That guy teases me every day without knowing it

Cheng Yang opened the small side door, Qi Yan went in and took a look, he was a little surprised, there was something strange inside.All the way up from the door are cement-paved steps, with pine trees on both sides, lush and lush, like a small garden, with winding and deep paths and lush green grass around.Probably because there are many trees, it is very cool here.

"How do you feel?" Cheng Yang asked Qi Yan, his face full of anticipation.

"I didn't expect there to be such a place in the school, why only a small side door was opened?" Qi Yan asked.

"I'm worried that the children will forget to go to class. There is a time limit for the opening here, and the door is usually opened when organizing activities." Cheng Yang took two steps forward, "I used to love to play here, and I jumped over the wall without opening the door. Come in."

Hearing Cheng Yang's words, Qi Yan reflexively looked at the surrounding walls. They were quite high. Cheng Yang, who was in elementary school, was only a little old, and he could still climb the walls?

"It's so tall, how did you get in?" Qi Yan asked.

"There's a tree over there, and it came in by stepping on the branches. It's a big deal." Cheng Yang said it lightly, he wouldn't tell Qi Yan that he once fell over the wall and broke a bone, it was definitely his life's fault shame.

Why is there such a tree that provides convenience for climbing over the wall?Qi Yan was speechless.

Qi Yan liked this kind of quiet place very much. As he walked up the steps step by step, he suddenly thought, if his school used to have such a place, he would probably stay here often, alone.

He suddenly understood Cheng Yang, they are the same kind of people.

"You used to stay here often, what did you do?" Qi Yan asked.

"Walking around, there is nothing to do. Most of the time, I sit alone in a daze." Cheng Yang said with a half smile.

I don't know why, Qi Yan's heart suddenly felt sour, a child, staying alone in the corner, only dare to reveal his emotions cautiously when there is no one around.

Qi Yan felt that Cheng Yang was luckier than him, staying in such a garden was better than being bored in a room alone.

When his mother just left, he really wanted to be alone, without thinking about anything, without thinking about what he would do in the future, he hoped that time could stay at that moment forever, and nothing would change, he No need to worry about tomorrow, because there is no tomorrow; no need to worry about being hungry, no need to worry about anything.

But time will not stop for anyone.

Mu Qian is like the light shining in the darkness, making him feel that the future can still be lived, but Mu Qian did not pull him out of that state.

Later, I felt that there was hope, and I didn't want to be bored by myself, after all, I was still a child.He hid in a strange room, wishing that Mu Qian could open the door countless times, come in and have a look at him, without even saying a word to him, just a look would make him feel a little comforted, but no.

Later, he became more and more autistic. He observed the world silently, and suddenly felt very boring. From the perspective of a bystander, he found that everyone's behavior has traces to follow. Just like Mu Qian, he gradually became able to I understand why Mu Qian rarely entered his room at that time.

Mu Qian is giving him a private space so that he can be quiet by himself.

Mu Qian has never brought a child, so he never thought about how unreliable it is to let a child stay alone in the room without communicating with others and to give him a private space.

Qi Yan was only five years old at that time, not 15 years old.

When he finally realized this slowly, Qi Yan was no longer that lively and cheerful little boy.

Qi Yan began to integrate into this world intentionally. He no longer completely closed himself off like before. He began to communicate with others, standing in the perspective of a bystander.

He is on the edge of the world.

After living in such a state for so long, Qi Yan suddenly found someone like him, and his heart, which had been silent for a long time in the lonely world, found a warm light, and began to beat involuntarily.

Maybe Cheng Yang was luckier than him, maybe not.

He remembered what Cheng Yang said - "My dad is..."

He couldn't imagine what kind of mood Cheng Yang said these words, and he used a tone that seemed to show off to uncover his scars...

Qi Yan's heart trembled.

They didn't speak in a tacit understanding, and walked up the steps side by side, step by step, at a leisurely pace.

Stepping on the last step, Cheng Yang smiled, and pointed to a stone chair over there: "Go and sit there for a while."

Qi Yan nodded and smiled.

"I used to like to sit here alone and look over there." Cheng Yang pointed to the front, where the pine trees swayed against the backdrop of the blue sky and white clouds. The sound of the umbrella is crackling, just like setting off firecrackers."

"It's better than me. I can only stay in the room alone. There is no grass, no trees, no clouds. Sometimes, I even feel that there is no air..." Qi Yan said softly.

Cheng Yang glanced at him, remained silent for a while, then suddenly walked to the side, picked up a stone, and threw it out forcefully. He looked back at Qi Yan with a smile on his face: "I was four years old when my dad went in."

"I'm quite open-minded. After being depressed for a while, the story will be over, and life is still going on." Cheng Yang still smiled, "My mother and the old man are still here, so I don't need to worry about food and clothing. It hurts my heart for a while when I think of my dad, that's all."

"But you think the story has changed, others don't. When I was a child, except for those in the water pool, everyone else walked around when they saw me. The son of a murderer might also kill someone." Cheng Yang showed a sarcastic smile. , "That's okay, they saw me walking around, and I didn't want to talk to them. How good it is to walk around, others will see how majestic it is."

Qi Yan gradually understood why Cheng Yang didn't want to go to school.In fact, he didn't want to go, but he was very sensible. If he didn't study, what would he do in the future?Mu Qian raised him for the rest of his life?He doesn't want to be a burden to others, he wants to be Mu Qian's pride, he doesn't want Mu Qian to feel that raising him is a troublesome thing, so he has been very obedient since he was a child and never caused trouble.

Cheng Yang continued: "When you grow up later, you won't be so straightforward when others alienate you, that's enough, it's good like this. The old man has worked hard to teach all his life, and he taught so many college students in this area. That reputation is still there, and no one will think about our family, even if there is, they will not say it in person, that's fine, it's nothing..."

Qi Yan listened to Cheng Yang's words of "nothing" one after another, and felt uncomfortable in his heart.

He raised his hand and patted Cheng Yang's shoulder.Cheng Yang smiled at him: "I've said so much, don't be annoyed, I'm looking at you, you look a lot like me, and I want to talk to someone."

"Okay, have you finished?" Qi Yan looked at him, "You should listen to me after you finish speaking. You are miserable alone, it seems that I have lost face."

Cheng Yang laughed out loud: "I'm done, let's hear about your miserable childhood."

Qi Yan scratched his hair and didn't know where to start. After thinking about it, he said: "I haven't seen my father since I was a child, and I have always lived with my mother. Later, my mother met Mu Qian, who is my stepfather. They On the day I went to get the certificate, my mother had a car accident, and then I lived with Mu Qian... Hey, isn't it pretty plain?"

"No." Cheng Yang replied flatly, "It's miserable, we are all miserable."

Cheng Yang stood up: "I think, we are really destined, hey, why did you suddenly transfer here before you said anything?"

Qi Yan paused, pursed his lips, he didn't know what to say, he could say that he suddenly found out that he was gay and Mu Qian was going to get married again, he felt bad and wanted to come to the mountain village to relax, but Mu Qian felt that the people in the mountain village were more honest than the people in the city Did those tricks allow him to come to a positive sexual orientation and then he came?

"Mu Qian is getting married, and I'm not feeling well, so I came here to relax. This place is not very far from Nancheng, and it's still a scenic spot, so I'm here." Qi Yan sorted out his thoughts for a long time, and gave this answer.

"It's not easy." Cheng Yang sighed, "Let's walk again."

A cobblestone road, Qi Yan walked in front, Cheng Yang followed.

The two of them didn't speak, and the circle returned to silence.

Cheng Yang's heart was quite confused at the moment, and his mind was full of miscellaneous thoughts, thinking about his own affairs for a while, and thinking about Qi Yan's affairs for a while, when a sudden sound pulled his thoughts back.

The body reacted one step faster than the brain, he stretched out his hand, and grabbed Qi Yan.Both of them were stunned for a while, and when they came back to their senses, Cheng Yang burst out laughing: "No, I really admire you, you can fall if you walk properly."

Qi Yan glanced at the culprit, a stone slab was loose, he didn't pay attention just now, stepped on it, the slab was tilted, and he almost fell down.

Cheng Yang was out of breath laughing next to him, Qi Yan first said gloomily, "You are enough!" Then he also laughed, and the sad atmosphere just now dissipated immediately.

"I'm hungry." Qi Yan said suddenly after laughing enough.

"Let's go home for dinner." Cheng Yang said with a smile.

Qi Yan's heart moved slightly, the words "go home for dinner" quite attracted him, like a warm current passing by and the glacier gradually melting.

The two walked back, Qi Yan followed behind, looking at Cheng Yang's back, the feeling in his heart grew stronger.

He couldn't bear to let go.

The author has something to say:

Because it was mathematics taught by the physical education teacher, I naturally made a mistake. In fact, I only had [-] words left on the list, so I, who was planning to catch fish in class, devoted myself (crossed out) to the class. , Hey, at least it was updated before zero o'clock.

Classes are full today, and I have to go to evening self-study in the evening. I can only code so much if I don’t touch fish in class, haha, but I still won’t break my promise. You can see the update, memejiu.

Quietly ask, is anyone really watching? X﹏X single machine to doubt life, can little angel chat with me? (tears streaming down my face) Even if you only send a punctuation mark or an emoji, I can chat (star eyes, jpg)