north wind blows south

Mu Liang disappeared just after Shen Ye finished saying "shouldn't".

Calls were not answered, text messages were not returned, and Shen Ye even sent several emails to his work mailbox to no avail.

It is impossible to say that he has no regrets.Maybe he shouldn't tell Mu Liang about this in this way, after all, he knows Mu Liang better than anyone else, and knows the consequences of his impulsiveness.

But his heart is very troubled.Not just for a moment, he felt for a long time that what Mu Jinguo said was right, but for the rest of the time, he felt that there was nothing he should or shouldn't do, and homosexuality was actually not a big deal matter.

He felt so guilty, maybe he shouldn't have appeared in Mu Liang's life.While bringing him happiness, it also brought him greater pain.He is like a sinner, or he is a sinner.

However, at such a young age, he knew that it would be a disaster for others, and Shen also mocked himself like this.

Shen also sat on the flower bed where Mu Liang was smoking alone just now, he seemed to understand Mu Liang's mood a little bit.Looking at the artificial lake, which was so huge that it was a little unreal, the sunlight shone down on it, which dazzled his eyes.

He suddenly remembered what Mu Jinguo had said to him.At that time, Mu Liang was smoking here, and there were only the two of them in the ward. Mu Liang's stepmother went to pick up her son from school, everything seemed to be a coincidence, maybe it was fate.

Mu Jinguo spoke these words to Shen Ye from Mu Liang's point of view.

Although even he laughed at himself that he was an incompetent father, but he still discovered the secret of Mu Liang's sexual orientation when he was in adolescence.But at that time, Liang Qiuhua was seriously ill. He had to work and take care of his family, so he had no time and energy to focus on it.

He can only gamble that Mu Liang can handle this problem by himself.Fortunately, during this decade, his gamble paid off.Mu Liang didn't find a boyfriend or a girlfriend, he was just alone, wandering in this world like a shadow.

Mu Jinguo had mixed feelings in his heart.He neither wants his son to be "truly" gay, nor does he want his son to live in the shadows.

But he can't help it.When he realized that there was something wrong with all this, he already had his own family, and most of his energy was spent on his youngest son, and Mu Liang had grown up at this time, let alone Qualified to control him.

However, which father would want his son to choose a path that is hopeless and marginalized by society?He always felt distressed, and he always didn't want Mu Liang to go down such a road.

And a few months ago, when he knew that Mu Liang had found a boyfriend who was underage, and that boyfriend was also the sole heir of the Shen Group, he felt like a thunderbolt at that moment.

It's like a bomb that has been buried in the soil without exploding, but one day the fuze is ignited, but it exerts ten times the power.

His first thought was to stop Mu Liang, but after calming down, he felt that he was not qualified to interfere in his son's life, after all he was an incompetent father.

He wanted to see his son, see his son's attitude, and if possible, he also wanted to see that "Shen Ye" who seemed to be living in the legend.

However, he did not expect Shen Nianping's attitude to be so open-minded.When I came here before, I thought that since everyone is the same age, they should have similar ideas, and Shen Ye is also a child. If his parents disagree with him, he should give up quickly.

Unexpectedly, Shen Nianping chose to stand on the same front as Mu Liang.

Then he has no chance of winning.

Mu Liang's attitude was much firmer than he had imagined, not to mention that the Shen Group was involved in the transaction at that time, and their relationship might be even better than that between him and Mu Liang.

What else could be done, with Mu Jinguo's skills, it would not be impossible for them to break up, but if it got to that point, the scene would definitely be ugly, and he didn't want to do it yet.

After thinking a lot and discussing with Lao Li for a long time, in order to avoid gossip in the business, he decided to remove Mu Liang from the company, which would be good for everyone.

At that moment, he realized that he was an incompetent father.Because of the past that cannot be erased, he has lost the qualification to be Mu Liang's father.He was a failure, he was sorry for Liang Qiuhua.

Sudden serious illness was also something he did not expect. After all, he had been conducting regular physical examinations in the past few years. However, due to the serious decline in the group's profitability in recent years, he did not have the intention to go for physical examinations, and devoted himself to work.

It was an occasional rest day, and he promised his wife and children to take them out to play.He broke his promise many times, which made him a little embarrassed to go home. Seeing his son's disappointed expression made him feel extremely guilty. This time, he will quit no matter what job he has.

It's just that he still didn't make it, maybe he didn't have such luck in his life.

When he was first hospitalized, the doctor only said that it was caused by excessive fatigue, and there should be no major problem, but he still advised Mu Jinguo to have a systemic examination, and then it was found that he had advanced bowel cancer.

In fact, he discovered something was wrong with his body very early on. He has never had much appetite, and there is always a bitter taste in his mouth. Sometimes his abdomen hurts inexplicably, but it will be fine after taking painkillers.

It was because I didn't care about my body that it led to the current result.

Mu Jinguo finally understood that sentence - when a person is dying, he always wants to finish the things that cannot be done.

He didn't mean to break them up on purpose, his original intention was just to hope that they could think clearly, after all, it is very difficult to live in this world as a gay.This is a matter of a lifetime, so he hopes they can figure it out, especially Shen Ye who has just grown up.

Teenagers are still teenagers, and they are the easiest to be shaken when the Three Views have not been fully formed.

But Shen didn't mean to break up, he just wanted to talk to Mu Liang, he was a little confused, and only Mu Liang could untie this knot in this world.

However, maybe his expression was ambiguous, or Mu Liang misunderstood his meaning. When he said that sentence, Mu Liang shook off his hand and left without looking back.

Shen also sat on the edge of the flower bed, even if the cold wind by the lake blew on his face, there was no way to calm him down.

He regretted it, he should speak up.He clearly knew that Mu Liang was a person who was easily overwhelmed, and he still said that.

What Mu Liang said is right, there is no "should or should not" in this world, there is only "want or don't want" in this world.He wants to be with Mu Liang for the rest of his life, this is his sincerity, but...

It's just that he was a little confused.

He misses Mu Liang so much.His mind and heart are all about Mu Liang.

He wanted to know what Mu Liang was doing now, even without him by his side, did he eat well, drink plenty of water, pay attention to keeping warm, did he listen to his advice and smoke less.

He was so humble that he wanted to cry.He just wants to know if Mu Liang is doing well now, as long as he is good, it is actually enough.

Of course, if Mu Liang was asked to answer whether he was doing well now, he would definitely say that he was not doing well at all.It wasn't until the moment he got on the train that he realized that he was impulsive, and that he was too impulsive.

He didn't even hear Shen Ye's real thoughts, so he shook off his hand in anger.

It was not beyond his expectation that Mu Jinhui would say such things, after all, he is an incompetent but meddling father.It's just that he didn't expect that Shen Ye would listen to it at the beginning. He thought that Shen Ye would ignore those words that he thought were nonsense just like him.

Only now did he understand that what Mu Jinguo said was not nonsense, and the reason why he thought so before was because he was blinded by disgust.

If someone else had said those words, if Bai Yun had said those words, maybe he wouldn't have had such a big reaction.

There is some reason, even though Mu Liang didn't want to admit it.

In fact, he also knows very well in his heart that as a gay, it is very difficult to live in this world dignifiedly.But he doesn't care about these difficulties, if he faces them with Shen Ye.

It's just that he didn't consider Shen Ye's feelings.Whether he cares about these things, Mu Liang doesn't know.

He felt that he was so stupid that he would believe a boy's promise.Obviously he had it too, and he knew that puberty was very confused, but he forgot that Shen Ye was also in this confused period.

And instead of supporting him, he quarreled with him, threw away his hand, and refused to answer his calls or text messages.

Mu Liang regretted it.

But once the train leaves, there is no turning back.

It's been a long time, and his heart hasn't been so chaotic for a long time, so chaotic that he can't wait to drink all the wine at home to relieve his worries.

He does need some quiet, or they do need some quiet.Give each other some space, put aside the dizzying feelings, and think about your own life.

This is something that will affect a lifetime, and it cannot be concluded in an hour.

Mu Liang sighed deeply, looking out the window at the familiar yet unfamiliar scenery.He is 28 years old, not a child anymore, but why does life always make him so confused.

His eyes lost their light again.

Not wanting to worry Shen Ye too much, she decided to send him a message back.After thinking about it for a long time, I didn't know what to answer.

——"Let's calm down with each other." This sentence was terrible, but Mu Liang pressed the send button anyway.

They do need to calm down.