Brocade tears

Many years later, when Meng Kuang recalled his time in the military camp, he felt that only the short three months in the new barracks was the most vague memory. The most memorable thing, but because these three months were too painful for her, so that she was forcibly forgotten in her mind and did not want to remember.

But if she is asked to gradually recall and tell about the experience of that time now, she can also describe it slowly.

Every day Mao gets up to the sound of beating drums urging his life. Before he can put on his clothes, he has to rush to the school field outside the house to gather and run in line.After half an hour, I went back to the barracks to wash and wear equipment, and went to the dining hall to eat morning food.In the early half of the morning, the queue training before noon started on time, divided into unarmed marching and equipment parade marching.About a month later, the formation is almost done training, and the training during this time period will be changed to camp confrontation training, all of which are infantry fighting cavalry.They need to hold the heavy wooden shield in their left hand for several hours, the pistol in their right hand will tear their palms and bleed, and they must constantly make various thrusting movements in accordance with the password.Over and over again, boring, exhausting and painful, in the process, many of your uniqueness as a human being are wiped away, as if the only meaning of life is to complete the formation action, endless blocking and stabbing, you forget Who he was, was submerged in the sea of ​​people, and became a tiny part of a huge group.

Only in the afternoon riding and shooting training, she can find a little sense of herself.The process of controlling the horse and the process of aiming at the bull's-eye, these have become a kind of adjustment.During this period of time, she could always think of her father and elder brother. Although their death made her heartbroken, the pain was gradually transforming into a deeper emotion. a sense of confidant.My father and brother also spent the same way in the military camp. This kind of training day after day has tempered their bones, so they sometimes appear cold and unreasonable, but they are able to sacrifice everything for a greater cause. Dedicated everything to the goal.

She found that she seemed to have never entered the hearts of her father and elder brother. Although they loved her so much, she didn't understand them at all.Now she has also embarked on their path, but I am afraid that no one will be able to understand her heart, and only she knows everything she bears.Even his father and brother in heaven have never experienced Meng Kuang's state of mind.

During the initial examination of Jin Yiwei, there was a literary test, which tested the cultural level of soldiers.Literacy, learned the most basic "Three Character Classic", "Hundred Family Surnames" and "Thousand Character Classic" at the beginning, and knowing numbers and counting is the standard for passing the test.Of course, this standard is too low for Meng Kuang, and it is not worth mentioning for the second brother who took the exam instead of Meng Kuang.But not all the recruits who can join Jinyiwei have the educational level of their brothers and sisters. Many of them barely pass the exam.Therefore, after the afternoon riding and shooting training, Jin Yiwei will set aside half an hour to teach the soldiers, starting from memorizing the military regulations, learning literacy, arithmetic and reading pictures, the purpose is to let the soldiers master the most basic battlefield Learn the necessary knowledge, understand semaphore, orders and maps, and even teach some simple art of war in the later stage. Many people don't pay attention to this course, but it actually opens up a road for them to become a general.Soldiers are brave, and generals are wise. If you want to be a general, you can't do it without wisdom and rich experience and knowledge.

This course was Meng Kuang's favorite course. Although the instructor who taught the class didn't say anything about advanced knowledge, she had mastered most of it.But she still listened with gusto, she missed the fragrance of paper and ink, and the feeling of holding a pen. Her hand full of scars and thick calluses, used to holding weapons, showed a sense of clumsiness when holding the pen, making her feel uncomfortable. She nearly broke her vow and cried.Even holding a pen has become like this, I'm afraid she is not good at being a female celebrity, and she can't do it anymore.

After three months in the new barracks, she never looked in the mirror and didn't know what she looked like. She was always covered, exposed to the wind and sun, and her snow-white skin became dark and rough, becoming a yin and yang side.Her indifferent character keeps people away from thousands of miles away. During rare moments of rest, when soldiers play in groups, she is always on the sidelines and does not participate. She wipes a strange double-headed knife alone. Or light a lamp to write a letter and read a book alone.She became the target of the recruits. No one spoke to her, and no one even paid attention to her. Even Wang Yongan, who was familiar with talking to her at first, seldom talked to her due to the collective pressure.But no one dared to bully her, because everyone knew that this guy who was not tall and masked all day long had extremely good kung fu. The few people who tried to bully her at first suffered a dark loss and suffered a few times. The grappling hand was twisted and its inner tendons were twisted, which could not be seen from the outside, but it took more than ten days for the inner pain to heal.

And she is rarely appreciated by the coach of Hei Yanluo Chu Zhongquan. Although her training performance is not outstanding, Hei Yanluo appreciates her very much and allows Meng Kuang to have some small privileges, such as always covering his face, such as going to the bathroom late at night bathe.He had never praised Meng Kuang in front of everyone, but he had mentioned it to his adjutant in private, saying that she was a once-in-a-century genius who was a secret agent of Jinyiwei.This word gradually spread in the recruit camp. Everyone discussed in private, saying that Meng Kuang was an insidious person pretending to be a pig and eating a tiger, and that she actually had an interest relationship with Chu Zhongquan. There were various rumors, but Meng Kuang had no intention of explaining.

She didn't intend to ask Chu Zhongquan to give her privileges, but Chu Zhongquan found out that her work and rest were different from others, and offered to give her the privilege of bathing.On the first day of the new barracks, she resisted not taking a bath, her body was going bad, she couldn't stand it, so she had to go to the bathroom with her toiletries on the second night.There is a rule in the camp, the time for the soldiers to bathe is half an hour from Xuchu to Xuzheng.Come early or late, or you will be whipped and reprimanded.Meng Kuang took a lot of risks to do this. She thought that as long as she was careful enough, she would be able to hide from anyone. But what happened was that although she did take a bath successfully, there was no hot water.She took cold showers for three or four consecutive days in the cold night of March, all supported by her physical fitness.On the fourth night, she also ran into Chu Zhongquan unfortunately.The instructor is used to patrolling the camp every night. Meng Kuang came late this day because he clashed with a few soldiers who were looking for faults. During this time, the soldiers should be resting in the barracks. Meng Kuang will appear here Clearly a violation of military regulations.

She thought she would be punished, but she didn't expect Chu Zhongquan to stare at her for a long time, and didn't ask why Meng Kuang didn't take a bath within the specified time. He beckoned and took her to find the logistics soldier who heated the hot water. Leave hot water for her, and tell her that she has two quarters of an hour to take a bath from Xuzheng to Xuzheng.Meng Kuang thought at the time that this should be the result of Liu's management, not Chu Zhongquan's high regard for her.

Later, it took a long time for her to understand that Chu Zhongquan was excluded because she knew that she was withdrawn, and thought that she would be bullied when she took a bath, so she deliberately took the risk of taking a bath at a staggered time.So he became kind and opened the back door for her.There are guys who are good Longyang in this camp, or it is not a good Longyang, it is just a way of venting.When these energetic men gather together, they will always list a certain person as a specific object and humiliate him collectively to vent their anger.Instructors usually turn a blind eye to this kind of thing, as long as no one is killed, they don't care.But Chu Zhongquan cherishes his talents, and he doesn't want this kind of thing to happen to Meng Kuang. Although Meng Kuang is very good at fighting, he can't beat four hands with two fists. What will happen is anyone's guess.

The problem of bathing has been solved, and there is also the problem of going to the toilet.Usually it’s okay, the latrines have partitions, and you can’t see the inside after you go in, and no one is so boring as to peek at you when you go to the toilet.But the most painful thing for Meng Kuang is during the menstrual period. She has to change the menstrual belt at least half a day. The menstrual belt must be washed and dried immediately. It is impossible for her to find a place to wash it in a military camp full of men. The stuff, I can only find a place to hide it, take it to the evening when I take a bath, wash it, and find a brazier to dry it.Every time, I was terrified. Once, the male soldier in the next bed almost found her menstrual belt hidden in the bag. Fortunately, the other party didn't know what it was. He thought it was a bandage for a wound, and asked Meng Kuang if it was injured.Meng Kuang will never forget that embarrassment.

On April 3th, the recruits ushered in the first exam.Meng Kuang's performance in all the assessments was first-class, and he got the comprehensive evaluation of the first class.She intended to keep a low profile, but this result was obviously not low profile. She had already ranked No.4 in the preliminary exam.Meng Kuang felt that his performance was not outstanding, and he didn't know why he got such a high evaluation, and he felt bad.Sure enough, in the evening of the same day, No. [-] in line behind Meng Kuang, a son of a noble family surnamed Wang came to her, saying that she bribed the examiner Chu Zhongquan and wanted to report on her.

Meng Kuang's attitude was neither salty nor indifferent, so what if she reported something she hadn't done?Seeing her arrogant attitude, the son of the noble family surnamed Wang ordered the servants around him to teach Meng Kuang a lesson, but was beaten to the ground by Meng Kuang one after another.The other party was stern and stern, asking Meng Kuang to wait, and trying to make her unable to turn over.Unexpectedly, within a few days, Meng Kuang really tasted the bitter fruit.Her preliminary examination results were declared invalid. Instead, she was punished for cheating in the school examination and was expelled from the Jinyiwei recruit camp.

That was the first time Meng Kuang tasted the bitter fruit of being falsely accused, and it was also the first time she understood that not everything in this world is black and white, and that she is not afraid of shadows when she is upright, it was just a too naive sentence.There are too many things that are not innocent in this world. Even if you are spotless all over, you can still be filled with non-existent mud by someone with a heart.She bowed her head for the first time, went to beg Chu Zhongquan, found Coach Liu who hadn't met before, and asked them for help.She even begged Wang Yongan, hoping that he could help her through his father's relationship.She can't speak, and she doesn't have a three-inch tongue to persuade others. All she can do is keep clasping her fists and bowing to her body, tasting the grief and indignation of being alone in the world and having no relatives or friends to help her.

Becoming Jinyiwei is the only opportunity she can't lose, and it is found out that the blood and blood feud of the Meng family is all related to this.She doesn't have any background, all she can rely on is the unreliable contacts left by her deceased father.

She was lucky, neither Coach Liu, Chu Zhongquan, nor Wang Yongan made her kneel down and beg, humiliate her dignity, they all extended a helping hand generously.Perhaps this is the most fundamental reason why Meng Kuang has always had hope for the Jinyiwei organization. She knows that among Jinyiwei, there are such a group of trustworthy and trustworthy people who always do things with conscience.

With their hard work, the punishment result was finally suppressed.Meng Kuang later found out that it was Coach Liu and Chu Zhongquan who went to manage the matter together, and Wang Yongan also wrote a letter to ask his father.The result of the punishment was changed to running [-] laps with a heavy load, and if she couldn't get a comprehensive A grade in the mid-term school exam, she would still be expelled from Jinyiwei.

Jinyiwei has been established for 300 years, and there are no more than ten people in the new barracks who have received the first-class evaluation.Meng Kuang had to get a top-grade evaluation in bow horse riding and shooting, vigor, reaction speed, unarmed combat and weapon fighting ability, in order to get a comprehensive top-grade evaluation.This was an almost impossible task, because in terms of strength alone, Meng Kuang, as a daughter, naturally couldn't meet the standard of a top.She had to lift a stone lock that weighed two stones and pull a huge bow that weighed one stone, in order to reach the top-of-the-arms evaluation.No matter how many men can't do it, she... can only sigh at the moment.

Meng Kuang couldn't forget the day when he learned the result of the revised sentence, it was a rainy day in April.Wang Yongan, a big man, shed tears in front of her, saying that he was useless and could not help Meng Kuang more.Meng Kuang didn't have time to cry. With a heavy load on her back, she ran into the muddy school field in the rain.Wang Yong'an has been with her by the side of the school field in the rain, watching her run one hundred laps lap after lap, collapsed on the ground exhausted, and carried her back to the barracks with tears in her eyes.

She thought that Wang Yongan was kind and would shed tears for her misfortune.She didn't want to disappoint such a partner, she wanted to stay, stay tenaciously, and grow wildly like weeds in the mountains and fields.

People are good at being bullied, since even if you want to keep a low profile and avoid trouble, there are still people who will come to trouble you, so low profile is meaningless.Simply let go of your hands and feet, to the point where people have nothing to say.

She wants to be the strongest Jinyiwei, this is the supreme way to protect herself, and it is also a conspiracy to resist all conspiracies.