South of Chutian

As the fragrance of orange juice spread between his lips and teeth, Tang Heng's heartbeat finally gradually returned to normal.Li Yuechi said softly, "Is it better?"

Tang Heng nodded, carefully folded the fudge bag a few times, and put it in his pocket.

He added: "Tell me if you feel bad."

Tang Heng replied in a low voice: "Okay..."

Li Yuechi didn't say anything else, and turned back to the window, but this time he didn't look out the window, but crossed his arms and looked at Tang Heng.

Tang Heng didn't dare to look at him anymore.

The high-speed rail is getting closer and closer to Wuhan, and the sense of anxiety is getting stronger and stronger, as if it is a stress reaction of the body - just because what is waiting for him ahead is some kind of bottomless darkness, so even if he is rationally willing to return to Wuhan , but the body subconsciously resisted.

The memories poured out like a warning: don't come back.

In the corridor of the inpatient department of Tongji Hospital, Fu Liling pointed at Tang Guomu on the hospital bed, and cried bitterly: "Tang Heng, look at what he has done to your uncle! Do you still miss him? You Do you have a conscience?!"

In the counselor's office, the two girls under Tang Guomu's door said: "Tian Xiaoqin and Li Yuechi have a really good relationship. They both came from Normal University, and it seems that their family conditions are not very good... and Li Yuechi , he is quite indifferent to us, but he is very gentle to Tian Xiaoqin."

In the silent ward, Tang Guomu looked at Tang Heng in a muddy way—because he had 21 stitches in his abdomen, every tiny movement would affect the wound. He couldn't speak, so he could only write crookedly: Blame me, I don't know He loves her so much, I should, reject her earlier.

what about me?Tang Heng wanted to ask what about me, what am I?

Obviously he can produce evidence - their rental house, Li Yuechi's handwriting on his book, the canvas shoes he bought for Li Yuechi, their phone records - what about me, what am I?

The last memory about Wuhan is the night before he flew to Guiyang, An Yun went to his house to find him. She lost a lot of weight, her hair was cut very short, and she looked more like a boy.

An Yun said, "What are you doing in Guizhou?"

Tang Heng said, "I want to visit his house."

An Yun was silent for a moment: "Do you know where his home is?"

"Shijiang County..."

"So what? His family doesn't know you at all."

"do not talk……"

"Tang Heng..." An Yun turned her back, and suddenly choked up and said, "Give up..."

give up what?Give up resisting their conclusion that "Li Yuechi loved Tian Xiaoqin, so he stabbed Tang Guomu"?At that time, it seemed that the whole world was telling him that Li Yuechi loved Tian Xiaoqin.Li Yuechi even told Jiang Ya himself: I liked Tang Heng, but only Tian Xiaoqin.

This feeling was not heartbreak, but that Li Yuechi's knife seemed to stab his heart, and his heart was broken.

"Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to take the Chengdu Railway Bureau Harmony high-speed EMU train! The station in front of the train is Wuhan Station, and the train..." Tang Heng suddenly woke up from his memories and met Li Yuechi's eyes.

Li Yuechi squatted in front of him and asked softly, "Did you have a nightmare?"

Tang Heng moved his lips, unable to speak.He felt his shirt wet with sweat on his back.

Li Yuechi glanced out the window and said, "Wuhan is here..."

The aunt sitting next to her turned off the video on the iPad and started packing her backpack.Many passengers got up and went to the aisle to get their luggage from the luggage rack.The originally quiet carriage suddenly became a little noisy.

Li Yuechi pulled Tang Heng's suitcase over and reached out to him: "Can I go?"

Tang Heng took a deep breath, stood up without touching his hand, and said in a relaxed tone, "I'm fine..."

The speed of the train is getting slower and slower, the scenery outside the window has changed from mountains to cities, the sky is gloomy, and the buildings are shrouded in a layer of dim light.

When the train came to a complete stop and the door opened, Tang Heng followed Li Yuechi and walked out of the carriage in a daze.

Oncoming, is the cold.

After all, it was only April, and Wuhan was further north than Guizhou. When a gust of wind blew, Tang Heng felt the sweat on his body turn cold in an instant.He couldn't help shivering, his heart seemed to tremble along with it, and his breathing became short of breath again. The three big green characters "Wuhan Station" are right in front of his eyes, Wuhan, he hasn't been back to Wuhan for six years, but he keeps dreaming about it... so much so that at this moment he is full of unreality, as if he didn't really return to Wuhan, but just , fell into a realistic nightmare again.

The hand was suddenly grabbed.

Li Yuechi said, "Are you cold?"

Tang Heng said in a daze: "A little bit..."

Li Yuechi simply took off his jacket and put it on Tang Heng's body, with his sleeves tied up on Tang Heng's chest.Then he grabbed Tang Heng's hand again and asked, "Do you mind?"

His hands were very warm, Tang Heng came back to his senses a little: "What do you mind?"

Li Yuechi didn't speak, but squeezed Tang Heng's palm hard.

"..." Tang Heng lowered his head, looked at their clenched hands, and said in a low voice, "I don't mind..."

Li Yuechi said: "Then let's go..."

Then he held the box with one hand and Tang Heng with the other, and walked forward with his legs raised.There were people coming and going in the high-speed rail station, and from time to time someone would look sideways at them, either with curiosity or astonishment.Tang Heng didn't care about them, and Li Yuechi didn't seem to see them either.

Li Yuechi still held his hand until he walked into Metro Line [-].

Tang Heng looked at the traffic map above the subway gate, and said in a daze, "Wuhan has changed a lot."

"Well, this is the first time I have come to Wuhan Railway Station..." Li Yuechi smiled, "I used to be at Wuchang Railway Station."

"There are no more motorcycles outside the train station."

"There are no black car drivers blocking people."

The girl next to them looked at them as if they were looking at two aliens.

Tang Heng lowered his head and called him shortly: "Li Yuechi..."

"Ok?"

"I might be... a little abnormal. Don't be afraid..."

"It's you, don't be afraid..." Li Yuechi said, "I'm..."

Tang Heng booked a hotel in advance, located in Han Street.Han Street is also different from the past. The road has been widened and smoother. It seems that the street lights are much brighter.It was already dark, and one after another tall buildings were shining brightly. Not far away, photos of models were changing on the giant LED screen.

This seems to be two worlds from Han Street in 2011. There is no dark corner, and there is no room for a boy who was beaten up for usury.

Tang Heng suddenly said: "Do you remember..."

"I remember……"

"... "

"At that time, I was chased and beaten by them, and I ran into you and Jiang Ya."

"I saw you."

"Well, and then you rushed over... I was like, fuck it."

"why?"

"You don't look like you can fight..." Li Yuechi smiled, his eyes were soft, "Didn't I thank you properly at that time?"

"That's right, I just thought about rejecting me."

"I was too short of money at that time, and Teacher Zhao was seriously ill..." Li Yuechi paused for a moment, "Let's make up for it now."

"Ok?"

"Wait here..."

After he finished speaking, he strode forward to... a little milk tea shop with a green signboard.At this time, when the lights are on, it is the time when the traffic is heavy. Fortunately, there is Hey Tea across the street.

Li Yuechi came back with two cups of milk tea. He was wearing an old sweater inside his jacket, which was probably hand-knitted by his mother. The neckline was a bit irregular and the shoulders were a bit too big.This made him look like a poor student, and he said to Tang Heng: "I don't know if you like pearls... This cup is added, but this cup is not added."

Tang Heng took the one with pearls.

Slowly swallowing the warm milk tea, all limbs and bones warmed up.

Li Yuechi drank the milk tea in a few sips, threw it into the trash can, and then took Tang Heng's hand again.After arriving at the hotel and checking in, Tang Heng booked a double room.

The look at the front desk was meaningful: "Sir, let me confirm with you again, you booked a king, bed, and room."

"I know..." Li Yuechi stood beside, and Tang Heng explained with a guilty conscience, "I didn't know there was another person when I ordered."

"Then do you need to open another one? We have vacancies, and you are a VIP, enjoy a 7.7% discount..."

"No need..." Li Yuechi said flatly, "We will live like this."

"Okay sir..."

The room was on the 12th floor, overlooking the night view of Chu River and Han Street. Tang Heng saw two bright red signs on the top of tall buildings in the distance: Wuhan.

Tang Heng stared at those two words, and for a moment, he still felt as if he was in a dream.

Li Yuechi stood behind him: "What do you want to eat tonight? I'll go buy it..."

"I want to eat hot and dry noodles..."

"Well, what else?"

"With rice wine..."

Li Yuechi stopped talking.

Tang Heng turned around and asked suspiciously, "What's wrong?"

Li Yuechi lowered his eyes: "Are you sure...drinking rice wine?"

"I haven't drunk it for six years..." Tang Heng said, "I haven't bought it outside."

"At the time, all I could do was... sorry. I thought you didn't want to drink anymore."

"what are you saying?"

Li Yuechi's expression froze, and then he slowly raised his face, his expression became very ugly.

"Do you remember?" Li Yuechi clasped Tang Heng's shoulders with both hands, "I'm going to poke... Tang Guomu that day, I gave you rice wine with medicine in it, so you fell asleep."

Tang Heng shivered, and said, "Stop joking..."

Li Yuechi frowned: "It's not a joke..."

"I fell asleep? How could I fall asleep?!" Tang Heng suddenly turned up the volume uncontrollably, "I watched you go! I don't know why I can't move at all, I told you not to go, you just ignored me , I can only look at you—”

Before he finished speaking, he was also stunned.

That's right, if his memory is correct, it is true that he watched Li Yuechi go - then why can't he move?

Why couldn't he stop him?

He doesn't remember being bound hand and foot.

Tang Heng was stunned, then suddenly sat down on the bed.

"I may have misremembered..." Tang Heng lowered his head and said fearfully, "I may indeed have misremembered... I always felt that I was watching you go, and I was almost, almost able to stop you... ...then we don't have to separate."

Li Yuechi's voice sounded above his head, very calmly: "The symptoms of bpd, is this so?"

"Hmm..." Tang Heng pulled out a stiff smile, "Is it very similar to dementia?"

Li Yuechi was silent.

A few seconds later, he suddenly hugged Tang Heng extremely hard, as if he wanted to embed Tang Heng into his body.

Tang Heng heard him say, "I'm sorry..."