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Walking out of the convenience store, Lin Yuan took a deep breath of a cigarette, his eyes lingered for a moment on the familiar parking space, he seemed a little disappointed, he looked up and looked upstairs, the bright lights were scattered among the high and low floors Flashing irregularly, it seems to remind those who come back late to experience the warmth of home.He looked at the watch on his wrist, and slowly walked towards the path leading to the exit of the community.

The kapok tree gently swayed its branches in the night wind, and the summer night in the southern country was less hot and unbearable during the day, and it was a little more cool.Fu Chong stood quietly behind the tree, the cigarette butt in his hand was shining dark red, in the deepening night, it looked like a kindling that was about to start a prairie fire.A cat returning at night probably regarded him as a standing tree, and walked past his feet nonchalantly without looking back.

He knew that his heart was pounding, the hands holding the briefcase were full of sweat, and his two strong legs were shaking constantly, so that he had to stretch out his hands to support the tree trunk beside him.At that moment, he didn't even know why he wanted to hide, just like he didn't know why Lin Yuan lingered quietly beside him, but disappeared.

Seeing that Lin Yuan's lonely figure was about to disappear at the end of the road, he slammed out the cigarette he hadn't smoked, and followed quickly.

Lin Yuan seemed to be somewhat familiar with this area, and he was walking forward at a leisurely pace. The night and the lights of the buildings on both sides intertwined, giving him a flickering back, which was different from seven years ago. It is different, perhaps because of being too thin, losing the original robustness and straightness, but more dejected and lonely out of thin air.

He finished smoking the cigarette in his hand, and took out another one from the cigarette case. When a gust of wind blew, he stopped, turned his body sideways and lowered his head to avoid the wind, and started the fire.The blue flames illuminated his side face and the few strands of white hair around his cheeks. His pale complexion was tinged with gloom. Although his beard had been shaved, it was still livid at this time of night, making the much thinner His face became more and more haggard, he narrowed his eyes slightly, and lit the cigarette on his mouth.

At that moment, Fu Chong felt that somewhere in his body was also ignited by the blue flame, and it hurt hotly.

Turning around the intersection, there is another residential area with a slightly older age. There is a slippery facade outside the gate of the residential area. There are also many snack and grocery stalls outside. The business is booming, and there are people coming and going.

Lin Yuan seemed to want to buy something, he didn't go into the community, but walked slowly along the row of stores, and arrived at a small fruit supermarket in the back, he seemed a little tired, stood up slightly, and gently pressed the Possessing his belly, he frowned.Someone in the supermarket saw him, and a voice came from inside, "Brother, why did you come back!" Accompanied by the clear voice was the figure of a young boy, he hurried out from inside, his handsome face was full of smiles. An anxious look.

"Biao Ge said that you didn't bring your phone with you. He went out to find you. I'll call him right away." The boy's expression relaxed a lot.

"What's the hurry, I can't lose it." Lin Yuan smiled, and the two entered the supermarket one after the other.

In the shadow of a small bed not far away, Fu Chong saw the faint smile on Lin Yuan's face. Even though the smile was directed at another man, it still made him tremble inexplicably, because at the moment Lin Yuan smiled , I seemed to see the unrestrained man seven years ago again.

It's just that the throbbing was quickly replaced by a powerful sadness. It turns out that time has passed and time has passed. I am not the only one who still cares about this man in this world. It turns out that the room card on the 21st floor of Yunkai Hotel can be opened for many years. a door behind.

He clutched the briefcase in his hand tightly and closed his eyes in pain.

When Ah Biao pressed Ethan's phone and returned to the store, Lin Yuan was already lying down in his cabin behind.

This small fruit supermarket was just rented by A Biao. He opened a large-scale fruit supermarket in his hometown, which is very well run and has opened several branches.

He would go to Huailin to visit Lin Yuan several times a year, although Lin Yuan told him not to come so often, but he couldn't do it.Especially in the past two years, Lin Yuan's health has obviously become worse and worse, and he is so thin that he has lost his appearance. A Biao is anxious, but he knows where the crux of this man is, which is a heart disease that cannot be cured by any medicine.

According to Lin Yuan's request, he told him every year about Fu Chong's current situation, his whereabouts, work, life...and the men around him.The ability of being a special soldier makes him appear next to Fu Chong every year, but he hides from his eyes as if invisible, but he can't, and dare not hide from Lin Yuan the fact that Fu Chong is walking with an excellent boy.Because he knew that if he gave him a false impression, he would face an unbearable blow when Lin Yuan was released from prison.

So he saw that man's strong body getting weaker and weaker, and his spirit getting worse, but there was nothing he could do.

On the day Lin Yuan was released from prison, A Biao rented a car to pick him up outside, bringing with him the things he had stored for seven years.Looking at the man in the backseat of the car, he looked through his pockets for several things, some yellowed booklets, a CD song paper that was also yellowed, and a watch in a watch box, Everything seemed to make him put it down, and he rubbed it repeatedly in his hands.He put on the watch, the strap was obviously wider and slipped on his wrist, and he took out another painting from his pocket, which was a sketch he had drawn for Fu Chong himself.A Biao saw Lin Yuan's slender fingers stroking back and forth on the lips of the man in the painting in the rearview mirror, the movements were so light that it seemed that he was really stroking Fu Chong's lips.

He saw a tear slip from the corner of Lin Yuan's eye, this was the first time he saw this man cry in the years he had known Lin Yuan.

After Lin Yuan was released from prison, he visited his father in a semi-vegetative state in a nursing home in the provincial capital, and then sat in front of his mother's grave for an afternoon.Two days later, he asked A Biao to go back to his hometown to do his own business. He himself wanted to visit Shenzhen.

This was completely in A Biao's expectation, he immediately booked two tickets to Shenzhen, and he is still completely worried about this man, because he is so different from the radiant Lin Yuan seven years ago, he is silent and melancholy, The eyes are always dim, without a trace of brilliance.The stomach pain that had haunted him for many years seemed to be getting worse and worse, often causing him to press his lower abdomen unconsciously and bend his body slightly. In A Biao's eyes, that movement made him feel an indescribable desolation.

They stayed in a hotel near Fu Chong's community, and A Biao led him through Fu Chong's approximate daily itinerary, but Lin Yuan refused to let him follow him.He got up early by himself, went out for a long time before coming back, lay there silently in the room, went out quietly again at night, and came back very late.

A Biao saw that his expression was getting worse and worse, his face seemed to be covered with a layer of dust.On the third night, Ah Biao quietly followed Lin Yuan, watching him quietly standing and smoking behind the bushes downstairs of Fu Chong's house.He saw Fu Chong returned to the community with that handsome boyfriend. Both of their cars were parked downstairs. Fu Chong went to the convenience store to buy cigarettes and came back. The two of them walked upstairs together. The handsome boy was gently lying on his back Fu Chong said something in his ear, and the two laughed together.

He saw Lin Yuan sucking the short cigarette butt in his hand vigorously, as if he wanted to swallow it whole in his stomach, the man's eyes flashed a charming light at that moment, and his waist was also stretched straight, making Ah Biao seem to be reborn I saw the sinister and domineering Lin Yuan seven years ago, but unfortunately, the light was like a shooting star across the sky, and he disappeared in an instant.

That night, Lin Yuan came back very late, because the boy never went downstairs to leave.

The next morning, Lin Yuan didn't go out and lay on the bed for a long time.After getting up, he talked with A Biao for a while.He asked A Biao to go back to his hometown, so as not to affect the good business there. As for himself, he hesitated and told A Biao that he planned to rent a house here to live.

"I've missed him for a long time, I want to stay... see him more..."

A Biao flew back to his hometown, quickly found relatives and friends to help watch several stores, promised them benefits, and then flew back to Shenzhen, found this small store and rented it out, and made the fruits he was familiar with. For business, two clean rooms were cleaned up in the back.Lin Yuan was a little annoyed at what he had done, and refused to move here in a fit of anger, so A Biao helped him back out of the hotel before he found a house, and moved all his things here.

Lin Yuan frowned and asked him, "Why are you doing such a stupid thing, do you know how long I'm going to live here? Go back quickly!"

A Biao held back for a long time and said to him, "Unless he returns to you to take care of you, I will leave."

The two stared at each other for a while, Lin Yuan turned his head and sighed.

The moonlight outside the window is like a layer of delicate tulle, covering the entire night sky in a hazy dream.

Not seeing him tonight, Lin Yuan felt disappointed one after another.Staring at the white moon bud, the scene when I first saw Fu Chong seven years ago slowly emerged in my mind.It was also a month-long night, and the big boy covered in sweat, with all his strength, bumped into his body and stunned himself.

Seven years.

I can’t remember how many nights I have spent without sleep. The moon outside the iron window is full and waning, and it is waning and full. I don’t pay attention to it. I only know that the bright moonlight is like your eyes. looking at it as if looking at you.Its brilliance like water is like your affectionate gaze, telling me that no matter how long the night is, you will accompany me silently.If it is a cloudy day and the clouds cover you, I will be inexplicably irritable and angry; if it is a rainy day, I will even deliberately starve myself, and let the soreness and burning in my stomach drive away the pain of thinking about you.

Today, you are like a jade carved by a skilled craftsman, with the toughness of a man in your gentleness.Time seems to have fallen in love with you, giving you a perfect process of a man from youth to maturity.You seem to have a blood relationship with this fashionable and majestic city. You are walking on the street, and I am behind you, watching you rushing into the same rushing crowd, watching you walk into the tall buildings in the financial center, Seeing that you are like every hard-working Shenzhen person, rarely look back, race against time, and stride forward.

You really are living a good life, as I said in your ear, and you are living a beautiful life!This is the you I want to see, and it is also the self you hope to achieve from the bottom of your heart.You did not indulge in the painful past, but bravely let go of yesterday, changing and running like a reborn, I want to cheer and applaud for you, but you are not the only one running on the runway, you already have Those who walk hand in hand, then, even if my heart hurts like being cut by a blunt knife, what can I do?

Snatch you over again like breaking up you and your girlfriend back then, and force you to stay by my side?Or find a chance to knock you unconscious and give you a mini-drug?No, no more... These seven years of prison sentence are my crimes, but I know that the most important one is missing.But it doesn't matter, because I have been using these seven years to atone for my sin... to atone for the sin I committed against you!

So in the face of you who have pierced through the dark clouds and regained your new life, what qualifications do I have, what reason do I have to disturb you and destroy your peace and tranquility?Isn't what I learned during the seven bone-piercing years... to miss you quietly?

but……

How can I be willing to be too far away from you, like the seven years when I couldn't see you, I suffer every day and wait every day.I know the time and moment when the moon rises from the gap of the steel railing every day, and I know how many gray hairs on my temples have been bred by anxiety and insomnia, although I also know and believe slowly, my waiting seems to be It can only be my monologue under the moonlight.

Lin Yuan sighed for a long time, as if he wanted to break free from the confused and extremely melancholy thoughts, but when he turned around, his eyes just fell on the sketch on the opposite wall, his heart couldn't stop. Once sunk in the boundless night.Xiao Chong, I once despicably poured aphrodisiac drugs into you, but did you know that you have already used your own body and soul as a drug to lure me, taking away my once unrestrained soul .

Then, let me stay for a little longer, let me watch your growth silently, watch your progress, and try to appreciate your happiness until one day, I can no longer bear the fact that your happiness has nothing to do with me On that day, I will quietly...leave you.

Under the misty moonlight, Lin Yuan seemed to be asleep, but Ah Biao next door could not fall asleep with his eyes wide open, his mind was full of what Ethan had quietly told him on the phone.

Fu Chong felt like a drunk who had drunk too much, stumbling around on the boulevards of the community, back and forth, as if he had forgotten his way home.

That man really appeared, as unexpected as the encounter seven years ago.

Seven years.

Did you ever know that I wear the watch you gave me and smoke your favorite cigarettes.In the sleepless midnight, I secretly looked at the mirror and imitated your appearance, blowing out more and more round smoke rings.For seven years, I didn't count how many minutes and how many hours that watch has passed. I only know that I never took it off except for bathing and swimming, because your name is engraved on the place where it sticks to the skin, Yuan.

I remember what you said to me with a smile, "I'll rely on you from now on... Maybe one day I won't like to do it anymore, so I'll quit my job and go home to sell sweet potatoes. Then I can count on my long-term Invested." I remember your words, and because of your more tragic ending than resignation, I always remind myself to become stronger, because every day and every step of my life is not only living myself, I want to be free in you At that time, entrust your boldness to my life, and I will return it to you at a profit!

I still remember the last words you said in my ear on the day I saw you for the last time, "Fu Chong, live a good life for me, remember! You used to be from Lin Yuan!"

do you know?It’s like you cast an invisible curse, and it’s like the power of the drug has penetrated into my marrow, even though I try to break out of the quagmire between you and me, and cut off the unclear Since I made a move on you, let's just make it clear and clear. I can be your long-term investment, but we don't owe each other emotionally.

However, everything is my own wishful thinking. When I try to take a small step forward, I hold the hand that Shuan An stretched out and try to walk towards his world, you know?Just like the song "Left and Right Hands" that we all like to listen to, "I don't know why you will go away, and I don't know when I will have another opponent. My body and mind are only adapted to you, and I have no energy to turn back..."

No matter how hard I try to struggle, my soul always pulls me back to where I started. "You used to be my Lin Yuan's person..." Yes, I have always been your person, my body and heart can no longer accept other people's entry...

I became a self-binding cocoon, and ended up hurting the butterfly that was trying to accompany me in my transformation.

Then, when I listened to your words and tried to be the best of myself, I saw the shadow of the kapok tree falling on your face, but I couldn't stop your haggard face.You are so thin that people worry, and your dejected expression makes people feel inexplicable sadness from the bottom of my heart.It turns out that those cruel seven years will eventually throw a proud soul from the clouds to the bottom of the valley, and I was the one who went to throw you down...

But, no matter what, you are here, seven years after being hurt by me.Are you wandering around me, like me, unable to get out of the circle drawn by the two of us?It's just... these seven years are only one-sixth of your past. In your bones and desires, are you still the romantic, selfish and greedy Lin Yuan?I want a soul mate, but I can't do without the absurdity of the body.So you're looking for old loves in the shadows behind me, then crawling into that guy's bed in the middle of the night?

That night, the leaves of the kapok tree were blown especially loudly by the wind, like a scorched soul moaning lowly.

Fu Chong knew that since that day, Lin Yuan had not appeared by his side for three consecutive days.

Every morning, he would struggle thinking about what to wear today to make him...more handsome.This thought made him feel a little inexplicably ashamed, but he didn't stop picking and choosing.

The women in the company have been eyeing this handsome and stylish executive for a long time, but it's a pity that this diamond tycoon has always been like a modest gentleman, keeping a close distance from everyone.However, they found that in recent days, Manager Fu has obviously paid more attention to his image, and has become more and more handsome.

"Hey, little sister, the number one handsome guy in our company seems to have a spring heart, and he's started the flirting mode. He's cleaned up every day, tsk tsk, there's no one left." Seeing Fu Chong looking down at his watch, he hurried past , a petite girl was kissing another girl next to her.

"Bend your ears over here," the girl next to her pretended to be mysterious, "It's the provocative mode, right? Haven't you seen a handsome guy always come to pick up Mr. Fu? The two of them stand together so well. Hey, these days, Good men all have boyfriends, do we deserve to be left behind, sister?"

The company's parking space is at the back of the office building. As he walked briskly, he was thinking about a problem that had plagued him all day. Should he... secretly visit him.During the busy interval of work, he was lost in the coffee room, and his hands seemed a little hot when he received the hot water.During lunch, the assistant to the general manager who was sitting beside him kicked him lightly twice under the table, and he didn't know when the general manager sat across from him and was talking to him.At the regular meeting in the afternoon, he was overwhelmed by other people's reports for the first time. The snow-white notepad was covered with messy lines, but if you look carefully, it turns out that there are "forests" one after another, large and small.

"I want to see him!" Fu Chong's own voice sounded from the bottom of his heart the moment the car key was pressed.Whether you are avoiding me or looking for an opportunity to get revenge on me, whether you have a lover or a bed partner by your side, since you are here, and since I am still your long-term investment, then there are many accounts, and it is time to settle It's time, isn't it, Lin Yuan?

Fu Chong stopped the car, and there was a rush of people outside the community, and all the stores were busy with their own business.Fu Chong felt a little strange that the fruit supermarket was not open, so he walked over gently.There was a sign on the doorknob that said it was closed today, but the door was unlocked.He hesitated for a moment, opened the door and walked in.

The room was filled with the smell of various fruits mixed together, it was hard to tell whether it smelled good or what.A small corridor leads to the back room, he walked gently, and suddenly heard Lin Yuan's voice.

"Okay, I won't go, it's useless to say anything, you go out, I'll sleep for a while." The man's tone carried the domineering and stubbornness that Fu Chong was all too familiar with.

"Brother, I have never seen a person who is dying of a disease. If you continue to toss like this, your body will really be over, brother!" A Biao seemed to be still unwilling to persuade something, Fu Chong frowned, and his eyes were full of Lin Yuan looked skinny.

"It's all trash, it's over when it's over, I don't care..." Lin Yuan's tone was light, as if he was lighting a cigarette.

"Brother! What are you talking nonsense! You... If you do this again, I will go to Fu Chong. I understand that no one can cure you except him!" A Biao was obviously angered by Lin Yuan's words, and rarely He who spoke loudly in front of Lin Yuan raised his voice as if angry.

There was a "bang", as if someone had slapped the table, "Calm down, if you dare to find him, I'll disappear right away, believe it or not?" Lin Yuan's voice seemed to be filled with anger, as if he had taken a puff of cigarette , calmed down the agitated breathing, and sighed, "Ah Biao, sometimes it is better to miss each other than to meet...Okay, go get me a glass of water."

A thin but strong figure came out of the room, his eyes widened in surprise when he saw Fu Chong.

Lin Yuan was leaning on the bed with his eyes closed. His stomach had been in trouble for three days. Not only could he not eat, but he also started to have blood in his stool. .

A hand touched his hand lightly, with a little warmth that made him shiver.

"Drink some water..."

At that moment, Lin Yuan didn't open his eyes, as if he was worried that the hallucination of the voice would disappear from his eyes immediately after opening, he just tried to reach out his hand, looking for the temperature just touched, his hand was caught The other hand was in his hand, and he shook it lightly.

Fu Chong saw two lines of tears falling from Lin Yuan's tightly closed eyes.