Forbidden City of Heze + Dalufei

Zi Luo was deeply irritated, and subconsciously wanted to refute him, but he opened his mouth but did not make a sound. Instead, he took a deep breath, trying to suppress his rash impulse.

He left each other in silence for more than ten seconds, and waited until Junliu's hostility eased a little, then slowly said: "Junliu, you have to let yourself go."

"Look at me, think about when we were together, drive those dirty things out of your mind, you have already left that hell, forget about it." Ziluo looked at his dull face, his mood changed from excitement to Shen Shen, "What we are doing is different from them. You are my Shangguan Junliu, and you have never changed. In my heart, you are the best, noblest, kindest, and bravest man. What's wrong, it's the beasts who persecute you, don't give your soul to them."

Junliu looked at him steadfastly, and suddenly sneered, "I'm not your best Shangguan Junliu. Not anymore."

He had no choice but to lower his head, avoiding the piercing gaze, and said with his heart trembling violently: "I have long forgotten who I am. I can't meet your expectations of me, and I have completely given up. My parents, My family members have been killed, no one can prove my innocence, my people still hate me, both Bangdu and Dalufei will never let me go back to Heze, the Eastern Alliance is also controlled by Leishu, I have no Any possibility to fight them again, no possibility...to take everything back, it's over. I lost. I surrendered. I broke my oath. I don't want to carry it anymore. I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

Junliu put his hands on the ground, buried his head down to his chest, and almost knelt in front of the opponent.He finally exposed his deepest hidden cowardice. At this moment, he was as inferior as a dog with a broken spine. He had no place to be ashamed, and was about to be crushed by every word he uttered.

"Don't apologize..." Zi Luo choked up, his eyes were sore, "Please, don't apologize."

His mind was hot and confused, and he couldn't find any words to say, as if any comfort was beyond his control.He had no choice but to stand up, walked to the other side and sat down next to him, but was not in a hurry to hug him.Zi Luo knew that any more pressure would make Jun Liu unbearable, he just needed to accompany him quietly and leave him a safe space.

After a while, Zilo grabbed the coat on the side and tried to put it on him, "Why don't you... put on the clothes first? Beware of mosquitoes biting you."

Junliu knelt motionless and did not respond.

After a long time, when Junliu regained his strength and finally looked up at him, Qi Luo stretched out his arms to wrap his arms around his shoulders, and smiled at his distraught face, "It seems that I I underestimated you, haven't you let yourself go?"

Junliu's eyes regained some concentration, and he stared blankly at him, as if waiting for more meaning.

"Do you suddenly feel relaxed when you think about living only for yourself in the future?" Zi Luo smiled brighter, "Actually, you already knew that I wouldn't care, didn't you? You're not apologizing to me, You just want to ask for forgiveness from yourself? Since you can face it bravely and let it go, the matter will be resolved. I am just a little follower with no opinions. I will try my best to make you happy as long as you are happy. ok, what's the problem?"

"The problem is..." Junliu furrowed his brows tightly and couldn't continue, so he shook his head.

"But I still want to thank you for believing in me and being willing to confess in front of me." Zilo messed up his hair even more, "You know I won't despise you, don't you?"

"I don't know." Junliu sniffed, straightened up and sat on the ground, and then couldn't help but also smiled wryly, "I'm very disturbed, so I... I vented my anger on you, accusing you of hurting me Self-esteem makes you feel guilty, maybe you won't blame me... probably so."

"You cunning boy, can you still play tricks at a time like this?" Zi Luo pretended to be very angry, "You are cruel enough to say that I am trying to curry favor with you? Forget it, you have to apologize to me."

"Don't change the concept secretly, the fact that you vomited in a mess has not changed, do you understand how hurtful it is?" Junliu turned his head, trying to make things difficult for him, "I don't need your sympathy, anyone who is willing to have sex with me There are people everywhere, there is no need to force you."

"Junliu, listen carefully and remember what I said clearly." Qi Luo suddenly reached out and broke his face, leaned in front of him, and firmly met his eyes.

"I have been deprived of reproductive ability since birth. This is a shackle that prevents the loss of my genes. It has nothing to do with my own will! My body cannot produce sexual impulses. Didn't you know that? I said I wanted to Want you, don't you believe me? Do you deny that I have free will?"

"You gave me the courage to face what I'm missing, and while I'll never be able to make up for it, I want to have the love you gave me, including any hurt that came with it, and it makes me feel like I'm not bound by it !"

"Junliu, don't think of me as a cripple. Please." His voice became hoarse, and his breath trembled weakly, brushing the hairs on Junliu's face.

"I don't have the ability, but I can decide what I want. This is not imposed on me by you, not by anyone! It is what I want!"

"Junliu, love me." Zi Luo begged softly, closed his eyes, a tear slipped down from his left eye, "destroy me."

When you stood on the high platform of the coming-of-age ceremony and swore an oath to the whole world like a savior, since that day, I longed for this person to crush me, together with this damned fate.

"Idiot..." Junliu gently cupped his face with his hands, looking at the crystal tear, it was like a drop of spring rain falling into his eyes, making the already ruined heart suddenly full of hopeful vitality , where a new world will be rebuilt, and the pain of loss will be soothed.At this moment, Junliu was extremely sure, they would finally never miss it again, and they didn't have to hide anything from each other anymore, their bodies and souls were already facing each other with sincerity, they were closely connected, and everything could be told and conveyed.

"Tell you, I lied."

"Facing you, I have never had any self-esteem." He kissed Zi Luo's cheek passionately, gently licked off the saltiness with the tip of his tongue, and breathed eagerly, "I want you without any scruples. No matter Whether you want alms or sacrifice, I can't ask for it! I just want you, and I don't care what you think."

"This is you." Zi Luo hugged him tightly with a smile, "Little rapist."

The night was getting darker, and Magu, who was so hungry and wailing, finally stopped counting on anyone, cursed to himself, and lit a bonfire. A broken pot was set up on it, boiled water, boiled mixed vegetable porridge, and searched for it. A little bit of poor minced meat came out and he put it in. While waiting for the porridge to be cooked, he gnawed a white radish dissatisfied.

When the sound of footsteps sounded behind him, he turned his head and saw Qi Luo coming out from the depths of the woods, holding Junliu in his arms, Junliu's side face resting on his chest, quietly closed Eyes, as if in deep sleep.

Zi Luo passed over the man who was cooking, and put Junliu into the tent as if nothing had happened. Perhaps the movement when he put it down woke up the person in his arms. Junliu opened his eyes, and the two whispered a few words, together Luo leaned over and kissed the corner of his lips, then he stood up, opened the curtain and walked out.

"Inspector General," Magu stared at Qi Luo with great interest, with a look of admiration, "You really have the ability, how many hours has it been? How can you get people down?"

"He's exhausted and wants to sleep on the ground." Zi Luo smiled silly, "But there are too many mosquitoes in the woods, so he couldn't stay, so he had to hug him back."

"You two really know how to count the time. When you come back, you just start eating. After feeding the bottom, you can feed the top. There is nothing more enjoyable than this." Magu began to speak without holding back, "Fortunately, I didn't fall in love with him. He has a big appetite. I I really can’t be satisfied, and you’ll have enough in the future.” He taunted the other party happily, not forgetting to stir the porridge with a spoon, scooped out a few grains of minced meat, blew it cold, put it in his mouth and tasted it, “Come here Rest and rest, you'll be fine soon."

"I... stand for a while." Zi Luo's expression was very unnatural, and he quickly changed the subject, "Why didn't I see Duo Qi, where did that child go?"

"I don't know what's going on, I just urged her to cook, and she ran away." Magu said disapprovingly, "Never mind her, this damn girl has no other place to go, maybe she will come back after smelling the smell of food gone."

As soon as he finished speaking, the curtain of the tent was lifted, and Junliu sat up, asking with a serious expression, "How long has she been running?"

"Three or four hours? She ran away not long after you left."

"Which direction are you going?" Junliu said, he got out of the tent and approached him, "Did you take anything when you left?"

"It's probably by the river." Magu was a little guilty when he asked, "I didn't notice if it was empty-handed... What are you so nervous about?"

"Let me go and look for it." Zilo said immediately, and quickly found a flashlight in his backpack.

"At this time, we can't make any more troubles. She knows too many things about us, and if she is not careful, she will kill us. Besides, without her cover, it will be difficult for us to act in the future." Junliu's tone was obvious. Blaming, then he left the dazed Magu, grabbed Ziluo and said, "Let me go, I know how to coax her."

"Let's go together, let's find out the person first." Zi Luo insisted.

"Then...then I'll look for it too." Magu seemed to realize the seriousness of the matter and asked for help.

"I don't need you, you stay here to cook, I'm starving to death." Junliu resolutely refused him, and left while holding Ziluo's hand.

Magu stared blankly at the backs of the two people leaving quickly, feeling inexplicably awkward, and it took a while to react, cursing: "Damn, I just wore a pair of pants with Lao Tzu not long ago, and walked around me every day. When the old lover gets better, he can turn his face so quickly!"

With flashlights on, Qi Luo and Junliu followed the latest footprints on the ground and walked towards the river bank. Unexpectedly, they ran into Duo Qi who was walking back halfway.

Duoqi's bloated trousers were half wet, holding two small river fish in one hand, and staring at the black cat with wide eyes.

"Duoqi, where did you go? I'm so worried." Junliu went up to meet him and said gently.

"I...I wanted to add something to you, so I went fishing by the river." The girl smiled hastily, "Last time I went to the town to buy fishing lines and hooks, but I haven't used them yet. I tried them today. It took a long time to catch such a small pair..."

"Silly girl, don't go out and wander around alone when it's dark." As he spoke, he took the girl's cold hand and pulled her back.

Junliu didn't seem to see any flaws, and Duoqi secretly breathed a sigh of relief, but at the same time felt deeply lonely. The ruthless night covered her red eyes from crying, and also covered the pain in her heart.

"Give me the fish, I'll take it back and deal with it first." After walking with them for a while, Ziluo saw that he was approaching the tent, so he handed the flashlight to Junliu, and said wittily, "Walk slowly when you come back." good."

After Qi Luo's figure quickly disappeared into the deep shadow in front of him, Jun Liu lowered his voice, held her hand tightly and said, "Duo Qi, do you have something to say to me?"

Duo Qi's heart shook slightly, but she didn't dare to look into the black cat's eyes. Even under the cover of darkness, she felt as if she was completely exposed to the other party.

She knew that she was going to be doomed, her heart was pounding, but the surrounding was so silent, only the two of them were left alone, this moment would only belong to her and this man, she was deeply intoxicated by it, and she was really unwilling to give up this moment The opportunity to confess, even though she knew it was hopeless, but the impulse to express her love was enough to force her to fly to the flame.

"Black cat, I like you." She stopped and faced him.In the cool night wind, his cheeks were hot.

"I like you too." Junliu looked at her patiently.

"Just like you like him." Duoqi added.

"That's not liking, it's love." Junliu told her frankly, "Zilo and I are lovers."

"I know. I won't ask to be like him." Duoqi couldn't help feeling sad, "I'm just afraid that I might lose control of my feelings. I like you more and more. Will it bother you? If So, should I leave?"

Junliu shook his head.

"Tell me what should I do?" Duo Qi covered his face and cried out, "Where should I go? Who will take me in? Who cares about me?!"

Junliu fell into a deep fatigue, he couldn't provide answers, there were too many questions that he couldn't answer, and there were too many people who couldn't answer, even if he was willing to continue to give, he still had more than enough energy.But he carried forward his usual gentlemanly demeanor, stepped forward and hugged the girl into his arms, comforting her with his own thin body temperature.

"Black Cat, I asked you before," Duo Qi hugged him tightly, sobbing, "Where do you want to go? Have you thought about it now?"

"After leaving Dalufei, find a peaceful place to live, that's it." Junliu was finally able to answer this question, and he answered without thinking.

"With Brother Qi Luo?" Duo Qi asked knowingly, but without waiting for the other party to answer, he raised his head and said, "Take me! I have no one else to turn to. I am willing to help you with housework, laundry and cooking for the rest of my life." Food or something. Don't get me wrong... I won't bother you two, I won't let him know that I like you! I'll be a good maid, as long as you don't chase me away..."

"No." Junliu gently pushed her away, looked into her frightened eyes, with a sad smile on the corner of his mouth, "I don't need a maid anymore, we can support ourselves."

"Be my sister." He closed his eyes, his heart sank like a stone falling to the ground, "I also need relatives, and I will try my best to give you the affection of relatives, this is the only thing I can do, okay? ?”