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After returning home, He Yinrong turned on the computer again, and the group was 99 as usual. He clicked in, but found that no one was talking about Deng Kai, and they were discussing where to hold a party in a few days.He couldn't help but feel a little ridiculous.

Li Siyan sent another message looking for him, and he clicked on it - he still remembered Deng Kai's matter.

"I asked my friend on the school team today, but he didn't know Deng Kai at all, so he didn't ask anything." A questioning expression followed.

He Yinrong now knows more than him. Although there are more guesses, he trusts his intuition.The reason why Deng Kai committed suicide must have something to do with his sexuality, maybe he was hit by a single sentence and had a nervous breakdown before he did something stupid.Now there are quite a lot of such news on the Internet, such as school bullying... Deng Kai has such a personality that is conceited due to inferiority complex, the possibility of this is indeed not small.Besides, he likes Tan Xianghui, but Tan Xianghui doesn't know anything about it, and Deng Kai must have been feeling very uncomfortable with pretending to be good buddies with the person he likes every day.I'm afraid this matter really has something to do with Tan Xianghui. For example, Deng Kai confessed to him, and then he was disgusted or even disgusted by him. This is also very likely...

He originally wanted to tell Li Siyan about these conjectures, but he typed a line and deleted it.Before, he thought that the people in that group were ridiculous, but now he is using this matter as a talking point, wouldn't he be even more heartless?Thinking of this, He Yinrong pressed the Backspace button again to delete all the words.Replace it with "Got it" and send it.

After chatting casually with Li Siyan, He Yinrong turned off the computer and turned off the lights in the bedroom, and fell into the quilt, staring at the dark room in a daze.

A group of people like them are really fragile enough.Hide and hide every day, only in places of the same kind can I show some confidence, like a bat that is afraid of light, at dawn, it can only flutter in the dark cave.No, don't bats hang upside down on the rock wall to mate during the day? Thinking of this, he couldn't help laughing.

Since he didn't tell Li Siyan, he certainly didn't need to tell other people in the circle.Turning over, He Yinrong wrapped the quilt up, counted the sheep for a while, and then fell asleep.

His sleep quality has always been good, and he rarely even dreams, but for some reason today, he had a dream all night, and the main character was Tan Xianghui.The content was very boring, but his impression was unprecedentedly deep. When he woke up, he still remembered what Tan Xianghui said to him in his dream, for example, go to play together on weekends.

It's really dazed... He Yinrong rinsed his mouth and washed his face, and was shocked by the cold water, almost getting goose bumps.Could it be that he was caught by Deng Kai?

With such gloomy psychological hints, He Yinrong almost lost the strength to pedal a bicycle, stepped on the class bell and entered the classroom, lying on the desk, self-study early without a teacher to check, he fell into a deep sleep.In his dream, he saw Tan Xianghui again. The two of them stood in front of a row of long faucets, holding water with both hands to wash their faces.Tan Xianghui dried his face and palms with a towel, and smiled at him. While laughing, he scooped up a handful of water and sprinkled it on him... He Yinrong thought how could he not fight back, and was about to turn on the faucet when Tan Xianghui suddenly stretched out his hand Came over to pat his face, with a lot of strength.Only now did He Yinrong realize that this dream was not really a dream, so he gritted his teeth and shook his head, only to knock something down with a bang.

Hearing the sound of books falling to the ground at the end of the classroom, many students turned their heads and looked back. It turned out that He Yinrong accidentally knocked down his bookend. He and Tan Xianghui were picking up books at the moment. .This is nothing new, so everyone looks back.

"...Thank you." Before recovering from the dream just now, He Yinrong's eyes inevitably dodged a little. Tan Xianghui knew nothing about it, and said frankly, "It's okay." But this sentence is so ordinary that it can't be more ordinary , but inexplicably made He Yinrong's ears turn red.He subconsciously stretched out his hand to touch his earlobe, feeling a little flustered, what... is this all about.

The so-called thinking day by day and dreaming at night, what exactly was he thinking these past few days to have such a dream?Taking a sneak peek at Tan Xianghui who picked up the pen again and followed the teacher's progress to take notes, He Yinrong inevitably thought of the picture in his dream again——Tan Xianghui, who had been cold and expressionless, would actually show that kind of gentle smile to him, and, this There was no maliciousness in this smile that he could often see on the faces of other boys, it was pure, clear, and as warm as the sun in early spring.Really, it's ridiculous.

His ears were so hot that they almost burned.

Speaking of which, his existence may have been absurd in the first place.Even though he doesn't only like the same sex, the last time he had a "normal reaction" to the opposite sex was a few years ago.He thought it was a disease at first, and so did the bad friends who watched island movies with him in junior high school. It didn’t make sense that other people watched it with great interest, but he was indifferent. This is not normal. .He didn't take this matter too seriously until the afternoon of his junior high school graduation, after rejecting the confessions of more than a dozen girls, he received a hug from a boy.After loosening his arms, the boy said, I will always remember you.

After saying this sentence, his lips obviously moved, but he seemed to be dumb again, and didn't say anything.He Yinrong looked at his hesitantly fluttering lips, and somehow felt that the sentence he didn't say was the same as that of the dozen or so girls before.

He knew that he was liked by many people, but he didn't expect that among the "many people", there would be a boy.A boy of his gender.

What happened later, He Yinrong himself was very confused.He didn't know what was going on with him either. Within a few weeks of entering high school, he entered a circle full of "similar" people. They had chat groups and group activities—for example, they accidentally broke into Tan Xianghui's sports student's room at KTV. That time in the box, he was meeting with his kind.There is even a process similar to a blind date introduction.However, he generally would not participate in this kind of thing, because he never lacked so-called boyfriends. His face gave him an advantage over ordinary people, and also gave him the capital to act recklessly.He never liked any of them, just like a playful seven or eight-year-old child who entered a playground, played all day, and when he was done playing enough, he put on his schoolbag and left to go to the next amusement park field, or museum, zoo.In short, he is just a sightseeing tourist, hastily experienced it, and stepped into the next stop neatly, not feeling nostalgic for any kind of scenery.He did this only because he was bored and wanted to pass the time. Apart from that, he had no other desires, nor did he have the kind of "impulse bursting out of ideals" as the teacher said.

He knew that this boring life would not last forever, but he didn't know when it would end.This sudden dream without warning, like a dividing line, opened the prelude to another life.

A season he had never seen, came.

One weekend after the monthly exam, Fu Lili slipped to Tan Xianghui's house, knocked on the door, and almost screamed out of fright.She wore a peaked cap with the brim pulled down very low, and covered her face with a black mask, looking like a thief.Seeing him open the door, Fu Lili was about to rush in without saying a word, but Tan Xianghui quickly stopped her and asked in a low voice, "What's wrong with you!"

"You first—" Fu Lili's voice was raised high, and Tan Xianghui immediately covered her mouth, to be precise, it was a mask.Hurriedly holding her half in his arms, he took a step forward, still wearing slippers on his feet, and walked out of the house like this.He stared at Fu Lili's big blank eyes, and asked again helplessly: "My dad is at home, you can't go in... What's wrong with you?"

"Can I stay at your house for one night?" Fu Lili pulled off her mask, revealing a flushed face.

"No." He refused without hesitation.

The face that was flushed before turned pale immediately. Fu Lili put on an aggrieved expression and looked at him pitifully, but Tan Xianghui showed no sign of softening. He shook his head firmly, showing that his position was unshakable.

"Then you can stay with me for two hours... just two hours!" She had no choice but to lower her request.

He looked down at the watch on his wrist, it was only 06:30, and two hours later, he still had time to send Fu Lili back to her home.So Tan Xianghui nodded, and told her helplessly: "You wait for me in the stairwell for a while, and I will go in and pack up." Fu Lili, my eyes immediately brightened, and I nodded obediently.

After leaving the residential area, Tan Xianghui naturally asked "where are you going", but Fu Lili shook her head and said "I don't know".

"What happened to you?"

"Well... just want to stay with you for a while." Fu Lili dodged her eyes, pulled Tan Xianghui's sleeve with one hand, pointed to a street on the right with the other and said, "Let's go to school by that road, go to the playground and sit down." chat……"

Tan Xianghui followed her movements and footsteps, but there was no agreement in his tone, and even a little anxiety: "Tell me first, what's wrong with you today, is it your family——"

"No, it's not my parents." Fu Lili took off the peaked cap on her head, raised her feet to reach the top of his head, and Tan Xianghui bent down to let her lightly put the cap on top of her head.After helping him put it on, Fu Lili bit her lip and said stammeringly: "Today, a girl who lives in the same dormitory with me confessed to me..."