Brocade tears

After Meng Kuang finished speaking, he patted Sui'er's hand and said:

"Go to sleep for a while, close your eyes and rest. I'll go outside to see Qingxu."

The light in the carriage was a bit dim, and Sui'er couldn't see Meng Kuang's face clearly, but she could feel that she was a little shy.Sui'er is really fascinated by this person, and her sentence "Gods block and kill gods, Buddhas block and kill Buddhas" just now gave Sui'er a different kind of shock.In the past, this person occasionally had a bad temper, and most of the time, she seemed gentle and honest in front of her with the small temper of some girls, so that Sui'er couldn't help but ignore her other side. Sister Qing, with the title of "Teng Dao Shura", must have a shocking strength.This is after the night in the Niangniang Temple, Sui'er once again felt the domineering aura emanating from Meng Kuang.Recalling the scene of Meng Kuang beheading more than a dozen people in the Empress Temple that night, she felt extremely horrified and horrified at that time, and even she didn't want to think about it for a long time afterwards.But now, for some reason, those bloody and terrifying feelings disappeared in her mind, leaving only Meng Kuang's sharp sword skills and eyes staring at her in the dark night, with an indescribable sense of security.

Meng Kuang was getting up and was about to get out of the carriage, when Sui'er didn't know what was wrong with her, so she suddenly reached out and grabbed the hem of her clothes.Meng Kuang was stunned for a while, then turned to look at her, and asked:

"what happened?"

"Sit down and accompany me..." Sui'er said softly.

Meng Kuang hesitated for a moment, and finally sat beside her as promised.She didn't dare to sit across from her anymore, just now when she saw Sui'er so worried and worried, she felt distressed and angry at the same time, thinking in her heart that she would never let anyone bully her again, so she uttered wild words in agitated emotion, Now I am really embarrassed and shy, and I want to find a crack in the ground to get in.

But she just couldn't refuse her request, especially she always looked at her pitifully with those amber eyes that she had no resistance to, it was really...too cunning.She could only sit upright by her side, and suddenly became inexplicably nervous again, clenching her hands on her knees tightly.

Sui'er slowly leaned over, hugged her left arm, leaned her head on her shoulder, and closed her eyes.She didn't speak, and the faint fragrance on her body diffused little by little, melting Meng Kuang's heart.Meng Kuang seemed to have a pool of warm spring water in his arms, thinking that just leaning on it like this was enough, and she didn't ask for more.She helped her regardless of any gain or loss, just to get this little bit of closeness and tenderness.What more could she ask of her?That would be too greedy.

These days, she occasionally thinks that when Sui'er gets rid of all the complicated plots and entanglements, it would be great if she can stay by her side for a long time.But would she still want to have a normal home?She has a husband who treats her well, has children and raises children, and lives as plainly as water, warmly and truly.These are things I can't give her. I am already an out-of-the-ordinary person, male is not male, female is not female, I can't live a normal life, and I won't have other family members except my sister.The younger sister will also get married in the future, and she may become the most out of place in the family.

Maybe dying alone is her ending, but for her who is licking blood at the knife edge, being able to die alone is probably the best ending of her life.

"Brother Thirteen... Sigh, I'd better call you Sister Qing when there is no one else, I'm really not used to it." Sui'er suddenly spoke softly, "Sister Qing, have you heard of pairing food?"

Meng Kuang's heart skipped a beat, he subconsciously swallowed a mouthful of saliva, and said, "Of course I've heard that the people in the palace eat each other, and Jiecaihu, I still understand."

"Do you think they are just living together, or do they have real feelings?" Sui Er asked again.

Meng Kuang thought for a while and replied seriously: "Some of them may really just be partners, or even out of interests. But some may have real feelings, such as your mother and old aunt."

"Um……"

"Speaking from the bottom of my heart, a person like the old aunt is really touching. She has been loyal to your mother for so many years. I don't know if she was in the fire just to send your mother and you out of the palace. Stayed. No matter what the situation was, she made a huge sacrifice, which is really admirable."

When Meng Kuang said this, he suddenly heard sobbing from his shoulder. It turned out that Sui'er was crying again.Her heart suddenly picked up, and she quickly blamed herself:

"Sorry, I shouldn't have said that."

"If life is full of sufferings one after another, it will be really boring to live in this life. But if there is such a person who treats me sincerely and unswervingly, then no matter how many difficulties there are, I will not be afraid of suffering." Don't get over it, people have goals in life." Sui Er swallowed her tears and said with a choked voice.

Meng Kuang didn't answer, but wiped the tears off her face with his sleeve.

"Actually, my mother and my old aunt are not very old. The old aunt should be only 40 years old. If my mother can live to this day, she will be about this age. But they all look 20 years older than their actual age. I In the past, I couldn’t understand the feelings of my mother. I just felt that my mother was always very unhappy, even though she always smiled in front of me and loved me tenderly. Now that I think about it... I regret... I didn’t know about my mother’s relationship earlier. Regarding the matter of the old aunt, I didn't do my last filial piety, I killed the old aunt, instead of saving her from the palace, I killed her..." Sui'er was already sobbing.

She cried so much that Meng Kuang's heart was about to break, so he could only wipe away her tears, raised his arms and embraced her in his arms, giving her warmth and comfort.But it's good that she can cry, and she can vent her grief, it's better than being stuffy in her heart.

After crying for a long time, Sui'er finally calmed down, and Meng Kuang's clothes were completely wet with her tears.Sui'er tightly clutched the fabric of Meng Kuang's waist, and said in a strong nasal voice:

"Sister Qing, I am an ominous person...don't kill gods and Buddhas for me, I'm really afraid that I will harm you."

"Sui'er, promise me that you will never say that you are an ominous person again." Meng Kuang said seriously, holding her shoulders, staring at her beautiful eyes that were red and swollen from crying.

"But……"

"No, but, there is no one in this world who is unknown. I don't believe in this evil. If you really want to kill the lone star of Tiansha, then I, Meng Shisan, will be the star of the army. My life is hard, and I am not afraid of you." Meng Kuang Said.

Sui'er couldn't help being moved, and finally showed a smile.She wiped away the tears on her face indiscriminately, and said:

"What kind of army-breaking star, the lone star of Tiansha, is talking nonsense."

Meng Kuang suddenly felt a little embarrassed. Why did she say so many shameless things in front of her tonight? Why was he so impatient to show his feelings for her, without even a bit of restraint.What if she is aware of her own thoughts and scares her?She couldn't help regretting that she had said such irrelevant words on impulse.

"Are you really Po Junxing?" Sui'er suddenly asked.

"No...no, that's what I said." Meng Kuang scratched his head, "However, Daoist Luo used Ziwei to count his life to calculate my fate. I always say that I am a broken army star, and I need a correct guide, otherwise something will go wrong. I don’t know if it’s true or not.”

"That's pretty believable." Sui'er couldn't help laughing.

At this time Qingxu returned to the carriage, he walked around the yard, but found nothing to keep him warm, and finally leaned against the side of the carriage, wrapped in straw and fell asleep.Meng Kuang and Sui Er hugged each other in the carriage, chatting in low voices.The sad topic passed, and neither of them wanted to bring it up again, so they just chatted about the trivial matters of their parents.Meng Kuang intentionally or unintentionally mentioned some trivial things he had experienced in the nine years since he and Sui Er separated, and he also told Sui Er about the situation of his uncle's house in detail, and Sui Er listened very carefully.

"You can't get married right now, time is all delayed, your uncle and aunt should be very anxious." Sui Er asked.

"There's nothing I can do if I'm in a hurry. I don't want to do this. They also understand that this kind of thing can't force me."

"Is there no one in Jinyiwei to introduce you to someone?"

"Yes, but you also know that I try to keep a distance from people in Jinyiwei. If I refuse once or twice, they won't want to touch me." Meng Kuang laughed.

"Although this is the case, it can't go on like this for a long time. You have been a man for a long time. If you don't marry a wife, you will always attract criticism. Even if you don't care, it will also affect your life and career. Affected." Sui Er said.

"Well... Jinyiwei also has a custom of arranging marriages for officers and soldiers who are single. Every year, a large number of people apply, and those who make a match can also marry a wife. Speaking of which, a single military officer like me , It is indeed very rare. So I am also very anxious now, I want to find out the cause of my father and brother's death as soon as possible, so that I can resign as soon as possible and leave Jinyiwei, and find a hermit in the mountains and forests, so that I don't have to be criticized by others."

"Sister Qing... Have you ever thought about marrying a woman back home?"

"Ah? This...impossible. I'm not delaying others. I can't tell others about my identity. How can I marry someone and go home." Meng Kuang panicked.

"Then...marry a woman who already knows your identity..." Sui'er didn't continue when she said this, she felt her whole face was on fire, the meaning of these words was too obvious, she felt I'm really not ashamed.

"Also...no woman knows my identity..." Meng Kuang's speech was incoherent.What does Sui Er mean by this, is she referring to herself?But she... doesn't she regard herself as a sister?

"I'm sleepy, I feel sleepy." Sui'er forcibly stopped the topic.Meng Kuang's pretending to be confused made her feel a little tight in her chest. Maybe she... just treats herself as a younger sister and loves her, and has no other feelings.She also has uncles and aunts who have to be filial, and whether she can marry a wife is also full of concerns.Or maybe she doesn't want to marry a woman at all, and she is more resistant to the fact that two women eat each other.

"Oh. Do you want to lean on me? It will be more comfortable." Meng Kuang noticed that Sui'er seemed a little unhappy, and asked cautiously.

"En." Sui'er finally leaned over.

That night, Sui Er and Meng Kuang depended on each other and spent the night in the carriage.No one slept well. Before dawn on the fourth day of March, they harnessed their horses again and drove back to the city in a carriage.

After entering the city from Xizhimen, they were still lucky enough not to be interrogated.When I rushed back to Lingji Hall, it was just after Maozheng.Meng Yan, who had been terrified almost all night, finally waited for them to come back, rushed forward excitedly and hugged her sister, and then hugged Sui'er tightly.When Sui'er held out the urn, everyone's faces showed sadness.

Before he had time to say anything, Meng Kuang washed up in a hurry, changed his clothes immediately, put on a mask and equipment, then quickly ate a piece of cake and drank a bowl of porridge, and went out to Beizhen Fusi.Today is still an investigation into the palace. She needs to go to Beizhen Fusi to change the servants first, and then go to Xi'an Gate to meet Guo Dayou.

However, when she rushed to Beizhen Fusi, the plan changed again.Guo Dayou appeared in Beizhen Fusi. Seeing Meng Kuang coming, he patted her on the shoulder and said:

"It's just in time, I won't enter the palace today, you follow me to a place."