Infinite Love ∞

He was hunched over and looked very limp.

"I thought you were lying in the water..."

"Huh? I just felt hot and soaked my feet, and then fell asleep..."

At this time, S lowered his head and pulled the clothes stuck to his body, which M lent him last night.Looking at S's puzzled eyes, it seems that he is not lying.Moreover, he slept until he was submerged in water and did not wake up. Perhaps his physical strength was already insufficient, and his head was froze due to the fever, causing S to fall into a coma.If M came a little later, S might really disappear into this world with the ocean current, but he himself didn't realize it.

"Scared me……"

M gently picked the back of S's head, leaned his forehead against S's forehead, and rubbed his wet hair pityingly. S lowered his eyes to feel M's love for him, but in the end, he still stretched out his hand to push M away.

"What are you worried about? It doesn't matter what I do." S said with a forced smile.

"S! Please don't say things like it doesn't matter!"

M pinched S's shoulders excitedly, and the two met eyes.Only then did S realize that besides the bruises on M's face, in his eyes as deep as sea water, for the first time, he saw that thin layer of tears embedded in his already flushed eye sockets.

He cried, he was stunned.

"Obviously your every move affects me! I will laugh when you laugh, and I will be sad when you cry. How can it be indifferent! I want to protect you! I want to take care of you! I even selfishly want to have You! Because I love you so much!"

Being confessed suddenly and violently, S didn't know what to express, and looked at the excited M with slightly parted lips.But being stared at by such a stunned expression, M instantly blushed.He had never confessed his love to others before, but he said it so blatantly, and he felt very embarrassed about what he had said.

Accompanied by the sound of the rising tide, I don't know whether it is echoing his excitement or trying to calm him down.The two stared at each other for a long while. S didn't say a word, as if he kept silent about any love towards M in the morning.

M straightened out the words in his head, and spoke slowly.

"S, do you think it doesn't matter?"

Facing the problem before his eyes, S pursed his bewildered lips and looked away. Is this the default?Or are you avoiding M's feelings for him again? M didn't intend to guess again, he just wanted to pour out all the emotions that had been stuffed in his chest for a long time.

If you don't say it at this time, how long do you want to stay?Things couldn't get any worse anyway.

"S, marry me."

M dropped another shock bomb on S again.

"Huh?" Those vivid expressions crawled back on S's face, S frowned and yelled at M with a perplexed face.

"What if your skull is broken? I'm a man!"

"So what? Don't be bound by the rules, you taught me too, didn't you?"

"Well."

M held S's cheeks with both hands, staring at each other seriously, not letting S dodge his question anymore.And S couldn't argue with it, he never thought that this principle would be applied to himself.

"Marry me and we'll be family."

In an instant, S's head went numb, and within a few seconds, pure tears filled his eyes.

"You can go home to eat every day, go back to a place where you can sleep peacefully every day, and do what you like every day."

Tears swirled in S's golden eyes, and in the gradually setting sun, the teardrops were also reflected golden yellow.

"I want to watch you draw and see your most genuine smile. You can cry in front of me when you want to cry. You don't need to be so brave anymore."

"I will give you the happiness of the whole universe!"

No longer filled with tears, S's eyes blinked lightly, and the two lines of clear tears rushed out of the frame. The smiling mask that S always wears on his face is also shattered at this moment, and M's every word and every word has accurately penetrated into his heart.He was speechless, and could only vent his suppressed longing with tears.

"S, please stay with me, okay?"

Seeing that S's face was mixed with sea water or tears, M reached out and wiped S's cheek, evoking a doting smile.

S shook his head, and M's smile immediately collapsed and became serious.

"With a man, do you think other people will look at you with a normal heart? Or are you planning to hide and live in hiding?"

S reached out and pulled down the pair of hands that were clasped on his cheeks, his voice was hoarse and choked with sobs.

"Even if gender is aside, your parents won't accept me as a substandard person. How can you explain to your parents? It's impossible for me to help you have a child. Have you really figured it out? And like you said, I You can't even manage your life, do you want me to be your burden? I can't give you anything, so you still have to be with me? Isn't it a broken head? "

After being asked a lot of questions by S, M realized that S was actually not as stupid as he imagined, but that he thought about things deeper and farther than he did.He only wanted to keep S by his side, and he didn't think about the so-called reality and future at all.

"Wouldn't it be great to marry a beautiful wife, have a few children who are as smart as you, and live a life that people will envy? Living the same life as ordinary people is the best for you, and Don't waste your time here with me."

S, who came to a conclusion arbitrarily, raised his head and stared into M's eyes, speaking earnestly, without the usual frivolous smile on his face.After putting down the mask, he is also a thoughtful adult, so I really underestimate him.

"Is that why you've been avoiding me?"

"If you don't take the smooth road, why insist on taking this rough road?"

"... Ha, ha ha." Mingming M looked like the one being reprimanded, but he laughed inexplicably.

"I'm serious! What are you laughing at?"

"I suddenly feel your full love..." M smiled gratifiedly, leaned her chin on S's shoulder, and hugged S gently.

"Damn, did you understand? Cough, cough." S was so excited that he choked and coughed twice. He confided his heart to M so seriously, but in exchange for a confusing response.

"You said so much just now, and you were all thinking of me, weren't you?"

"..." Unable to refute, S was turned against the general again.

"S, after I met you, I saw a different face of the world, and even saw myself that I didn't know. Without you, I might still be a walking dead now, and I might be a frog in a well forever."

"I said you were exaggerating..."

S gave up struggling and leaned against M's chest, his body was still hot, just talking so much made him dizzy, and even felt the burning in his throat.

"S, maybe the reality you said is really cruel, but I still want to be with you... Only when I see you happy, can I feel happy."

Watching the sunset gradually sinking to the west, M feels the breathing of S, and they finally have the same frequency of inhaling and exhaling.

"If you want me to marry a woman I don't love, have children, deceive my own heart, and deceive my wife and children, I suppress my emotions every day and only know how to go to and from work, and I don't know how to have fun as before. I’m sorry to spend my life. If you plan to punish me like this, just push me away.”

"……Dry!"

S stretched out his hands and grabbed M's shirt vigorously. M could feel that S's hands were shaking violently, and he also followed S's movements, his whole body was standing on end, and he unconsciously took a deep breath.If S still wants to push him away cruelly, then he can only accept it with pain.He has already told S his sincere heart, and the rest can only be left to the arrangement of fate.

"I don't have a choice at all! Uh, uh uh uh..."

With his face buried, S burst into tears, instead of pushing M away, he held on tightly.Like a child who can only vent his dissatisfaction by crying, he felt like an adult just a moment ago, but now he has become the usual noisy puppy again.

"Let's go home, S."

Finally, I could hold him tightly in my arms.

In the infinitely dark space, S stood on the broken bridge that had followed him for many years.The person standing in front of him is no longer the passer-by in those memories, but the love he least wants to lose now.He seemed to be able to hear the bridge body crumbling behind him, and there was the sound of breaking stones.He dared not move forward, nor did he dare to retreat.

M, who was expressionless, looked at S's doubtful eyes, but showed a gentle smile.

"Don't be afraid, no one will fall."

M held his hand, the warmth from his palm was so real.He didn't want to let go, and held M's warm and broad hand with a little force.

"The way forward, let's walk together."

The darkness behind them spread out into a blue sky, and the broken bridge turned into a golden road in a blink of an eye. The road stretched far away, seeming to disappear on the horizon they often saw, like an invisible end leading to the skyline. M took S's hand and walked along the golden road, facing a blue ocean, and the sea breeze blowing in her hair became comfortable at this moment, like the warm spring breath after the cold winter.

S smiled happily.

"Are you dreaming?"

After returning from the beach, M hastened to take care of S so that he could go back to bed and rest. M took off the towel that was placed on S's forehead, and put the back of his hand on S's forehead to feel whether the heat had subsided a bit.

And the other hand was being gently held by S, with a reassuring smile on his face.

It seems that he has stopped having nightmares.

M bent over and pecked lightly on S's forehead, and there was an additional painting on the wall beside the bed, which was the sketch that S drew on the seashore.

The surface of the ocean at sunrise is dotted with more magnificent colors, as if a rainbow is reflected in the water.On the originally empty beach, there were two figures of two people walking hand in hand.

【End of this article】

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【Extra story】

"Have you been hungry all day?"

After sleeping for half a day, it was already past ten o'clock in the evening when S woke up.Lazily leaning on the pillows for two, sitting on the bed like a lazy bone, although the weather has just begun to fall and the air is a bit cool, it is not yet the so-called cold. S, however, has been changed into long-sleeved clothes by M to keep warm, and the quilt is still covering her legs, and she is taken care of submissively, which is probably a rare benefit for a patient. S looked at the TV in the living room from a little distance away, and it was playing a variety show that was not too funny on weekend nights, watching it one after another. M brought a bowl of hot porridge from the kitchen and sat down beside the bed, picked up a spoonful of porridge and lifted it to S's mouth.

"You are allowed to eat in bed today."

"I'm not sick enough to ask you to feed me."

S angrily lowered his eyelids and gave M a wink, then took the bowl and spoon and put the porridge into his mouth. The faint ginger taste spread in his mouth, and the taste buds were stimulated by the warm ingredients. Only then did S feel that he really Hungry, I took another big bite into the bowl, and seemed to have recovered a lot.

M put his palm on S's forehead, feeling that it was no longer as hot as when he just came home, M stroked S's bangs, teased his head before putting down his hand.Obviously he did everything he should do, and he did what he shouldn't, but S was still a little unaccustomed to M's petty gestures of intimacy, which made him unconsciously shy, after all, no one had ever doted on him like this.

"You mean, your nickname is Xiaofu?"

"how do you know?"

"I went to the supermarket to find you, but I didn't know your name. Your colleague told me."

"... Nangong Jian."

"simple?"

"The store manager said that word means good luck, that's why he was called Xiaofu."

While talking, S stuffed another mouthful of porridge into his mouth, and he had swallowed half of the bowl silently. Only then did S realize that in addition to the warm minced ginger, there were also some finely chopped salmon in the rice. M really remembered his favorite food very well. clear.

S's heart became warm along with his stomach.

"What a special name, Jian Fu's Jian, haha..."

"Damn, laugh again." S frowned slightly and turned his jewel-like eyes, staring at M not knowing what he was laughing at.

"Your parents must want you to be happy, so they gave you this name."

M stretched out his hand and stroked S's cheek with the back of his finger, and upon hearing these words, S stopped the movement of his hand, let go of the awkward expression just now, and looked at M with some sorrow.

"If you marry me, if your name is Yu Jian from my surname, you will have the happiness of the whole universe."

S wrinkled his chin and bit his lip, and the amber pair became watery again.

"You really love to cry." M smiled and reached out to help S wipe away the tears from the corners of his eyes.

"You, are you an ancient person? Who is still taking the husband's surname now! And why should I take your surname?"

"Ha ha ha ha."

In order to hide his shyness, S suddenly raised his voice and complained to M, then lowered his head and started raking again. It seems that his bad habit of always hiding himself cannot be easily broken at once.

But after being connected, M felt that such an awkward S was very cute, and smiled without regret.

"But it's a coincidence that the person I'm dating is also named Nangong, and she's also my colleague."

"what?"

"And with such a rare surname, you two are not relatives, are you?"

"Ah, Jian Jian!"

By the next weekend, S's cold had recovered.Although M thought about whether S's high fever was caused by what he did to S, he didn't know.And this whole week, he also calmly didn't touch the sensitive areas of S's body, and concentrated on taking care of S.

After eating enough and sleeping well every day, S's complexion is much better now than when he was upside down day and night before.

"Oh my god, I almost didn't recognize you! Where's the cutie from before?"

"Who, who is cute!"

Zhuzhu sat with M and S in a coffee shop near the art museum. At first, Zhuzhu saw S and did not respond. It was not until M introduced their names to each other that S opened his eyes and said that Zhuzhu was a child. Nickname: real name Nan Gongzhu, nicknamed Little Princess.

"So you are cousins?"

Although M was quite surprised, it was true that the two of them were related by him.But seeing the two people who had known each other after so many years, the joy of being infected could not be concealed on their faces.

"Well, he was very cute when he was a child, and I even wore my dress for him."

"Don't mention that!"

Sudden mention of black history made S blushed with embarrassment, desperately shaking her head to try not to mention the past he didn't want to remember.

"But it seems that you haven't come to our house to play since the third grade and fourth grade in elementary school?"

"Just... I moved, to a far away place."

"I see."

Zhu Zhu tilted his head naively, believing what S said was true, while M who was listening at the side immediately heard something strange.

I'm afraid he lost his parents at that age, isn't it only about ten years old... I was still at the age of one or two cents for exam results, but he was forced to face life, because of this, he swallowed it in his stomach A lot of bitterness.

M looked at S's side face with reluctance in his heart, and his desire to love S was even stronger.

"But Xiaoyu, didn't you say you want to show me the person you like? Haven't you come yet?" When it came to the girl's most concerned thing, Zhuzhu smiled with joy, as if looking forward to it.

"He's right here." M smiled and pointed to S beside him.

"Huh!" The girl from Zhuzhu covered her mouth with her fingertips, and S, who was not told at all that she was going to come out to her cousin, also exclaimed at the same time as Zhuzhu!He almost stood up excitedly, but it also attracted the attention of other customers in the store.

"Zhuzhu, I'm sorry, I already have someone I like."

"yeah?"

On the day of the blind date, M saw that the person on the blind date was Zhu Zhu who had confessed to him before, so he directly expressed his opinion to Zhu Zhu without saying a word. M slightly leaned his upper body and bowed halfway to Zhuzhu, and refused directly.

"When you asked me about my heart before, I was still a little hesitant, but now, I'm sure I have someone in my heart, sorry."

M raised his head and stared into Zhuzhu's eyes. From his firm expression, it seemed that he had made up his mind.

"Yeah, what a pity...then Xiaoyu will show your sweetheart next time." Zhuzhu pouted in disappointment, and blinked her big watery eyes. Most men must be heartbroken after seeing it. , but M is still unmoved.

"Feel sorry."

As soon as M finished speaking, he went straight to the door of the restaurant, leaving M's mother still dumbfounded and Zhu Zhu who was a little stunned.

"Jian Jian can come to my house to play again when you have time."

"Well, if there is a chance."

The three walked out of the coffee shop and stood outside the door to say goodbye. After all, they were relatives and childhood playmates whom they had not seen for a long time. S looked at Zhuzhu and smiled gratifiedly.

"Jian Jian is so skinny, maybe he can wear my dress now?"

"I'm not a kid anymore! Stop playing that kind of game."

Zhuzhu pressed her shiny crystal nails to her lips, and the proposal with a sweet smile caused a chill down S's spine!Angrily protested against Zhuzhu.

"Hehe, I have an appointment for nails, let's go first."

After Zhuzhu said goodbye to the two people, he took a taxi on the side of the road. S and M stood quietly watching Zhuzhu's car drive away. M peeked at the smiling S, although he was bickering, he actually seemed quite happy.

"Although they are distant relatives, they are still your family."

"You asked us to meet for this?"

"You're not alone, Jian Jian."

"Fuck! Don't call me by my childhood name! How old am I!"

Hearing M call him by his baby name suddenly made his whole scalp go numb, but M laughed happily because he teased S.

"Family or something, isn't there you?"

S glanced over his head and muttered in a low voice, and this was the door that made M's heart really shudder. S's awkward but true love words always made his heart itch.

"...Hmm, hahaha."

"Damn! What are you laughing at!"

Regardless of S barking and jumping again, M directly took his hand.

"Go to the supermarket and go home."

"I want to eat curry today, but I can't make it spicy."

"Yes Yes."

M pushed his glasses and smiled triumphantly, and S blushed when he was held up by the street, and the two walked side by side on the way to the supermarket.