Please, Don't See Me

When did Shu Jin find out that he liked Sheng Xinghe?

It was about seven or eight years ago.

During that time, he unconsciously couldn't help looking at Sheng Xinghe's face several times.It's not surprising that boys are good-looking and attract attention, but Sheng Xinghe doesn't belong to this category.

Almost everyone feels uncomfortable when they see Sheng Xinghe's face for the first time. The beauty of such a beautiful face is completely destroyed by the muddy and terrifying gray right eye. It attracts all the attention and makes people unconscious I can't help but imagine what kind of tragic experience this young man has experienced.

If they are not very familiar with people, ordinary people can't calmly look at Sheng Xinghe's face, they will worry whether such a gaze will make Sheng Xinghe uncomfortable, and worry about being misunderstood that they are all looking at his incomplete part.

Shu Jin was also like this at the beginning.

But when he came back to his senses during that time, he would find that he was staring at Sheng Xinghe for a long time - Sheng Xinghe was always so indifferent, he accepted everything and tolerated everything, he was in it with ease, not at all like a poor family in a small town come out.

Shu Jin would think, what does it matter if he is blind in one eye.

Sheng Xinghe is so good, many times better than many able-bodied people, people who really like him probably won't care about this at all.

The number of times of peeping was too high, and Sheng Xinghe would occasionally turn his head intuitively and ask Shu Jin, "What are you looking at?"

Shu Jin was caught, his heart skipped a beat, and he said indiscriminately: "Who is looking at you, I'm secretly scolding you!"

Sheng Xinghe rubbed his head: "I just can't see, but I'm not deaf!"

Shu Jin blushed.

Later, Sheng Xinghe's occasional words would also cause his heart to fluctuate. If it was a compliment, he would even unconsciously think about it before going to bed, curl up his body excitedly, and find it difficult to fall asleep.

Sometimes when Sheng Xinghe was doing a problem, Shu Jin would draw a picture with a pen next to him.

Auntie cut the fruit, and he stuffed it into his mouth from time to time, his cheeks puffed up: "Brother, do you think this design is perfect?"

His design ideas are very strange, and he has everything, from cups to houses, and he can draw whatever he thinks of.

Sheng Xinghe stopped writing, looked over, and asked with a smile, "Are you going to be an architect?"

Shu Jin said: "It's okay to be an architect, but I'm afraid I won't pass the exam. But it doesn't matter if I don't pass the exam. I can also be an interior designer, landscape designer, product designer and so on." He pointed to the picture , can't wait to ask, "What do you think?"

Sheng Xinghe looked at it seriously, and said, "I like this kind of house very much, and I want to live in it."

Shu Jinnuo responded, pulled the paper back, imagined Sheng Xinghe living in it, and quietly modified the drawing according to his personality, and then quietly put it in the book, and took it out to read during class, and recalled that Sheng Xinghe looked at the design The picture shows a quiet side face.

After Sheng Xinghe went to college, Shu Jin made up his mind amidst the fear of realizing his sexuality.

Because of his eyes, Sheng Xinghe's favorite major had physical examination restrictions, so he couldn't go, so he had to choose another famous university thousands of miles away from Yuecheng.

On Sheng Xinghe's first night in the university dormitory, Shu Jin suffered from insomnia.

They talked on the phone the next day, and Shu Jin asked, "Brother, is there someone bullying you?"

Sheng Xinghe: "How come?"

Shu Jin said sullenly, "I don't want them all staring at you."

When Sheng Xinghe first came to school in high school, people always went outside his classroom to stare at him. Shu Jin hated this situation very much.

"No one is staring at me." Sheng Xinghe's face could not be seen, only his voice could be heard, "Then if someone really bullies me, can you still rush over here?"

"Of course." Shu Jin pretended to be fierce and said, "I'll take puffs and let them kill them."

Sheng Xinghe smiled over there.

Finally, he said: "The students in the dormitory are very nice, helpful and polite."

Shu Jin was very sad.

In the past, he was Sheng Xinghe's only one, but now Sheng Xinghe is in a place where he can't see, making friends with other people, and he no longer needs him to "support" him in school.

The longer the time was apart, the more he missed Sheng Xinghe.

Gradually, he learned that this feeling is called liking.

He missed Sheng Xinghe's eyes, fingers, and smell, the feeling of walking side by side when the two walked the dog together, and the many nights they spent together in the video room on the second floor.

Shu Jin vaguely knew that this was wrong.

He was only in his teens, so he didn't dare to tell anyone, and he didn't dare to share this feeling with anyone.

The frequency of phone calls changed from frequent to occasional. Sheng Xinghe was busy with his studies, and Shu Jin also kept himself busy.Two months later, it seemed that everything had returned to the time when Sheng Xinghe hadn't been here, and he didn't miss Sheng Xinghe much anymore, and he felt like his heart was like still water.

Maybe it was just an illusion, he told himself, and breathed a sigh of relief.

Until one night, after finishing self-study and school, Sheng Xinghe waited for him at the school gate with his dog.

The students came out in a file, Sheng Xinghe stood under a tree, he seemed to stand out from the group of students, Shu Jin saw him at a glance, his heart beat suddenly out of control, beating like a drum: why did he come back suddenly?Has he grown taller?

Did he see me?

The friend also saw Sheng Xinghe and pushed Shu Jin: "Hey, your brother is here."

Shu Jin: "..."

The friend sighed: "Even with only one eye, your brother is still really handsome—"

Shu Jin has already rushed over.

"Brother, why did you come back suddenly?!" Shu Jin's hair was messed up, and the schoolbag strap was pressing down on one side of the school uniform collar, "Didn't tell me!"

Sheng Xinghe pulled out his collar casually: "I came back in the afternoon. I heard that a section of the streetlight at the door was broken, so I wanted to come pick you up."

Shu Jin's heart was beating wildly, and his eardrums were also clattering because of the excitement.

He didn't know how to react for a moment, what would be more natural, so he reached out to hold the dog leash: "Puff!"

The dog put its feet on his lap, and he rubbed the dog's head indiscriminately, and the two of them led the dog on the way home.

After reaching that section of the road, he regained his senses and said, "The streetlights were broken yesterday, and there were stones on the road. I almost fell last night."

There are very few cars leading to the villa area, and the road is pitch black.

Only the city lights in the distance reflect the sky.

Sheng Xinghe held the flashlight in one hand, and pulled Shu Jin with the other: "Steady."

The two had never held hands before.

Obviously a normal contact, the moment Sheng Xinghe's fingertips touched the back of his hand, Shu Jin almost jumped up: "I, I'll go to your right!"

Sheng Xinghe: "No need."

Shu Jin bit the bullet and said, "You can't see this way, it's safer."

Sheng Xinghe didn't force it anymore.

The distance was not too long, and Shu Jin would occasionally scold Puff for trying to pick up something on the road, and use the leash to pull it back.

The two did not speak much.

It seemed that the separation of two months had brought about a slight change in them, Shu Jin couldn't tell why.

After walking out of this section of the road, the field of vision was filled with light again, and they were bathed in bright light, only then did Shu Jin realize that Sheng Xinghe was looking down at him, as if he had something to say, but he didn't seem to.

Shu Jin couldn't help but wonder, would Sheng Xinghe just like him that much?

He knew that such a thought was shameful, and he intuitively believed that no boy would like the same sex to think like this, let alone the clean and proud Sheng Xinghe.

Sheng Xinghe turned off the flashlight and said flatly, "Let's go."

Shu Jin led the dog and followed behind him.

Back home, Shu Zhaoyuan was also there, and seeing them coming back, he said with a red face, "Why is Xiao Sheng also back?"

Sheng Xinghe called "Uncle" politely.

Shu Jin asked, "Dad, when did you come back?"

"Just arrived, Xiao Sheng came back just in time!" Shu Zhaoyuan smiled, "Uncle is about to call you, so it's better to talk face to face."

Shu Zhaoyuan received a new order. Over the years, his deeds of continuously subsidizing outstanding poor students have attracted the attention of the local town government of Lingjiang, and listed them as cooperative enterprises. The development of the factory is no longer the same as before.

Business is booming, Shu Zhaoyuan is busier than before, and Shu Jin often doesn't see him for a month.

Shu Jin went to pour water for the puffs, and when he came out, he heard Shu Zhaoyuan say to Sheng Xinghe: "Uncle, there is an interview with a character in the newspaper, and it will take up half of the page! They said they wanted to contact you, and they will also do a small interview." , without showing your face, just ask a few small questions, let you talk about your growth experience over the years. When do you think you will be free?"

Shu Zhaoyuan didn't ask "Is it possible", but directly asked "When are you free".

The living room was quiet for a few seconds.

Shu Jin felt very uncomfortable at his father's questioning.

But Sheng Xinghe said, "Is it okay the day after tomorrow? I'm going to visit my grandfather's grave tomorrow, and I want to go back to Lingjiang."

Shu Jin just remembered that these days happened to be Sheng Xinghe's grandpa's birthday sacrifice, and he would go back at this time before, no wonder he came back suddenly.

Shu Zhaoyuan readily agreed: "Okay, I'll trouble you, remember to answer the phone!"

He patted Sheng Xinghe on the shoulder and went back to his room.

Shu Jin dissatisfied: "Why did you agree? I don't want you to be published in the newspapers. The questions those people ask are all messed up!"

Apart from digging out the past experience of the person involved and highlighting the good deeds of the main characters, what is the use of that kind of interview?

Sheng Xinghe said, "It's okay, I should do it."

Sheng Xinghe's attitude made Shu Jin very angry all of a sudden, but he couldn't tell what he was angry with, so he went upstairs angrily, and said as he walked, "Then let others laugh at you! I don't care about you!"