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When he got up in the morning, Lin Yuan took a taxi to the National Development and Reform Commission, ready to pay homage to the mountains.

The drive was not close, and he didn't sleep well last night. He closed his eyes and rested his mind, but his mind was full of the things that happened in bed with Fu Chong last night.

For the first time, Mr. Lin was... depressed because of his intercourse.

It was still the handsome and flushed face, and the strong and masculine body, but Lin Yuan couldn't feel Fu Chong's passion like a volcanic eruption the night before yesterday.

They looked at each other under the dim light, Lin Yuan saw the slight trembling in Fu Chong's pupils, was it anticipation or... fear?He bent down slightly to look for his sweet and strong lips, instead of the active sucking like last time, he could feel the trembling between his lips and teeth.He hugged his strong and thin waist tightly, and pressed the two male masculine bodies tightly together. There seemed to be spring buds sprouting in his body, quietly and slowly, far less turbulent than the spring tide of the Qiantang River last time urgent.

Is he afraid?Or is he still angry with himself, or... no medicine...he just doesn't know how to face himself?

I have used up my energy, with all kinds of tenderness and tenderness, I can't wait to do my best.But Fu Chong's hands were stiff, even if he put them on his back, they no longer left his marks on the strong muscles like last time.

What depressed Lin Yuan the most was that he was obviously... enduring.

Although it will not be as painful as when he was forced for the first time, Lin Yuan could feel his tension and... forbearance from his slightly frowned brows and the slight hum between his clenched lips and teeth.

This is so different from the little wild wolf's request last time, so different that Lin Yuan ended the battle very early.When he turned over and lay down, slowly recovering, Fu Chong let out a long breath in his ears.

It turned out that without the assistance of medicine, I still hadn't conquered this man's body, and the most precious...heart in this body.

This made him suddenly feel an indescribable depression, so that he didn't sleep well in the second half of the night. He knew that the man beside him was the same as himself. Although his eyes were closed, he was still awake until dawn.

Yes, Fu Chong also didn't sleep well last night.

Lin Yuan went to the National Development and Reform Commission, he tidied up, called and booked two first-class air tickets back to Jinshan the next morning, this man is really not as fussy about food, clothing, housing and transportation as he is.

Today is Lin Yuan's birthday. When he got up in the morning, Fu Chong thought about it, and gently leaned down to his ear and said "Happy Birthday".Lin Yuan was stunned for two seconds, then suddenly pulled Fu Chong over, kissed him forcefully, turned over and pressed him up, Fu Chong blocked it with both arms, "Don't make trouble, your appointment with the leader of the Development and Reform Commission is almost up, hurry up tidy."

Seeing Lin Yuan put on a suit and regained his majestic and stern appearance, Fu Chong felt inexplicably... alienated.The too strong duality in this man has always confused him, puzzled him, and even bewildered him.Whenever he brings himself great harm and hatred, he will always use the most heart-warming way to make your heart move with his caring and seductive love.Then, when your heart is open, he will use his capriciousness to make you feel mixed, entangled and helpless.

Last night, Fu Chong was confused, perplexed, and even a little... panicked.

I don't know why, but the desire for Lin Yuan, which was surging like a tide a few days ago, seems to have ebbed.Facing his strong hug, hot lips, sweet words of love, provocative touch...Fu Chong not only has a slowly growing lust, but also a kind of...resistance hidden deep in his heart.

This made him suddenly feel a sense of loss... When a person cannot confirm the belonging of his soul and body, that feeling of loss is like an iron ball weighing ten thousand catties in his heart, making his heart fall, fall...all the time Buried low in the dust.

The more so, he felt the stiffness, tension and panic of his body.This feeling was quickly transmitted to Lin Yuan. The man was like a racing car whose engine had been removed suddenly. It lost power on the high-speed highway.

When the soul can't find the direction, it can only hope for the guidance of the flesh.When the physical body is also lost, what can we do, we can only wait patiently, waiting for an unpredictable future.

The big suite they lived in had a small kitchen. Fu Chong was going to cook Lin Yuan's birthday dinner by himself. When Lin Yuan went out, he told him to come back for dinner and make it by himself.Lin Yuan nodded happily, smiled wickedly, and mouthed to Fu Chong, "I want to eat you!"

Fu Chong ignored him.

He came to a large supermarket near the hotel, bought all the ingredients he needed for the dishes he wanted, and bought a small cake in the pastry department of the supermarket.It was still early, he was strolling casually in the supermarket, and his body still felt a little sore, which was the sequelae of last night.

There was a slightly sad-sounding song in a video store, and the boy who sang it had a very magnetic voice.Fu Chong stopped slowly and listened carefully to the lyrics of the song:...

I understand the message in your eyes

Like a fire ready to start a prairie fire

I have seen that dangerous beauty

It also left wounds

love is still a legend

just don't touch

The corner of my desolate heart is still painful

Don't love me if I'm just lonely

If it won't be long, if there is no certainty of berthing

don't love me don't give me excuses

don't make me weak don't push me into a mirage

……

The magnetic male voice chanted in a low voice, "Don't love me...don't love me..."

Fu Chong had a strange feeling about this faintly sad melody, as if every line in the lyrics had been written into his heart.He walked into the store and bought this CD, Ronald Cheng's "Don't Love Me".

On the way back to the hotel, Fu Chong felt as if his heart had fallen into a sea of ​​white cotton. He couldn't find the direction, couldn't find the end, and couldn't use his strength. Everything was empty, which made him inexplicable... lonely.

Maybe, my feelings towards Lin Yuan will be like this song.Under the title of the song "Don't Love Me", it describes a person's deep desire for love, but what he longs for is a loyal, eternal, and only love, not the one that is used to relieve loneliness and fill Blank, bringing people an illusory mirage.

However, such a feeling, do I really hope that Lin Yuan will give it to me?In front of Fu Chong's eyes, two completely different faces of Lin Yuan and Yana suddenly appeared.At this moment, he has neither choice nor choice.

Looking at the packed record case in his hand, Fu Chong couldn't help but imagine Lin Yuan's expression when he unwrapped it.

That man is very smart, if he listens carefully, he should be able to understand the meaning buried deep in this song, right?But, so what if you understand?After all, he is not a person who can give others forever and only.

Thinking of this, Fu Chong suddenly thought of something, and couldn't help sneering twice, "This bastard has already started a family and a family, and his wife is in bed. What he plays is that the red flag at home does not fall, and the colorful flags flutter outside. If you fantasize about loyalty and uniqueness with such a person, your IQ will really be washed down the drain."

In late autumn, the sky in Beijing is as blue as sea water, and what is reflected in Fu Chong's eyes is the faint gray of the homing pigeons gliding by in the sky.

He didn't know, and Lin Yuan didn't know either. In the quiet and beautiful time of late autumn in Beijing, both of them were equally eroded by a kind of anxiety and depression.

Lin Yuan spent the whole morning walking around several powerful departments of the National Development and Reform Commission, talking a lot of small things and greeting the New Year.There are many relationships that were established when I worked elsewhere in the past, and the connections are still there.However, even at the level of the National Development and Reform Commission, the approval of the Jinshan City Reconstruction Project is not a small matter. A little exhausted.

On the way back to the hotel, he received a call from Tong Lingxiu, who insinuated that he was a celebrity now, was on TV again, and was beaten by a male secretary in public after drinking.Lin Yuan knew that there were several female classmates who had a good relationship with Tong Lingxiu that day, and the incident of his drunken troubles had already reached her ears.He feels a little headache.

Tong Lingxiu has known about Lin Yuan's sexual difference for a long time, and the relationship between the two has gradually faded over the years. She also turns a blind eye to his affairs, and everyone wants to be stable on the surface.To Lin Yuan, she felt that she probably had a feeling and attitude like a chicken rib. Her own publishing business in the provincial capital was very busy, so she never calmed down to think about how the two of them should go.

But this time Lin Yuan was a little too inappropriate.The two didn't quarrel on the phone, and Lin Yuan didn't make any excuses, just coped with it "hmmmm".Tong Lingxiu sometimes thinks about it, it seems that she can't even find the desire to quarrel with him.She just satirized him a few words, after all, no matter how generous a woman is, she can't be calm when she hears rumors of her husband's sex appeal from other people.

"...Okay, Lin Yuan, if you don't want to listen to me, I have to say it. I ask you to act like a dignified mayor, okay? That's it. After a while, I will finish the annual publishing meeting. Go to Jinshan to see you...how are you doing there...I asked my brother to accompany me, he kept saying that he wanted to have a good talk with you."

After hanging up the phone, Lin Yuan's irritated mood became more and more depressed.

When Lin Yuan opened the door, he saw Fu Chong leaning on the small bar of the hotel and making a phone call.There was a strong smell of vegetables in the kitchen, and there was an unopened cake box on the dining table.

Lin Yuan didn't bother him, he felt tired and exhausted, so he sat on the sofa in the living room and leaned back, his eyes looked at the beautiful muscle lines of the boy's back, and his eyebrows frowned when he thought of the unsatisfactory pleasure last night up.

……

"Okay, don't be angry, it's my fault. I was out of power yesterday and I was a little tired. I really forgot to call." Fu Chong felt a little guilty. I called to talk about the new house. After such a commotion last night, I took out the battery of my mobile phone. Yana called many times, worried that something happened to him.

"You've been acting weird recently, you know? You always look preoccupied and uncomfortable at work, don't you?" Yana's voice on the phone sounded faint.

"Why, isn't it still the same? Maybe my dad is a little tired because he is rushing together with the work side. Don't think about it." Hearing Yana say that he looks weird, Fu Chong subconsciously Some guilty conscience.

"I said yes, hmph, don't you know that girls have a sixth sense? You must hide something unhappy from me, don't you? Forget it, you just love yourself and stand up, I'm too lazy to talk to you like this .By the way, my mother said that next year is the calendar year, and she asked me to ask you, what do your family think about this matter? My parents mean that they want to get things done by the end of this year."

"My father and my mother also meant the same thing. My father told me about this a few days ago, saying that you will not have a wedding next year according to our rules, so you have to wait until the next year. My family The meaning is to let the two of us do it at the end of the year. When I return to Jinshan, I will be busy with the house formalities, and then I will decorate it. You can talk to your parents..."

Fu Chong is getting married?

Lin Yuan's eyes narrowed slowly, a feeling of resentment or anger rose up from the lower abdomen, upwards, into the lungs, didn't it?Otherwise, why did breathing start to become a little difficult, and one breath was lying on the hilum of the lungs, and it couldn't go up or down; did it go to the heart again?It felt like a big hand was twisting in my heart, it was sore, stuffy and painful.

He was holding a cushion on the sofa in his hand, and it was full of wrinkles by him at the moment.

He is getting married?Does that mean that he can no longer live with himself? That's right, the groom doesn't live with the bride, but has sex with his boss every day.From then on, who will take care of me every night, remind me to take stomach nourishing medicine, make me supper, wake me up regularly in the morning, exercise together, and go to work together...

Another secretary?But others... is it him?

He's getting married...then...should I do that thing with him again in the future?That strong body, the fresh body odor, the crazy caress... Is it just saying goodbye?

Lin Yuan was very surprised that he didn't jump up immediately, snatched his phone, and threw it hard.He let out a long breath, trying to calm himself down as much as possible.

After all, Fu Chong's marriage is something that no one has any reason to object to.

"Mayor...you are back." Fu Chong hung up the phone, only to find that Lin Yuan entered the room at some point, and seemed to have been sitting on the sofa for a while.

"Well, can we eat now? I'm a little hungry." Lin Yuan tried his best to control himself better, although he felt that his ten fingertips were slightly numb, and the stuffy air seemed to flow all over his body. He felt like a balloon filled with so much air that it threatened to explode at the slightest touch.

Fu Chong arranged several carefully prepared dishes, basically according to Lin Yuan's favorite taste.The man said he was hungry, and he had already started to eat, but he didn't look like he usually devoured the food he liked when he saw it.

There seemed to be a huge air pressure on his body, and the big Fu Chong could almost feel that his breathing became a little depressed.

What's up with him?His face seemed to be frozen, and there was a trace of black and blue faintly.

Fu Chong was hesitating how to express his birthday wishes during the meal, but he always felt that it was useless to say anything. The unclear relationship between the two made Fu Chong feel embarrassed and embarrassed.Since Lin Yuan is in this state, he might as well not say anything.

He looked at the CD on the side of the table, recalling that magnetic and pleasant male voice in his mind, he must be given the gift.

"I bought you a small gift, it's a birthday wish." Fu Chong took a deep breath, and handed the CD to Lin Yuan while talking.

"Oh? There are gifts!" After entering the room, Lin Yuan's eyes finally revealed a gleam of excitement and joy.

He put down his chopsticks and reached out to unwrap the wrapping paper like an impatient child.He has been eating without knowing the taste, his heart is overwhelmed, he wants to say something, but he doesn't know how to open his mouth, the taste is really stuck in his throat.

The ribbon tied on the outside was opened, and the wrapping paper was torn apart. Inside was a brand new CD. On the elegant cover was the profile of a long-haired boy, cold, with three large characters printed beside it - "Don't Love Me".

At that moment, Lin Yuan raised his head and glanced at Fu Chong who was facing him. The latter looked calm and was looking at the CD in his hand. There seemed to be a mocking smile on the corner of his mouth.

Lin Yuan stood up abruptly, as if a balloon suddenly encountered a sharp needle and exploded with a bang.

He was "chugging" all over his body, and he lifted the whole table with one swipe. The food was spilled all over the place, the plates were broken all over the floor, and the two of them were covered with oil and vegetable juice.

He pointed at Fu Chong with the hand holding the CD, his eyes seemed to burst into flames, "What do you mean? Fuck you! You just want to stay away from me, don't you? Fuck it!" Don't love me? Demonstrate to me, don't you? Don't you!"

Fu Chong was baffled by his protruding anger.Seeing Lin Yuan roaring at him like an angry lion, the depression and irritability that had tortured and entangled him for many days rushed through his body like an electric current.

"Why are you crazy? Who the hell protested against you!" Fu Chong couldn't help shouting at him.

"You want to get married, don't you? Want to hug a girl, don't you? Let me tell you, Fu Chong, don't even think about it! As long as I'm in Jinshan, you should serve me obediently for a day, and you don't want to sleep with anyone except my bed! I If you don't want you to get married, give me a try, and I won't kill you!" Lin Yuan yelled at him viciously, saw the CD in his hand, and fell to the ground with a "smack", and stomped hard on it with his feet. Torn apart.

Fu Chong's eyes turned red, and his whole body was trembling with anger. He couldn't imagine how he would meet such an unreasonable beast in clothes, "Lin Yuan, fuck you! You are still human, so why should I get married or not?" It's up to you, you f*cking pervert, gay*, go find a duck, and stop fucking harassing me!"

"Looking for a duck? Don't you know that you are more fucked up than a duck? You forgot to hug me and beg me to fuck* your bitch? It's not enough to fuck for a night, but I still like you as a bitch That's it!"

Fu Chong was so excited by his words at that moment that he became irrational, he rushed over, Lin Yuan also rushed towards him, the two wrestled together, kicked and cursed each other.The ground was full of vegetable oil, sticky and slippery. After a while, the two of them fell to the ground, rolling and kicking.

The faces of the two people were hot, and their bodies were covered with each other's footprints and oil. I don't know how long it took, the two people slowly stopped the scuffle, separated from each other, and sat on the ground.

"Go away, don't let me see you again..." Lin Yuan's voice was full of indescribable fatigue and...sadness.

"Then I have to thank you! Don't worry, I'll leave now, and I won't stay for a minute!" Fu Chong gasped.

"Fu Chong, I've seen through you, you just don't know what's good or bad, I'm fucking blind to fall in love with you!" Lin Yuan said in a low voice without turning his head.

"Yes, you're right, I don't know what to do, but I'm happy! I know who I am. I'm just a person who takes a hard seat on a train, so why do I have to make do with people who take a first-class flight! But I want to tell you that if you don’t fly first class, you will be much nobler than others, and some people’s souls are so dirty that they are as humble wherever they sit!”

He gritted his teeth and stood up, feeling pain all over his body, especially... his heart seemed to hurt even more.

He took off his coat and pants, changed into a sportswear, packed his things, and went outside. The man was still sitting on the ground, leaning on the sofa.Fu Chong glanced at him, his face seemed to be broken by himself, and there was a trace of blood on his forehead.

He remembered one thing, went to the writing desk, took the time and flight number recording paper written down when he booked the flight ticket in the morning, threw it on Lin Yuan, turned and opened the door and left.

That night, Fu Chong bought a train ticket for a midnight train, and there was only one trip back to Jinshan.He closed his eyes and sat on the hard seat, not wanting to move.He didn't seem to notice what kind of people around him, old or young, male or female.They were walking back and forth, shopping, drinking water, going to the bathroom, talking and laughing, fighting... He didn't seem to feel it.

It turned out that I would be so uncomfortable and in such pain, as if as long as I opened my eyes and opened my mouth, I would uncontrollably call out a person's name, although... maybe I just wanted to curse him loudly... But... even if it's a curse, that's his name.

Lin Yuan stood up slowly after Fu Chong left for a long time. The piece of paper dropped by Fu Chong on his body recorded the flight number and time tomorrow morning. The person who was as impulsive and fierce as a leopard just now did not forget him in the end. job responsibilities.

He took a shower, found someone to clean up, and lost the hotel's money.

The room was restored to cleanliness and order, but it seemed to become more silent and empty.He was lying on the bed, holding the lyrics sheet out of the trampled CD case in his hand.

The first is the title song "Don't Love Me".

"Don't love me, if it's just lonely, if it won't be long, if you don't have the assurance of mooring, don't love me, don't give me excuses, don't make me weak, don't push me into a mirage..."

He read it several times, and it seemed that there was a vague feeling that could be grasped just now, but seemed to be fleeting. He shook his head, seriously, and felt it hard...

Moonlight poured in from the window like mercury, making the room hazy and cold.Lin Yuan shrunk his body subconsciously, the bed was big and lonely, he slowly put the song paper on his lips, and kissed gently...

On the return flight in the morning, Lin Yuan thought for a long time.

The seat next to him was empty, but he asked for an extra blanket to spread on it.

It was already two o'clock in the afternoon when Fu Chong's hard-seat car arrived at Jinshan Railway Station.He didn't eat or drink along the way, but he didn't feel bad.Coming out of the station, the midday sun still made him unable to open his eyes.He carried the luggage in one hand, covered his eyes with the other, lowered his head, and wanted to take a taxi.

A tall figure stopped in front of him, he raised his head, the sun was too strong, he couldn't see his face clearly, he squinted his eyes...