Secret Love Qishen Diary

Retreating and blindly avoiding are the best behaviors for a crush who is not sure whether he can accept the result of failure, but when I can bear the result no matter whether it is good or bad, then I can choose to be a little more active.

Of course, once I realize that any student Saiki wants to refuse or finds it troublesome, I will completely close this relationship, at least at least, to achieve the bottom line of rb people.

Don't cause trouble for others.

good night!

Crush on Qishen Day 20

But obviously, I thought too much before.

I don't know what happened, but Saiki, who went to school the next day, did take off his green glasses.

With his glasses off, he looks much more handsome, at least the moment I saw him, I was very happy, I can see him like this, and I still think that I need to improve myself I want to record his face completely.

But when he looked at me, his expression and eyes without any superfluous meaning completely calmed down my agitated heart, and then he said, "Fujisa-san."

I found out later that this was the first sentence he uttered after taking off his glasses.

But now I just feel inexplicably cold all over.

"Mr. Saiki..." I said, the slightly elongated ending seems to be revealing something.

"Good morning Saiki-san." I said it again.

"Fujizu, classmate, good morning." There was some strange stumbling in his voice, but I didn't care, I just smiled reluctantly, and then said, "Did Saiki have breakfast? On the side of the road I bought a sandwich while I was there."

I threw my chilly senses overseas. In my opinion, the most important thing is that Mr. Qi Mu, who seemed to come early, might not have eaten, so I took out the one I bought earlier from my schoolbag and planned to use it. Sandwiches for lunch.

"Then...thank you?"

"You're welcome, as long as you like it."

I actually don't know what to say.

After planning to leave the identity of a crush, although all kinds of thoughts and all kinds of intense inner caution told me that I should take the initiative, but from the moment I saw him, I felt that there was no need to do so.

I seem to have forgotten the original feeling of crushing love, but I think now I should pick it up again.

It's just me liking him.

All the emotions in the eyes without any emotional ups and downs seem to tell me that he just regards me as an ordinary friend, classmate, if it makes him troubled, I think that even though I can give up and continue to like him, but to For him, troubles have already arisen, and he still feels uncomfortable.

and so.

forget it.

After I had this idea, it seemed that everything was telling me that I was right.

I saw the unnatural appearance of Saiki-san standing in front of Teruhashi-san.

I feel like I understand something, but nothing.

In the end, I just said something to Sai Mu when school was over, "Be careful."

Then I walked away.

Self-confessed chic.

The eyes looking at me from behind made me feel even more exhausted. Secret love cannot be all happy things. In fact, I have experienced a lot before. I think it is more bitter, but I think, enjoy Bitterness, like enjoying the instant smoothness of the coffee jelly and the subsequent sweetness and bitterness.

I think, I like coffee jelly.

I wrote down such a string of meaningless words in my diary.

But in the middle of the night, I suffered from insomnia and kept my eyes open to watch the night change little by little. The clouds under the moon were blown by the wind.

In the end, I just put on my school uniform expressionlessly and walked back to the school gate.

I watched it silently for a long time, and after a long time, I thought, yesterday I was still thinking that I should take the initiative, but today, maybe I will try to give up this relationship.

Giving up is not terrible, what is terrible is liking a man who has a girlfriend, maybe the person I like has a girlfriend?

Anyway, I feel like I have a little sadness, even if no one knows the existence of this feeling.

Go home.

Crush on Qishen Day 21

A new day, a new beginning.

When this relationship is about to end, what I choose is to let it go with the flow.

Because I can't help but ask myself, is it really going to end like this?

Although reason is telling me that ending like this is better than anything else, but emotion is also telling me that you are reluctant, you can't just abandon what you like, because you are still a person.

despite this……

despite this.

"Good morning, Saiki-san."

When I saw him for the first time, I still smiled.

as usual.No difference.

He never thought that I was going to let go of this relationship.

Let him go too.

"Good morning, Fujisa-san."

He responded like this, his face was the same as before, without any ups and downs, he looked like an ordinary classmate, but in fact that was the case, after all he didn't know that I liked him, we were ordinary classmates, All right……

Well, I feel like I might be a little crazy for thinking like this.

I always feel that my current emotions may prompt me to do some irrational behavior, so I chose to take a serious look at him, then turned my head and left.

No one knows what happened to me, or what color my feelings for him are.

But if I had to think for myself, it would have to be white.

why?

Because white cannot be stained by any color.

Once my feelings appear in other colors, it also represents the emergence of deterioration.

Sad, painful, I can't help it, I will be sad because the person I have a crush on has a girlfriend.That's when it's time to end.

I don't think it's sad that the person you like has a girlfriend, even though it's just some kind of bravado.

I just don't think I can be cheap enough to like a guy who has a girlfriend.

Secret love is not about losing yourself, but a process of trying to become better for the person you like.

Today is over, I should go home.

Back to that room that can take all my emotions.

After one cry is over, I'll be a better me tomorrow.

Of course, the premise of all this is to get out of the school first.

Afterwards, the picture seemed to return to the moment when my secret love started.

A truck was coming towards me, and I couldn't make out the sound of the truck's horn or the sound of people on the side of the road yelling at me to get out of here.

Because I know I'm just an ordinary person.

The very ordinary kind of person will freeze when faced with fear, and will brace himself when faced with fright, and the performance in the face of various situations is an ordinary person.

It can be expected, but what I can't predict is...

I was rescued again.

This moment made me feel more shocked and incredible than ever.

The wind blows, the sunset shines...

There is also Qi Shu's eyes full of anger.

After that, I don't know anything...

Qi Shen Fan Wai

For Saiki Kusuo, Fujisana is a very strange person. There are many people of all kinds in the school, excellent and powerful, handsome and athletic.

In any case, girls should like these people.

But just because of a casual help, she fell in love with him, just like the plot of a bloody hero saving the beauty, although his life is full of bloody things.

But he is not a hero, he is just an ordinary high school student with superpowers, and the other party is just an ordinary student.

He thought that after the weird telepathy was over, he should stop paying attention to that girl.

But he didn't expect that a deeper and deeper crush would be born from this.

He was obviously a classmate whom he was not very familiar with, but because of Fujisana's heart, he couldn't help paying attention.

That girl is just as ordinary, not outstanding, and just as ordinary as a boy I once paid attention to.

She is a completely different person from Teruhashi Shinmi, a girl who seems to be favored by God.

He didn't know why he would focus on that girl.

Obviously, he could hear countless noisy voices every moment, but it seemed that her voice was different from everyone else?

Maybe it's because everything she thinks about is about herself.

Little by little time passed, Saiki Kusuo suddenly found that his attention to Fujisana became more and more abnormal.

The prerequisite for caring about a person is... caring.

And he also unexpectedly cared about that girl.

He knew that girl might never confess to him, or she might just be a passer-by in his high school career.

If it wasn't for his superpowers, he thought he would never have paid attention to that girl.

No one knows what the seal master thought of his super power.

It was like no one knew that the moment his superpower was sealed and stopped, he thought of a girl who many people would not associate them with.

Nevertheless, he still chose the life of ordinary people.

Zhaoqiao is still favored by God, but his heart is full of only the girl with whom he has not even spoken a few words.

The joyful expression at that moment when they said good morning to each other made him understand that he was just fallen like a mortal.

He's a normal guy too, isn't he?

Zhaoqiao seemed to be talking about something, but he couldn't notice it anymore, so he just said in a hurry, "I still have