Li Luo's male phobia cannot be cured

Li Luo suffers from male phobia.

I don't know when it started, he was afraid of contact with men, especially skin contact-it would make his hair stand on end with goose bumps and tremble all over.

Li Luo's mother was worried about this and urged him to see a doctor.

The original words of my mother are as follows: "I know you are gay and I have already spent a lot of effort to accept it. Don't worry about this issue."

Li Luo's mother is a good mother. When she first found out that her son was gay, she took a long time to accept it, but she never showed any disgust towards her son.

——By the way, Li Luo belongs to a single-parent family. He and his mother have last names. We can justifiably call her Mother Li.

Half pulling and half dragging, mother took Li Luo to a psychological clinic.After asking about the appointment, the nurse put the two of them in.

Seeing "Physician in Charge: Yun Fei" on the door of the office, Li Luo was a little dazed (although she didn't know why).

2.

"Then when did your son's symptoms start?" The female doctor on the opposite side was very young, with half-length curly hair hanging loosely on her shoulders, and she tapped on the case with her right hand holding a pen.

"...Like in high school, Luo Luo was a very cheerful kid when he was in junior high school. Sometimes I asked him if he liked someone, and he would just smirk—but it's definitely not what it looks like now."

"That's it... wait a minute, please take your son to fill out a questionnaire, and," the doctor adjusted his gold-rimmed glasses, and turned his face to Li Luo, "I want to talk to you alone."

Mother Li knew how to go out to collect the questionnaire.

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"Do you like men?"

"Yes."

"Then why are you afraid of men?"

"If I knew, I wouldn't come to you."

"Do you think this is contradictory too?"

"Yes." Li Luo was a little annoyed, he didn't like the feeling of being questioned.

"Okay, get out, come back next time." The female doctor seemed in a bad mood.

"?????!!!"

"Why are you looking at me? You don't need to analyze and diagnose the questionnaire?! You still expect to be cured today?!"

"Oh." Li Luo was about to leave.

"Wait, take the bag away."

"Oh."

3.

Yun Fei felt really upset, why do you look so annoying, I'm not bothered yet.

"Fuck, silly x." Boringly stirring the coffee in front of her, she wanted to scold someone when she thought of Li Luo's unpleasant appearance.

There is such a person who can see Yunfei completely out of the image of a lady, and that is her elder brother, Yunfei—my dear.

Of course, such a situation is rare, so Yunfei was a little surprised.

"Who is it that made our eldest lady unhappy?" Yun Fei asked jokingly.

"you recognize."

? !

"Am I so careless in making friends?"

"It's Li Luo."

!! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

"I don't know why, it's only been a few years? I came to see a doctor today, and it's like I don't know you at all."

Then Yunfei looked at her brother in amazement and laughed inexplicably, drank the coffee in front of her in one go, said "this patient to me", checked out and left.

3.

Today's Li Luo is broken.

Although the last communication with the psychiatrist was not very smooth, he felt that the doctor seemed relatively reliable (?), so he decided to at least take a look at the diagnosis results.

Unexpectedly, the attending doctor changed to a man.

He found that although this gentleman was handsome, he had an inexplicable panic about him (more than the symptoms themselves), and almost wanted to run when he saw him-so he did.

Then the head nurse at the door slipped back with her collar.

"Please trust our technology and respect our doctors, we will definitely cure you."

The translation is: Don't try to run away until the disease is cured.

His heart is in denial.

After entering the door, the head nurse has been guarding the door—the posture of a woman who is the only one who can't open it.

Tears almost welled up in Li Luo's eyes.

4.

office.

"I heard you are afraid of men?"

——Is this what a fucking doctor should say?

Li Luo leaned against the door, trembling all over, ignoring the guy on the opposite side.

"I heard you are gay?"

"It was normal before high school?"

"I'm a programmer by profession, so I don't need to deal with people, I just need to deal with computers, so I don't think it doesn't matter if I die?"

"and……"

"—Stop! Brother, I beg you, read the survey if you have any questions, and don't talk to me again."

This man... God, this man!male! ! !of! ! !The deep male voice sounds real!too!Oops!cake!up!

I hastily walked over to him, what is he going to do? !Please don't touch me! ! !

The young man on the opposite side stopped, took out his mobile phone from his pocket and started playing on the spot.

Fuck, I was scared to death!Don't come here. Our doctor-patient relationship can still be discussed.

The young man stopped pressing the finger on the phone, held the phone with his right hand, and slowly stretched it forward, the screen was facing Li Luo's eyes——

"I know you don't like listening to me, or touching you. Don't worry—I won't. Let's keep talking like this until we find out what's wrong with you and cure you."

5.

When you feel that you are forced to retreat by the world, you find such a person who stands firm in front of you.He said, I'll give you strength; he also said, when you don't face everything, behind me is the safest place in the world.

——Several years later, Li Luo wrote this in his diary.

6.

Yunfei was very happy, but the real person flew to the cloud as his name suggests.

Life is really wonderful-although the current job is busy, but I like it; after work, I can also flirt with little (?) fresh (?) meat, it can't be better.

After the last meeting, the two maintained the frequency of online consultation (lian) twice a week, half an hour each time.

In fact, it can’t be regarded as a diagnosis, most of the time it’s just chatting.

But also quite tired.

It is necessary to deliberately blur his gender in the context, and it is best to make Li Luo feel that he is talking to a strange pen pal.

Subtly influence his gender concept and try to guide him to form a normal impression of men.

After so many years of illness, it is too difficult.

It's been so long.

7.

Yunfei remembered what Li Luo was like before.

Li Luo gave people a completely different impression in high school than now.

Lean, but powerful, with too much sunshine.

I like to play basketball. In summer, I don’t take off my upper body, and my whole body is still moist in the sun.

The broken hair on the forehead is covered with sweat and stuck to the head, and when you approach you, you can smell the fresh sweat.

Sweat has no smell when it just flows out of the body, and the "sweat smell" itself is the result of the fermentation of organic matter by the bacteria on the body surface.

Everyone's flora is unique, and everyone's body odor is unique.

Yunfei likes that taste.

I also like the lean and sweaty body of the teenager, and the sunshine at that time.

Ah, can't think anymore.

Just thinking about it is a waste of paper.

8.

Li Luo was more miserable.

First of all, he hated his own voice.

In order to reduce the frequency of hearing his own voice as much as possible, he developed the habit of saving words as much as possible.

This mindset has been brought into all occasions that need to be expressed, and he strives to be concise and concise when communicating with people at any time—as long as he can maintain reason.

But Yunfei asked him to use as many attributives and modal particles as possible when communicating.

"Now it is assumed that your symptoms come from the unexplained psychological trauma of the sophomore year of high school. Since then, part of your self has been closed, which has blocked your normal communication with men.

"Open your heart, start by communicating with people more, and spend more time to attract others' interest in communicating with you.

"It's good to be bold, at least our communication will not be terminated because of politeness/discord."

Li Luobaobao is very distressed, after all, the opposite is a known male creature.

Even if I know it, I'm still a little apprehensive.

This man is simply too strong.

In other words, what is the best way to speak?I don't really understand your psychology giants.

Ah, the variable was mistyped again.

9.

Before normal communication, it is still necessary to use online chatting for vaccination.

At least after a while, communicating with people of the same sex through the internet is not so awkward. It's time to talk and smile, to be polite and polite, and to collect a full set of coriander smiley emoticons.

Fall in love with emoticons, life will be colorful from now on.

The group of the company's technology department also banned Li Luo for a month because of excessively large pictures, which is known as the "Xiancai Smiley Face Ban Incident".

10.

Alphago has defeated humans twice, and a bunch of program dogs in the technical department said that this is the victory of programmers.

Although it has nothing to do with us, it has a lot to do with the hot pot city next door, because we can beat the boss up—mainly because the technical department has been busy all the time, and other departments have been busy several times, but the technical department has hardly relaxed .

So Li Luo didn't go.

When his colleague Xiaoshi asked him, as expected, he shook his head frantically and walked ten meters away.

"Is he still not going to Shishi?" The tall technical director came over and asked Xiaoshi.

Most of the colleagues don't like Li Luo. Although Li Luo is quite fast at work, everyone doesn't like this dull young man.

"Oh no, I don't want to go. The young man is really worrying." Shi Qian is also a very warm-hearted young man, and he is worried about the interpersonal relationship of his colleagues.

"Hahahaha, you make it sound like you're not a young man..." The supervisor walked up and grabbed Shi Qian's shoulders, "Let's go, let's go, if you don't go, you won't eat any vegetables..."

11.

Exposure Therapy (Exposure Therapy), also known as full irrigation therapy or shock therapy, generally uses imagination or simulation, and can also allow patients to directly enter the most terrifying and anxious reality, that is, directly interact with the most terrifying and anxious Object contact, and try to make the patient persist.Generally, as long as you persist, the fear and anxiety reactions will subside.However, it should be noted that although the full irrigation therapy takes a short time and solves the problem more simply, it has a greater impact on the patient's body and mind, so it must be used with caution.

——From Baidu

12.

The first time I heard that Yunfei planned to use exposure therapy to treat himself, Li Luofang was going to die.

So what exactly is the method of exposure?Need to get naked and do something embarrassing or something?

Du Niang said no.

Li Luo is even more convenient.

He sent Yunfei a message: "No appointment, uncle, I choose to die."

It's horrible being in a crowd of men or something.

13.

Yunfei replied.

Li Luo opened it and saw a bunch of screenshots.

It's all what I said before.

"I really want to be cured as soon as possible. I'm afraid my mother won't be able to wait."

"Hahahaha! Listening to what you said makes me look forward to life after recovery..."

"Thank you, you are so kind! Sometimes I feel that, just for you, I have to try to be better."

……

The phone vibrated, and Yunfei sent another message:

"You are sick, we will accommodate you and take care of you. But I can't deduce, what are you afraid of about the treatment itself?

At least at this time, your mother would like to see you, for your mother, for yourself, and even for me, take the responsibility of being a man—no, as a social person.

May I? "

Li Luo was silent.

After a full 5 minutes, Yunfei received a voice - it was a young man who seemed to have planned for a long time and tried his best to say: "Okay."

14.

My name is Li Luo.

I didn't sleep well last night.Because a silly "beep-" told me to do something I didn't want to do.He said that I had only to do it, and it was possible to return to a normal life.

Then I was anxious all night.

Today is the day to do that.

When I arrived at the company, as always, no one greeted me, and everyone was busy with their own affairs.

Trembling, I walked to the supervisor's desk and handed over the leave slip.

"……sick leave?"

"Yes."

"..."

"Forget it, you haven't asked for leave anyway, so go get medical treatment."

Hey, this supervisor is really annoying, why is he a man?It would be great if it was a woman.

In this way, I finally asked for a leave of absence and could start my treatment.

Maybe after I recover, I can get a promotion and raise my salary, become the general manager, marry Gao Fushuai, and reach the pinnacle of my life. Thinking about it, I'm a little excited!

15.

My name is Yunfei.

Today marks the first official psychotherapy session with my crush.

I'm good.

"Calm down, brother, sister, I will cheer for you from behind!"

——My sister, who has been in trouble for thousands of years, told me so.

Ah, the most diabolical curse!It seemed that the chances of success were slim.

16.

My name is Yunfei.

Today is my brother's first serious therapy session with his crush.

On this important day, my brother must really need the encouragement of my gentle and lovely sister!

——Look, my brother showed such a cheerful and innocent smile after receiving my encouragement! (Here, please fill in the brain with brother Yao Ming's handsome smile)

17.

Yunfei has been preparing for this treatment for a long time, and he has made sufficient arrangements to deal with all emergencies.

First of all, in order to let Li Luo relax completely, Yun Fei was asked to chat with him at the beginning, and then he was slowly hypnotized.

At the beginning Li Luo was a little nervous, but as the chat deepened, he gradually relaxed, and then Yun Fei stepped aside and played a piece of gentle music at a not too loud volume.

She said: "Li Luo, you feel very relaxed now, your brain is completely empty, and you can't think of anything. Your breathing is gradually steady...inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale..."

The muscles on Li Luo's face were fully stretched, his arms were folded on his abdomen, his eyes were lightly closed, and he was breathing slowly in the gentle music.

Yun Fei gently raised one of his arms, but did not put it down after letting go, so she made an OK gesture to the camera behind her.

Yunfei walked in quietly.

The electrocardiogram continued to fluctuate rhythmically and gently.

Yunfei: "A man appeared in front of you."

Li Luo: "Yes, I saw a man."

Yunfei: "Can you describe him?"

Li Luo: "Okay."

Yunfei: "Please describe."

Li Luo: "He is very tall, his figure...can't be seen clearly... his face is very blurry, and he can vaguely see his delicate eyebrows and eyes."

Yun Fei: "Did he say anything to you?"

Li Luo: "His lips opened and closed, as if he was talking to me...but I can't hear anything...can't hear..."

The pulse on the electrocardiogram suddenly jumped with a huge amplitude, and then the frequency suddenly accelerated, and the electrocardiogram issued an alarm.

Li Luo also screamed, but because of the compulsive relaxation of his muscles, he couldn't make a loud sound.

Yun Fei immediately stepped forward, put both hands on Li Luo's ears, and whispered in his ear: "Li Luo!! This is a dream!! Wake up quickly! This is a dream!!! Wake up quickly !!!!"

18.

Li Luo opened his eyes suddenly.

White ceiling, square ceiling lamp, ocher red cabinet... Hey, isn't this my own room?

Who sent him back?

The old woman by the bed—ah, the old woman by the bed has a worried look on her face.

Mother Li asked him, "How do you feel?"

Li Luo replied: "It's okay."

Mother Li: "Is the treatment effective?"

Li Luo said he didn't know, he just remembered talking to Yun Fei yesterday, and the words were broken.

Mother said that you have a good rest.

19.

Yun Fei cocked her legs, gloating about listening to the old man training Yun Fei while grinding her nails.

"I said Yunfei, you can do it! Take patients from your sister?! Why didn't you want to come when I asked you to go back to China for an internship in my hospital! You are also full of therapy. I am afraid you have watched too many movies! You are not doing your job properly. Give me a limit!"

Yun Tian kicked the table viciously, and Yun Fei next to him fell silent.

"You are not allowed to take care of this patient any more, and leave it to your sister."

"—huh?" The siblings exclaimed at the same time.

"Clam what clam? Get the hell out of here."

20.

Li Luo felt that her life had returned to the time when she didn't know Yunfei, so she went to Yunfei's place twice a week for systematic desensitization therapy, which was also an exposure therapy but had a milder effect.

When Yunfei announced the news, Li Luo said "OK".

I am willing, whether it is for my mother, for you, or for myself.

I will try my best to be better.

But Yunfei seemed to be busy, and rarely replied to messages, and the things that came back had almost no content.

It's okay, Li Luo thought.

And that person doesn't know me that well either.

21.

Li Luo looked at pictures of beautiful men in various styles for a whole month, and the scale of the pictures given by Yunfei in the last two times was unimaginable.

...So you really are brothers and sisters!

22.

Slowly get used to it, and slowly be able to make eye contact with the bunch of programmer colleagues.

I can recall a little bit the singing voice of a famous male singer in my memory:

- I have started practicing

——began to worry slowly

——Worried about the world without you

Like an aphasic patient just learning to speak, Li Luo slowly hummed the lyrics, tears streaming down his face.

23.

In the face of a huge crisis, animals generally have two kinds of stress responses.

The first will cause muscle stiffness, slow down various physiological reactions, and reduce vital signs to a state similar to death, that is, suspended animation.The emotion that corresponds to this state is fear.When human beings are afraid, their muscles will become stiff and numb, and their minds will be empty.

Correspondingly, in the second state, the various vital signs of the creature will become more active, because he is ready to escape at any time - the limbs are congested, the secretion of adrenaline is increased, the thinking is more active, and the response to external stimuli faster.Correspondingly, the emotion produced by human beings is fear. Generally, human beings will tremble when they are afraid, and are ready to escape at any time.

"Our goal is not to remove your resistance, but to transform your fear into fear, allowing you to think positively and rationally and manage your emotions..."

Li Luo: "That's why you let me listen to fan radio dramas?"

Yun Fei smoothed her bangs, pushed aside the medical records in front of her, and did not move.

24.

An unprecedented crisis has arrived.

After getting used to eye contact and verbal communication with the same sex, Li Luo's treatment entered the last course of treatment - physical contact.

This treatment can only be real, not simulated.

——If you want to look, you can just look at the pictures, if you want to listen, you can just listen to the recording, but what if you want to touch?

Wenchu's feeling of breaking out in cold sweat whenever a man approaches is still lingering in Li Luo's mind.

At the end of summer and the beginning of autumn, the cold air from far away from Siberia drifted slowly, and the maple leaves outside the window rustled to the ground, adding a bit of chill to the air.

25.

Yunfei was excited all day, he had never looked forward to getting off work like today.

The clock on the wall slowly went from 2 to 4 to 5.Yunfei ran out of the office briskly, took out the key and started the car with shaking hands.

Grass, why is this intersection a red light.

These passersby walk so slowly, the zebra crossing will be worn away by you.

When she arrived, there was only one person left in Yunfei's office.

Fortunately, it is the one I thought.

Can't wait to go forward, just want to hug him.

Ten years, finally waiting for you.

26.

Li Luo watched the man opposite him walk over and hug her.

From far to near, everything becomes clear—his eyebrows are like distant mountains, and his height is unknown; his eyes are like condensed water, and the grass is luxuriant. His face...

"--Snapped!"

His face really wanted to hit him just by looking at it.

Li Luo's head was covered with a heavy beating.

It's amazing, this man.

They knew each other early in the morning, yet they were able to pretend to be strangers.

Obviously, he himself is also one of the causes of this disease.

Her brother is short-sighted——Yun Fei sincerely doesn't lie to me.

the most important is--

"You're not a fucking psychiatrist at all! Kill you for operating without a license!"

27.

Yunfei grabbed Li Luo's hands that kept waving.

"I'm not a psychiatrist, but I have both the consultant and therapist certificates~ I can't say I'm operating without a license~"

"That can't cover up the fact that you are inexperienced and misjudged!"

Anyway, I owe a fight, so keep pumping.

Unable to resist, Yunfei tightly hugged the person in his arms.Then the place that was attacked became the back.

Pat the person on the back lightly, like comforting a crying baby.

"Okay, okay, don't be angry, I'll give you a discount next time you go to the brain department, okay?"

Li Luo pushed him away violently.

"You're the fucking insane."

28.

My name is Li Luo.

Wan Wanmei thinks that my male phobia has been cured, and a lost memory has been retrieved—it seems to have solved the marriage issue by the way.

Although my partner is a funny "beep" and my sister-in-law looks very unreliable, but fortunately everything is under control.

Life, the future, looks bright!

Think about it and look a little excited.

29.

Unexpectedly, Li Shishi actually won Alpha Gou.

Life goes up and down so fast, it's so exciting.

The program dogs beat the boss again, but they are still in the hot pot city next door.

Shi Qian happily told the supervisor that Li Luo readily accepted the invitation.

seat.

Li Luo held the fruit oranges and paid respects to them one by one, thanking everyone for their tolerance and care over the years.

After that, he will respect whoever stares at the beer duck, and make sure that the stone can be eaten well.

When it was almost over, the phone vibrated.

Yunfei sent a message——

"The flowers on the Moshang bloom, and they should return slowly."

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The part is over, and there will probably be two more episodes to talk about the cause and effect.

If you like it, I hope you will pay more attention to the mental health of those around you.

I wish the single dogs get out of the group as soon as possible!

See you next time (>ω<*)

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