stupid dirty romance

We all know the meaning of death, but at the same time we try our best to avoid it. Obviously, accepting change and ending may be a decent way to deal with it. Understand, become confused, and finally, know nothing.

Yin Yu is a person who believes in fate. He believes that everything he gets is destined, whether it is money, rights, prosperity in the world, or what may happen to him one day in the future, whether life or death is fate.

However, years of immersion in the Buddhist atmosphere of Southeast Asian countries did not make him a so-called Buddhist. In fact, he never stepped into a temple, nor did he bow down to monks. Among the powerful drug lords, only Nu Jin never worshiped Buddha. People say that people without faith are the scariest people. In fact, they are not. What is faith? Faith is to believe what you believe in your heart. In this world, everyone You have your own destiny, but there are not many examples of people who put down the butcher's knife and become a Buddha immediately. How many people are really enlightened?

Yin Yu knew that his sins were serious, but he didn't want to beg for forgiveness, and he never repented. He knew that he was a wicked person, so since he would not change, why bother to beg Buddha and live in hypocrisy.

As a result, don’t go to defile the temple and blaspheme the gods. From this aspect, his hypocrisy is so real. If a villain is so enlightened, he can be called an enemy worthy of respect, just because he is not a coward. Rather, it can be called a real person.

The gods and Buddhas that people pray to are not the evil gods in ancient Greek mythology. Everyone hopes that the god of luck will come to their side, but if they pray to gods and worship Buddha for all chores, and their wishes are all fulfilled, this world is too absurd. People are not You are praying for gods and Buddhas, but for yourself and peace of mind. Only your heart will give you the fairest trial.

At the beginning of March, Yin Mingming asked his cousin to go to the Jade Buddha Temple to burn incense and eat vegetarian food. This was the first time Yin Yu stood in front of the temple and looked up at the splendor here. If there is a Buddha, the Buddha would not care about the golden clothes. Everyone Want to gain enlightenment, want to ascend to the sky, but at the moment of death, not all of them are turned into flying ashes.

He was standing on the side of the road waiting for Yin Mingming, surrounded by fortune tellers and vendors selling Buddhist supplies. S City is a flashy appearance among the towering clouds, a mirage of a group of delusional lunatics. Meaning, so I have to go farther and farther on the road of night, and I can't wait for daylight.

Yin Yu's cousin has a very bad habit of being late, so he has been looking at this magnificent temple for more than an hour at this time. With so many memories, he knows that the more magnificent the temple is, the more suffering the world under his feet is like Shura everywhere. He is a drug dealer, and he knows this best.

Yin Mingming once said that if a person can have what he likes to do, he is already very lucky. If he can still do what he likes, he is the greatest happiness in life.

He also sometimes thinks of the doubts people around him have about him, are you doing this, doing these things, really just because you like to do evil?

In fact, it is not. Human nature is evil, so there is no lack of kindness. It only depends on how much it is, and how to balance it. Of course, Yin Yu does not think that he likes killing people. It’s just that he shows no fear and never looks back, which gives people a kind of feeling. Born to like the illusion of evil, Xia Jun thinks so, right? He always feels that he should be a rich and idle person—he can't be a rich and honored idler, and a rich and honored idler is nothing but an illusion.

Thinking of Xia Jun, Yin Yu didn’t actually forget all his youth, but he always felt that in Officer Xia’s mind, those clips were overly beautified by filters, and he only remembered a small part of the good and forgot most of the bad. .

If he didn't remember it too, no one would have known the truth.

Officer Xia probably has long forgotten how embarrassing and embarrassing they were when they were young, and even more so, the decadence and depravity of the two of them. During that time, Yin Yu was not the only one who was crazy, and Xia Jun had actually been infected with madness long ago. sick.

Xia Jun was very much like his father when he was a teenager, with the same depression and self-abandonment. Yin Yu remembers all the unhappiness between them, which often ended in violence. He remembers being by Xia Jun's side and by Xiao Wenjin's It's the same, maybe it's his delusion, he thinks he was born to experience this.

In his eyes, Officer Xia sometimes does not represent Xia Jun, but a wonderful fate. Yin Yu's soul is out of his body, and he stands on a high place overlooking everything. He watches Officer Xia raise his fist, looks at his The body is dying, but he feels safe and relieved. Perhaps, when you can put yourself in the hands of another person with confidence, it is also a high level of trust.

Xia Jun is special, but not the most special to him, he knows when he can stop, this is his original intention, but things are out of control, human beings can't control their emotions, the result is hopeful , There will be thousands of times of disappointment.

Yin Yu now has such expectations for Xia Jun, but miracles cannot happen to him, miracles themselves do not exist.

Police officer Xia hadn't contacted him for half a month. They were separated in the same city. This was a deliberate avoidance of not seeing each other. At this moment, they knew each other clearly. It would be best if they didn't see each other.

Not knowing what Police Officer Xia thought of him, Yin Yu was a little curious, and waved to his cousin who was running from a distance, and the two of them bought tickets to enter the temple.

The incense was in full bloom, he stood in front of the main hall and did not go in, watching Yin Mingming knelt in front of the merit box and kowtowed, surrounded by smoke and clouds, and the smell of incense candles made people dizzy after a long time. At noon, they went to eat the famous vegetarian food, A bowl of plain noodles has a taste that cannot be made in other places...

"Cousin..." Yin Mingming dragged Yin Yu around for a long time after the meal, and finally sat down in the park.

It seemed that something was on his mind, Yin Yu turned his body to look at Yin Mingming, and saw Major General Yin Chengpeng in a trance.

"You said...why should people live?" Yin Mingming looked at Yin Yu steadfastly.

"Live to live." Yin Yu smiled, took his cousin's hand and put it on his lap. He remembered the last time when he was sitting in the park chatting like this, Yin Mingming was just a little girl. Of course, he was young at that time. Not too old.

"I always feel restless recently." Yin Mingming said.

"Stop surfing the Internet, don't stay up late, and you won't be restless."

"That's not the case." Yin Mingming shook Yin Yu's hand and asked, "Cousin, don't lie to me, do you have something to hide from us?"

Yin Yu's smile stopped for a moment, and he asked, "Why do you ask that?"

"It's nothing, it's just a feeling..."

"So you asked your cousin out... So you didn't miss your cousin." Yin Yu smiled, and then made a sad look, which amused Yin Mingming, and then he became a little serious and said: " You writers, talkative, don’t always stay in the room and think wildly.”

"But it has indeed become a little strange recently." Yin Mingming was still worried.

"Don't worry, Major General Yin will support the sky falling."

"Cousin, be careful and get beaten by my dad again!"

March in S city is the coldest time of spring, and it will become very hot in April. This time is the most likely to get sick. Not long after, Yin Yu heard the news of Yin Mingming's illness. He suggested that Yin Mingming go to H Resting in the city and changing his mood by the way, Yin Mingming readily accepted this suggestion. On the day of sending off the plane, Yin Yu looked at Yin Mingming wearing a big mask covering his face so that only his eyes were left, and a gray peaked cap on his head was like a dark cloud. , But he can't predict the future. Once he goes, he will never come back.

Yin Mingming died in his villa in City H. He swallowed a whole bottle of sleeping pills. The reason for his suicide is unknown. Everyone knows that Yin Mingming was not rescued.

Police officer Xia appeared on the day of the funeral. He bowed to Yin Mingming's portrait without even looking at Yin Yu.

Depression also has a certain genetic predisposition. There were three abnormal ones in their generation. Yin Shu was crying like hell. Yin Bin had lost interest in the outside world for a long time. He is a mental patient, and no one cares whether he is Crying, only caring about when he will get sick, the only one who survived these problems, Yin Yu, knelt at his uncle's feet in the lounge and refused to get up.

Yin Chengpeng wanted to hit Yin Yu, but he didn't do it after all. He couldn't pull up his nephew, so he knelt down too.

This is the last bit of humanity left in him. Yin Mingming's death broke his taut strings. His mind went blank, and he kept repeating why people live and why they live.

This is the second time he has missed someone else's death. He understands death, but he can't stop it.

This is also the first time he stopped Xia Jun, he was extremely afraid of being alone, he dragged Xia Jun into his car, dragged Xia Jun into bed, he hugged Xia Jun tightly, and kept mumbling , the body could not stop shaking: "Don't die...don't die...don't die..." I can die, but you can't.