I can't run away after agreeing to fall in love

There was only one bed left in the huge room, and there were two people lying on the bed, cuddling each other tightly. Tang Yingqiu let Shen Shitang rest in his arms, leaned close to his forehead, kissed him from forehead to chin, and finally asked: " What's the matter, are you unhappy?"

Shen Shitang's eyes were doting and pity, intertwined with fear and sadness, "No, I'm very happy."

"Nonsense, if you're happy, why don't you smile at me?" Punitively, Tang Yingqiu bit Shen Shitang's nose.

Shen Zhitang said lightly: "It's not like you don't know how to laugh, and that's how I laugh."

"Well——" Tang Yingqiu hugged Shen Shitang even tighter, stroked his smooth back, and said from beginning to end, "I will bring you your favorite cake when I come back. What flavor do you want?"

"Any flavor is fine, I like it very much." Shen Shitang stretched out his arms around Tang Yingqiu, rubbed the back of Tang Yingqiu's ears with his hands, and asked, "Did you go to Doctor Gu's today?"

"I'll go later." Tang Yingqiu sat up from the bed, and held Shen Shitang's hand tightly, as if she wanted Shen Shitang to help him dress, so Shen Shitang followed his will and took the clothes to button him .

Shen Shitang felt Tang Yingqiu's chest vibrating right at his chest, "As long as you tell me, I won't listen."

These were the last words Tang Yingqiu said here, and soon he left the room, the sound of locking was heard outside the room, lashing his nerves.

Shen Zhitang opened his mouth to count, this is the No.40 two days he stayed here.

It is precisely because there is nothing to do that I still remember the time clearly.

The room is large and empty, with artificial sunlight hanging above the head, an air conditioner that automatically adjusts according to the body temperature, and all kinds of living facilities, except that there is no Internet connection to the outside world, no clothes, and no mirrors.

Shen Zhitang walked towards the door. The iron chains on his ankles rubbed against the ground and made a crisp sound. He could only walk one meter away from the door. In order to avoid being dragged back, he stopped.

One thread/no/hanging, and there is a strange feeling, he left, I can take it out of my body, but I think I have to stuff it back with my own hands before he comes back, so I still give up.

The only thing in the room that could be used to cover his body was the thin blanket on the bed. Shen Shitang picked up the blanket and wrapped it around himself, skillfully took the book and lay down on the sofa.As if I should live like this, there is an extra iron lump on my clean and flawless body, which is connected to the unfreedom, and the iron ring is wrapped with a layer of flannelette, so as not to scratch Shen Shitang's skin.

This kind of life was bestowed by Tang Yingqiu himself, maybe he should hate and fight, but what he got in return was Tang Yingqiu's endless torture, which made him feel pain in his heart.

He was never willing to torture himself. Before that, he just broke the glass and scratched a small wound on his hand. He went crazy for a long time, and just used the glass to gouge out his arm in front of him.What he hurt was his own body, as if he was not afraid of pain, he asked himself while bleeding, "Do you not love him anymore", "Do you want to run away" and so on.

Similarly, I have never been able to overestimate myself, and I also can't see him hurting himself.

Shen Zhitang felt that he probably went crazy with him, or he stayed here because he had such hopes for him, and he just hoped that he would get better soon.

He has only himself.

So I am willing to stay.

I just went through an intense sex//// incident, and my body has been cleaned up by him, very refreshing, and I can smell the fragrance of shower gel on my body.

Shen Shitang pointed to the words to read, but his eyes became more and more blurred, and finally his consciousness began to sink with drooping eyelids.

He seldom made promises to himself recently. Today he suddenly said that he would come back at night to bring cakes for himself. Before he left, he threatened to let himself stuff things in. Shen Shitang thought, maybe he would come back at night. Once.

Sometimes I even think that I have become a tool for him to release, but he is so gentle every time, and he is still exactly the same as before.Mostly because he felt sorry for his little friend, Shen Shitang never felt that there was an element of coercion in it.

He asked himself if he was willing, and he answered "willingly", so he promised that he would receive treatment well and heal one day.

Just thinking of this, Shen Zhitang felt that his body had reacted, and hurried to the bathroom.

What's hard to say is that now, I desperately long for him to stay by my side all the time to accompany me, even thinking of him will produce an embarrassing physiological reaction.

Shen Zhitang looked at himself in the mirror, as if he was so unfamiliar that he didn't even know him.The memory goes back to when I was just imprisoned here, there was only darkness and a wild and unreasonable vent//beast, and it was my compromise that brought about such an environment.

The thin iron chain was still ringing, and the hand on the sink was icy cold, so he managed to calm himself down.

And the result is——

He came less and less often, less and less frequently.Most of the time I will do ////// love, sometimes just two people sitting and chatting with each other, the only difference is that Shen Shitang finds that every time he comes, he will have an extra tattoo on his body, and every tattoo will be related to himself , maybe it's a flower, maybe it's your own name, maybe it's the words of which country writes "I love you" on the flesh, to remember the pain and pierce love into the bone marrow.

Shen Zhitang wanted to stop him, but he had no choice but to clean up his mood again and again, and prepare for his next arrival.

He didn't arrive as expected, Shen Zhitang looked at the time, it was already eleven o'clock in the evening, as if angry, he took out the things and threw them on the ground and buried them in the fluff of the white carpet.

When Tang Yingqiu came back, he saw Shen Shitang huddled up and sleeping on the sofa, and there was still his unfinished meal on the table, as if he hadn't eaten two bites.Tang Yingqiu took off his coat, fearing that Shen Shitang would be frozen in the spring night stuck to his body, no matter how gentle his movements were, the person he was holding in his arms would still wake up.

Shen Zhitang blinked, buried himself in Tang Yingqiu's chest, and said in a nasal voice, "Didn't you say you would come back early?"

Tang Yingqiu put the person on the bed, leaned over and kissed Shen Shitang's forehead, and said with a smile: "I'm busy, why don't I eat, are you not used to it?"

"Well——" Shen Zhitang hurriedly changed his words again, "Where's the agreed upon cake? Empty stomach, waiting for your cake."

"Little glutton, how can cake be eaten as a meal." Soon Tang Yingqiu brought a new meal, picked up a spoon to feed Shen Shitang, but Shen Shitang avoided it and said, "I don't want to eat it."

Tang Yingqiu seemed unable to hold the expression on her face any longer, and finally sighed, "What do you want me to do?"

Shen Shitang hadn't woken up yet, his consciousness was that of a child, giggling, and wrapping his hands around Tang Yingqiu's neck, Tang Yingqiu felt very useful, he simply held Shen Shitang's waist with both hands, and the two of them rolled into a ball.

Suddenly hearing Tang Yingqiu's hiss, Shen Shitang woke up after dozing off. Before he could ask, he saw Tang Yingqiu's neck was covered with gauze.

Tang Yingqiu said with a smile: "Did you promise you a bigger tattoo before? I'll show you when I'm done. It's very good-looking." After speaking, Tang Yingqiu buried her head in Shen Shitang's arms and said, "In this way everyone will know about my tattoo. There are people."

"Does it hurt?"

"It doesn't hurt, it won't hurt when I think about you." Tang Yingqiu held Shen Shitang's hand and asked him to unbutton himself, and said, "I will ask you to help me take a bath later, so I can't get wet."

Shen Shitang answered almost tremblingly, there is no need to operate anything by himself, just wipe Tang Yingqiu's body, this has been done many times, every time he heard him say that he has tattoos, Shen Shitang felt empty in his heart, He said he would not let him hurt himself, so did he change this way?

Tang Yingqiu was lying in the bathtub, which contained the hot water Shen Shitang let him off. He stood beside him and scrubbed himself. His body, which was as bright as jade, felt that it was a gift from God. The presence of all the iron chains gives people an extremely aesthetic feeling of being bullied//abused, Tang Yingqiu squinted her eyes and couldn't help being intoxicated.

The water in the bathtub couldn't withstand the squeeze of two adult men, and it poured out. Shen Shitang escaped from the bathtub without saying a word, probably because of the warmth in the bathroom, it easily turned people into pink, Shen Shitang was like coaxing a child He said, "You stay here, I'll get you a towel."

The iron chain rattled.

I don't know what happened. The fluorescent lamp hanging above the head suddenly went out, and the whole room was plunged into darkness. Shen Shitang was barefoot, and lost his sense of control. He recalled the experience of being locked up in a small dark room before, thinking nothing Just reach out to explore, feel the real thing to make yourself feel at ease.

The bathroom and the bedroom are two separate rooms. Shen Shitang didn't want Tang Yingqiu to worry, so he never yelled. What's more, in the absolute darkness, he would lose the ability to yell. Shen Shitang picked up his feet since he was a child. The iron chain on the bed, fumbled along the chain to the bedside to touch the light switch.

At that moment, Tang Yingqiu's mobile phone screen suddenly lit up, and Shen Shitang seemed to have caught some life-saving straw, so he quickly picked it up.

Before he had time to think, a string of characters came into view.

[Professor] Why are you ignoring me?

This is the news three days ago, and the new news just sent is:

[Professor] Where have you been?I miss you so much.

The beasts scrambled to attack from the darkness, and the light on the screen seemed too bright, too bright to dazzle the eyes.

Shen Zhitang even suspected that there was something wrong with his eyes. Tang Yingqiu had always set his fingerprints on his mobile phone.Today is the first time I use this permission.

It's a sticky one with the note [Professor], just below the chat box with me, and my note is [Baby].Shen Zhitang felt dizzy for a while, and clicked in tremblingly. The other party seemed to be surnamed Ruan. The social platform was very clean and there were no photos. The only thing that showed was a photo of a kitten.

The last chat stayed at three days ago. Holding back, Shen Shitang slowly slid the chat box up. It was basically Tang Yingqiu who spoke, the words were not explicit, and the chat was routine, but it was Tang Yingqiu who took the initiative.In the end, he was suddenly indifferent again, and what he got in exchange was that "Professor Ruan" earnestly confessed.

There is no shortage of people around people like him.

But now it is a catastrophe.

For a moment, Shen Zhitang felt that his mind was empty, and could only rely on his remaining strength to search for all the memories he had pretended to forget, and suddenly found——

These may all be his handwriting. He erased the possibility of his independent life so that he could only live with him.Now that he has finally lost his personality, he should be tired, tired, and then alienate, and find someone who is exactly like him before to continue his love.

His throat seemed to be blocked by something. When he destroyed it with his own hands, when he was imprisoned here and humiliated to such an extent, I didn't feel so sad, and even excused him. Now, all ideals have been shattered.

For a moment, I felt so tired and exhausted, all his irrationality and arrogance in the past came to my mind, but it was the last straw that broke the camel's back.

"Shen Shitang!"

Tang Yingqiu couldn't wait for anyone to come back, and opened the bathroom door, only to find that the bedroom was completely dark. In this way, only the light from the bathroom lit up the small space.

Tang Yingqiu's eyes stopped on Shen Shitang's hand, which had a fluorescent phone screen, and suddenly realized something, rushed over and grabbed the phone and threw it far away. There were still drops of water on his body, and the two of them were close to each other. .

It's obviously Chi//sincerely meeting each other, clinging to each other, the temperature of the water drops keeps rising, it seems that the two people's bodies will be welded together by the incarnation of lava, but Shen Zhitang feels that the two people are separated by hundreds of millions of light years, I don't know what the person in front of me is thinking.

Tang Yingqiu felt that the person in his arms was slowly losing strength, as if his soul had already left his body, leaving only an empty shell for himself, and said: "No, I only love you, really, believe me, I don't I have met anyone other than you, and I only love you, I only have you in my heart, and only you are my belief."

"What are those?" Shen Shitang was being hugged, unable to guess Tang Yingqiu's heart, nor could he see his expression, but his eyes were empty, watching the phone that was thrown away.

"Trust me, those are nothing."

"Then what am I?"

"You are the person I love the most. I just want to spend my whole life with you." After Tang Yingqiu finished speaking, she was about to kiss Shen Shitang.

Shen Zhitang only felt nauseated for a while now, and he still reacted to his closeness, and his spirit was devastated to this point.Shen Shitang pushed the person away forcefully, and just stood there looking at Tang Yingqiu. This life is over, thanks to the person in front of him.

All the sounds were chewed up and swallowed by the darkness, leaving nothing behind.

After a long time, I only heard Shen Shitang say, "I'll listen to your explanation."

In the end, I still have a glimmer of hope, expecting that those are all fake, expecting that Tang Yingqiu can explain that even if he deceives himself, it's fine, don't let his willingness and hope for this relationship be in vain.

Tang Yingqiu's eyes turned red, and she knelt down on the ground slowly, crying, and said: "I don't want to, I don't want to, I'm afraid I'll hurt you, I'm afraid that one day I can't help but want to keep holding you You stay with me, I don't think I can like you too much, I'm going to spread out, but look! You see I'm all a failure, no matter who I walk with, I think of you, they're all like you, They're not you... They came to me and I turned them all down! Look! I turned them all down! I figured it out! I figured out a long time ago that this wouldn't work! I'm afraid you'll feel bad, but I can't help thinking I can't help you if I want you."

Incoherent, pale refutation.

them?

Love?

Yourself?

Even the last glimmer of hope was covered by the darkness with Tang Yingqiu's own hands, Shen Shitang lost his strength and backed away, the sound of the iron chain was still heard, he was tripped and fell on the bed, and in the end he didn't feel uncomfortable anymore, he just had to laugh at himself How stupid, being bullied by the person in front of me for so long, and asking back: "When did I say you hurt me?"

With just this one sentence, Tang Yingqiu suddenly held up the iron chain on the ground, devoutly like a believer, looked up at Shen Shitang, and asked: "What can I do, I don't know what to do, I'm the one who caused you to do this, everything is wrong." It was my fault, it was all my fault! I know it all, and I know it even if you don’t tell me, but I can’t help it, I can’t help it! I’m afraid you will run away, I’m afraid you won’t want me anymore, I Never likable. I'm afraid... I'm not the first person you like, you've liked others, and you've given yourself to others."

Shen Zhitang only felt a shudder all over his body, a rush of qi and blood went straight to his head to make himself dizzy, and asked lightly: "So this is how you deal with it? Find someone else to sleep with, then I'll be ruined and locked up, and then Come to me from time to time, and give me a little bit of your poor love that has been divided up as charity, and then I am grateful to Dade, thank you for remembering me."

"Trap me to death for the rest of my life and become your accessory."

"You always think that I'm not clean, right?" Until now, Shen Shitang still finds that he is still unwilling to tell the truth of the year. He counterattacked, still taking into account his feelings, but the thing made of meat in his chest was about to shatter.

"No, I didn't..." Tang Yingqiu pounced on Shen Shitang like a wild beast, only to get Shen Shitang's sneer.

Tang Yingqiu panicked, and wanted to kiss Shen Shitang, but she didn't get any response. The person in her arms seemed to have really turned into a porcelain doll, without warmth, and she didn't know how to resist.

Finally, Shen Zhitang said: "If you still miss the friendship of the past few years, let me go, and we will let each other go."

Tang Yingqiu went to see Shen Shitang, her eyes lost their brilliance, she even didn't want to look at herself, she closed her eyes, hugged him tightly, pressed her lips against Shen Shitang's skin, and murmured: "Didn't you say you want to stay with me forever Are you kidding? I don't like your joke."

"I, might as well die." Shen Shitang tilted his head, this room has no windows, making it more like a cage, "Your revenge has succeeded."

Shen Shitang spoke calmly, making people feel that he had made such preparations a long time ago. Tang Yingqiu didn't dare to move anymore, and didn't dare to talk to Shen Shitang again, so he ran away.

Lock down a few times.

And Shen Zhitang raised his hand, and now both wrists are tied with a very thick iron chain, which is thicker and heavier than the one on the ankle.

There is nothing wrong with him, the one who is sick is himself.

Shen Zhitang didn't know how many times he fell asleep and woke up. The sun seemed to rise and set several times, but even so, there was still a long night in front of him, and there was pain in his dream. After going around for so many years, he finally ended up like this , It is a mistake to recognize it from the beginning, or to go back and trace it, it is a mistake to be born.

Now that things have happened, I no longer want to cry, but my eyes are dry and I can no longer blow the wind.

The door was opened suddenly, and a person rushed to Shen Shitang's side, and Shen Shitang woke up from his hazy sleep.

The man cursed for no reason at first, then took off his clothes and covered Shen Shitang's body, turned his head to avoid looking at the person, and whispered, "Sorry."

At first he thought it was Tang Yingqiu, but he recognized the person coming from his voice, it was Fu Qinghe, and in a blink of an eye, the iron block that was chained to his body was removed.

Shen Shitang looked at Fu Qinghe suspiciously, he and Tang Yingqiu were in the same group in his memory.

Fu Qinghe scolded even faster, and said, "Tang Yingqiu, he...fucking hell."

Fu Qinghe had no right to ask anything. After helping Tang Yingqiu to send Tang Aichu in, he had fulfilled his long-cherished wish. He was about to pack up his things and return to the United States with Fu Qingyin, but Tang Yingqiu called him back from the airport.

He didn't say anything, he just threw himself a bunch of keys and a small note with the address on it, and then he saw Shen Shitang's current appearance.

Shen Zhitang tried his best to look calm, and asked, "Why are you here, and... this key."

Fu Qinghe was so angry that his head smoked, and said, "I stole it and came to save you."

"Then what will you do if I leave?"

Fu Qinghe was stunned for a moment, he couldn't protect himself and still worried about others, this image coincided with a shadow in his memory, suddenly a place in his heart was hit, and finally he smiled self-deprecatingly, "It's okay, the boyfriend I just made It's a boxing coach, he can't fight."

Shen Zhitang was stunned for a moment, and finally caught the opponent's hand and stood up, still a little unsteady, and said with a smile: "I wish you a long life and grow old together."

"Also, thank you."

It was night when Kang Heng received the call, and he heard Shen Shitang's voice. He said that he was in Ning'an now, and it was not convenient to ask himself.

Then he said, "You are waiting for me at the station, and I will pick you up."

Hastily packed up his clothes, grabbed the keys, and was about to leave. As soon as he opened the door, he saw the man standing at the door put down the phone in his hand, and looked at himself with a smile. blue.

Shen Zhitang put down his cell phone and said with a smile, "Long time no see."

No, it's not the same as before, the arrogance is gone, completely gone.

The author has something to say: It is recommended to cooperate with bgm: "Oasis" Xu Jiaying

[Highlight] Absolutely two places, only each other is clean physically and mentally, after that it will not be counted as a crematorium, but it will be chased again, this time Tangtang's heart is also ruthless.

[The author forced Lai Lai] Tian may have to wait a few days, but he has already driven a [-]D formal lace car for spiritual healing (?

[Plot Explanation] Xiao Tang is just being teased and seduced, he has done nothing, and his body and mind still belong to Tangtang.He was crazy and violent, sick in his heart, always felt that he couldn't keep Tangtang, and locked up Tangtang, and he knew it was wrong in his heart, but he just couldn't turn his head around.That matter has always been a pimple in Xiao Tang's heart, maybe because of the virgin plot (?) I didn't intend to do such an extreme thing, but just now my mother said harsh words, Tangtang still has to leave, It was distorted in my heart, it was the idea of ​​"wanting to find a substitute to distract my love" caused by excessive possessiveness, but in the end it failed, and I could only rely on pain to stimulate and stay awake, so I got a tattoo about Tangtang.