South of Chutian

Tang Heng heard a "buzz" in his head.

It's over.he thinks.

He tried his best to look normal, but Jiang Ya beat him back to his original form with a few words.Cutting wrists—Jiang Ya said that he had cut his wrists, is that what he meant, right?

Tang Heng wanted to run away subconsciously, but the moment he turned around, he kicked something with his right foot, and there was a series of thump, thump, thud, which was especially loud in the silent night.

Tang Heng froze for a few seconds, and raised his leg to leave, but it was too late.

Li Yuechi had already grabbed his arm.

"Oh, Hengheng, are you awake?" Jiang Ya was taken aback, her tone seemed very guilty, "Then what, I'm a little tired, go back to sleep and see you tomorrow!" As she said that, she trotted away.

Tang Heng: "..."

Li Yuechi still grabbed his arm with great strength.It was dark all around, and Tang Heng couldn't see his expression clearly.

All he could hear was his breathing, which seemed to be a little faster than usual.

After a while, Li Yuechi said, "You kicked the flowerpot."

"Oh……"

"Does your foot hurt?"

"It doesn't hurt..."

"You wear too little, go back."

"how about you?"

Li Yuechi didn't answer.

Tang Heng secretly scolded himself for drinking for something wrong.Now he even reacted half a beat slower than usual, and he couldn't speak his head, relying entirely on impulse.That's right, it's normal for Li Yuechi not to want to talk to him. When he was drunk, he just yelled at Li Yuechi, and now Li Yuechi found out about cutting his wrists. What would Li Yuechi think? Terrible.

They will all be avoided.

Tang Heng lowered his head and said in a low voice, "Then I'll go back..."

Li Yuechi gave a soft "hmm".

Tang Heng wanted to go back, but... Li Yuechi was still holding him.

Li Yuechi's hand grabbed his hand.

Tang Heng asked blankly, "Li Yuechi?"

The other party should not.

Even breathing becomes almost inaudible.

"Li Yuechi?" He called again.

The cold night wind blows, and the body trembles slightly.

Suddenly, a drop of water fell on the back of his hand.

How can there be hot water?

Two seconds later, Tang Heng said anxiously: "Li Yuechi, you, don't listen to Jiang Ya's nonsense! It's not that exaggerated, really, I didn't want to commit suicide, I was just having some auditory hallucinations at the time, my mind was not clear and I thought I was in Wuhan— —”

Before he finished speaking, Li Yuechi suddenly exerted force and pushed Tang Heng against the wall.

But it didn't hurt, because Li Yuechi's palm rested on the back of his head.Like many times before.

The two bodies were close to each other, and Li Yuechi's face was very close.

Tang Heng still couldn't see his expression clearly, but he heard his heavy breathing no longer suppressed, and Tang Heng knew it was because of tears.

How long have they known each other?

This year is the seventh year.

Tang Heng thought in a daze, seven years.This seemed to be the first time he saw Li Yuechi cry.So Li Yuechi would cry too?He always felt that Li Yuechi had an indestructible heart. On that night seven years ago, Li Yuechi blocked a beer bottle for him. When the doctor cleaned the wound, he didn't even frown, as if he was born without pain; In the evening—this is what he saw in the surveillance video later—Li Yuechi walked into the social college with a dagger in his arms, his expression so calm that he didn't want to stab someone, but just handed in an assignment.

Tang Heng raised his hand and touched the stubble on his chin with his fingertips, and then Tang Heng groped, his palm pressed against his wet cheek.He did cry.

"Really, I didn't lie to you..." Tang Heng murmured, "At that time... I thought I was in Wuhan, and you were there. The feeling was too real...so I couldn't believe it. I didn't want to die , Really, I just checked to see if it was a hallucination, so I slashed... I didn't aim at the right place, I wanted to slash the back of my hand."

Hot tears flowed into Tang Heng's palm again.

Li Yuechi finally said, "I'm sorry..."

"You don't have to apologize..."

"I thought you were going to hate me and forget about me."

Tang Heng smiled wryly: "I really hated..."

"At that time, I had no other way..." Li Yuechi choked up, his voice was very stagnant, Tang Heng could hear him trying to suppress something, "I really had no other way... If I were now, I might I wouldn't have done that, but at that time I really... Tang Heng."

"Um……"

"Go on hating me."

"why?"

"I deserve it..."

"... "

"During those years in prison, I also regretted it..." Li Yuechi said hoarsely, "I regretted many things, such as I am not with you, I am fine if I did not go to Han University to study, I don't care about Tian Xiaoqin is fine... because those few years were really difficult. But you know? Now, I feel that I deserve it."

"Li Yuechi, stop talking—"

"I almost killed you, didn't I?" A sob was suppressed by him, and it turned into a forceful muffled cough, "I deserve everything I suffer, and I owe you."

"Li Yuechi!" Tang Heng approached him and asked in pain, "Can I understand that...you love me?"

"certainly……"

Tang Heng was stunned, he didn't expect him to admit it so readily.

"I love you..." Li Yuechi ran down Tang Heng's arm and touched his wrist, "I love you very much..."

Where Li Yuechi's fingertips touched, there was a very thin and shallow scar.

He stroked the scar with his fingertips, as light as touching clouds and feathers, so light, yet so precious.

"Li Yuechi, you, you say it again."

"I love you..." He paused for a second, "I love you very much..."

Tang Heng let out a long breath.

"Li Yuechi..." He asked again, "Then shall we be together?"

"not now……"

"why?"

Li Yue said in a low voice: "I want to confirm one thing."

He raised his hand to wipe his face, turned his head and coughed twice.Then he clasped Tang Heng's shoulders and said in a very serious tone: "Jiang Ya told me that An Yun is coming back too."

"Um……"

"I stabbed Tang Guomu back then, partly because of her, no, these are not the most important...Tang Heng, can I ask a question?"

"You ask..." Tang Heng's voice trembled a little, and he had a hunch that the next question might change his life from now on.

"If you lose all your family, all—including your mother, and then it's just me and you, just the two of us, is that okay with you?"

"By 'lost' you mean they're all dead? "

"No, it's just...you can't face them anymore."

"It's just me and you."

"right……"

"What did my mother do for Tang Guomu, right?"

Li Yuechi gritted his teeth and said: "Yes. I didn't dare to tell you at that time... I don't have the right to deprive you of your closest relatives. You no longer have a father, so I can't..."

"Li Yuechi..." Tang Heng took a deep breath, "I accept..."

"... "

"It's not you who deprived my relatives, they left me by themselves, do you understand?"

"but……"

"Will you be responsible for me?" Tang Heng said softly, "If I really have nothing, will you be responsible?"

"Will do……"

"How to be responsible?"

"love you forever……"

"We're going to be together forever."

"it is good……"

"No matter what happens, no matter who stops you, you can't leave me."

"it is good……"

"You can't abandon me even if my illness recurs."

"it is good……"

"I only have you, and you can only have me."

"it is good……"

"Actually, you are at a loss, do you know..." Tang Heng had a sore nose, and finally couldn't help it, "Even if you don't want me, I won't go back to Tang Guomu and the others."

Li Yuechi said calmly: "I admit it..."

Tang Heng was stunned, another gust of cold wind blew past his reddened nose.The wind was mixed with the smell of grass and trees sprouting in spring. It seemed that this gust of wind evaporated the alcohol in his body, and his whole body became much clearer.

"Li Yuechi, are we together now?"

"Well. What else can I ask for?"

"Let's think about it... You must not refuse what I will give you in the future."

"it is good……"

"Stop feeling unworthy of me."

"it is good……"

"Tell me everything that happened in the past six years."

"it is good……"

"Kiss me, now."

"it is good--"

In the darkness, Li Yuechi smiled lightly.

Then he leaned over and kissed Tang Heng very hard.