north wind blows south

A round and plump big ice ball fell into the whiskey glass crisply, took out the iced Coke from the refrigerator, and poured it skillfully into the glass.Not full, leaving a small half edge.

"Hey, why do you want me to drink this? I want to drink!"

Shen Ye knelt on the sofa, tilted his head, his eyes were blurred, as if he was drunk, but he didn't drink anything, just looking at Mu Liang, he would get drunk.

"What kind of wine do children drink, we'll talk about it when you're an adult." While saying this, Mu Liang opened a bottle of whiskey for himself.This red wine was given by the first big client in his life. At that time, they completed a big order and gave Mu Liang a bottle of wine that was worth a set of husband's house during the banquet.

He didn't like luxury goods at first, and he couldn't shirk them, so he accepted them.I also thought about opening this bottle of wine on a certain memorable day, but after thinking about it, it seems that there is no day worth ritualizing, so I simply opened this bottle of wine today.

Most of the [-] milliliters evaporated, and the rest was just poured into the big wine glass, and another big ice ball was placed.Except that there is no steam, there is not much difference from Shen Ye's cup.

The vertical clock rang eight times, and the central set was about to start rebroadcasting the Spring Festival Gala.Shen also turned on the TV, muted the sound, and took the coke from Mu Liang.It's so cold, but it's suitable for iced cola in winter, just like going to eat spicy hot pot in summer.

Mu Liang sat next to Shen Ye, and he raised his glass, "Come on, cheers."

"Cheers." Shen Ye's cup touched Mu Liang's, making a crisp sound.

In the living room, only a warm yellow dim light was turned on, shining on Mu Liang's side face, the fine fluff glowed with light.After taking a sip of wine, the Adam's apple rolls up and down, which can only be accurately described as "soul-wrenching".

Shen also took a sip, "Wow, it's so cold!"

The two cups are placed side by side on the coffee table. Under the illumination of the warm lamp, the liquid in the cups shows the same color without any difference.But in reality, one is Coke, which costs three yuan a bottle in the supermarket, and you can buy it everywhere. The other is whiskey that is older than Shen Ye. Because it evaporates after long-term storage and fermentation, the taste is rich and mellow. Find treasures that are also hard to find.

Shen also stared at Mu Liang's profile for a while, then slowly moved to his side, carefully leaning on his shoulder.Mu Liang was wearing thin cotton pajamas, the bones on his shoulders were protruding, and it was a little uncomfortable to lean on, but Shen didn't mind.

It's warm inside, like spring.However, Mu Liang still covered him with a thin blanket, which was of different colors and Shen Ye's.Very quiet, only the sound of breathing in the quiet room.

Shen also closed his eyes, listening to Mu Liang's intermittent speech.

——"...Xiao Yu is the daughter of my father's friend. She used to be a high school alumnus with me. They always wanted to marry the two families. How is this possible? I disagreed, so I ran away in anger and came to this city."

——"...I went to college here, and finally went to work in my father's branch company. My father is well-known in the south, and the big companies here dare not accept me, and they don't want to pay less. There is no way Method."

——"...Actually, there is always a way. Go to remote areas or go abroad, but it still can't be done. The appearance is glamorous, and the so-called rich resume is actually just an empty shell. It's sad and ridiculous."

——"...Sometimes I envy Xiao Yu, and I have the courage to pursue the person I like. But I don't even know what I like. Sometimes I think I 'like', but then accompanied by this kind of Emotional, it’s disgust, doubt, and pain.”

——"...the so-called 'success' by definition is false. A person succeeds on the surface, but if he does not recognize his success in his heart, then the so-called success is just a failure."

——"...Native family, growth environment, school experience, career, or love, it seems that it will always be accompanied by pain."

—— "...But I can't even feel a trace of happiness."

Mu Liang spoke intermittently, sometimes stopping four or five times in a sentence.The Spring Festival Gala is still playing silently on TV, and everyone on the screen is laughing.Mu Liang couldn't help but think, were they really laughing because they were happy?I still put on the mask, but found that I couldn't take it off.

"She..." Shen Ye said, "Xiao Yu, when she left in the morning, she seemed to be crying a lot."

Mu Liang leaned his head on Shen Ye's, and suddenly took his hand.They were all thin, with unusually sharp knuckles. When their fingers interlocked, it seemed that their own hands were holding each other.

"At that time...you said you liked me, but my first reaction was that I liked you too. I almost said it, just a little bit, and told you that I like you too you."

When Mu Liang finished speaking, Shen also felt a drop of wet water on the back of his hand. After it fell, it slowly slid onto the carpet and disappeared into the fluffy carpet.He cried.

"But I can't, there are too many reasons why I can't. But I can't bear to let go, in a selfish form. So I keep in touch with you and agree to let you live in my house. I am a selfish person. I am a hopeless person. people."

It's not a confession in the usual sense, it's more like a self-analysis packaged as a confession, but under the disguise of self-analysis, it is actually a hollow heart, so hollow that everyone who sees it will say how pitiful it is, but in fact no one People will see.

Mu Liang pulled out his hand.Maybe it's because of the heating, maybe it's because of what he said just now, his palms are covered with cold sweat.The two of them no longer leaned head to shoulder, and sat quietly on the sofa with a distance of ten centimeters.It was so quiet that you could hear the snow falling outside the window.

"I'll make a phone call," Mu Liang got up, "Apologize, to Xiao Yu."

"Hmm." Shen also said.

After hearing the sound of Mu Liang putting on his clothes and closing the door and going out, Shen Ye fell on the sofa, wrapped in the quilt.There is still the residual temperature left by Mu Liang behind, which is much warmer than the radiator.

Even with the corners of his mouth suppressed, he couldn't help but instinctively overflowed with a smile.Mu Liang's confession just now, or self-analysis, or inner monologue, brought Shen Ye the greatest emotion of joyful satisfaction, a one-way to two-way happiness, like a bag full of love in his heart. Warm water, after it breaks, flows into the whole heart, and a heart soaked in hot spring water is an unparalleled feeling.

But if you distinguish carefully, you will find that bath salt has been added to the hot spring.Salty, like the taste of tears.The result of the confession is not necessarily to be together, and the reason for the confession is not because of wanting to be together.It is sweet with bitterness.

Shen Ye is keen, but always belatedly aware.This is obviously not a confession, but a helpless and forced self-dissection.Mu Liang cut himself open and showed Shen Ye his empty heart, letting him know that liking him is fruitless, or the deeper meaning is, if I am such a person, will you still like me?

Lying flat on the sofa, looking at a small light on the high ceiling.Even though it is small, it can burst out with powerful power. Once it is turned on, it can brighten up the living room.

A variety of emotions are mixed, making it difficult to explain clearly.Tears slid from the corners of his eyes and fell into his thick hair.

The 17-year-old Shen Ye couldn't express his feelings accurately.When he realized that Mu Liang had shown his heart to him, he panicked.He didn't know what to do.Like it?Definitely.But facing Mu Liang's heart, he even felt unspeakable.Can two hollow hearts nourish a closely connected heart that can fill the void?

He didn't dare to tell Mu Liang, he didn't have the guts, nor the confidence.Thinking of this, I finally understood how bitter he felt when he said those words.

Compared with Mu Liang, Shen also felt that he was a cowardly person.

Shen also turned around and buried himself in the quilt.The quilt has the smell of Mu Liang.He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, his nostrils filled with a warm smell.

It was the sound of the door opening.Mu Liang came in with a cold wind and gently closed the door.He softly called "Shen Ye", but no one answered.Then he walked lightly, walked to Shen Ye's side, turned off the TV, and the living room fell into darkness again.Mu Liang tucked in the blanket for Shen Ye, went to the bathroom to brush his teeth, and went back to the bedroom lightly.

As soon as Mu Liang closed the bedroom door, Shen also got up from the sofa and ran to the bathroom to brush his teeth.They are all clean people, as is always the case with cool people.Shen also looked at himself in the mirror, he was fatter than before.During this period of time, I ate with Mu Liang, which was regular and hearty, and also reduced the number of times I ate junk food.A little fatter, and it doesn't look a little scary when making facial expressions.

When Shen Ye came out of the bathroom, it was snowing heavily outside, showing no mercy at all.Xiao Yu suddenly came to mind, that gentle and pleasant girl.With waist length black and straight, gentle looks, slender figure, regardless of sexuality, it should be the ideal type for most people.Shen also envied her, from the bottom of his heart.If you have the courage and ability to pursue the person you like, you can say it if you like it. You don’t have to think about it. If you have a good family situation, you don’t have to fall into the cliff even if you fail. There is a soft cushion behind you, and you won’t get hurt if you fall down.

While envious, Shen also felt that Xiao Yu was a bit pitiful.The child who was pampered and pampered since childhood, is so low-key for love, and the one who celebrates the Chinese New Year comes from the south. It snows and he can't take a plane, and it takes a whole day to come by train.It is estimated that it also came overnight.When he came here, he was scolded by Mu Liang, who had a bad temper, and finally left with tears.Loving someone is sometimes a pain in the ass.

Shen also collapsed on the sofa, half covered by the quilt, with his feet on the backrest, no matter how comfortable he was.The phone was on the coffee table, and the screen suddenly lit up, and Shen didn't want to pick it up either.Those are the only people who call him, he resists

Communicate with them.The screen brightened for a while, then dimmed, then brightened a bit.It's a text message.Shen Ye still took a look at the phone, it was an unfamiliar number, she said she was Xiao Yu, and wanted to meet Shen Ye.She is leaving tomorrow.Shen also sighed, and sent a text message back to Xiao Yu - the coffee shop downstairs in Hairun Building at eight o'clock.

— Be there or be square.Xiao Yu returns.