The ex-boyfriend is fierce and cowardly

This night Chi Yan and Gu Ji didn't go back, they went back to the room they used to live in on the second floor, the bedroom with the door opposite the door, but Chi Yan didn't enter his own room, and followed Gu Ji.

When Gu Ji opened the door, he looked back at him:

"Your room has always been cleaned up, not dirty."

"Ah." Chi Yan responded without moving.

Gu Ji pushed the door open but didn't enter, turned around and looked at Chi Yan: "Want to sleep with me?"

Chi Yan smiled, very frankly and sincerely: "Is it okay?"

Gu Ji stared at him for a few seconds without saying a word, but the action of turning around and entering the door without closing it undoubtedly gave Chi Yan an answer. Chi Yan smiled and stepped in.

The room was still the same, and I couldn't find any decorations that could reflect Gu Ji's preferences. Chi Yan stared at it for a while but didn't have a definite feeling, and was hit by a piece of clothing on the face:

"To take a bath."

Chi Yan tore off the clothes from her face, smiled at Gu Ji, and went to the bathroom.

Chi Yan took a bath for a long time, and Gu Ji didn't urge him. When Chi Yan came out, he found that Gu Ji had already washed in the bathroom outside. His hair was still wet, and he was leaning against the bed. Sit on the carpet facing the floor-to-ceiling windows.

Gu Ji likes to do this very much, and this appearance also reminds Chi Yan of their youth.

Quiet for a few seconds and walked over, only to find that there were several cans of beer at Gu Ji's feet. I don't know when they brought them up. Chi Yan smiled and sat next to Gu Ji, opened a can casually, and bumped into Gu Ji. He touched it, then brought it to his mouth and took a sip.

Gu Ji looked at him sideways: "Who told you to drink?"

"Can't you drink it?" Chi Yan smiled: "Then I'll buy it tomorrow to compensate you for a can?"

Gu Ji looked at him and said nothing. Today's Chi Yan is not normal. I haven't seen him smile like this since the reunion. It's not that Gu Ji doesn't want to see him smile, but this obvious fake smile makes Gu Ji look uncomfortable. Want to beat him up.

"Laugh again and go back to your room to sleep."

Chi Yan slowly stopped laughing and stopped talking.

The two maintained the same posture and did not speak for a long time. There was only the sound of the air conditioner in the room, and the occasional sound of wind outside the window.

When they were teenagers, they lived very little at home. Not long after Chi Yan returned to Gu's house, he moved to school. Later, because of a fight with his roommate, he also moved out of the dormitory. Gu Ji, who rented a house outside, took him in.

Most of their stories happened in that rented room, first heartbeat, first sex/love, but this room also had their first time, first hug and first handjob/gun.

Thinking of the once frivolous young man, Chi Yan couldn't help laughing, Gu Ji looked over, Chi Yan stopped immediately:

"I stopped laughing, don't chase me away."

He didn't want to be alone today.

Gu Ji stared at him for a few seconds and said, "This smile is fine."

Because it is true.

Chi Yan looked at Gu Ji, and suddenly understood what he meant by stopping himself from laughing twice today. They had no secrets from each other when they were teenagers, and they even knew the hairs on their bodies. Although they haven't lived together for a long time, some understanding is engraved in the bone.

They have indeed changed, but their appearance is their attitude towards others and their compromise with this world.

They have not changed, they have never changed to each other, they are still the same as in memory.

"What are you thinking?" Gu Ji asked him.

Chi Yan said: "I want you to hug me for the first time in this room."

The first hug was sour, that day was Chi Pingsheng's death anniversary, but it also happened to be Li Jun's birthday, Li Jun didn't know whether he forgot or did it on purpose, he celebrated with great fanfare, and called many relatives and friends, Chi Yan was in a bad mood Okay, but I have no right to ask Li Jun not to do this, after all, she has nothing to do with Chi Pingsheng.

So she jumped out of the window early in the morning and didn't show up all day. Li Jun's son who wanted to show off at the birthday party became a slap in the face to her.

Chi Yan came back very late, but Li Jun has been waiting for him, waiting to teach him a lesson. Chi Yan doesn't remember the specific quarrel that day, but when he returned to the room, he saw that Gu Ji's door was not closed, so Stepping in, he threw himself directly on his bed.

Gu Jizheng was sitting in front of the desk in a daze, when he heard the sound and looked back at him, he ignored it, turned his head and continued to be in a daze.

At that time, they had been together for almost a year. Although Li Jun and Gu Qinghui still didn't talk much in their eyes, they both knew very well that they were from the same world.

The same loneliness and the same incompatibility with this family.

Chi Yan lay on Gu Ji's bed for a long time, so long that when Gu Ji went to take a shower and came back, he didn't show any sign of getting up. Gu Ji kicked his calf hanging by the bed:

"Go back to your room."

Chi Yan didn't hold back any longer, and got up when he heard the sound, without saying a word, without turning his head, he was about to leave, but at the moment he opened the door, Gu Ji stopped him, and when Chi Yan looked back at him, he heard Gu has said:

"Do I grow up very similar to Chi Ping?"

Chi Yan was stunned for a moment, but still replied: "Yes, what's the matter?"

Gu hadn't spoken for a few seconds, and just when Chi Yan thought that Gu would say nothing more and was about to leave, he opened his mouth and said:

"If you're really sad, I can hug you, if you don't mind me being gay."

Chi Yan looked at him for a few seconds, then stepped back and hugged him almost without hesitation. At that moment, Chi Yan's heart that had been cold for a whole day seemed to instantly fall into the warm water and be properly placed.

That day was very similar to this day, it was all in this room, it was Chi Yan who went to the cemetery to visit Chi Pingsheng, and they both didn't say a word for a long time.

Sitting like this now seems to have been sitting like this for many years.

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"I don't think the same as you do." Gu Ji uttered a voice to break the long silence, then turned to look at Chi Yan with very burning eyes: "What I think is that we have handjob/gun for the first time. "

Chi Yan: "..."

"Don't tell me you didn't think about it." Gu Ji took a sip of his wine and didn't even look at Chi Yan.

Chi Yan leaned her head back on the edge of the bed, and smiled: "I think about it."

It was their birthday that day, and Li Jun was away on a business trip and didn't come back. Gu Qinghui knew that they had no good feelings about the birthday, so he let them figure it out, but they didn't think about what to do, they just wanted to stay quietly.

There is nothing to celebrate for them on their birthday. After all, their chaotic life began on this day. They were bored in their respective rooms that day, and they didn't even go down for dinner. Gu Qinghui didn't call them, so let them went.

In the middle of the night, the two doors were opened at the same time, and the two looked at each other at their respective doors without moving for a while.

"I'm hungry."

"I'm thirsty."

With one voice, they went downstairs again. Chi Yan went to the kitchen to look for something to eat. Gu already opened the refrigerator to drink water, and then saw a few cans of beer inside. After a few seconds of silence, he turned slightly to look at Chi Yan in the kitchen, and asked him:

"Want to drink?"

Chi Yan turned around: "Okay."

So at the end of that night, Chi Yan didn't find anything to eat, so he and Gu Ji went back to Gu Ji's room with a few bottles of beer.

Neither of them said anything at first, but after each had a bottle of wine, Gu Ji opened his mouth and said:

"Should I say happy birthday to you?"

"Farewell." Chi Yan said, "I'm not happy at all, and I can't be happy, and I won't wish you well. Your face is like a donkey's face."

Gu Ji chuckled and didn't continue to say anything, he really didn't want to hear someone's blessing for him.

The two talked a lot that night, but because of the alcohol and the time too long, Chi Yan couldn't remember many things clearly, but there were also some things that he remembered until now.

For example, why did Gu Ji come out publicly at school, what happened to Gu Qinghui's legs, and how his relationship with Li Jun came to the present step by step.

The reason why Gu has come out publicly is very simple, he just wanted to resist once, outright, and even felt that it would be good if he could just sever the relationship.

At that time, he thought that he was Li Jun's own son, so he had no scruples about doing anything, so he came out, and what greeted him was Li Jun's fury, but he was not afraid, and he had already made a clean break preparation.

But Gu Ji probably never thought that when he was kicked out of the house by Li Jun and thought he was truly free, Gu Qinghui would chase him out, the car collided with the truck, and he was lucky enough to save his life, but it ended up being amputated at a high position.

It was also that accident that both Li Jun and Gu Ji discovered the secret that they were not related by blood.

Li Jun said: "I raised you for 15 years, and you owe me 15 years!"

In the past, Gu Ji didn't feel owed, but now with the sudden rupture of the blood relationship, Gu Ji also felt that what Li Jun said might be right, especially when he was sure that Chi Pingsheng didn't want him either.

Li Jun said: "Your father is permanently disabled because of you, and you owe him the rest of your life."

This point, Gu has admitted, he owes Gu Qinghui, and he will not be able to pay it back in this lifetime.

Chi Yan was a very good listener that night. He watched Gu Ji drink sips, listened to him talk a lot, and finally asked him:

"What are you going to do?"

"I want to leave." Gu Ji said: "She raised me for 15 years, and I will pay her back for 15 years. I will leave after paying back. As for my dad, he will always be my dad. If he wants to go with me, I will support him." .”

That seemed to be the first time that gloomy young man spoke his mind. Chi Yan also told Gu Jichi that day that he wanted to see him before he left, but when he walked out of the ward to call him, Gu Ji left already.

Gu Ji didn't speak for a long time after hearing Chi Yan's words, just when Chi Yan thought he was sad, he suddenly fell down and lay on his lap, Chi Yan froze for a moment, but didn't move.

Gu Ji didn't speak for a long time, just lay there with his eyes closed, as if he was asleep, Chi Yan didn't move, the alcohol diffused in his body, he was also a little lazy, and Gu Ji just lay like this It's quite comfortable on the leg.

Since when was it wrong?

When Gu Ji turned over and lay facing Chi Yan on his stomach, Chi Yan didn't feel anything at first, but with the constant spray of hot air, Chi Yan had to wake him up.

Gu already opened his eyes, but didn't move, as if he also felt something, he raised his eyes to look at Chi Yan, and asked him:

"What are you hard on?"

Chi Yan: "..."

"Do you like men too? Or...do you like me?"

Chi Yan: "..."

Gu Ji got up from Chi Yan's lap, stared at him for a few seconds: "I seem to be hard too."

Chi Yan: "..."

"Want to help? You help me, I help you."

Chi Yan: "..."

It should be rejected, but the drunk Gu Ji is too different from usual, and his eyes are so obedient that people feel that rejecting him is a sin, so Chi Yan didn't move when he touched him, and he didn't know what he was. What's the matter, so they rolled together like that, they didn't kiss each other, but they did a lot of stupid things.

When it was all vented, Gu Ji got up and went back to the bed to lie down and fell asleep. Chi Yan stared at him for a while, and the alcohol also picked up. He didn't even bother to go back to his room, so he fell asleep leaning against the edge of the bed.

Chi Yan was a little dazed when he woke up, and couldn't immediately think of what happened last night, but the mess of empty wine bottles and used tissues on the ground made Chi Yan feel like he had just woken up from a dream, and he was about to break out in a cold sweat. He never thought that he would be like this with a boy, let alone Gu Ji.

His first reaction was to run, but just as he got up, Gu Ji sat up from the bed, rubbed his messy hair, and looked at Chi Yan:

"Why are you in my room?"

Before Chi Yan could figure out how to explain the absurdity of last night, Gu Ji saw the beer cans on the carpet: "Oh, I'm drinking."

Chi Yan stared at Gu Ji for a few seconds, not sure if he hadn't remembered yet, or if he was pretending to be calm, but soon Chi Yan knew that this person was broken, maybe because he drank all night, Gu He was already in a bit of urgency, so he quickly got off the bed, and when he was putting on his shoes, he inevitably saw the clumps of tissues on the ground, and raised his eyes to look at Chi Yan:

"Have a cold?"

"Huh?" Chi Yan didn't react at all.

"Aren't you blowing your nose with so many balls of paper? Otherwise, where did they come from?"

Chi Yan: "...Yes, I have a cold."

It was from that time that Chi Yan knew that Gu Jifan would be fragmented when he was drunk, and he didn't remember it at all, but it was a good thing, at least it eased Chi Yan's embarrassment at the time.

As for how Gu Ji knew later, it wasn't Chi Yan who said it, he couldn't tell, it was Gu Ji's clothes that were stained by Chi Yan, Gu Ji saw it when he went to the bathroom, he felt that this angle couldn't be right I made it up by myself.

But when he came out of the bathroom, he didn't say anything. Chi Yan had already left, and the paper balls and beer bottles on the ground also disappeared.

-

The sound of beer cans colliding brought back Chi Yan's memory. He turned his head to look at Gu Ji, and Gu Ji was also looking at him. It should be that thinking about the past made him feel good. There was a faint smile on the corner of Gu Ji's mouth. smiled and asked him:

"What about the aftertaste?"

"No." Chi Yan smiled: "I just remembered that night you didn't seem to kiss me from the beginning to the end."

Gu Ji didn't speak, just stared at him for a while, then backed away from the bed a few seconds later, leaned in front of Chi Yan, and kissed him with an alcohol-scented kiss.

If there was a kiss on that day in the memory, it should be sweeter than this, Chi Yan thought.