Forbidden City of Heze + Dalufei

"Tell me," in the bright and retro room, although the friend standing at the desk had uncontrollable anger on his face, he still tried to maintain his demeanor in front of him, "When did it start?"

I have entered his office countless times, but for the first time he didn't give up his seat politely, Longfei looked at Yixu unmoved, and asked easily, "What do you mean?"

The knowing answer aroused Yoshizuki's emotions, he no longer hesitated, walked over and put his fist on the opponent's face.It's been a long time since he couldn't bear it anymore and needed to fight. He even hoped that the other party would fight back quickly so that he could punch him harder again.

"What's going on with you and Junliu? When did you become that kind of relationship?!"

"..." Long Fei wiped the left side of his face with the back of his hand. He didn't retaliate like the fights between friends, but said without changing his face, "You know?"

"Someone saw it, on campus! How much face do you two have to lose to be reconciled! You should know that before you received your retirement certificate, you were too close to the junior students... no, no, it's not too close anymore It's too much!" Yixu was a little incoherent because of his excitement.Although he has long been used to Long Fei's reckless behavior, the other party's actions this time clearly exceeded his bottom line, "This is a fucking crime! I already have enough reasons to send you to a military court!"

"It's our freedom to communicate with each other." Long Fei licked the red and swollen corners of his mouth, still not feeling guilty, instead he joked forcefully, "I thought the democracy in this country would at least advocate the freedom of love." .”

"You obviously did it on purpose." Yixu teased him unintentionally, grabbed his collar and forced him to look at himself seriously, "Don't think I don't know what you're thinking, you clearly know that Junliu is the most precious brother s things."

"Long Fei, more than ten years have passed since what happened to Shuya. How can you forgive us? How can you take revenge on our family to feel at ease?! Don't you think this kind of behavior is shameful?!"

"...I don't know what you're talking about." Long Fei was silent for a moment, then replied coldly, "Jun Liu and I are in love with each other, it's as simple as that."

Yixu was about to lose his breath when he heard this, but he calmed down when he was extremely angry.For the time being, he let go of this bastard who can only cause trouble, and walked back and forth a few times anxiously, before choking out another sentence, "If brother finds out, he must kill you!"

"Hearing what you said, I really want to see his reaction." Long Fei looked at the ceiling with some empty eyes, as if he was imagining the cold face of the man in his memory, "I came back so I haven't summoned him for a long time, so Yizheng will treat me as a dead person long ago, right?"

"Brother is not such a heartless person." Yixu heard the resentment in the other party's words, and patiently argued.He understands that the knot between these two people may never be unraveled, but he still doesn't want Long Fei to continue clinging to this hatred, "The house in the nursing home waiting for you is the one he personally created for you." You chose it, and he even made a special trip to see it, to make sure that all the facilities are complete. It’s fine if you don’t appreciate it, but he really tried his best to make it up to you!”

"Oh, I know. He asked Junliu to come to me. If it is one of the compensations, then I am really satisfied..."

"Damn it, can you twist it a little more?!" Yixu interrupted his ugly words, and really admired himself for being able to continue playing the piano to the cow rationally, "Brother, he obviously trusts you completely, so he entrusted Junliu to you to teach , that kid has to get used to the battlefield earlier and learn how to command the army, that's why I agreed with him to go. Why don't you fucking do this kind of stupid thing to repay us?"

"Didn't I tell you, everyone was involuntary about what happened back then, why haven't you figured it out yet?" Yixuan stopped and sighed, looking at the man who had lost his beloved because of their decision , The guilt that has not disappeared made his anger go out like a fire from the bottom of the pot, "Brother and I never forced her, Shuya is voluntary. She went to negotiate with neighboring countries on behalf of He Ze, who would have thought that she would be favored by the other party?" ?Although it is really unfair to her, if she does not go to Midland, the other party's willingness to form an alliance will not be delayed until when the outbreak of war is imminent, even if it is for the sake of the people of the whole country, sacrifice one person……"

"You still have the face to say that she is voluntary?" Long Fei's voice changed suddenly, and he felt a convulsion from the inside out, "Don't tell me that you have to destroy a little girl's happiness to keep ours. Country, is this your despicable righteousness?! Don't make me sick! As a man, I'm so fucking ashamed!"

In an instant, the entire chest was shaking.Before Long Fei realized it, he had already lost his mind. He had been suppressed by time for a long time, and the hatred that he thought had been dusty had raged in his heart again, and the wound was pulled to a bloody mess. He has spent endless days and nights on the battlefield, and it is impossible to forget him.

"If my army is strong enough to defeat the enemy even without an alliance, of course no woman will be treated as a needless victim. Unfortunately, we are weak." Yizheng's voice echoed sharply in his ears, and he would always refute Can't answer.That day, the king in pajamas walked into the living room in the early hours of the morning, looked at him who was still kneeling in place, slowly sat down on the sofa opposite, and said softly, "Hate me, Long Fei, and hate yourself too, we all A pathetic weakling. But the difference is that I will continue to carry on with this patheticness, and your current appearance will only make yourself more pathetic."

After hearing these words, Long Fei finally got up from the ground, walked out the door silently, and left Shangguan's house and the Royal Military Academy ever since.Having experienced the long years of war, he actually wants to forgive Yoshiaki more than anyone else, but he doesn't know how to erase the tragedy that happened in his mind.Shuya, who was always so healthy and lively before she left, married an old king who could be her father at that age, and died of illness in a distant land in only the third year, before even hearing Long Fei's first good news from the battlefield .As for Long Fei, who only learned of her death after two months, it was as if his soul had been extinguished with the last embers of fire. Missed in the middle, and finally lost in the despair at the ends of life and death.

Rushing out of Yixu's office, Long Fei bumped into the boy standing in the corridor.

He froze on the spot, looking at Junliu who was also bewildered, opened his mouth but couldn't speak.He felt that there was no need to confirm, for there was no doubt that the other party had heard everything they argued verbatim.

"Are you finished talking? Can I go in?" Jun Liu lowered his eyes, slowly opened his tightly closed lips, and his calm tone still maintained the utmost calmness.Seeing that Long Fei refused to give way, he raised his head and glanced at him. It was rare for this man to show an embarrassing expression under the boy's unemotional gaze.

Ruined.Longfei thought subconsciously, so he had no choice but to take a step to the side, let Junliu pass by him without seeing him, opened the door and went in.He looked back at Yixu who was sitting at the desk, a little admiring the little trap set by this man, after all he already knew him very well, of course Yixu knew what kind of topics could cause him to lose his composure.

Looking at his tense-faced nephew, the principal, who has always been known for his understanding, was not in a hurry to provoke him immediately, but asked as normal as possible, "Where have you been these few days?"

"Did you call me here suddenly to ask this?" Junliu's mood fluctuated slightly, and he obviously understood that it was no coincidence that he could hear the quarrel this time.

"Answer my question." Yi Xujiao clasped his hands and looked directly at him, putting some pressure on the child who had made a big mistake and was not about to give in.

Although he was holding his breath, Junliu didn't want to start a meaningless argument, and said in a straightforward manner, "Xiao Luo is sick recently, and I went to take care of him for a few days."

"Xiao Luo...?" Yi Xu murmured to himself, while searching for the name in his memory, until he finally remembered the boy's appearance, "Since when did you get so close to him? I've heard that he's not used to it. Training, I have called the school doctor’s attention a few days ago, and you won’t be able to help if you go there, if there are too many absences, the tactical officer has the right to repeat your grade, understand?”

Looking at the young man who was still absent-minded, Yi Xu patted the table unbearably, "Answer when you hear it, where are your rules?"

"I see, sir." Junliu replied somewhat reluctantly, he took a deep breath, feeling that the room was stuffy.

"Is there anything that needs to be explained about the matter between you and Long Fei?" Yi Xu asked after a pause. Although his tone was harsh, the atmosphere was much more relaxed than the previous one.

"No." Junliu replied calmly without blinking his eyes, and the image of Longfei just now lingered in his mind, "The truth is that simple, I have nothing to say."

"I'm not only asking you as a superior, but also as your uncle." Yixuan was obviously dissatisfied with his negative attitude, "Your father asked me to discipline you, so this is my duty. Besides, You didn't enlist in the army in the first year, so you should already have the consciousness of being a soldier, what is written in the sixth article of the first chapter of the school's school rules? Recite it to me, and speak louder."

Junliu hesitated for a moment, then reluctantly said, "...the professional relationship between professional soldiers and the unity of the unit are based on mutual trust and mutual respect in the camp environment. Sexual activities in the camp environment will Corrosion of mutual trust and respect, and distraction from the readiness of the units concerned to accomplish their missions, is therefore unjustifiable, unprofessional, and unacceptable."

After fluently reciting the regulations that must be reviewed every semester, the teenager in the rebellious period stopped talking. He obviously understood that the violation of the prohibition this time was not comparable to skipping a class.Junliu's life experience is only at the initial stage, and the school rules of the military academy have established most of his code of conduct, so he still cannot completely let go of his guilt.

"If this matter is really spread, the impact will be bad, so I will not say anything. If you can correct your behavior in time, I will not tell your father. After all, you are the victim..."

"No," before he finished speaking, Junliu couldn't help but say, "I did it voluntarily."

"Shangguan Junliu." Yi Xu stood up, and said to the unconscious boy with a long face, "You are still underage and cannot be responsible for some of your actions, and this is the only reason why I am kind to you. Long Fei is more than 20 years older than you, you don't understand the nature of his behavior, right? He must take full responsibility. You heard it just now, and he admitted that he was blaming you."

"I don't care what purpose he is with me, since the mistake has already been made, it doesn't affect your judgment on the result." Junliu felt a heavy heart, and couldn't help raising his voice, "However, you Don't you feel a little guilty to question him from the standpoint of the past incident?"

Yixu was at a loss for words.This boy's sharpness sometimes makes people very troublesome. He once thought that he could be constrained to develop in the direction of his ideal according to the way of thinking of ordinary children, but the result is that Junliu has maintained himself in many situations and has possessed it early. independent judgment ability.

"Rather than saying that I am a victim, I don't feel that I have lost anything. In fact, it is better to say that he who met me was more unlucky. He suffered irreparable injuries and was kicked out of the army. This person had nothing to do with us, but Didn't the Shangguan family owe him enough for sacrificing their love and life to us?"

Junliu lowered his eyebrows, and the heaviness in his heart turned into a kind of pain.He had a faint feeling before that this relationship was like his unrequited love.Even if it's just a child's longing for a mature man, he does rely on Long Fei physically and mentally.If it weren't for the strong support of this man, Jun Liu would not have been able to get through the blows he experienced on the battlefield so quickly.In contrast, Long Fei never seriously talked to him about himself, and all temptations were perfunctory.

But just a few minutes ago, Junliu witnessed this man's real anger for the first time, and glimpsed his secretive past. This huge strangeness gave him a strong shock.

Junliu's heart seemed to be pierced by the shock, he finally knew that the memories buried deep in Long Fei's heart, the person this man cherished the most, had always been there, but it was completely out of his reach.

So unwilling.Junliu clenched his fist tightly, but felt more and more powerless.

"Anyway... I will have someone send him to Junlan's nursing home as soon as possible." Yixu was a little discouraged by his questioning, and because he noticed the boy's depression, he dispelled the idea of ​​continuing to blame him, and he coughed vaguely With a sound, he resumed his business-like and reserved tone, "Your misconduct has violated military law, and you have long been qualified to be inspected. If I let you go again, I will lose the prestige of managing the school in the future."

"It's at your convenience, sir, you don't need to explain to me."

"From tomorrow onwards, you will be subject to behavioral inspections, a one-month restricted period, and 20 days of heavy physical discipline duties. Every day, you need to report your whereabouts for a day to the company tactical officer. At the same time, you will be demerited ten times and automatically downgraded to two. Class-level students, except for classrooms, dining halls, dormitories, and duty locations, are prohibited from participating in any activities or dating anyone in other places in the camp this month, and the punishment decision will be handed over to you in writing by the disciplinary officer later.”

After Junliu silently accepted the heavy punishment he had never had since he entered school, when he came out of the old brick building covered with vines, he saw Long Fei sitting on the usual flower bed smoking a cigarette.

For a long time, even if he was close enough to be skin-to-skin, he was used to looking at Long Fei from a distance.The deep and hard outline is nothing but the expression of the humble and impure blood, the eyes that are bloodshot due to fatigue are surrounded by fine gullies, and the rough skin with grains is often gray and black due to the coverage of gunpowder smoke.Compared with the elegant and suave nobles or officials who often go in and out of the house, Jun Liu saw him on the battlefield as unbearably sloppy.The way this man smokes without saying a word, the way he sloppily puts on his tie when he wakes up, the way he concentrates on formulating a strategy, and the way he swears unreservedly when he is in a hurry, are all more real than when he was kissing him.

Seeing him cast his eyes here, Junliu walked over slowly, and asked calmly, "Are you waiting for me?"

"I think you might have something to tell me." Long Fei narrowed his deep-set eyes slightly, and took down the burnt cigarette butt from his mouth, without making eye contact with him, he patted it off with his sleeve. Wiping off the dust on the stone platform beside him, "Sit down."

As soon as he sat down, Long Fei stretched out his hand to rub his hair, and asked softly, "Have you been scolded?"

Junliu shook his head, and said after a while, "I want to ask a question."

"When you hugged me, was your heart full of hatred?"

"Heh," Long Fei smiled, took out a cigarette and lit it again, "If other emotions are involved in making love, it will be very unpleasant."

Hearing the other party's unserious tone at this time, Junliu couldn't laugh at all, "I've heard about my aunt before, do you still hate my father now?"

Long Fei took a deep breath, thought for a while and said, "I can't forgive him yet. But it has nothing to do with you."

Junliu felt a little better in his heart, although it was only a little bit.He couldn't wait to say, "There are many things about you that you have never told me. It feels like you have always treated me as a child?"

"You are a child." Long Fei snorted softly, and was about to smoke again, and added jokingly, "If I could make the other person conceive when I had sex for the first time, the child I gave birth would be better than yours now." Much bigger."

"Bastard." The young man gritted his teeth and decided not to pay for his nonsense anymore, and said with a single brain, "If you really treat me like a child, don't do such a thing that is worse than a beast! I didn't know anything before you , I don’t have any defensive experience, and I was played around by you at all. I have only lived for more than ten years, and you accounted for everything, but so long before I was born, you have your own life, what do you do? I have no idea what happened. It's not fair! I hate it."

"Hahaha, don't say such cute words, I won't be able to resist kissing you." Long Fei laughed loudly, put his face next to the boy's ear, and exhaled a puff of smoke instead of his kiss, but the other party choked so hard that he couldn't help coughing. stop.

Junliu pushed his face away with an angry and anxious expression.Obviously it is the real pain in my heart, no matter how serious I say it, it is always treated as childish by the other party.Junliu has never been so worried about his youth, and his more mature words and deeds have already pretended to be very tired. It is only because this man's aura is too strong, which makes him unconsciously want to run after him and get closer to where he is. , is equal to him.

But he finally understood that the traces deposited by time on a person's body and mind are the most stubborn, like the gullies scoured by rivers for thousands of years, which have become the lines of the soul, each of which requires him to spend the same long time to engrave .

"Don't keep putting on airs of an adult in front of me, as if you take everything lightly." Junliu was a little unconvinced by his frivolity, and unconsciously accentuated his tone, "Actually, no one is as naive as you, even one passed away. I don't care for cowards that women of six or seven years can't let go of."

"'Coward'...you are worthy of being Yizheng's son, the words and sentences are so similar." Long Fei didn't argue, shook off a piece of soot, and looked at the thick clouds in the sky thoughtfully, "I was taught by him ten years ago, and I will be taught by you when I come back ten years later. I really haven't made any progress."

Hearing a trace of frustration in his tone, Junliu fell silent, and quietly turned his head to look at Longfei's profile.The other party took a few puffs of cigarettes. Although his expression didn't change much, he was obviously caught up in some thoughts. When the smile faded from the corner of his mouth, a heavy sense of vicissitudes would instantly reveal from his brows.

Neither of them spoke for a minute, and their emotions seemed to settle down.He exhaled a mouthful of choking white smoke, his eyes were still vacant towards the distance, the clouds above his head were gradually lowering like rain, and the tone was so gloomy as the melancholy that could not be dispersed by each other.

"Every time it rains, my leg hurts." As he spoke, he moved his right leg, which was repaired with steel plates and prostheses. It was shot by a bullet when the master commanded the retreat Hit by a grenade that exploded at close range.

"On the battlefield, there is no right or wrong. Everyone is a murderer. During war, there will be no normal morality. Many soldiers with a passionate sense of justice came to the front line, and it didn't take long for them to fall into emptiness. At least For me, when I killed the first enemy, I no longer have any expectations for the future." Long Fei lowered his head and said to himself, "In my last battle, I lost this line. legs, my best comrade-in-arms, and nearly a third of the soldiers. Afterwards, you never rejected me again, are you sympathizing with me, or are you guilty of this leg?"

Junliu's heart tightened unavoidably immediately, he held his cold fingers, unable to utter a word.

Less than a week after returning to the capital from the front, news of the defeat came.The commander made a wrong judgment due to a mistake in the intelligence collected and deciphered before the war.The main force on the northwest front line fell into the trap of the enemy attacking east and west, and suffered heavy casualties.

The lives of tens of thousands of soldiers made Junliu overwhelmed, and his entire psychological defense collapsed in an instant.There is no need to take any risks in the training in the military academy, but the cruelty of the actual war does not have the slightest fluke.He locked himself in the room and didn't dare to see anyone. During the worst days, his consciousness began to be in a trance, like a walking dead.The blow was so fatal that it destroyed all his strong confidence.After a period of psychological intervention and medication-assisted treatment, he reluctantly returned to school.

Seeing Long Fei again after being injured, every bump he walks makes Jun Liu's heart tremble.This man gave up the chance to evacuate safely and insisted on commanding the large troops that were struggling until they were out of trouble. It was he who made up for Junliu's fault and avoided a greater sacrifice.After that, the reasons for the defeat on the front line were blocked to the outside world, and the only thing people knew was that the general they regarded as a hero was finally confused and failed everyone's expectations, so he was always treated coldly and even slandered after he returned to China.

No one came to hold Jun Liu accountable, and even Long Fei's attitude towards him didn't change at all, but this was really too bad, and the sense of guilt that couldn't be relieved made him extremely despise himself.

Long Fei frowned, what he couldn't bear the most was Jun Liu's silence, like a child who made a mistake and kept away from him, avoiding his attention, making it unclear who was punishing whom.So he put out the cigarette butt, stretched out his hand and turned his face away, and said loudly, "There must be a limit to slowness, don't you understand? I have been relying on you all the time."

Looking at the boy's wide-eyed eyes, Long Fei brushed his dry hand over his forehead, showing a gentle expression, "After meeting you, I gradually remembered why I was fighting. Not only the I am alone, you don’t want to stay in a safe headquarters, and you insisted on following my troops on the front line for half a year, didn’t you know that everyone’s morale was boosted by you? Seeing you working hard, everyone’s eyes There is brilliance, but you didn't notice it at all?"

"Your Highness, you are not a small soldier, but the spiritual pillar of the entire army. You were not born to fight on the battlefield, but you must give value to all soldiers. It is because of you that I feel This value, so my soldiers and I will gladly die for you."

"Longfei...!"

The man smiled self-deprecatingly, without stopping, "The life of a soldier is nothing but a tool that can only fight. At least you must perform the duties of the tool well. It is your love that whitewashes me so well, flattering me to the point of getting carried away .You don't even know where you went wrong, do you? Huh?"

Seeing Junliu's bewildered expression, Long Fei felt a little relented.Many times, he also felt that he was being too strict with this child.If he could really choose, Long Fei would prefer that he be an unknown soldier who would serve under his command all his life, rather than a prince who needs to grow up during the war. The road waiting for the latter will undoubtedly be more difficult.When he thought of this, the figure of Yizheng appeared in his mind.

"In short, I thank you for your love, but please don't underestimate my enlightenment." He put away his selfishness, turned his gaze to Junliu, and said calmly, "Learn more from your father in the future."

Why are you so gentle and ruthless from beginning to end?

Junliu stared at him blankly, unable to speak.The sense of distance between the two captured him again.Although he obtained comfort from the other party's sincere words as he wished, at the same time another inexplicable sadness enveloped him, silently captivating him into the shadows.

When class was approaching in the afternoon, Junliu left in a hurry. His bad record was already too heavy. If he was absent again, the final evaluation report would really be invisible.

The farewell between the two was not muddled, but they agreed that Junliu would come to see him off when Longfei set off for Junlan.Watching the boy deliberately speed up his pace and walk away, his back quickly blurred.Long Fei still sat where he was, lit another cigarette in boredom, and waited for the raindrops to fall.

If I had known that I left so suddenly, I should have done it a few times before, and I shouldn't be polite to him.He breathed smoke rings into the sky, thinking gloomily.Although Jun Lan is not too far away from the Royal Military Academy, it is always not convenient to live in the school, and the chances of seeing each other in the future may be rare.

"Hey, I really don't want to let go." Long Fei stretched his waist and lay down on the flower bed.The military uniform has already been taken off, and he is no longer welcome, so he simply doesn't have to worry about his image anymore, and can be as presumptuous as he was when he was young.

Let's go play with him again tonight.After this thought surfaced, his frowned brows relaxed a little.

At this time, out of the corner of his eyes, he noticed a person standing not far away. Long Fei turned his face and cast his gaze straight over, but the person did not dodge, but took two steps forward.The blue and white uniform is particularly conspicuous in this place far away from the Air Force Academy.

The opponent's aura is not ordinary, and it cannot be ignored.Long Fei sat up, looked at the young lieutenant in front of him who was staring at him unscrupulously, and felt that his face was indescribably familiar.

"Are you...?" He took off his half-puffed cigarette and asked suspiciously.

Yan Liang didn't answer, but just looked at him coldly.Objectively speaking, he still admires this man's courage. He has changed from a country boy with no background to a close friend of the Shangguan family, sharing their lives and secrets with these supreme power holders, and even occupying their possessions. Feelings, this is something that Yanliang dare not think about at all, because he doesn't know how to position himself so that he can get along with Junliu.

An irrelevant outsider can kiss him, hug him, and demand everything from him without any scruples.And he was obviously a member of Shangguan's family, but he couldn't get close to him, let alone touch him.Rather, it is precisely because of this blood relationship that the young man is out of reach.Faced with this helpless reality, Yanliang has only one way: just like how he brutally ruined Junliu's kindness many years ago, the beautiful cake handed over by him, and the other party's very hurt expression met his emotional needs, giving Junliu It gave him a sense of security, and that sense of security cannot be taken away by anyone.

He clenched his fists, looked at the uncomfortable cripple in front of him, and the words he spit out were like hailstones hitting the stone pavement.

"Go away, stay away from him."