Circus...Circus!!!

DAY-3260

01: 35am

1.

The wind on the roof was very strong, Li Lang shivered as soon as he stepped on it, he closed the door with his backhand, there was a click, the sound was not loud, but spread by the wind.Li Lang smiled at the circle of red light that lit up in the dark night. Someone was leaning against the fence and smoking a cigarette, holding the circle of red light and looking back at him.

"Hello, classmate, how are you?" He waved his hands slightly, with his wrists on his waist, swung the shoulder bag behind his buttocks, put on the hood neatly, and zipped up the jacket.

"Ah!" Li Lang sneezed, raised his shoulders and said shiveringly, "It's so cold."

The smoker didn't say anything, just stared at him quietly for two seconds, then turned around and continued to puff.

"Ah!" Li Lang sneezed again, choking on the smoke.He didn't like the smell of cigarettes, and it was difficult for him to suck a straw. After coughing a few times and barely getting used to it, he walked towards the smoker.When the two got very close, Li Lang clapped his hands, and stepped over to the side of the smoker in two steps, pretending to be surprised: "So it's you, classmate Liu Lu! Why are you still in school so late? Today is Saturday! Are you coming to the rooftop to study?" Li Lang pointed to the sky: "It's better to watch the stars and the moon."

Liu Lu wrapped her coat tightly, folded her arms on the railing, smoked slowly, without saying a word.

Li Lang leaned against the fence, raised his head, squinted his eyes, glanced at Liu Lu secretly, shook his head and teased: "You still want to talk to me about the philosophy of life from poetry and poetry."

Liu Lu threw down the cigarette butt, and took out another cigarette from his trouser pocket. The cigarette was squashed and crumpled. Lighter, another hand to block the wind, or nothing.

The wind was strong, and the wind roared, and the flames were blown out by the wind as soon as they had the momentum to rise.Seeing this, Li Lang stretched out his hands to protect both sides of the air leak, and said, "Try again."

Liu Lu's lips moved, and she squeezed her cigarette tightly.He lit the fire, and this time it worked. A small ball of flame jumped out of the hole of the lighter. Liu Lu leaned forward, and the light from the fire illuminated the lower half of his face. of mud.The fire also made his and Li Lang's hands glow red.

"You smoke." Li Lang looked at him and said, the flames dispersed, he saw Liu Lu's right cheek was swollen, and there was a slap mark on it, Li Lang said again: "You fight."

Liu Lu put away the lighter, sniffed, and then returned to the posture of lying down and smoking, and regarded Li Lang as a transparent person again.Li Lang was holding on to the railing next to him, leaning back and leaning forward for a while, muttering, "Student Liu Lu, do you know how hard it is to find you? In school, aren't you helping the teacher correct papers in the office?" , you are sorting out books in the library as a volunteer. You are so busy during your lunch break, and you have to work in a milk tea shop. Is the bonus given by the school not enough? Is it too hard? Downstairs, by the time I run down the stairs, you've already boarded the bus and gone home!"

Li Lang's chest was pressed against the cold railing, his neck was raised high, he was looking at the moonless and starless night sky, and he was also looking at Liu Lu.Against the backdrop of the night, his jet-black hair and jet-black eyes were divided into layers, with the darker hair and brighter eyes.

Li Lang said: "Are you smoking because you are under a lot of pressure from studying? Oh, don't have so much pressure. You can relax a little bit, and you will lose a little more than ten points in the test. You are still the first in the grade. You are so good at studying. , What’s the secret? Do you go to cram school on weekends? Or after school? You don’t even bring your schoolbag home? How can you do so much homework in school?”

"The girls in our class discuss you every day, student Liu Lu, what kind of girl do you like?"

Liu Lu's chin was buried in her arms, and Li Lang was still chattering. He interrupted abruptly and said, "Why are you coming to school so late? Today is Saturday."

As if he had found a treasure, Li Lang let go of the railing, rubbed his hands and excitedly moved to Liu Lu's side, and gestured to Liu Lu: "It's already past twelve o'clock! Today is Sunday! Haha."

Liu Lu moved away, Li Lang followed, and said a lot: "Me? I'm here to steal your homework, really, I want to copy your homework, math problems are too difficult , I have been thinking about it for a long time at home, but I can’t figure it out. I think you will do it. Our teacher said, you solved this problem last week, so I came to steal it. You don’t know. I’ve been looking for it for a long time. Your math teacher’s desk, hahaha, the hellokitty on his desk made me laugh so hard, did you buy it for his daughter? It was a package from McDonald’s! Haha, why didn’t you bring it home!”

Liu Lu glanced at him, Li Lang cleared his throat, took out a homework book from his bag, and showed it to him: "Here, I didn't lie to you."

Liu Lu looked down and saw that his name was indeed clearly written on the homework book, with slender characters and sloppy strokes.Before he could say anything, Li Lang anxiously put away his homework, hugged it in his arms and said, "What I stole is mine, don't steal it!"

Liu Lu didn't care: "Copy it if you want."

He wiped his face listlessly, leaving the blood off his chin.Li Lang stuck out his tongue, looked at him and said with a smile, "I lied to you."

Liu Lu held the cigarette between her hands and didn't smoke, letting it burn by itself, the soot was blown away by the wind, and his eyes followed the traces of the scattered soot.

Li Lang continued: "I've been pondering at home for a long time, and I kept thinking about you, so I came to school to steal your homework. I don't want to copy your math problems, I want to steal it back and keep it."

"What are you collecting for? Will I become a celebrity?" Liu Lu said with her head lowered as she pressed her toes against the wall.

Li Lang laughed: "You have such good grades and are so smart, maybe you have become some kind of celebrity! From now on, your picture will be hung at the entrance of the school library, together with Galileo and Copernicus. Hang a banner at the school gate, and clean up a small museum for you. Put all the desks, chairs, and exam papers you used in the past in the glass display cabinet. Tickets will not be charged. The museum is closed on Mondays, and chasing and beating is strictly prohibited. Eating snacks and taking pictures are not allowed, we have to devote ourselves to Liu Lu's study-loving atmosphere, feel the super high concentration of knowledge, do you have a feeling of suffocation?"

Liu Lu crouched down, and smiled lightly: "There are so many rules..."

Li Lang asked him, "What did you say?"

Liu Lu shook her head, Li Lang suddenly swore: "I will never report your smoking to the teacher!" He looked around, covered his mouth with his right hand and whispered to Liu Lu, warning him: "But you Be careful, don't let Fang Ling in your class, who is the second grader, know about this, she will definitely have to wear shoes for you!"

Liu Lu laughed even wider, and the cigarette fell to the ground without holding it steady. He said, "Where did you learn these common sayings in England for so many years?"

Li Lang picked up the half cigarette, he stopped smiling, and asked with a serious face, "Student, you seem to care about me very much. We are not in the same class. How do you know that I came back from England?"

Liu Lu looked at him with her cheeks propped up, and when he stared at him, Li Lang immediately lost ground, the corners of his slightly drooping eyes drooped even more, he smiled playfully, and talked to Liu Lu flatteringly.

"Student Liu Lu, what kind of girl do you like? Miao Tongtong, our class flower, what do you think?"

Liu Lu said, "You have asked this question once."

"Then you didn't answer."

Liu Lu held her chin and kicked the wall: "Last week, a lot of girls gave you birthday presents, and you smiled happily when you received them, then turned your head and threw them into the trash can."

Li Lang held his face in his hands and said in horror, "It's scary, you followed me, I didn't expect you to have such a habit!"

Liu Lu rolled her eyes: "Looking out of the window of the mathematics office, you can just see the trash can where you throw your things. Your class is opposite the mathematics office."

Li Lang shrugged his shoulders: "Pepper and salt ribs, braised pork ribs, tender fried beef tenderloin, sweet and sour pork with pineapple, they call you the most difficult dishes in the cafeteria, but you don't even want them." "Whatever I want to eat, I make it myself Decide."

"Is green vegetable tofu so delicious?" Li Lang muttered, "Or you don't like girls who are courting you? You don't like girls?"

Liu Lu's black eyes flickered for a moment, he looked downstairs and replied, "I don't know..."

"I don't know what?" Li Lang swallowed dryly, "Britain... is very open."

Liu Lu laughed, but Li Lang didn't understand: "What's so funny about this sentence? I don't understand you."

Liu Lu still smiled, and buried her whole face behind the protection of her arms.Li Lang threw out the cigarette that he had been holding all along, and the sparks quickly plunged into the vast night without a trace.Li Lang jumped up, grabbed the railing with both hands, leaned half of his body out of the fence, facing the strong wind, and said, "May I tell you a secret?"

"You don't need to exchange your secret with me."

Liu Lu looked up at him, Li Lang turned his face sideways and grinned at him: "You can keep a secret for me or not! Oh, I'm just so free and easy! I don't care what other people think or say!"

He spoke a few words in English and cursed a few words.

"My father seems to be gay." Li Lang faced the distance, his voice was calm, and he put away all his rashness and abruptness, "I advised my mother to divorce him, but she refused. She looks so smart, she is so stupid."

Li Lang's voice gradually softened, and Liu Lu's voice sounded again: "There is a saying in the south."

"What?" Li Lang's eyes were hurt by the wind, he said, "Student Liu Lu, I suspect I may have trachoma, I'm going to cry."

"Smart face, stupid belly." Liu Lu said.

Li Lang chuckled, and Liu Lu's voice fell far behind him.

"My dad beat me." Liu Lu said again.

Li Lang didn't look back, he said: "When I came out of the office, I wanted to take a look at the moon. I looked up and found that there was no moon today. No wonder it was so dark. Then I saw a bright light on the roof, so I went up. Unexpectedly It was you who were smoking."

"Smoking is short-lived, you should quit smoking." Li Lang added.

Liu Lu patted him and pulled the hem of his clothes.Li Lang turned to look, and he handed him a tissue.Li Lang jumped onto the flat ground, pressed his eyes with a tissue, and whispered, "What major did you miss in college?"

"do not know……"

Li Lang giggled, removed the tissue and looked at Liu Lu: "Why don't you know anything, can you live your life a bit more yourself?"

Liu Lu frowned, and said forcefully, "That's none of your business."

Li Lang pointed up: "Well, after you graduate from high school, you can become the moon in the sky."

He smiled, patted his chest, and said confidently: "I will be the earth after graduation, and the moon only needs to revolve around the earth! Hahaha, in this way, you don't have to 'don't know', you don't have to know yourself Do you like girls, you don’t have to know what you want to do in the future, hey, do you think it’s okay? I think it’s great! How can I be so smart! Hahahaha!”

Li Lang laughed too wantonly, caught wind, and started hiccupping non-stop.

Liu Lu turned her head to one side, and said two words: "Idiot..."

"What? What did you say?"

"Say you're a genius." Liu Lu raised her voice.

Li Lang put his hands next to his ears, and nodded after hearing it: "Oh! Oh! You said I was handsome! You are also very good-looking! Classmate Liu Lu, you are very good-looking!"

He gave a thumbs up, walked over and pulled Liu Lu to run.

"It's so cold! Let's go get some hot drinks! My treat!"

Liu Lu ran after him, unable to adjust her breathing for a while, and hiccupped endlessly in the wind.

2.

When Liu Lu returned home, it was already dark. He opened the door and entered the house, and stood at the entrance in the dark to change his shoes.Liu Lu looked up, the curtains in the living room were not drawn, and under the streetlight in the room, a man was sitting at the dining table drinking.

Liu Lu's home is small, with blurred boundaries between the kitchen, the living room and the dining room. Behind the dining table is a TV set covered with a small white knitted crochet blanket and a tin box placed on top of it.A two-seater sofa is squeezed next to the TV, and a desk is squeezed beside the sofa. Half of the table has extended to the balcony. There are many clothes and towels on the balcony, all of which are the uniforms of a bathroom. There is a sewing machine, and a bamboo basket is placed under the machine. Inside is a simple signboard and a small bench. "Ten yuan for mending clothes", the signboard reads in red rapeseed.

"I'm back." The man poured wine into the glass, and the transparent liquid gushed out from the mouth of the green glass bottle.His hands were shaking, and the wine was half poured and spilled all over the table.

Liu Lu put on her slippers and walked into the house.

"Talk to you!" The man's voice was sharp, and Liu Lu happened to walk to the table, he stopped, and the man waved to the table, "There is food for you, eat."

"I've eaten." Liu Lu said.On the table was a stack of fried vegetables, a few pieces of steamed hairtail, and a few pieces of pickled radish.

The man raised his wine glass tremblingly, and smiled sinisterly: "Hmph, you're out here with a lot of fish and meat, and these small dishes made by your mother won't catch your eye, don't they suit your appetite?"

Liu Lu opened a chair and sat down, took a big mouthful of vegetables with chopsticks, stuffed them into her mouth, and chewed vigorously.

"Hmph." The man smiled contemptuously, kicked him under the table, and said eccentrically, "Who will show you eating so hard?"

Liu Lu looked at him, the man's face was extremely blurry, he could only see the scar on his face, the corners of his mouth twitched, and the scar was also affected, like a villain dancing at the junction of light and dark.

"What are you looking at?" The man kicked again fiercely.

Liu Lu didn't make a sound or hide, he picked up the plate and pushed the vegetables into his mouth.The man put down his wine glass with a snap, turned on the light, pulled out a feather duster inserted in the back of the TV, and licked Liu Lu's back.Liu Lu clenched her knees tightly and turned her head angrily. The man stared at him with bulging eyes, more angrily than him: "It's against you!"

Under the light, Liu Lu finally saw his face clearly. The man's skin was white and his age was obvious. There were traces of time on the corners of his eyes, around his lips, and on his forehead. Speaking, the scar seemed to be injected with endless vitality, dancing ugly dances on his face.

Before the man finished speaking, he hit Liu Lu on the back again.Liu Lu bounced, and he and the man fought over the feather duster.During the dispute, a woman came out of the house wearing a sweater and cardigan.When Liu Lu saw her, her movements froze, and the man took advantage of this to block him in a corner and whipped him several times.Liu Lu shrank her shoulders in pain, and couldn't dodge. At this time, the woman ran over, blocked in front of him, grabbed the man's wrist that was raised in the air, and made a sound of "uh, huh, huh" in her throat.She couldn't speak, just shouted, trying to separate the two of them.

"I'll teach this little bastard a lesson! Don't worry about it!" The man pushed the woman away, and the woman fell to the ground emaciated.Liu Lu became ruthless, pushed the man away, rushed to help the woman up, and shouted, "Hit me if you hit me! Why did you do it to my mother!"

The man spat, walked up to them in two steps, grabbed Liu Lu by the collar and said, "Your mother? That's my woman too! Kneel down for me! I've raised you for 17 fucking years! You're good, The hair on the mouth has not grown yet, so the fuck knows how to hook..."

The man stopped, turned his head and spit on the ground, the woman patted Liu Lu, beckoning him to enter the room quickly, and then smiled flatteringly and shook the man's hand. He was still angry from time to time, his white face turned into a pig liver color, and he jumped into a rage, threw off the woman's hand, kicked her to the ground, pointed at the woman's nose and cursed: "Get out! Get away! Who told you Touch me! Get out!! Fuck off! You fucking... gave birth to a freak for me! Freak!" He wanted to make another kick, Liu Lu shouted and rushed over Hug the man and get into a ball with him.The two were about the same size, but Liu Lu was young, reckless, and knew nothing about fighting. She was subdued by the man in two or three strokes, dragged and tied to a chair.The man's face was painted, and when he touched the corner of his mouth, he felt some blood. He was horrified, and tremblingly, he pulled out the belt around his waist and held it in his hand, saying: "Okay...okay...you little bastard !"

Seeing this, the woman crawled over to persuade the fight, hugged the man's feet, begged him, begged him, kowtowed one after another.She pointed at Liu Lu, pointed at herself, and pointed at the man, quickly doing sign language, opening her mouth wide, she tried hard to speak, but she could only say: "Ah, ah, ah, ah."

The woman was sweating profusely. The man looked down at her, then glanced at Liu Lu, dropped the belt and walked away. The woman wanted to take this opportunity to untie Liu Lu, but the man came back in the blink of an eye. The woman was loosening the rope, and the woman was punched and kicked.

"You hit a woman! What kind of man are you!" Liu Lu blushed, suppressed her tears, stomped her feet, and twisted her wrist vigorously.The man turned his head and walked towards him with a smile, a razor in his hand.He grabbed Liu Lu's hair and forced him to lift his neck. "Pooh!"

The man spat on Liu Lu's face.

"Why do you grow your hair so long? It's neither male nor female!" He pressed Liu Lu's shoulders to shave his head. Liu Lu was stubborn. The man beat him, and he was even more stubborn. The man threatened him to cut it open with a razor. his neck.He's going to kill him.

"Fuck, seduce men, seduce Li Zhao, fuck."

He slapped Liu Lu both left and right.

"If you don't study hard, you can fucking study. If you don't do it well! What use will you be in the future!"

"Ah...ah..."

Behind the man came the sound of clicking and clicking again. It was the woman who knelt up again. She was still kowtowing to the man, knocking loudly, faster and faster, more pious.

When Liu Lu raised his face, the razor in the man's hand happened to scratch the corner of his mouth, blood was seen immediately.The man's eyes suddenly lit up, he pinched Liu Lu's chin, looked at it carefully, and said, "Your face..."

He let go of Liu Lu and touched his own face: "If your face becomes like mine..."

"It's because you and I look so similar...so, so...if you..."

Liu Lu wanted to vomit, the smell of alcohol in the man's mouth and the smell of perfume on his body made him want to vomit.

The razor in the man's hand was attached to Liu Lu's neck, and he kept changing the angle of the razor in his hand. He was thinking about something, and a malicious and slightly proud smile appeared on his mouth.

Liu Lu lowered her head, feeling sick to her stomach tormenting him.He closed his eyes.He doesn't want to see anything.

With a bang, this sound came too suddenly, Liu Lu suddenly opened her eyes, and looked up, the man who was still alive and kicking just now fell to the ground!Standing behind him was a weeping woman, her right hand was shaking uncontrollably, clutching a broken wine bottle.

Liu Lu called her: "Mom..."

The woman came to untie him. She dropped the wine bottle, wiped her face, stuffed 200 yuan into Liu Lu's hand, and pushed him outside.

"I won't leave." Liu Lu refused, and put the money back, "What will you do if I leave."

The man was still lying on the ground, motionless.

Liu Lu signed sign language with the woman, and the woman replied to him: He is already crazy, you go hide with Aunt Jiang for a few days.

let's go together.

Be obedient, you go first, and when he sobers up, I will persuade him that he is like this because he drank too much.

You say that every time!One day he didn't drink too much wine!

The woman forced Liu Lu to the door, touched her head and gestured: "You go to Aunt Jiang's to see the injury, and mother will come over in a while."

No.

obedient.

I do not want.Mom, I don't want it.

Liu Lu, be obedient.The woman smiled and rubbed Liu Lu's hair.

"I don't want to stay here anymore." Liu Lu said, the corridor was dark, he rubbed his eyes and made a sign language.

I want to fly away, I want to fly away with you.

Liu Lu's hands were flying in the air.

The woman nodded with a smile, held Liu Lu's hand, and stroked it gently. The woman's palm was rough and still very dark, while Liu Lu's skin was delicate and white.She put her disheveled hair behind her ears, pushed Liu Lu away, and locked the door.