South of Chutian

Tang Heng asked in a low voice, "Where do you feel uncomfortable?"

Li Yuechi didn't answer, but put his forehead on Tang Heng's shoulder and shook his head slightly.Tang Heng could feel his breathing, which was heavy, as if every breath took a lot of effort.

"I'll take you back," Tang Heng said, "You're drunk."

"Do not."

"..."

"Walk with me," Li Yuechi suddenly put his arms around Tang Heng's waist, as if emphasizing, "You accompany me."

Tang Heng could only ask, "Where do you want to go?"

"casual."

Tang Heng grabbed Li Yuechi's wrist: "Then you get up first."

Li Yuechi let go of his arms obediently, and stood up straight.Even though this person was drunk and hazy, his figure was still straight.

Tang Heng held Li Yuechi's wrist, quickly walked around the crowd, and walked into the dark alley.The sound of the music gradually died down, and there were no pedestrians on the road, only the sound of their staggered footsteps could be heard.How drunk is Li Yuechi?Tang Heng didn't know.Because he not only has a straight posture, but also walks very steadily.Tang Heng even felt that if he asked Li Yuechi to go back to the dormitory by himself now, Li Yuechi would be able to walk back safely.

Maybe he should let go of Li Yuechi's hand, but he didn't want to.

"The first time I saw you was when you were singing," Li Yuechi's voice was muffled, "When you were singing there, everyone was looking at you, and I was looking at you too."

"When was the last lawn music party?"

"Well, that day I came back from my tutoring and passed by there."

"..."

"You wear braids and a black T-shirt, and stand there singing. I didn't expect to meet you later." In the darkness, Li Yuechi seemed to smile, "I didn't expect you to like me."

Tang Heng's cheeks became hot from what he said, and he whispered, "Are you surprised?"

"What do I like?" Li Yuechi said to himself, "I have no money, and I owe a loan shark. I am also very boring. Do you like my face?"

"I……"

"But you are so good-looking, so my face is nothing special."

Tang Heng wanted to say that these things had nothing to do with each other, but he held back his words. Li Yuechi was so drunk, what could be reasoned with him?

Li Yuechi continued: "I don't know why you like me, Tang Heng."

If you like it, you like it. What is the reason?Tang Heng didn't respond to his words, and walked forward silently holding his wrist.The two quickly walked out of the winding alley and came to Luoyu Road.The street lights were on in groups, and the night was a little hazy.

"I think everything in this world has a price. Do you understand?" Li Yuechi's voice became lower and softer, as if speaking to himself, "Whatever I get, I have to pay the corresponding price. They It's all an equation."

Tang Heng listened silently, but actually didn't quite understand what he said.

"Nothing is given to me for free. The price of my education is my dad working outside. The price of my coming to Wuhan to study in university is my mother selling the family cattle... Everything has a price, just like eating. Paid. I don't know what you paid for liking me?"

Tang Heng stopped in his tracks, suddenly he couldn't laugh or cry.He thought of Pan Peng's words, maybe Pan Peng was right, Li Yuechi was indeed out of money's eyes - but it didn't mean that he loved money so much.

He's just used to measuring everything by the price.How can anyone be like this?Could it be that he has already begun to calculate the price he will pay every moment he "gets"?

Tang Heng turned to look at Li Yuechi.Li Yuechi's eyes showed a bit of bewilderment, not stunned, but just bewildered.The white light of the street lamp shone on him, and he looked at everything blankly like a wild horse strayed into the city.

Tang Heng said: "I like you, it's free."

Li Yuechi stared straight at Tang Heng, as if he couldn't understand the meaning of this sentence for a while.Tang Heng added: "It's just... I like you, and you don't need to pay the price, understand? You just need to be liked."

Li Yuechi asked softly: "Really?"

Tang Heng said: "Really." In fact, he still doesn't quite understand the "price" in Li Yuechi's mouth, just like he said that his father worked part-time for him to go to school-but there are a few parents in the world who don't work hard to support their families ?

Li Yuechi curled his mouth, his eyes were black and shiny, he was smiling.Those doubts were instantly forgotten by Tang Heng. He stared blankly at Li Yuechi and felt that all the light was coming from this side. Luoyu Road rose high from their feet and turned into a mountain range. High mountains - stars can be picked by hand, Tang Heng couldn't help reaching out and touching Li Yuechi's face.

His fingertips had thin calluses formed from plucking strings, and they brushed across Li Yuechi's cheeks, along the jawline, and touched his somewhat messy stubble.

Li Yuechi closed his eyes and did not hide.

Tang Heng's throat tightened, and he asked him, "Which way are you going?"

Li Yuechi said, "Is it really free?"

"real."

"Then can I hold your hand?"

"...Yes." Just this time, Tang Heng thought to himself mockingly, just this time he ignored that he had a girlfriend for the time being.

Li Yuechi grabbed Tang Heng's hand, and their fingers interlaced.

Li Yuechi said again: "Can I kiss you again?"

Tang Heng didn't know what to say anymore, his Adam's apple moved, and he managed to squeeze out a few words: "Anything is fine."

Fortunately, they are not located in a busy road - in front of the [-] Hospital.At this moment, the outpatient department of the hospital had already closed get off work, and there were few pedestrians around.Tang Heng thought, if he walked forward for a few minutes, passed the Dental Hospital, arrived at the South Gate of Han University, and then arrived at Yintai Creative City, there would be people coming and going, and he couldn't tolerate it.

Li Yuechi took a step forward, and without giving Tang Heng any time to prepare, he lowered his head and kissed.He held the back of Tang Heng's head and kissed him very hard.Tang Heng suddenly remembered that he held him down that night by the river. At that time, Tang Heng thought he was impatient, but now he suddenly realized: Is Li Yuechi worried that he will run away?

Tang Heng closed his eyes, parted his lips slightly, and Li Yuechi's breath rushed in.It turned out that he smoked again, is it still five yuan and five packs of Huangguoshu?The smell of smoke was a bit strong, but it was not unpleasant. Tang Heng suddenly remembered that when he was a child, there were always many red and yellow fallen leaves in autumn in the north. The cleaners swept the fallen leaves into a hill and then set them on fire.Sometimes his father would hold him and stand by and watch, a wisp of blue smoke was blown away by the autumn wind, the smell was smoky, rampant, with a crackling sound.His father said, Tang Heng, what is left after burning is called inorganic matter.Tang Heng didn't know how he would think of this trivial matter. He studied liberal arts in high school, and he had nothing to do with biology—inorganic matter, he thought he had forgotten the word long ago.

Li Yuechi moved his hand from the back of his head to his cheek, holding his face in his rough palm, and kissed him soundlessly.Tang Heng couldn't help trembling, he felt that he was also a pile of rustling fallen leaves, the tongue of fire licked him, the flames burned him, bones collided with bones, peeling and peeling, so kissing is such a thing Painful and pleasant—even if it will be burnt to ashes, the inorganic matter will be recognized.

It's been a long, long time.The two separated slightly, Li Yuechi seemed to be more drunk, he asked: "Did you often walk on Luoyu Road before?"

Tang Heng said in a daze, "Often." When you leave the South Gate of Han University, you will find Luoyu Road, where there are shopping districts, subway stations, and at the turn of spring and summer, there are old women selling gardenias with poles.

"I also often walk. I was a tutor when I was an undergraduate. I walked and walked back." Li Yuechi sighed, "Why didn't I meet you earlier?"

Tang Heng felt that his heart was like a bubble in the bubble film, and it shattered when Li Yuechi pressed it down.

There seems to be no turning back.Tang Heng grabbed Li Yuechi's hand vigorously, knowing that he was making a mistake.Perhaps he often made mistakes—mistakes in the eyes of others, such as insisting on going abroad, such as quarreling with Fu Liling, such as suddenly deciding to go to Tokyo for an exchange.But he never cared, and if they must think he was wrong, so be it.

Only this time was different, this time he knew he was making a mistake, both objectively and subjectively.

How could he take advantage of others?Li Yuechi was drunk, and his girlfriend was still hospitalized in the central hospital, but now, at this moment, he grabbed Li Yuechi's hand tightly, and there was still the smell of Li Yuechi's cigarettes on his lips.Not just wrong, but shameless.He has lived frankly and arrogantly for more than 20 years, and this is the first time he wants to forget who he is.It would be great if it could rain, heavy rain, hail, falling on him like an awl, hurting him and waking him up.But there is no rain tonight, and the night sky is so foggy that there is no moon, maybe the moon also thinks they are ugly and smelly.

Just this time, Tang Heng thought, he pleaded guilty, but just this time.

Tang Heng asked hoarsely, "Where are we going?"

Li Yuechi raised his other hand and rubbed Tang Heng's cheek with his thumb: "I want to hear you sing."

"At this?"

"Go to my house."

So the two went hand in hand, as if everything was so natural, so natural that it was shameful.They held hands in the dark alley, passing by old houses waiting to be demolished, their footsteps were as fast as an escape.In the end, he almost ran, and ignored the smell of the garbage pile. He climbed the stairs and nearly tripped, opened the door and fell into the house, and started kissing again.

Li Yuechi called him in a vicious voice: "Don't move." He pressed him against the wall and sucked his lips hard.His trembling arm touched the glass jar of peppercorns, almost knocking the jar to the ground.Li Yuechi didn't care about anything, he just straightened his head forcefully, forcing him to look at him.

The breaths of the two were entwined, and Li Yuechi said, "Student."

Tang Heng reached out and stroked his sweaty temple hair.

Li Yuechi said: "You sing."

It's "Summer Night Wind" again.As he sat on the grass tonight and sang it, he thought it was the last time.

Tang Heng's voice trembled a little, as if his voice was not his own. The evening wind in the summer night was blowing you in my arms. Li Yuechi lowered his head and buried his cheeks in his shoulder. You tell your love, when their skin touches each other, sweat melts into sweat, you can't tell which is his and which is Li Yuechi's, the love of a lonely heart, the love that is still waiting, Tang Heng can't sing anymore, The back of his head was pressed against the potholed wall, and his eyes were closed.

Li Yuechi didn't look up, and asked, "Are you crying?"

Tang Heng gritted his teeth and asked, "Are you still feeling uncomfortable?"

"Uncomfortable," Li Yuechi slowed down, "I drank too much and got a headache."

Yes, otherwise, how could I appear here at this time and this place.Tang Heng thought.

"Her father invited me to drink and said that I have worked hard this year." Li Yuechi's voice was barely audible, "She is critically ill."

Tang Heng didn't know what to answer, so he was silent for a moment and said, "My condolences."

"Actually, it's not the first time. I have issued a critical illness notice before, but this time... maybe I won't be able to make it through." Li Yuechi let out a breath and raised his face again, "You see what I said, right? cost."

"Is she also the price?"

Li Yuechi shook his head and stopped talking.

That night, Tang Heng stayed in Li Yuechi's rental house, and the two of them shared a single bed.Li Yuechi fell asleep quickly, breathing heavily, and seemed extremely tired.Tang Heng opened his eyes and looked at the narrow window. It turned out that standing in front of the window could not hear the singing of "Long Love". It turned out that Li Yuechi had seen him a long time ago.Just watching until midnight, he knew that after tonight, Li Yuechi would definitely regret it.