[Hanwu Huowei Modern] The Story of Han University

In the following many, many years, Wei Qing recalled his mother many, many times, but it was really as vague as smoke, without any trace.On the contrary, Wei Junru remembered it very clearly, although she didn't want to remember it so clearly.

She couldn't remember her mother's name clearly, she only vaguely remembered a few sounds, and forgot the specific words, but she clearly remembered that her mother, who was no longer young, was very, very beautiful, an unforgettable beauty.She was sensible at an early age and could remember everything she experienced after the age of four, so she remembered her father's smile and her grandmother's dissatisfaction when her second sister, Wei Zifu, was born. Her grandmother hoped to have a grandson.

The following days were peaceful and comfortable, and when Wei Junru heard the phrase "the calm before the storm", Wei Junru would always think of those days - his parents were working in the factory, and he took Wei Shaoer, who was more than two years younger than him, to the factory kindergarten. Playing house in the backyard, grandma doesn't want to bring her little husband, mother has little dissatisfaction, mother-in-law and daughter-in-law have little conflicts, life is trivial but beautiful.

She never saw her father again until a birth accident.

In the era when workers are the masters, the families of workers who died on duty will receive special care. Not only are there monthly pensions, but also condolence gifts on New Year’s and holidays. The mother is also transferred from the front-line workshop to the logistics guest house. This is very good. Errands, work is easy, in the era of material scarcity, there is a small amount of oil and water to subsidize the family.Every season, the three sisters have new clothes and shoes, and children are willing to play with them, with envy and jealousy in their eyes.

At that time, Wei Junru felt that this kind of life was natural, and that it should continue.The accident happened suddenly, and the mother became pregnant again.

Different from pursuing individual liberation now, social obligations and morality were paramount at that time, divorced and remarried people could not hold their heads up in the factory, and single women whose husbands died in public were pregnant! ?Every time Wei Junru recalled it afterwards, he felt that it was too crazy to understand.The sharp claws of love and desire firmly grasped her. When it was strong, all the treatment, family, work, and children in reality were insignificant.

Everything has changed, and the family members of the dead have become broken shoes!Because the child was already grown up when it was discovered, and there was no way to kill it. The mother had her hair shaved, and she was parading around the streets with worn-out shoes hanging around her neck with her belly outstretched—she was still tenaciously beautiful at that time.And the little Wei Junru couldn't understand why everyone was different at the time. She remembered the grand funeral when her grandma passed away. So many people came to the factory, and several uncles and aunts held her mother's hand and said If you have difficulties, you should tell the organization, and everyone will help you...

The child was born, a boy.The boy mom, dad, and grandma had hoped for.The mother called him Ah Qing, but she didn't say who the child's father was.Wei Junru has always believed that her mother really loves that person, Qing and Qing are homophonic, even if it is evil, it is also love.

She was not taken care of and recuperated before and after giving birth. Her body was getting worse and thinner, but her eyes were bright and shiny. She was raising four children with difficulty. No one wanted to contact this unclean family, so she came here from time to time. The only people knocking on the door were the Red Guards.

Two years later, Wei Junru traveled far away for the first time in his life.At that time, my mother’s health was very bad, she was always sick and coughing, and there was no condition for medical treatment, but she took her to take the train for a day and walked for half a day on the mountain road. When it was dark, they found a family named Zheng in the Shan'ao mining area.That was the first and last time Wei Junru saw Zheng Ji.

The cold mountain reverberated with the woman's shouts and roars, "You coquettish, cheap, broken shoes owed to men, how dare you come to me if I don't look for you!?" The fat woman pulled her mother's hair and fought her face.It was the first time Wei Junru heard such a vulgar curse, and was so frightened that he hugged his brother and cried loudly.The man surnamed Zheng saw that the woman was tired from the beating, so he said in a low voice, "Stop making trouble, it's not good for people to overhear! Come in and tell me something."

"Zheng San, you Chen Shimei! You bastard! I've been fascinated by this coquettish bitch! Why did this bitch come into my house?!" He said and scratched his mother's face a few more times.

That night, the mother knelt down and handed over a bag of money and her younger brother to the woman, because Zheng Ji didn't dare to take it and would not take it, he didn't even dare to look at his mother.Amidst the sound of cursing, the mother left Zheng's house with Junru as if fleeing. Walking in the dark and cold mountains late at night, the thin woman carried her daughter on her back and choked and cried all the way. far away.On the train home, her eyes were red, her lips were blue and white, her hands were shaking all the time, she was beautiful and sad.

There was a conspicuous scar on the mother's face. Her hands were shaking all the time. She could no longer lead Junru to do delicate work as before. In order to make a living, she could only do manual work of carrying.Carrying for a long time and being weak, her tall and straight waist gradually became rickety. She never stopped working for a moment, and she never stopped sending money. Even if she was too rickety and trembling to write, she would still take Wei Junru, who was already in school, to the post office. Send money to the Zheng family.

The light in her eyes gradually diminished, and within a few years, that beam of light was completely annihilated, and she, who was not old, was worn away without a trace of beauty, old and dry, and she became Wei Wei.

At that time, only 16-year-old Wei Junru took 12-year-old Wei Zifu to take care of his mother's funeral, and 14-year-old Wei Shaoer went to the countryside last month.