Silly goose

Luo Yu always remembered the day when he saw the medical report.

Before that, he had already forgotten how long he hadn't had a good rest. With such a large family business, no matter how clever he was at strategizing it, he had to spend half a cent of his energy.On the contrary, when he came to the hospital for an examination, Luo Yu lay down on the sofa and fell asleep. When he heard Hang Yan enter the door, Luo Yu didn't open his eyes until the other party stood in front of him.

Luo Yu raised his eyelids and looked at the watch on his wrist.He also had a video conference at three o'clock, and booked a plane to F city in the evening.

Hang Yan sat in front of him with an unprecedented solemn expression.

He seemed to be thinking about how to talk about it, but before he finished thinking about it, Luo Yu asked directly: "Am I terminally ill?"

Hang Yan was startled and looked at him in surprise.

From his expression, Luo Yu knew that he had guessed right, as if he was proud of his intelligence, he actually laughed out loud, and there was no emotion in his smile that he should have when he heard bad news.

But Hang Yan couldn't laugh. Unlike Luo Yu's busyness, he rarely took a big vacation to return to China. It was the most leisure time. Many doctors in the private hospital in City A were his former classmates, including Luo Yu this time. At the Sogo Hospital for physical examination, the doctor there talked with Hang Yan at the dinner table that Luo Yu's indicators had fluctuated recently, but he was unwilling to recheck, so he wanted Hang Yan to lobby.

It took a lot of effort for Hang Yan to get Luo Yu here, but it was just in case, and he didn't expect that it just happened to be true.

Hang Yan calmed down and said: "It's not a terminal illness, how could it be a terminal illness, it's just the early stage of lung adenocarcinoma, very early, and it will be cured with some treatment."

Luo Yu looked at him with a smile.

Hang Yan looked at him.

After a while, Luo Yu said, "I'll think about it."

Hang Yan's expression was incredible: "What's there to think about, hospitalization, treatment, discharge, health, how simple."

Luo Yu propped his chin with one hand and tapped the edge of the table with the other, his expression was no different from his appearance in the meeting.

But Hang Yan couldn't wait any longer: "You stay here today. I've arranged the ward for you. I'll make a plan tomorrow. If it's soon, you'll be able to recover in a few months. It's not a big deal. Isn't there still Xiao Jingyang in the company Well, Assistant Xiao is so powerful, he will definitely be able to do it in a few months."

However, Luo Yu only showed a clear smile. If it was as casual as he said, why would Hang Yan be so anxious.

However, Luo Yu still nodded.

"alright."

Since it's simple, let's fix it.

It's just easy to say, and you know how simple it is when you think about it with your knees.The first surgery was arranged, and everything went smoothly before and after. The doctor himself was very satisfied with the results. Luo Yu recovered well. As long as he took medicine regularly for reexamination, he would gradually become healthy.

It's a pity that it hasn't been four months since I finished saying this, the last time it was the left lung that had an accident, this time Luo Yu changed to the right lung.

The speed of Luo Yu's relapse was surprising, and Hang Yan was also shocked.This time, Hang Qing is also here.It's just that facing the two brothers and sisters with sad faces, Luo Yu's expression was almost the same as when he first heard the news. There was no pain, no surprise, and he was even reading the newspaper. The entertainment section on it was Luo Baodie's husband Xin Zhe. A few days ago, I went out to open a room with someone and was secretly photographed.

Hang Yan's voice was a little low, but he tried his best to comfort him: "Luo Yu, let's find a more effective plan, don't worry. Or go to country A for treatment, our hospital is good, very experienced in this area, and I know several of them Authoritative experts."

Luo Yu suddenly asked, "Why?"

Hang Yan was taken aback.

Hang Qing snapped and said, "Because the doctors there can cure your illness!"

"Why?" Luo Yu still asked the same question.

Why?To live, but to live for what?

The two brothers and sisters Hang Qing and Hang Yan couldn't answer for a while.

People live, not for others, but for themselves.For the two brothers and sisters, Hang Qing and Hang Yan, the world is so beautiful, there are people and things they miss, but what about Luo Yu?

For loved ones?

Luo Yu has, but it can also be said that there is no.

For lover?

That person may not necessarily appear in this life.

For business?

Does Qinglong count?But this is not Luo Yu's yearning, but he also bites the bullet and gets bigger and bigger. Hang Yan sometimes feels exhausted for him.

For money, power, sex?

There are too many of these Luo domains, so many that he is too lazy to pay attention to them.

So...for a friend?

Well, maybe Hang Yan is one of them, but just for him to live, then all the pressure is on Hang Yan's body, Luo Yu will feel that he is too useless, and even disgust the other party, this is I'm so sorry my friend.

For this dream?

What is Luo Yu's dream?He once said that he wanted to have a good sleep, and it was best to sleep and never wake up again.Does this count?That's going to happen soon, why spoil it.

Finally, for yourself.

Let yourself live better?But in this situation, I am afraid that life will only get worse.

So what's left?

To put it bluntly, Luo Yu couldn't find the goal of living. To live, he needed to work hard and even suffer for it. Luo Yu couldn't find anyone, anything or any reason to make him do this.On the contrary, on the day he was hospitalized for the second time, there were crowds of people in the ward, and everyone seemed to be extremely sad, as if the sky was about to collapse, but when they left and looked from the window, those people All of them couldn't help but be overjoyed.

If Luo Yu really thought about the people around him, choosing to live would be the greatest harm to them. It would be cruel to break the hope that they had so hard to hope for.

"...How stubborn and easy it is to make a comeback. You, a great doctor, know better than me. I listened to you and tried it once and failed. Why waste this time."

Luo Yu said it lightly, but it can be seen that he was not impulsive.He just saw farther away, and didn't want to do the fearless struggle anymore.It is not so much that Luo Yu is cowardly and timid, and was overwhelmed by illness.It would be better to say that he had no intention of fighting this demon, he was beaten all over his body and asked for trouble, he didn't care about the prizes he won, and he didn't care about the compensation if he lost.

Why bother.

But Luo Yu has never liked to make life easier for those who have trouble with him, so many people are looking forward to his death, it is his style that Luo Yu is not as good as their wishes.

Hang Yan wanted to use this to be a provocateur, but obviously Luo Yu didn't like this.

"They must also think that I am afraid of death and desperately want to live well, so I shouldn't do what they wish."

Hang Yan was so blocked that he had nothing to say, and Hang Qing cried until his eyes were swollen, but all this was painless to Luo Yu.He is only 30 years old, and he is already tired of life, yes, he is tired of life.

Luo Yu's condition is progressing, but he has not received treatment.The doctors outside the ward changed their plan almost every day, just waiting for him to nod, but Luo Yu didn't notice it at all.But if you want to say that he gave up on himself, that’s okay. He should eat, drink, drink and supplement, work and rest normally, be in a good mood, read books every day, sleep, surf the Internet occasionally, and ask about things in the company, and live a good life Unprecedented comfort and comfort.

In the eyes of some people, this kind of behavior is called buying time to do what you want, and it is also a kind of cherishing the quality of life. To put it another way, you can think that you are waiting to die.

The only difference is the attitude of the parties involved.

For this reason, Hangyan and Hangqing have exhausted their methods, but they all failed.Luo Yu still saw them at first, but as time went on he got bored, poking your face every day with a frowning face, and it was them who made you die, who would be happy.So I don't want to see you anymore.

Until ten days before Hang Yan returned to country A.

His work has been delayed a lot, and it can't be delayed any longer. Hang Yan wanted Luo Yu to go with him, but he failed besides failure.He had to go back and deal with some things before thinking about the future.

But Hang Qing already had the idea of ​​giving up. As soon as she faced Luo Yu, her spirit lost its direction. Since this was Luo Yu's idea, Hang Qing felt that perhaps he should be respected. Luo Yu lived too tired and was useless. joy of life.

But Hang Yan is different, he is a doctor, obviously a case has the possibility of saving, how can he let it go?What's more, that person is Luo Yu, his best brother.

That day when Luo Yu came out of the shower, he saw Hang Yan sitting on the sofa in the outer hall, the TV in front of him was turned on, and he seemed to be engrossed in watching it.

Luo Yu sat beside him and glanced at it while wiping his hair. It was a medical video.

The camera has just been mounted, and the angle of view is still crooked, but the general situation can still be seen clearly through the narrow frame. The doctor is holding a thick needle tube, assisted by a nurse, and stabs it into the back of the person on the bed.Luo Yu knew about this situation, because he had also been stabbed before, and they were pumping the fluid in the patient's lungs.But the patient was small and thin, with a face as swollen as a pig's head.

After Luo Yu looked at it for a while, his eyelids drooped, as if he was not very interested.

Hang Yan observed his expression, not in a hurry.

Accompanied by those uncomfortable background sounds for a long while, Luo Yu successfully fell asleep.

The next day, Hang Yan came again.

Luo Yu was reading a book when the TV rang, but Luo Yu didn't lift his head.

On the screen is the scene of the operation, while Luo Yu reads the detective novel. Although the two parties have different processes, the atmosphere is somewhat similar, but they complement each other perfectly, so Luo Yu did not drive Hang Yan away.

On the third day, Hang Yan continued to report.

"I've ordered a new TV and player to be delivered to your house," said Rowe.

Hang Yan just giggled: "This is a subject of my classmate's early years. I asked him to borrow it for research, but it is stipulated that it cannot be taken out of the hospital. Let me borrow your place for convenience."

Luo Yu believes that there is something wrong with his nonsense, but he knows what Hang Yan's purpose is, and Luo Yu will not get angry with him because of this.

Luo Yu turned to the Internet.

Fourth day, fifth day, sixth day...

Before he knew it, a week had passed, and the child had been rescued four times that day, and the doctor almost set up a tent to live in the ward. Luo Yu finally raised his head.

He asked Hang Yan a little curiously: "Does he not feel pain?" Even if he didn't die, he would have been tortured to death.

Although it was for Luo Yu to watch, Hang Yan was already immersed in the video unknowingly, and it took a few seconds for Luo Yu's words to come back to his senses.

"No, he has a sensitive constitution." The pain sensation is only stronger.

Luo Yu looked at the liquid dripped from the child's throat by the doctor in the video. He was already able to bear the torture, but Luo Yu couldn't help remembering the medicine.It burns all the way down the drip, and I want to cough, but there is a knife wound on my chest, and half my life can be killed if I force it. Last day, the doctor said that Luo Yu's reaction was not the worst, and he only gave him one dose.But the child took two doses in the morning, noon and evening, and Luo Yu felt that his twitching reflex nerves were going to be burnt out.

Maybe it was curiosity, maybe it was surprise, Luo Yu couldn't help but glance at the picture a few more times.

This is like a TV series, if you don’t watch a single episode, you stay completely out of it. Since you accidentally watched an episode and have doubts about the plot, you can’t help but chase after it.

So the two big men are not much different from those aunts and aunts waiting for prime-time idol dramas, sitting in front of the TV for a whole day.

Hang Yan sees the medical process and case handling in line with his job as a doctor.

What Luo Yu is looking at is those sins that are dozens of times heavier than his own before, and they are imposed on such a fragile body day after day. Every moment you think he is going to die, but the next moment he is miraculous. After getting through it, it was like the protagonist who had a hang-up, with unspeakable ups and downs in the plot.

But Hang Yan told him that this is not hanging, this thing is called: the will to survive.

After watching the child find his way back from the gate of hell, Luo Yu finally asked Hang Yan again.

"This...how did it happen?"

From the time the child first appeared on the screen until now, apart from the doctor, he is always the only one in the camera.No relatives, no friends, no visitors to the ward.From the beginning to the end, there was only him, a lonely person, lying there quietly and suffering through the difficulties of life and death again and again.

Although part of it could be deduced from the doctor's words, Luo Yu still rarely had the desire to understand the ins and outs.

Hang Yan stared at the screen without looking back, and said after a while: "Drowning causes lung infection, rare alveolar hemorrhage, multiple complications occur in succession, and kidney function and heart function are all affected..."

Having said that, he paused for a moment and looked towards Luo Yu.

"Also... Cerebral edema caused by hypoxia, irreversible damage to the brain. Luo Yu, do you know that even if this child recovers, he needs to live with the help and even pity of others for the rest of his life. But... even if So, he still wants to live."