How to become a qualified villain Demon Lord

Shen Cijing woke up.

But he seemed to be in a dream.

His head was dizzy, his body was light and heavy, and an indescribable emotion turned into a trembling numbness and itchy feeling all over his body, making him restless.

—Is that what he thought?

Shen Cijing couldn't help standing up at this moment, pacing repeatedly in this side hall.

"Life is better than death..."

"Because after this pain, it won't hurt again..."

Shen Cijing is no stranger to this sentence.

Because in the past 100 years, whenever he couldn't sleep day and night, he would always think of that figure from that day, and that sentence with unclear meaning.

"Don't be afraid...even if it hurts, don't be afraid. Because after this pain, it won't hurt again."

100 years ago, when Shen Cijing had so many things he didn't understand, it was difficult for him to understand the meaning of this passage.

100 years later, Shen Cijing has understood so many human feelings and hearts, but he still can't understand Xie Feiyan.

until today.

So—was that what he thought? !

Shen Cijing looked at the upside-down mirror on the table, and couldn't wait to enter that dream again and meet the person who made him unforgettable and hated to the bone.

But he picked it up several times and put it down several times.

He kept telling himself to calm down, never act impulsively, and never be sentimental, let alone be misled by that shameful expectation, and have feelings that should have been wiped out for a person who shouldn't have expectations.

But a thin voice lingered in his mind again and again, making him feel sore hope every time after forcibly extinguishing that hope.

——What if all this is really what he thinks?

If that person really loves him, he just treats him like a cat, and only leaves him because he is afraid that he will be sad... If this is really the case?

"That man is a liar, how can you excuse him like this?"

"But what if he really loves me?"

"It's not enough for your true feelings to be trampled on once. Do you have to be trampled on a second time before you are willing to be reconciled?"

"But what if he really loves me?"

"His refusal is so clear and clear, do you have to do that shameless stalking thing?"

"But what if he really loves me?"

"There is no one in this world who can't live without another person? Now, no matter what happened, no matter what he thinks, since he has rejected you like that, why are you still unwilling to let go? You are so self-willed and degrading , to what extent is it enough?!"

"But what if he really loves me?"

……

Shen Cijing's mind was in a mess, and several thoughts rushed out of his head, trying to overwhelm the opponent.

In the end, those random thoughts disappeared one by one, leaving only a weak but persistent sentence.

— But what if he really loves me?

If he loves me as much as I love him, if he has a difficult heart to express, if he hurts me like this just for my own good... what should I do?

At this moment, the words of the unknown Mr. Study echoed in his ears again:

Shen Cijing, you have to know that the last thing a person should have is this "I'm for your own good" mentality.It hurts deeply, and it makes you hate nothing.Now, since he will abandon you once because he is reluctant to part with you, in the future, he will be able to abandon you a second time because of 'for your own good'.If he insists on leaving you and dies alone, what will you do then?

How is he going?

He hates him.Hate that person for going his own way, hurting him deeply, hate that person for making his own way, throwing him down again and again without looking back!

But what can he do?

He loves him.Love that person's mystery and complexity, love that person's loneliness and silence, and love his bravery and arrogance, even if that person breaks his heart, he can't control himself not to love him.

So what should he do?

Shen Cijing sat still where she was, with the complexity and bitterness of human beings pouring out of her clear eyes.

He was silent for a moment, and picked up the ancient mirror again.

·

When Shen Cijing looked at Gu Jing for the first time, he had his own body and the sovereignty to control the situation.

When he looked at the ancient mirror for the second time, he was trapped in the cat's body, and everything was inconvenient. Even if he could occasionally break through the shackles of the kitten's body, it was difficult to appear in front of others.

And when he looked at the ancient mirror for the third time, he simply lost the body of the kitten, and only turned into a wisp of ghost, floating in Guangling City.

Yes, Guangling City, the city that appeared in Shen Cijing's eyes in front of him was undoubtedly Guangling City, and it should be Guangling City when Duke Lu Duo was still alive.

More than 100 years ago, after Duke Lu Duo died, Guangling City gradually declined, and was even destroyed and rebuilt several times. Later, with a burst of fire clouds, the entire Guangling City disappeared from the earth and was completely submerged. Over time, it became the "legendary fairy city" in the mouth of Canglang Continent.

At that time, when Shen Cijing heard the rumor that "Huoyun took Guangling City away", he also had some guesses, but he was not sure, and he didn't want to think too much, because he didn't want to let himself remember The vague and contradictory figure in the middle became more and more chaotic.

But now...

Shen Cijing drifted forward with the wind, looking for traces of Xie Feiyan.

Shen Cijing knew that the current Xie Feiyan, under the pseudonym Ning Fei, had infiltrated Zhenhaiwei. After that, he would shine even more in the sea beast attacking the city, replacing the former commander of Zhenhaiwei, and becoming the famous Commander Ning. Shen Cijing also knew that in the third year after the catastrophe of the Xie family, that is, the second year after Ning Fei became famous, Xie Feiyan would single-handedly enter the water palace of the Eastern High Self and kill the Eastern High Self with his own power. , Hang the head of the Eastern High Self in the main hall of the water palace!

So vicious, so cunning.

So arrogant, so frivolous!

Shen Cijing has always known that Xie Feiyan is not a good person to get along with, but in front of him, except for the last moment, Xie Feiyan has always been gentle and tolerant, like a tamed and loyal fox, warm and reliable.However, when Shen Cijing walked all the way on Xie Feiyan's footsteps, he realized that such a person could never be a fox, because a fox would never have his courage and ruthlessness; and such a person could not be a poisonous snake, Because the poisonous snake will never have his loyalty and courage; it is not even an eagle, a dragon, or anyone or any animal.

——He is just Xie Fei, Xie Feiyan.

The unique Xie Feiyan.

And Xie Feiyan like this loves him?

why?

Shen Cijing never thought about such a question before, but after the separation, he began to worry about gains and losses.As he got to know Xie Feiyan better, the more he couldn't help his love for him, and the more he couldn't help the doubts in his heart:

"Why does he love me? Why does Dudu have so much love for me?"

"Will he...will continue to love me?"

……

This day is the full moon.

Shen Cijing looked up at the moon in the sky, and suddenly thought of Xie Feiyan.

In the ten years of gathering less and leaving more and being sweet like a dream, what Shen Cijing likes most is the time of the full moon.Because if he came to Xie Feiyan's side on a full moon night, Xie Feiyan, who had always been a little shy, would become extremely enthusiastic, hugging him and refusing to let go.And if he was lucky, Shen Cijing could even see him acting like a baby.

very cute.

It is the cuteness that can still make Shen Cijing's heart flutter after a hundred years.

So later, Shen Cijing would try his best to come to Xie Feiyan's side during the full moon, hug him on the same bed, and fall asleep with his feet.

After that, during the few months of becoming a cat, Shen Cijing also had such ungentlemanly thoughts, wanting to see if Xie Feiyan, who was alone all day, was also so cute.

But Xie Feiyan was very cunning, he would leave Sanshui Town every day, disappear without a trace, and would not return from exhaustion until two days later.

And now, it's full moon time.

Where would Xie Feiyan be at this time?

Shen Cijing wandered around, first went to the city lord's mansion, then to the Zhenhaiwei command post, he even went to the house that Xie Feiyan bought on the side of the Zhenhaiwei command post, but he couldn't find that cunning person at all.

Could it be that he left Guangling City this day as if he was in Sanshui Town?

Shen Cijing was full of confusion, and came to the top of the study in the City Lord's Mansion, climbed up to look, and carefully observed all the places where Xie Feiyan might go.

Finally, Shen Cijing finally saw the familiar Yijiao under the high cliff on the coast.

—It must be him!

Shen Cijing felt joy subconsciously, and with a thought, he came to the shadow of the sea cliff and floated towards Xie Feiyan.

However, at the moment of his appearance, strong blood rushed to his face.

Shen Cijing's heart skipped a beat, and he looked carefully, only to find that Xie Feiyan was sitting alone in the darkness, only one step away from the moonlight.The other party looked calm, his eyes were tired and slightly closed, it seemed that he was just taking a nap, but his face was like gold paper, and his breath was dying.

Shen Cijing's heart was beating wildly, and he couldn't help taking a few steps closer, until his vision became clearer, only then did he find a bloody dagger thrown aside on the ground, and Xie Feiyan's arms had criss-crossing knife marks!

Shocking blood gurgles out from the wound and gathers on the ground, which is frightening. It is hard to believe that so much blood can flow out of a person's body, and the strong blood that Shen Cijing smells comes from it!

At this moment, Shen Cijing was shocked and almost stopped thinking.

He stared blankly at Xie Feiyan, and suddenly thought of the time when he left Tianyi City and found that he hadn't taken the Lingbao fragments with him and had to return home.

It was also a full moon that day.

Xie Feiyan somehow got into the Shen family's old house, and sat under the locust tree, calmly letting Lingbao's cold air eat him away, letting himself walk towards death step by step.

——If he didn't go back on that day, and just interrupted him, would there be no such person as Xie Feiyan in this world?

Shen Cijing didn't dare to think about it, couldn't bear to think about it.

He came to Xie Feiyan, stretched out his hand, and tremblingly brushed across the tired face and eyes of this man.

He suddenly understood that Xie Feiyan really loved him.

I also understand why Xie Feiyan loves him.

Because he is his medicine.

Xie Feiyan doesn't love anyone, only him.

Xie Feiyan stayed in the human world for him.