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This weekend, Tan Xianghui also had a party to attend. The captain of the school team called him personally to ask him if he had time to get together as the school team was sending away a group of seniors.

In terms of time, he has a lot of free time. He spends the whole weekend lying in a daze at home, or walking in a daze on the street.However, the collective of the school team already had a subtle sense of strangeness to him.He couldn't tell whether he wanted to go or not, so he could only answer ambiguously: "I'll go when I'm free." do not wait for me".

When the appointed time came, he still put on his out clothes and walked towards the bus stop at the gate of the community.At 10:30 in the morning, there was no one on the bus, but instead of sitting down, he stood holding the handrail.Sitting in the seat, he always felt empty and uncomfortable around him, he would rather stand.

After Deng Kai passed away, he had some conversations with members of the school team, but his attitude was very cold, making it difficult for people to ask questions, so they could only comfort each other for a while, and then let him go.It wasn't that he wasn't sad, and it wasn't that he didn't want to talk about this dead friend, but when he opened his mouth, his throat seemed to be choked by something, and he couldn't say a word he wanted to say.

This kind of situation couldn't be more common. When his mother passed away, he was like this. After so many years, even with his father, he didn't mention it too much.Fu Lili knew about his mother, but she didn't get it from him. Although she was sometimes dazed and out of tune, when she should be smart, she was always too smart.She probably heard all these cognitions from adults, so she cares about his feelings very much.He was very grateful for Fu Lili's concern.

Deng Kai also cared about him in the same way.To be with someone who is unsmiling or even scary for a long time is a rare concern in itself.

Today he managed to meet so many school team members, he thought, he really should get rid of this problem and talk to them about the name Deng Kai.In the past, he didn't want to know the real reason of Deng Kai's suicide, but now it's different, he eagerly wants to know the ins and outs of this matter... He never thought that one day, he would lose this hard-won friend, and he would be so happy for him. He felt this unspeakable guilt.Deng Kai's mood, no matter whether the world accepts it or not, he will respect everything about him as always.Even if he doesn't like people of the same sex, he doesn't resent the wishes of a deceased person.

He Yinrong didn't even know why he was so angry. When he swept the empty juice cup on the table to the ground, Fu Lili had already walked away.She obviously didn't say any outrageous words, just chatting purely, but he always felt that the words uttered from that beautiful mouth were as sharp as knives.He knew he was jealous, but he didn't want to admit that Tan Xianghui didn't deserve his care... It's just that he always had such a cold look, which made people feel curious and wanted to get closer to him more, the relationship between people Isn't it just like this? Tan Xianghui is indifferent to everyone, so he is so enthusiastic. If it is reversed, he will not have so many wild thoughts.But he...

It was probably anger at his incompetence.

The movement of him throwing the cup was not small, and there were already several men and women around who were eagerly looking at this side. He Yinrong hated such eyes.He frowned, did not hide his emotions at all, stood up, and strode towards the box area, even the lines of his profile were full of hostility.A short-haired girl sitting on a high chair by the bar watched him leave... Later Fu Lili came back from the toilet, she had to talk to her about this interesting scene.

Before the autumn school sports meeting, the head teacher lobbied in the class in a serious manner, persuading people to sign up for the competition.Because their class is not very good at studying, as an ordinary class, there are not many grade requirements from above. Instead, the class teacher is more concerned about participating in the school sports meeting, winning a few awards, and adding some comprehensive test scores to the class.It's a pity that the students' interest in the competition is not high, and there are very few people who take the initiative to sign up.After thinking about it for a while, the head teacher remembered that there was only one student in the class who was specialized in physical education. Although it was past tense, he was still better than ordinary people.

Called Tan Xianghui to the office to ask, but received his rejection.

Of course, Tan Xianghui's answer was not willful. His knee injury did not allow him to participate in strenuous sports such as competitions.Regarding the matter of honoring the class, it is really powerless.After calmly stating his reasons, the teacher in charge didn't need to pester him anymore, so he comforted him a few words regretfully, and then let him go back to the classroom.

During the time when he was called out, He Yinrong hardly used his brain, but thought of the reason why Tan Xianghui was "summoned" by the class teacher, and the little calculations in his heart started again.

This month has not been easy. At first, He Yinrong thought about how to mend his relationship with Tan Xianghui, but when he thought of Fu Lili, he felt that this matter was extremely unnecessary.After a few days of ignorance, he finally surrendered to his instinct, and began to chat with Tan Xianghui a few times, but found that Tan Xianghui's reaction was the same as before he peeked at the letter.After he was relieved, he began to look for more news about Tan Xianghui, inquiring left and right, and only then did he understand his knee injury clearly.But apart from this, there is no more "story" worth remembering... Speaking of it, Tan Xianghui is like a person who has no past. He asked his junior high school classmates, but he didn't ask anything.The junior high school students had the impression that he was a male student who was not good at words and had no sense of presence. Even if he joined the school team, he never raised any topics.

When Tan Xianghui came back from the office, He Yinrong held his chin and asked casually, "What did the old class say?"

"Ask me if I want to participate in the school sports meeting, but I refuse." He answered honestly and calmly.

really.He Yinrong turned his face and thought for a while, but still asked the doubt in his heart: "Have you ever injured your knee?" Tan Xianghui seemed a little surprised that he would know about it, but the surprise only flashed in his eyes, and he answered The voice was as emotionless as ever: "Well, last year."

"It's a pity... Don't girls say that boys who are good at sports are the most handsome?"

"Hmm." Tan Xianghui responded perfunctorily, thinking in his heart, "I'm not good at sports, and it's not to attract girls."

He Yinrong saw that his reaction to this topic was very cold, and he couldn't help but start to have some strange thoughts again - before Fu Lili said that they were boyfriend and girlfriend, but this was her one-sided statement, and Tan Xianghui never said whether he had sex or not. In love.From his experience, Tan Xianghui really didn't look like someone who had been in a relationship before. How could a lively, outgoing and beautiful girl like Fu Lili stand such a taciturn and boring boyfriend.Still, if she was lying, why would she have to sacrifice her "innocence"?Frowning and thinking for a while, He Yinrong suddenly realized, no wonder he had such an unknown anger before, and even pushed the cup... Maybe it was because what Fu Lili said was to clear up the relationship between him and Tan Xianghui .She knew that he was gay, but Tan Xianghui was not. She pretended to say those words to dispel his "evil thoughts" about Tan Xianghui, and she wanted to protect Tan Xianghui.

Thinking of this, his hand clenched into a fist unconsciously.

"Why don't you sign up for a relay race or something?"

I thought this was the end of the topic, but just as Tan Xianghui took out a textbook from the bookend, he heard He Yinrong say this.The relay race... It's actually a fun competition, five men and five women, 10 x 200 meters, if you win the top three, you can really add a lot of points to the class.However, he was still not very interested. After all, the meniscus injury was out of his control. If he didn't heal, he might have to go to the hospital.But seeing He Yinrong's encouraging and expectant eyes, he felt his heart softened again, his Adam's apple moved, and he replied: "Let's talk."

When the bell rang for the end of class, the sports committee member immediately jumped onto the podium, supported the podium with both hands, and announced loudly: "Those who want to sign up for the school sports meeting should come to me to register! After the deadline at noon tomorrow, those who have not registered for the events will be arrested directly. Go up!" The classroom immediately became noisy, some people began to get close to the sports committee, looking at the schedule, some laughed and pushed each other, and said some jokes to each other.Although He Yinrong sat in the last row, he was not left behind, and soon chatted with a group of boys.Only Tan Xianghui was still sitting there, holding a carbon pen in his hand, staring in a daze at the excitement that filled the entire classroom.

Zhu Ziqing's famous lines have been recited by his teacher since he was a child, but at this moment, those words came alive in his heart.Tan Xianghui suddenly remembered many things, such as what Deng Kai said to him, "I have never been afraid of you", and Fu Lili's light and warm breathing when she fell asleep leaning on his shoulder... and earlier, Standing on tiptoe, he couldn't even reach the fruit plate on the table, he could only stare at the bunch of crystal-clear purple grapes on the plate in a daze.A hand patted on his head suddenly, followed by a woman's gentle voice, she asked him: "Which one do you want to eat?"

"...Grape." He said, his face was a little hot.

His mother chose half a bunch of grapes, held up his two hands, and put them in his palms. Seeing how red his ears were, she couldn't help smiling and comforting her: "Don't be shy, when you need help from others, say Just come out."

The little man nodded firmly, those plump grapes were lying in his palm, which seemed to weigh a thousand catties.

Tan Xianghui lowered his head and flipped through the textbooks on the table. The sadness that was aroused by the memory just now has disappeared without a trace.He is not a weak person, and he has no wounds that need to be comforted by others to heal. He only needs to do his own thing well.