sweet dreams as old

The first time Yun Shu met Su Qinghe was at her elder brother's wedding. At that year, Yun Shu was 11 years old and Su Qinghe was 16 years old. They had just married into the Lou family when they were close to Ji. There was a lot of voices, the elder brother led the bride out of the sedan chair, and the big red wedding silk led them to pay homage and get married.When everyone went to the front hall to congratulate his brother on his happy wedding, Yun Shu sneaked into the new room and looked at her brother's bride who was sitting upright on the bed. Yun Shu quietly walked up to Su Qinghe, bent over and looked up at her When she was under the hijab, her skin was creamy and rosy, her red lips were slightly parted, and she stared at Yun Shu with surprised eyes.

"Sister, you are so beautiful. What's your name?" The man smiled knowingly, and a small dimple popped out on the left side. He stretched out his hand and half lifted his hijab, "Oh? You are Yun Shu, right?" Seeing Yun Shu nodded, The man said again, "You are also very beautiful. My name is Su Qinghe, but Yun Shu can't call me by my name. I will be Xiao Yunshu's sister-in-law from today on."

"Then, sister-in-law Qinghe, will you play with me? Like my brother, he will play with me whenever he is free." Yun Shu stared at Su Qinghe with wide eyes, the eyes were clear and pure, flickering with the reflection of candlelight, which made people see I feel warm when I wear it.

The corner of Su Qinghe's mouth turned up into a slight smile, and she reached out to stroke Yun Shu's hair. This sister-in-law is very cute. "If Xiao Yunshu wants to play with sister-in-law, sister-in-law will accompany Xiao Yunshu."

"Really, can I play with sister-in-law Qing He anytime?" "Of course it's true, sister-in-law can do it in her free time."

Su Qinghe's character is gentle and knowledgeable, as long as she doesn't overdo it, she often follows Yun Shu's temperament, flying kites in the suburbs, watching juggling in downtown, picking lotus on a boat, and playing in the snow.Of course, they are not just for fun. Ever since Su Qinghe married into Lou's family, Yun Shu's wife has changed her surname to Su. Su Qinghe will not be lenient in teaching Yun Shu's knowledge. Sometimes the two would read quietly, occasionally Su Qinghe would play the piano to add to the fun when Yun Shu was practicing martial arts, and occasionally the two would go out to play with Lou's elder brother.

In this way, when Yun Shu was 14 years old, her brother told her that she was going to be an aunt. Yun Shu never thought that there would be a child competing with her for favor. Looking at Su Qinghe's ruddy and shy face, Yun Shu was a little at a loss. She can't just drag her sister-in-law out casually, and can no longer play with her sister-in-law without any scruples, so she feels very blocked and panicked. Yun Shu tried to get herself out of her previous life, but she couldn't help it. Will want to get closer, rely too much on one person, and don't know how to live without her.

Yun Shu watched Su Qinghe's belly getting bigger day by day, and felt more and more panicked in her heart. I'm afraid she won't be able to take care of herself in the palm of her hand like before. Lou Yu~ I was hated by others before I was born .

Yun Shu didn't know exactly when it changed, maybe it was the company of those years that made Yun Shu's heart sprout, and it was so quietly that she didn't even notice it.

It wasn't until Lou Yu was born that Yun Shu realized how different her feelings were. Before, she just thought that her sister-in-law was beautiful and good-natured, and it was very comforting to want to get closer to her sister-in-law.

Maybe it's because of becoming a mother, or maybe it's because Su Qinghe really regards Yun Shu as her own child. Su Qinghe never breastfeeds her child behind Yun Shu's back. Yun Shu still remembers the first time she saw that scene. The panic and tension in my heart, that ball of soft whiteness, want to look but dare not look, look but get nervous, that kind of mood is incomprehensible, so much so that when I dream at night, I actually dream that I am being held in Su Qinghe's arms, like The baby-like Yun sucked and stroked, Yun Shu was very frightened after waking up, this incredible dream, why did she have such a dream, Su Qinghe in the dream was so gentle, stroking her hair, her cheeks, and her own He kept moving towards her, wanting to get closer.

Yun Shu felt that she couldn't face Su Qinghe squarely, and was always thinking about that dream, at a loss.In the past, when I saw my brother and Su Qinghe together, I always ran over to disassemble them, then dragged Su Qinghe and ran away. Now that I think about it, I didn’t want to see my brother and Su Qinghe loving each other at that time. I always wanted to disturb them, and my brother also Blindly let her let her make trouble.

But now, Yun Shu looked at those two people, oh, no, it was three people, her brother teased Xiao Yuer, and hugged Su Qinghe affectionately, Su Qinghe snuggled into her brother's arms shyly, this scene was really too much It was dazzling, Yun Shu hesitated, but in the end he didn't come forward to interrupt, so that his brother joked, "Look, Yun Shu has become more and more sensible since becoming an aunt." Yun Shu reluctantly smiled and excused to leave up.

Yun Shu didn't want to think about Su Qinghe's feelings. The feeling that was about to come out made her feel scared, and she tried her best to hide it. She didn't want others to see it, and she didn't want to figure it out for herself.

When Yun Shu was 15 years old, she went to Beihe Mountain with the master who taught her martial arts since she was a child. Yun Shu asked for it, but her brother and Su Qinghe opposed it. She had no choice but to stop Yun Shu. Why don't you come back after leaving? Who knew that Yun Shu would be a different person if he came back after leaving.

Yun Shu traveled through many places with her master, saw many customs and customs, met some strange people and strange things, saw the warmth and coldness of human relationships, and learned that there is a kind of love that is gender-neutral.

Even so, Yun Shu still didn't dare to think about it, she didn't know how she could have such feelings, she tried hard to hide this feeling that couldn't appear, she was her brother's wife, her sister-in-law, Yun Shu thought, how could he have such feelings for Su Qinghe, this is not allowed.However, in the dead of night, Yun Shu would always look at the moon outside the window, thinking about the scene of taking Su Qinghe to catch crickets, lying in Su Qinghe's arms reading, listening to her telling stories, playing the piano, and watching her paint with calligraphy. The gentle tone when she comforted herself, the reluctance to punish herself when she punished herself, the worried appearance when she was injured in martial arts, all the scenes are clearly remembered.

She didn't dare to go home. Her brother sent a letter urging her to go home and have a look. Yun Shu didn't dare. She was afraid, she was afraid to face her brother, and she was even more afraid to face Su Qinghe. The secret in her heart, she was afraid that she would not be able to control what she wanted So Yun Shu was running away, trying to run away from her, but found that everywhere she went, she had been with Su Qinghe, lived in the same inn, ate the same food, went to Look at the streets where they walked hand in hand.

This year, Yun Shu was 17 years old. She followed the steps she used to come to Dali, Yunnan with the secret in her heart. It was the place where they had the best memories. Excitedly hugging Su Qinghe and buried her head in her arms, the sky was full of stars, "Sister-in-law, will you come here with me every year from now on?"

"Sister-in-law is definitely possible, but I'm afraid that some people will not think of sister-in-law when the time comes."

"How come, I like being with my sister-in-law the most." "Haha, Xiao Yunshu, when you grow up and get married and have your own husband, your husband will be with you. How can you let your sister-in-law accompany you?" , I’m afraid you will dislike your sister-in-law and get in the way.”

"No, no, sister-in-law, how could I despise you, then I won't marry, just stay with sister-in-law and accompany sister-in-law, so sister-in-law can also accompany me."

Su Qinghe laughed heartily, pinching Yun Shu's cheek with both hands and shaking it left and right, "You, this mouth can speak"

At this moment, the bonfire is still bright and flickering, singing and dancing, surrounded by bustling and cheering.Yun Shu sat alone on the hill and stared, his eyes blurred and unfocused.

The author has something to say: the writing is not satisfactory.well.Modified the sentence a little bit.