stupid dirty romance

When people are tired, people are too lazy to think about the most obvious things, nothing is better than a good night's sleep, first send Xia Jun back, Yin Yu went to the company meeting before he even had time to change his clothes, and after the meeting went to the bar with Lu Jie Sit, it was past midnight when I got home, and it was almost the Spring Festival. He was supposed to show up at both Yin's annual meeting and his company's annual meeting, but his female companion became a problem.

This year he might still go alone, but he always felt that this situation should be broken.

He always thinks that he will get married at least once in his life, but he hasn't figured out how to use this marriage...

His head hurts when he thinks too much, especially after drinking alcohol after he just recovered from his injury. Now he feels uncomfortable all over. He is in a bedroom with his eyes open and staring blankly in the dark. The whole house is very quiet. I thought of many things, including the turmoil of these years. His life was not as glamorous as people saw it. In fact, he was a hard-working person who could only enjoy himself in hardship and seek victory in danger. But now, In a situation where he was only one step away from enjoying comfort, he felt extremely lonely and empty.

Officer Xia once asked him what he was most afraid of, but he couldn't answer.When he was young, Xiao Wenjin was what he was most afraid of. He was afraid of everyone who touched him.What he was most afraid of when he was young and energetic was to fall from now on. He was afraid that he was not strong enough to keep himself in the storm.

just now……

What is he afraid of?

In short, it's not that I'm afraid of going bankrupt, or that I'm afraid of going to jail.

But people always have their own fears, his fears are illusory and ready to come out.But he and his fear will never be face to face.He thought that the current him should be afraid of becoming weak, afraid of life in the sun.

He really likes to survive in the dark, but now that he is exposed to the sun, he no longer adapts to it. This was his childhood dream, but now it has become a burden.

The joy he lacked was doomed not to make up for it, but after he became famous, how he should deal with himself was a big question.The most important thing to follow in life is not a sense of morality. In his opinion, the most important thing to follow in life is not to lose your temper, which probably means not to get carried away with complacency.

But now, recently, and in the past, he is always complacent. It's not that he is not calm enough, but it is too shameful.He didn't like it, but there were always surprises.

He remembers himself at the age of 16, and vowed to become a master, but the reason was just because he didn't want to be bullied any more. At that time, his bones were fragile, he was depressed, he was insane, and he was afraid of pain. Afraid of suffering, even afraid of ridicule and indifference from others, so he drank heavily, smoked and took drugs desperately.

When he was 20 years old, everything was beaten back to its original shape. He found that his time could never come back, and he couldn’t get back what he lost, so he had to try his best to compensate himself for something else. At that time, he had already He doesn't care about other things anymore, he cares more about his own feelings than the outside world, he has learned a lot, the first thing is gain and loss.

Giving up is the first difficult thing in this world, but he has to do it if he does it, and he has to do it if he doesn't do it, but looking back now, his giving up and his obtaining may not have any fundamental meaning at all.

Xia Jun's idealism is nagging in his ears all the time. He hopes that becoming a mechanical engineer now is like the fulfillment of his so-called "dream" in his youth, but when he looks back, he finds that he has never Many people have no reason to become a certain kind of person, and naturally there is no shortage of him.

The soul is hungry at this time, but he does not act, only in this matter he never acts, he does many things, including the most boring things, reading difficult words, writing calligraphy all day long, learning may future forever He doesn't know the language, he does all these things to escape his boredom, his emptiness.

Or, simply sing and sing every night, and enjoy the money.

The phone rang, and the screen was on for a while. Instead of checking the news, he turned over and fell asleep. When he was tired, he should rest, just like drinking water when he was thirsty, and eating when he was hungry. Let everything take its course. He must also control the scale, only in this way can he feel at ease.

The deepest part of everyone's soul is loneliness, but loneliness is not fragile, it is extremely firm, and its strength is unimaginable, including those who have loneliness.

On the third day after Xia Jun returned to City S, he finally couldn't bear the loneliness. He realized that Yin Yu had given him a cold fist. Interested to hear about his past, Yin Yu is the kind of person who is not in the mood to care about things other than what he is interested in even if he is not busy. Love does not make him ascend to the throne faster.

He ran all over the residences of Yin Yu that he knew, and finally rang the doorbell of an apartment. At this time, the people inside had just woken up, with coffee in one hand and a report in the other, their pupils in the door mirror When they met, they saw each other, and after a slight reaction, they fell flat.

Yin Yu put down his coffee and opened the door to welcome Xia Jun in. He didn't say anything and didn't need to say anything.

Officer Xia doesn't want to get off the pirate ship yet, and he doesn't need to kick the other party into the sea.

"Are you busy these days?" Xia Jun asked as soon as he entered the door.

"Fortunately, there are some work matters being dealt with." Yin Yu said while leading Xia Jun to the living room, "Have you had breakfast?"

"I've eaten." Xia Jun replied, looking around the room, it was cold and lifeless.

"Sit down and have something to eat with me."

A glass of pure malt whiskey, the habit of drinking in the morning is not good, Xia Jun frowned, but did not stop him, he observed Yin Yu's reaction with a cautious attitude, always felt that the other party was indifferent and abnormal, like...

It was as if he was tired of dealing with him.

"What happened?" Xia Jun still couldn't help asking, even though he should know what happened most, there is no other reason, just like fireworks, there is always a time to go out.

"Maybe the two of us really should go on vacation." Yin Yu sighed softly, smiled, poured Xia Jun a glass of wine, and said sincerely: "I always feel that you are not as attractive to me as before. "

He would wake up from a dream, even though he still habitually smiled at Xia Jun, wanting to touch his hand and feel his temperature, but his heart had already cooled down, and he didn't know when the passing feeling would come back.

Xia Jun knew this feeling very well, it was so sudden that he couldn't explain it for a while, and he was the same, feeling that Yin Yu lost his fatal attraction to him in an instant.

The two drank in silence, and no one said a word.

This is what Xia Jun was most worried about in the Golden Triangle before. Now that it happened, they became dull and went to a different kind of death.

It is not calm, because under their plainness and death, there is still a dark tide.

Tomorrow is the annual meeting. Yin Yu prepared his dress for the banquet, and Xia Jun had already made an appointment for a dinner with his colleagues. They had too much to say, but they didn't say anything in the end.

Yin Yu let out a sigh of relief with a smile, and said to Xia Jun, "Go back and have a good rest first, happy new year." What he said was very formulaic, and Xia Jun even felt that he was perfunctory and dismissing him.

Xia Jun didn't say Happy New Year, he didn't say anything, he put down his glass and got up to leave.

Even though we had those happy times, we're still doomed now...

Yin Yu suddenly remembered that when he was 20 years old, he heard a song in a small bar. He looked at Xia Jun's back as he walked farther and farther away, and felt strange in his heart. He also put down his wine glass and walked over. Xia Jun stopped, and kissed Officer Xia's lips the moment the other party turned around, as if he wanted to reconfirm his feelings.

It was a very light, very light kiss, like a good morning kiss to each other.

But there is nothing more suitable for a kiss than this moment - Xia Jun's response was not too late, they held each other's jaws, and gently stroked each other's cheeks with their fingers, changing the kiss from shallow to deep.

When parting, they looked at each other as if they were getting to know each other again—meeting for the first time, my lover.