deep in love

"Hello, Shang Yun." Shen Xian dialed Shang Yun's phone.

"Shen Xian, you finally called me. I heard that something happened to you a few days ago. How is it? Are you okay?" Recently Shang Yun has been busy getting entangled with Tang Yi. Things are forgotten.

"It's all right, thank you. I wanted to ask you something when I called."

"What's the matter, you can ask."

Shen Xian was silent for a few seconds, and asked: "Yesterday I heard that Fu Bailin's child was sick, how is the situation?"

Shang Yun was surprised in his heart, but he didn't show it. "Oh, my father went to see it. He had a bit of a cold. After two injections and some medicine, he quickly got it under control. It's okay. Who did you hear from?" Shang Yun was rather curious about this question.

"Oh, I overheard someone talking about it, as long as you're fine. Come over for dinner when you have time, Xin and I haven't seen you for a long time."

"Indeed, I feel like I haven't seen you for a long time, but I see Xin and Chen often..." Shang Yun paused intentionally or unintentionally, and continued: "In the gallery."

Shang Yun's words made Shen Xian a little embarrassed, his marriage with Xin had completely lost its original meaning, and it was time to think about it.

That night, Shen Xian filed for divorce from Xin. This time, Xin did not object. She thought about it for a while and said, "Thank you for the past two years. It was you who accompanied me through the most difficult time. Both my child and I found Happiness and belonging. The thing I can't let go of is you, every time I see you alone, I can't bear to let you go."

"Xin, I also thank you for your company. You and the child brought me a lot of happiness and memories, and made me realize the happiness and responsibility of being a father. The child needs the company of his father. Only when we end our fetters can we start a new life. It's true for you and the baby, and it's true for me."

"Xian, you will always be the father of the child, and we have always been good friends." Xin and Xian hugged each other, and she could feel that this would be their last hug.

A week later, they divorced. Shen Xian insisted on handing over half of the shares in the gallery to Xin, and asked her to continue to take care of it. Xin and the child moved to Liang Mingchen's house naturally. urging the parents of their children to marry.

"What are you doing? Let's go home tonight. Let's watch "The Shawshank Redemption" together. I remember that you liked this movie so much in high school and dragged me to watch it several times." Shen Xian still didn't agree to Fu Bailin's request to live together, That apartment became their dating place, and only there could they find the shadow of Shen Xian's past.

"Okay." Shen Xian looked at the empty house. After Xin and the child moved away, he felt lonely like never before. Is it because he is used to company?How did you survive the years when you were alone?He is almost unimaginable now.

"I'll be done at six o'clock. Go to the supermarket and buy some food when you go. I'll do it when I get back from get off work."

"kindness."

After hanging up the phone, the hearts of both of them were not at peace.Shen Xian has always refused to agree to be with him, but every time he faces his invitation, after struggling, he always agrees. He is afraid of loneliness and wants to be with him, but he still refuses to agree.Is it hypocritical?Maybe.What should I do next?have no idea.This is Shen Xian's heart.And Fu Bolin has always wanted to pack Shen Xian home, or lock him in the house directly, his patience is almost at the limit, but every time he can ask Shen Xian to meet, this calms down his restless heart.So the two started dating long-distance running.

Looking at the figure of Fu Bolin busy in the room, for a moment, Xian felt that they had returned to the past.But the past has finally passed, and what exists now is only reality.

"What's your child's name?" Shen Xian asked suddenly, and Fu Bolin looked at him in surprise.

"Fu Lingyi, why do you ask this?"

"I... want to meet him, is that okay?" Shen Xian said bravely.

"Of course, Xian. If you are willing to accept it, he will also be your son from now on." Fu Bailin felt a burst of joy in his heart, and he had a premonition that the relationship between Xian and him was about to change for the better.

"No, Sheng Xia is his mother no matter what. We can't erase her existence. I just want to meet him. In fact, I quite like children. I hope you can treat him well." Children are innocent after all, Sheng Xia His happiness was indirectly ruined in their hands. He hoped that Fu Bolin could treat this child better, and take it as compensation for Midsummer.

"Next weekend is his fourth birthday, let's help him celebrate his birthday together."

Fu Lingyi is a very cute child, but he doesn't like to laugh or talk.When he walked up to him with a birthday present and smiled, he just looked at the gift and then the string indifferently, without reaching out to take it.Until Fu Bolin said: "Ling Yi, accept Uncle Shen's gift and say thank you." Fu Lingyi glanced at his father, unable to hide his timidity towards him, he reached out to accept the gift, and whispered, "Thank you, Uncle Shen. "

"Ling Yi is so good." After speaking, Shen Xian sat next to him, trying to get close to him.The family environment since he was a child made Ling Yi not as lively as boys of the same age, a little timid and shy, especially in front of Fu Bailin.Shen Xian coaxed and teased him for a long time before he was willing to speak, and he didn't let Xian hold his hand until dinner was served.

"Ling Yi, will uncle take you out to play tomorrow?" Xian said while serving food for the child.

Ling Yi didn't speak, but couldn't hide the excitement in his eyes, he just glanced at his father timidly.Shen Xian also turned his head, and immediately stared at Fu Bailin with four eyes.

"I have time tomorrow afternoon." Fu Bolin said.

"It's okay, if you don't have time, I can take Ling Yi out to play by myself, you don't have to deliberately accompany us." Shen Xian patted Ling Yi's head and said.

Ling Yi looked at his father again, with an expression of approval and expectation.I secretly thought in my heart: It would be better if Dad didn't go, because Dad has always been fierce.Maybe it's the connection between father and son, Fu Bailin sensed his son's inner thoughts, and frowned suddenly, is this the rhythm of being excluded?

"It's okay, I can postpone the morning meeting." After speaking, he gave Ling Yi a meaningful look, and the father and son seemed to be communicating with each other with their eyes.

"Rin, don't be so cruel to the child. It's not good for his growth. You should encourage him to go out to play more and express his wishes more."

Seeing Shen Xian and Ling Yi sitting together, Fu Bailin suddenly felt warm, and his expression gradually melted.Ling Yi looked at Shen Xian, then at his father, as if he understood something.

"Uncle, uncle, can you tell me a story?" After eating the cake, Fu Lingyi pestered Shen Xian to tell him a story.

"It's already nine o'clock, you should go to bed." Although Fu Bailin brought Shen Xian home as he wished, Shen Xian was haunted by this brat all day long, and he didn't pay attention to him at all. It was finally night , he just wanted to hurry the child to bed.

Ling Yi pouted, glanced at his father, then turned around and pulled Shen Xian and said pitifully: "Uncle, today is my birthday, I want to hear you tell me a story. Usually, Dad is not at home, only Auntie Tell me a story, her Mandarin is not standard at all."

Shen Xian looked at Ling Yi who was pulling his cuff, and said to Fu Bailin: "Rin, it's rare for the child to have a birthday today, so let's be half an hour late. Ling Yi, only today is special. Auntie will take you to wash first, and you go to bed obediently Lie down and I will tell you a story, remember to go to bed at nine o'clock in the future."

"En." Ling Yi nodded heavily, and went to wash his face bouncing around.

"Children are so energetic." Shen Xian sat on the sofa and said with a sigh.

"Are you tired? Seeing you running around with him all day." Rin leaned over and sat next to him and said.

"Fortunately, you have to be patient with children and don't always keep a straight face."

"Well, usually the company is too busy to spend time with him."

"This won't work. You need to encourage him more, communicate with him more, and create a good environment for his growth..." Shen Xian was interrupted by Fu Bailin just after he spoke halfway.

"Yes, yes, you have been around the brat all day, when will you be able to focus on me?" Fu Bailin put his arms around Shen Xian's waist and brought him into his arms.

"What are you doing, what if the child comes out and sees it?" Shen Xian struggled to stand up from him.

"Then I'll drive him back to my room and not allow him to come out." Fu Bolin said seriously, Shen Xian couldn't tell how much it was a joke and how serious it was.

"How can you be a father like this?"

"Worry about me taking care of the kids? That's easy, just move in and live with us." After speaking, he yelled into the bathroom: "Ling Yi, Uncle Shen move in and live with us, would you agree?"

"Okay, okay, so someone will play with me." Ling Yifei ran out, his hands were still wet with drops of water.

"What are you talking about! I haven't agreed yet." Shen Xian glared at Rin and complained softly.

"Then you tell him yourself." After finishing speaking, Rin turned around and sat on the sofa leisurely flipping through the magazines, Shen Xian was dragged into the room by the excited children to tell stories.

Ling Yi didn't fall asleep until ten o'clock. As soon as Shen Xian came out of Ling Yi's room, Rin pulled her into the bedroom on the second floor for a kiss.Shen Xian struggled to push him away, "Rin, don't do this, let me go." After feeling Shen Xian's insistence, Rin finally let go, his face was a little ugly.

"Rin, don't be like this, this is your... and Shengxia's bedroom. Although she is no longer here, I still want to maintain the minimum respect for her." Hearing Shengxia's name, Rin's face became even brighter. Ugly.

"This is not the master bedroom. We have been sleeping in separate rooms since she was pregnant. I am the only one in this room."

Shen Xian turned around and shook his head, said: "I... still don't want to."

"Xian, tell me how can I get you over this hurdle? She has been gone for almost a year, and I gave you a year, but it still doesn't work."

"I don't know, I think, maybe I will never forget it." How many times did he dream back at midnight, and he could still clearly see Sheng Xia's distorted face in front of his eyes, reminding him of the important relationship between Rin and him. The chasm was crossed.

Rin suddenly became angry, but when he saw Shen Xian's painful and lonely expression, his anger was only a pang of heartache.Rin held him in her arms and said, "It's okay, I will always be with you."

That night, Rin rarely agreed to Shen Xian to sleep in the guest room by himself, without disturbing him all night.

The next morning, Shen Xian woke up Ling Yi. The child knew that he was going out to play today, so he didn't stay in bed at all, and got up quickly to get dressed.Xian led him into the dining room, he saw Rin sitting at the dining table reading a newspaper, and said, "Dad, you haven't left yet."

"How did you talk?" Fu Bolin put down the newspaper, looked up and said seriously.Rin's tone was still intimidating to Ling Yi, he subconsciously hid beside Shen Xian.

"Rin, don't be mean to him. Ling Yi too, you have to greet Dad politely when you wake up in the morning, you know?" Shen Xian poured milk for Ling Yi to make cereal while talking.

"Oh, good morning, Dad." He was still very good at judging the situation, and said hello obediently.Although he found that Uncle Shen's gold medal for avoiding death is very useful, he must be careful not to let his father discover his thoughts.

"Hurry up and finish eating, we are going to go out, where does Ling Yi want to go?" Shen Xian asked.

"I want to go to the aquarium. All the children in the kindergarten have been there. There is still a little dolphin hanging on Xiaolinzi's schoolbag. I want one too."

"Okay, then after you have breakfast, shall we set off?" Xian said patiently.

"Okay." Ling Yi gulped the cereal into his mouth, Xian was a little worried that he would choke himself.

"Eat slowly, don't choke." While eating the sandwich, Shen Xian took care of the child not to choke and not to spill on the clothes.

"Uncle, is Daddy going too?" Ling Yi asked mutteringly with something in his mouth.

"Don't talk while eating, just swallow it." Fu Bolin said.

"That's right, Dad turned down work to stay with Ling Yi, isn't Ling Yi very happy?" Shen Xian said.

"Oh, that's it." Ling Yi couldn't help being disappointed.

Fu Bailin looked at the newspaper, but he didn't let go of the expressions of the two people on the opposite side. Ling Yi, the kid, was getting more and more courageous, and if he didn't talk about Shen Xian, he even showed disgust towards him.As if feeling the tense atmosphere between father and son, Shen Xian quickly diverted everyone's attention, fed Ling Yi the rest of the breakfast, and the three of them went out together.

Fu Bolin was wearing a sweatshirt, which was really rare. In Shen Xian's impression, ever since Lin came to work in the company, she was always in a suit.Looking at Rin in sports and casual clothes, it seems that he has returned to the best school days.Wherever she goes, Rin is the center of attention.He walked in front alone, and Xian led Ling Yi to follow. This feeling moved Xian a little.Ling Yi's chattering and noise from time to time would occasionally make Rin frown, but seeing Shen Xian's happy smile, Rin also felt that such a noisy environment was not so unbearable, and actually enjoyed this weekend a little.

In the afternoon, Ling Yi was so tired that he fell asleep on Shen Xian's back. When he came out from the entrance of the aquarium, Fu Bolin went to the souvenir shop and bought a whole set of marine animal ornaments, a total of 12 pieces.

Back home, after Xian put Ling Yi to sleep, Rin finally had a chance to talk to him.

"Xian, are you tired too?"

"Fortunately, I had a lot of fun today." Indeed, today is a rare day for him to relax in the past two years, he can be with him, and he hasn't thought of those unhappy things.

"How about we stay together like this in the future? Ling Yi likes you very much, and you can take care of him better than me." Xian was silent, and Rin continued: "I saw a villa in the newly opened real estate by the lake. In a few days, if you have some time, I will take you there to see, shall we start over there? Create memories that only belong to us. Your house and my house are full of too many bad memories, our The apartment is too small to live with Ling Yi. What do you think?" Xian was still silent, but he could see that he was struggling inside.

"Xian, look at me, do you love me? No matter what happened between us, I never heard you say 'you don't love me', your reasons for rejecting me are all objective reasons, you still love me, Right? My love is no less than yours. Maybe I once made a paranoid decision without telling you in advance. It was my fault. But everything is in the past. If there is retribution for the wrong things I did, I will be alone Bear it, I have no complaints. It’s just that I don’t want you to carry these heavy burdens, accept me, let me make up for the damage I caused to you in the past few years, and spend the rest of my life.” Rin finally said sincerely and calmly Feeling, at this moment Shen Xian has already burst into tears.

Rin continued: "Xian, let's start again, shall we? Take Ling Yi and start our lives again. From now on, create our memories and make up for all the time we missed." Shen Xian finally sobbed and nodded .

Since then, Xian has often appeared at Fu Bailin's house, playing with Ling Yi, and because Ling Yi has the gold medal for avoiding death with Xian, he is no longer like a mouse seeing a cat in front of his father. Even the kindergarten teachers said that Ling Yi has already I was able to mingle with the children and even became the class monitor.Three months later, they moved into a newly bought villa. There was a garden in front of the house, a vegetable field in the back, and swings, seesaws and slides in the yard. Ling Yi was so happy that he invited the children to play at home from time to time.Xin and Chen often brought their children over to play together. The two children ran in the yard holding hands, and the baby called "Brother Lingyi" vaguely in a girly voice. This scene made Shen Xian feel very healed. Maybe the happiness of the present can really heal the past, maybe.