Isolated

roar

"Does it hurt? Does it feel good? Damn you think you can make love?"

He tilted his head into an illusory smile, his bangs covered his eyes, his shoulders were buckled on the mattress, and his hands were powerlessly resting on his sides.

At the moment when I released it together with him, I suddenly felt the eternal ice sculpture in my heart crack, as if a meteor crossed the boundless time and space across the sky, as if snowflakes dancing in winter fell on the branches, as if the momentary extinction and Rebirth!

"I like Zhenhou the most." She sat on the swing, swinging her legs, facing the autumn sun.

"What about the healer? Rong Xin doesn't like it?" I stood behind her, and my long shadow completely covered her.

"You are so boring, you are obviously alone."

"Who rejected my confession because I liked Healer?"

"Okay, you keep holding on to this meme and you always use it to make fun of me."

"Catch it for the rest of your life, can't you?"

"Talk to seniors for the rest of your life, a guy who is not ashamed."

"Why can't I say it in my whole life? I don't know how lonely I would be without Rong Xin's company in such a long life."

"Life is not that easy. Even a healer with extraordinary abilities has something he can't grasp."

"Yeah, I didn't catch you." I lowered my head and hugged Rong Xin deeply from behind, not without regretting to agree with her statement.

"So Zhenhou can't give up what he has because of loss. The only thing you can grasp is the present moment."

The gradually fading whispers and the slowly transparent and floating body, the leaves that have been dyed red by time are falling on the empty swing, the color like residual blood.

I wiped the wet body and sweat flowing on the two of them, felt the soft and elastic skin that trembled, his exhalation that was hot in my ear, and the rapid and slight heartbeat, Xu Zhenyu was no longer cotton.

I gently turned Zhenyu, who was still in the lingering rhyme, to the front, the penis was still in his body, causing him to scream for no reason, looking at me tiredly, sweat dripping down my chin to him neck.

"I can feel your body temperature." I said softly.

"Hmm." He was weak.

A pang of pain slowly flowed from the bottom of my heart to the nerve endings. It was the seed of grief buried in the depths of the loss of a loved one breaking through the ground. Xu Zhenyu looked at my gradually reddened eye sockets and said nothing.

"Rong Xin died. He was shot by a bullet with a diameter of 7.65 mm in the central battlefield," I said as my vision began to blur, and tears fell drop by drop.

"I was covered in blood when I hugged her, and I couldn't tell whose. Rong Xin is the most cheerful girl I have ever met. She is so kind and has been pursuing justice all her life, but fate still did not let her go. She saved me. , but died in my arms."

Ah, more and more tears can't be controlled.

"I often think," said with a hoarse voice, "why wasn't it me who died?"

Xu Zhenyu stretched out his arms tremblingly around my neck and stroked my hair.

"Cry," he said.

I hugged his waist tightly, buried deep in his arms and choked up silently, and then I felt the heat falling from the top of my head, Zhenyu's tears.

Although there is an intimate connection, although they hug each other tightly and are close to each other, the two of them feel extremely lonely and desolate at such a moment.It is said that people are thrown into this world, lonely and helpless.The mind is locked in the flesh, forever incompatible, forever isolated, so how can the mind communicate?

But we still have to rely on each other, there is no other way, what is left but each other?nothing.

After the first estrus, Xu Zhenyu's estrus period was shortened to three days. He survived the first two days by himself, sweating and tearing until late at night. When the heat from his body faded, I changed the whole set of beds, sheets and The quilt then cleaned the bodies of the two of them. After everything was over, he and I sat on the balcony wrapped in a quilt and waited for dawn.

Seoul at four o'clock in the morning is shrouded in a blue sky, and the cool and clean air flows in the high places between the buildings, rubbing and making gusts of wind.

Zhenyu looked into the distance calmly, and spoke silently

"You say, what are we doing like this?"

"I don't know, at least a companion."

"I hated you. If I hadn't met you, these things might not have happened, but I know you are helpless."

"We were brought here step by step by fate, and I watched it happen before my eyes."

"Everything is messed up."

"So we have to figure out the real purpose of Rihao and Transfer. We are trapped in a complicated net. Only by breaking free from the shackles of the net can we clarify the overall situation."

"This is something that must be done, and I will never give up."

We stare blankly at the darkness extending to the infinite distance, like our future with no direction and our relationship with each other. At the same time, we also know that something has become different, and some things still exist.

After a while, the eastern sky became white, and the earth gradually brightened.The red sun broke free from the silver-gray obscurity, exuding orange-red rays, gradually smudged the sky of the city, dyed the glass among the tall buildings with dazzling light, gathered on the huge buildings that were dimmed by the backlight Huge gentle aperture.

Zhenyu's face was also dyed with a gentle orange light, the transparent fluff on his cheeks was clearly visible, and his eyes that reflected the red sun like broken gems shone with light.He turned his head to look at me, as if there were stars in my eyes, and then he raised the corners of his lips, smiling and welcoming the sunrise with the city.

Heidegger said that man is thrown into the world, with limited abilities, between life and death.

Heidegger also said, to live towards death.

Chapter 19

"Hi, hello." A delicate female voice came from the receiver.

"Mr. Zhenhou? I'm Renya, and I'm back."

In front of her, Miss Renya, who wore neat short hair and exuded elite temperament, became a little different from before.

Renya took a sip of coffee, took a sip and put down the cup.

"So Mr. Zhenhou marked Zhenyu like this?"

"That's nothing to do. The situation was too critical at that time. Fortunately, I tried my best to turn the tide... What did you hit me for?"

"Can't you just say a few words less, can't you be realistic?" (tracheitis?)

Renya looked at Zhenyu and said, "Zhenyu, long time no see."

Zhenyu nodded dully, "Yeah, long time no see including the time of amnesia."

I interjected, "I don't know how Miss Renya is doing these days?"

"Fortunately, I went abroad to find my father first, and explained my troubles to him, and my father suggested that I go around. So I traveled a lot abroad, and my mentality changed a lot. After being together The probability of separation is the highest. So far, I have never seen a pair of OOs who have successfully been together for more than five years. Even if they vowed to each other at the beginning, they still couldn’t withstand the temptation to betray each other. This is the power of desire. So this time I came back with a try Come get back together with Zhenyu with the mentality of giving it a try, and if it doesn’t work, I won’t force it.” She looked at us with a half-smile, “It seems that the chance of getting back together is not great now.”

After Renya said that she carried her bag and left, Zhenyu hurriedly stopped her

"Wait a minute, Renya, I..."

"What else do you want to say? It's not the unreliable words that you still love me?"

Zhenyu's eyes became more hesitant and depressed, he paused for a second and said slowly

"I want to say that Xu Zhenhou and I discovered my father's secret. You helped me a lot in this case. I think you have the right to know."

The three of us sat together again to discuss the matter of the transfer laboratory. We have sat in this coffee shop to discuss things countless times. Every time, our relationship and identity are different, and our mood changes every time. Sometimes the situation changes. meaning.

"Zhenyu and I found the key to not being killed immediately by the group on the back cover of the translation. It seems to be about the raw material ratio of the pheromone conversion agent and some chemical structural equations. It is a secret recipe with complicated contents."

"So Zhenyu, what are you going to do with this secret recipe?" Ren Ya asked curiously, holding her neck.

"I don't know, maybe it should be destroyed, the place where my father is desperately trying to escape, the only thing they want to get is to destroy it is the safest."

"Has Mr. Zhenhou been living with Zhenyu recently?"

? ?How did she know?

"Uh...sometimes it's too late to discuss things and you'll stay overnight! But don't worry, we're very innocent except during the estrus period."

"What is innocence? The more you describe it, the darker it becomes."

"Then what should I say? How can I say this clearly?!"

"Don't worry me if there is something unclear between the two of you, after all, it has nothing to do with me." Ren Ya said and gradually lowered her head, unable to see her expression clearly.

It's even more embarrassing now...

"That...well...Miss Renya is very observant, how did you know?"

The lady pointed to my head, "I just smelled it. Mr. Zhenhou's shampoo smells the same as Zhenyu's. He is very particular about this and only uses one brand."

"Oh, so..." How should I answer! ! ! "Actually, that..." Changed the subject?attention?Natural transition? "Look over there!"

Ren Ya turned her head, "Huh?"

Zhenyu Fu forehead "==!"

I sweated, "Ah! I read it wrong, I thought it was an MT star."

"..."

Ren Ya put her bangs down speechlessly, "By the way, can you show me the letter and secret recipe you mentioned?"

"Hey...Miss Ren Ya would have said it yesterday. I just transferred it to the aunt. Her place is heavily fortified, and most people can't find it. In addition, the missions in the future often require me to take risks with Zhenyu and enlarge it.