Li Luo's male phobia cannot be cured

Extra Story 1 Antecedents [-]

1.

Missing a lover who is far away is one-way, and it is always shown through the one who stays, not the one who leaves; the ever-present me only reveals meaning through the confrontation with the always-absent you.

— Roland Barthes

Li Luo remembered that when he was very young, he would stand by the bus platform and wait for his mother to come back.

Mom has a family to support, a busy work schedule, and doesn't always come home early.

He was on the platform, watching one bus after another stop and drive away, but he might not be able to find his mother.

If he sees his mother, he opens his arms and waits for her to pick him up.

From then on, he began to understand that separation is a painful thing.

2.

Li Luo memorized the Queen's Xiongxue case, wrong question sets and notes over and over again, frantically trying to restore the process of meiosis, Ampere's law, and the reaction equation of adding excess sodium hydroxide to calcium bicarbonate solution on paper ...

Useless.

That person is lingering in my mind, from the hippocampus to the cerebral cortex to the heart oscillates and intensifies again and again, and finally becomes a wild dance of all neurons.

Go crazy.

For a moment, he took out his mobile phone and wanted to delete that person's business card. When the point was confirmed, the mobile phone was put down.

He opened his left hand to cover his eyes, and gently pressed his middle finger and thumb against his temple.

How could I think so?Even if you delete it, what's the use?

The horrible manuscript paper was crumpled up and thrown into the wastebasket lightly.

3.

Missing has two images: one is desire and the other is need.Desire is sensual, destroys the world; needs rationality, inherent.

Now that person is in front of him, but Li Luo misses him all the time.

So much so that he didn't even know whether what he missed was the person in front of him, or the him in his imagination, or just an impression that was neither a person nor a thing.

And he can only wander and sigh in the endless time, no one can save him, not even the object of his thoughts.

Will this longing bear fruit?Probably not.

So how small you are.

4.

High school life was really boring, and how boring I felt when I recalled it in the future.

During those boring days, the boys’ favorite game was Mozhu (please ask Baidu for details about this game, as a green, healthy, fresh writer, I refuse to describe it).

Li Luo usually stayed in the crowd of onlookers, not fanaticism, just watching the excitement.

On one occasion, the boys rushed to lift the man up.

Well, you know, generally speaking, even a person with a lot of strength can't withstand the indiscriminate bombardment of the masses.

That person is about to rise up.

Holding back a smile, Li Luo drove the crowd away with a mop, and the whole class watched them out of the classroom with the expression of watching a warrior save the princess.

5.

The two ran all the way to the side path of the playground, covered from head to toe with mottled tree shadows.Li Luo panted heavily, and the man's hand slowly stretched out, approaching the top of his head.

Then gently pick off a leaf.

Nervous to death, Li Luo smiled without embarrassment, and sat down on the ground.

The man also sat down, his shadow overlapped with his, and he looked up at the rapeseed field behind the rostrum.

"I'm leaving," he said.

Where are you going?

"Go to the United States to study high school and take the local college entrance examination."

Is my sister going too?

"go."

when are we leaving?

"Next month."

still coming back?

"I came back. I said, don't forget me when I come to play with you!"

As long as you haven't forgotten my words, Li Luo thought.

6.

Do you want to confess?

After half a month, Li Luo did not make a decision.

Obviously that person hasn't left yet, but his heart is already empty.

7.

In the end, I still have to go.

If you don't want to forget each other?

But it doesn't make each other happy.

8.

To go, of course to go.

I, Li Luo, am not cowardly.

9.

The two of them will go home together after studying at night.

One day, Li Luo felt that he should talk, but that person just said that he had something to do and would not be together today.

So frustrating.

He packed up casually and planned to go back.

"Are you sure you don't want to go and see what he's doing?" A voice came from the corridor, it was vague, and it was impossible to tell who it was.

sound?

Li Luo poked her head out to look in the corridor, but there was nothing.

The author has something to say:

There is no reading volume at cp, not happy