The ex-boyfriend is fierce and cowardly

Chi Yan laughed when she heard the words: "Okay, listen to Brother Ji."

In the past ten years, he has already known what he least wants to let Gu Ji know, so the trivial things in the past ten years are even more indifferent. Gu Ji wants to know how he passed ten years, and Chi Yan also wants to know How Gu Ji lived, although he heard some indirectly, but he still wanted to hear Gu Ji himself.

They had a whole night, and they didn't rush to say it right away. After the wine woke up, Gu already poured some goblets in front of the two of them, touched the wine glass in Chi Yan's hand, and asked Chi Yan first:

"Inside, is it really as good as you said before?"

Chi Yan didn't look surprised by this question. When Chi Yan said that today was a confession, Chi Yan had already thought of many things that he hadn't said before, and he would talk about them today. To confirm again, since he agreed, he will not hide anything, so he smiled and answered:

"It's not very good, but it's not as bad as everyone thinks. The first year was the most uncomfortable year. I fought and was locked up. I admit that I can't adapt to that kind of life. I think I can go crazy at any time. , It’s good to even feel crazy, at least it doesn’t feel like such a long time, but people always need to adapt in a strange environment, and I adapted very well in the next two years.”

When Chi Yan said this, Gu Ji had been looking at him without blinking his eyes. Even after Chi Yan finished saying these things, he could clearly see the occlusal muscles on both sides of Gu Ji's cheeks moving.

Later, Gu Ji looked away, stopped looking at him, raised his head and drank the red wine in the glass, as if he was using this to suppress his emotions.

Seeing this, Chi Yan clicked his tongue:

"Brother Ji, it's okay. The confession is not a sad one. We are doing well now. Let's talk about the past as if it were a movie. We said it clearly not to be sad. You want to talk about it again. If you have some mood swings or something, then you will never want to hear it in your life, I can't say it."

Gu Ji turned his head to stare at him, raised his hand and rubbed the back of his head: "Threat me?"

"Ah." Chi Yan smiled and swayed as he rubbed his head: "Brother Ji, don't you just eat this?"

Yes, what Chi Yan said was right, Gu Ji did take this set, not only threats, but as long as it was said by Chi Yan, he would take it, but it was limited to Chi Yan's trademark, and it would not work well if he changed someone else.

Gu Ji let go of him, poured himself some more red wine and didn't speak any more. Chi Yan stared at Gu Ji for a few seconds and asked with a smile:

"Have you ever hated me?"

"I hated it." Gu Ji said without hesitation: "At the beginning, I thought that if I could find you back, or know where you are, I must beat you hard. If you still If you want to leave me, I will kill you, and then go with you."

"Brother Ji is not frank at all." Chi Yan said with a smile: "I believe you hated me, but if you find me, you will never be willing to kill me. At most, you will beat me up, but you still dare not For the forceful one, of course you have to teach me a lesson, but I guess you will teach me a lesson on the bed."

Chi Yan spoke so confidently, but Gu Ji didn't object. He liked Chi Yan's self-confidence, and he had no doubts about his love for him.

Chi Yan took a sip of the wine, Gu Ji stared at the faint marks on the glass wall, and said softly:

"I hurt someone back then, did you have any nightmares?"

"Yes." Chi Yan was silent for a few seconds before answering, his eyes fell on his hands, and he smiled: "Hands are shaking, I can't even hold chopsticks when eating, and sometimes I feel that water is flowing from the faucet when I wash my face." The water in the water is blood, I look down on myself quite a bit, I wish the person who was obviously hurt would die, but I still feel this way because of him.”

Gu Ji stretched out his hand to hold Chi Yan's hand: "It has nothing to do with him being a good guy or a bad guy, it has something to do with you. You are good, but something bad happened to you."

Chi Yan took Gu Ji's hand and raised it to his lips for a kiss, accepting his comfort.

Gu Ji smiled: "It's your turn."

"Is brother Ji's anxiety caused by me?"

"Yes." Gu Ji was very honest: "You know that my mental state was not very good before you left. After you left, my pressure was gone, but the rest of my thoughts were gone. I just wanted to find you. Get you back."

"I didn't think much of it when I searched frantically at first, but after more than a year of searching, I gradually calmed down and found that I couldn't miss you, and I couldn't mention you. As long as I think of your name, my body seems to respond automatically. Like what you saw in the underground parking lot last time, it will have difficulty breathing and trembling, but then I gradually get used to it, because I can't miss you, so I have to learn to live in peace with it."

Chi Yan tightened Gu Ji's hand, silently distressed.

"For a while, I saw everyone was you. The voice was similar, the back was similar, the height was the same, and even the hairstyle. I thought it was you, but every time I went up to confirm that it was not, and I was called crazy. After a long time, I gradually realized that you really left."

"I'm back." Chi Yan said.

Gu Ji looked at Chi Yan, ignored his words, and asked directly:

"Seven years ago, why didn't you come back?"

Gu Ji asked this question before, but Chi Yan didn't make it clear, and the gag passed, and Gu Ji didn't force the question, but when the words "confession" came out of Gu Ji's mouth, Chi Yan knew that the question was Unavoidable, he was not surprised, but he remained silent for a few seconds before opening his mouth:

"I've been back, and I've seen you secretly."

Gu Ji stopped breathing.

"I was in a bad situation at that time, and I didn't dare to stand by your side." Chi Yan said with a smile.

Seven years ago, when Chi Yan was released after serving his sentence, it was late autumn in Beicheng. When he walked out of the gate, he saw a patch of bare trees and the lawn turned yellow. He can see the most authentic autumn colors in the city.

The same desolation and confusion as Chi Yan.

Cheng Hu came to pick him up, drove the car, got out of the car and walked over, gave him a big hug, his eyes were red:

"Let's go, brother treats you to dinner."

Cheng Hu wanted to take Chi Yan to the best restaurant to pick up the dust, but Chi Yan refused: "No Brother Hu, just eat whatever you want, I don't want to stay outside."

Cheng Hu and Chi Yan have been together for many years, so they naturally knew his scruples and said:

"Don't worry, he's not in Beicheng recently, he went to another city for activities, otherwise I wouldn't dare to pick you up, he might come to me at any time, he is a star now, very busy."

Of course Chi Yan knows that although there is no freedom in the prison, it is not completely cut off from the outside world. They will occasionally organize a movie. No one knows how Chi Yan feels when he sees Gu Ji on the screen. That is hope, that is light.

Now that he is free, he can chase that light, but Chi Yan doesn't dare, he doesn't even have the courage to go out for a meal, for fear of meeting him.

He still likes that light, but he himself is too dark, so dark that no one can illuminate it.

Chi Yan didn't even dare to stay at Cheng Hu's house. After knowing that Gu Ji came to look for him from time to time, he lived in a small hotel near Cheng Hu's house, one street away, without going out or seeing anyone, no matter what Cheng Hu did. Rough Nervous also sensed that something was wrong with Chi Yan, he took him to see a doctor, he was diagnosed with moderate depression, Chi Yan had already had a hunch and accepted this fact calmly, but Cheng Hu accepted his incompetence:

"Xiao Yan, you have to go back to Gu Ji, he is still looking for you, and you still like him, you should be together."

Chi Yan shook her head, but worried that Cheng Hu would call Gu Ji here on his own initiative, so she said:

"I'll find him myself."

This Chi Yan didn't lie, he went, and he still couldn't suppress the urge to see him, not through the screen or listening to others.

After Gu Ji came back to Beicheng and had a local event, Chi Yan went there. Outside the crowd, he saw him shining in the center of the stage. Chi Yan looked at him seriously, and then inadvertently glanced sideways. I arrived at myself on the glass window next to me.

And then realize, they don't fit anymore.

Gu already has a bright future, and he is a person who has just been released from prison and has a criminal record. They are no longer suitable for being together.

Although Chi Yan's current actions are all for Gu Ji's sake, people who suffer from depression don't think too much. He only wants to think about what he wants. Don't give up if you can't find it in one year, you can always do it in five years, if you don't give up in five years, you can always do it in ten years.

So Chi Yan left without hesitation and disappeared from Beicheng.

Chi Yan described the events of those years in a very simple, even cheerful tone, saying that the dance he danced at that time was really ugly, but Gu Ji was always tense. After Chi Yan finished speaking, he thought that Gu Ji would ask a few more questions. When asking questions, Gu Ji only asked one question:

"Is it the event at Lingyue Square?"

Chi Yan was stunned for a moment and didn't speak, as if he suddenly realized something, but before Chi Yan could react, Gu Ji tightly grasped Chi Yan's hand, stared at him, and said word by word:

"So, the back view I saw back then was really you."

Back then in Lingyue Plaza, Gu Ji was the brand platform, because he had already become popular, so many fans came that day. The staff around him said that Gu Ji was in good condition that day, but only Gu Ji knew that he was inexplicably flustered, as if there was something wrong with him. Something seemed to be pulling away from his body, he wanted to grab it but didn't know what to grab.

Later, when he was performing on the stage, for some reason, among the many fans, he immediately locked on the back figure who had turned away from the crowd and gradually moved away, as if he was being pulled by something.

As if possessed by a demon, Gu Ji rushed down the stage recklessly, but there were too many people, he couldn't get out for a while, and caused a lot of confusion, but he still rushed out, but it was too late, He couldn't find that figure for a long time.

He stood lost in the busy street, and suddenly realized that he wanted Chi Yan.

And that person is just more similar to Chi Yan.

Chi Yan didn't watch the news that day, so he didn't know that Gu Ji had seen him, and also looked for him like crazy.

Neither of them thought that their selves would appear in each other's eyes that day.