do you consider changing careers after taking the exam?"

"Hahaha. No, no, no, you usually work hard." Wang Shuanglei drank the remaining half bottle of beer, "Your band, is there a lot of activities recently?"

Asking this made Cheng Yang feel a little uncomfortable.Because of Li Hengxu, they didn't rehearse much for half a year.Cheng Yang could also understand Li Hengxu's mood, but after he became inactive, the band really seemed to be breaking up.

Four or five months later, at noon one day, Hou Yang, who had never spoken much, called everyone together for a meeting.

Music is something like inner communication.This kind of communication should transcend all interference and haze, and be tolerant.We are in a band together for the sake of being happy, and for the inner satisfaction and peace when singing casually in bars. In Cheng Yang's view, these things should be higher than personal emotional entanglements.

That was the first time Cheng Yang saw Li Hengxu since that night.Li Hengxu was a few minutes late, and everyone was already there when he arrived.He glanced at Cheng Yang, walked to the side and sat down by himself.

But Li Ershao is willing to come, which shows that he also misses these happy times of the band.

So the band went on after that.As for Li Hengxu's thoughts, Cheng Yang had no way to interfere, nor did he want to interfere.

"It's the menstruation show." Cheng Yang replied casually.

"I also play guitar in my hobby, do you have time to chat?"

Cheng Yang was a little surprised when he heard this: "Of course. You are welcome anytime." Seeing that Chu Shiqing had come over, he looked at the roasted whole lamb and took a sip of wine, "Shiqing, please give him my phone number. In the house."

Chu Shiqing nodded, took out his mobile phone and left a call for Wang Shuanglei.Halfway through the stay, Cheng Yang suddenly felt uninterested, and walked into the room with the bottle in his hands.In the room, his mobile phone was placed on the dining table, and the screen was black.The sky was getting dark, and the lights in the room hadn't been turned on. Cheng Yang was a little dazed when he walked in, and his footsteps paused.

As a result, Chu Shiqing bumped into him.

Then without waiting for Cheng Yang to speak, Chu Shiqing pushed him into the room, turned around and locked the door.Cheng Yang was pushed so badly that he slammed Chu Shiqing against the door when he turned around.

"Let's talk."

Kiss after speaking.Cheng Yang likes the lines of Chu Shiqing's arms - powerful, but tolerant and gentle, making Cheng Yang love him, feel sorry for him, and want to possess him.So he slowly lowered the rhythm of the kiss, raised Chu Shiqing's hand, with a kind of calmness and determination, stretched out the tip of his tongue and stroked along Chu Shiqing's forearm to the palm of his hand.

Then he kissed Chu Shiqing's hand.

Cheng Yang didn't look up, he didn't want to see Chu Shiqing's face and expression.

"Actually, I didn't think about it. I'm leaving room for you, and I'm also giving myself a way out. You shouldn't be anxious about this kind of thing. You should take it slow and steady."

Chu Shiqing was a little flustered.He was actually a little afraid of Cheng Yang's current state.

"I'm sorry, I'm too tight. Don't worry, I can match your rhythm."

"It's about your attitude."

Cheng Yang frowned, took a step back, turned his back to Chu Shiqing, and went to the table to fiddle with a cup on the table.

"Your attitude... Shiqing, your attitude." Cheng Yang hesitated rarely, not knowing how to express himself, he couldn't think of a suitable way to ask, "Let's put it this way. Have you thought it through?"

Chu Shiqing kept silent behind his back.

"Now, you see me as a family member, not a boyfriend. Shiqing, this is your attitude towards family members. It doesn't matter, as long as I'm happy. You don't care the most." He didn't know how to express his complicated feelings. Emotion, "I didn't want you to be like this, and I didn't think about—"

"Cheng Yang." Chu Shiqing interrupted him suddenly, "If you still have any affection for me, you can't treat me like this."

The movements of Cheng Yang's hands stopped suddenly, and he turned around at the same time.

"What's wrong with you?"

"I don't know what you think. To be honest, I don't know. You have always been free, and I know that, so I just..." Chu Shiqing raised his hand, as if he didn't know what he wanted to say , "What else can I do? I can only make all preparations and be ready to fulfill the freedom of your Director Cheng at any time. I know you love me, but isn't that poem also said, 'If you choose freely, both All can be thrown'?"

Cheng Yang nodded.

"No, you can't treat me like this." Chu Shiqing smiled wryly.Cheng Yang suddenly remembered the first time he saw this person.The two of them, now, each formed a certain contrast with what they were then. "You can't give me such a result after making me expect more from you."

Looking at Chu Shiqing's expression now, Cheng Yang knew that he had probably already made his decision.

He shook his head mockingly, took a step forward, and held Chu Shiqing's hands.

"You're right. Even if there is no way to guarantee feelings. I can't say how many years later... I have never believed in feelings or people. I believe in you."

Cheng Yang suddenly had an impulse in his heart.This urge has not been felt for many years.This desire to resist and shout was consumed in his years of repressive work day after day.Chu Shiqing stared at his lips and panted, Cheng Yang pressed Chu Shiqing and kissed him, and stretched his hand behind Chu Shiqing's back, and opened the door.

The moment he did this, Cheng Yang felt that he was freed from the shell that had been restraining him all along.

Chu Shiqing didn't realize it.About half a minute later, a few people walked here talking and laughing, maybe it was too hot, or maybe they came to pick up and put things away.Cheng Yang didn't know, this was not within his plan.

He didn't even look at who those people were.

Later, it turned out that it was the two head teachers of his department and Wang Xiaodong.

Cheng Yang felt everything about his lover, he could even feel the impact Chu Shiqing received through kissing, feel Chu Shiqing's love, and feel Chu Shiqing's pain.Oh pain.He didn't want Chu Shiqing to suffer, even if this pain was exactly what he brought to the other party.

The visitor probably saw the two of them like this, so he quickly pretended not to see them and left. Anyway, after Cheng Yang successfully restrained himself from having a fight with Chu Shiqing here, there was no one within a hundred meters away, and the two of them could even smell it. That smell of barbecued meat.

Chu Shiqing licked and bit Cheng Yang's earlobe: "Let's eat first, baby...you can do things when you are full."

"Ah."

Chu Shiqing just laughed, then took a deep breath, and took a step back.Cheng Yang waited until the desire in the eyes of the two of them faded away before signaling Chu Shiqing to go out.

Someone teased that they came at the right time, Chu Shiqing smiled and took a bottle of beer for himself and Cheng Yang.Then the two stood there, waiting for the meat to be divided.

Chu Shiqing wrapped his arms around Cheng Yang's waist triumphantly, and Cheng Yang held the opponent's hand around his waist.

The author has something to say:

After writing this, I realized what I was writing this article orz

It is "exception".

In everyone's heart, there is something completely opposite to the outside, which always wants to roar out.These things can be good or bad, but I think it's more likely just "not suitable".Not suitable for one's own life, not suitable for one's own environment, not even suitable for one's own values, moral concepts, etc.

But when we love others, we love all of them.

So sometimes there will be that feeling, as if the lover knows yourself better than yourself.

Those emotional historical psychological shadows that we fear, avoid, and cannot overcome, those things that we don't recognize ourselves, but lovers can accept and guide us to accept.

Chu Shiqing habitually sacrifices himself to love others.But Cheng Yang finally forced him to learn to open his mouth to ask for the one he loves.This is self-love and self-protection, which Cheng Yang wants to teach, or bring to Chu Shiqing.

Cheng Yang is nihilistic, Chu Shiqing brings him purpose and desire, but more importantly, it gives him the courage to break through this self-cognition that "it's useless anyway".Cheng Yang has always been "disappointed", or he has never expected.But Chu Shiqing wants to change this.This is also Chu Shiqing's inner tenderness, the reaction he will make when he meets someone like Cheng Yang.

So love brings a sense of security to human beings.

Finally, I would like to thank my relatives and friends @赛子, and my relatives and friends @小朋友, for discussing characters and plots with me throughout the writing process, which really helped me a lot~

love them~

Maybe there will be extra episodes.Because I want to write about Lin Yumeng and give Yao Lin an explanation.