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The lights in the operating room stay on until late at night.

Xu Meiyin and Meng Lu sat in the quiet corridor, while Meng Chunxin stood aside, looking at the figure at the end of the corridor from time to time.

No one spoke for a long time, until the operating lights went out and Jiang Yu was pushed into the ward.

Meng Lu breathed a sigh of relief: "It's fine."

She turned around to help Xu Meiyin, and inadvertently saw the figure in the distance, with her back to them, with the window open, and a cigarette between her fingers.

He was drenched in the cold winter night.

"That child..." Meng Lu hesitated to speak, and said to Meng Chunxin, "Go get him a cup of hot water."

Xu Meiyin didn't say a word from the beginning to the end. When she found out that Jiang Yu had committed suicide, she almost passed out. Fortunately, Meng Lu was with her all the time.

"Sister Xu." Meng Lu called her and said earnestly, "Leave you and Xiaoyu alone."

Xu Meiyin's eyes turned red.

"Aren't we parents all for our children? What's more, our husbands are gone." Meng Lu said softly, "Jiu Xin's heart is not good, and I don't know when to take medicine. One day she will suddenly leave me, how can I live alone."

Meng Lu sighed: "I've thought very openly in my life. Fortunately, my heart is also sensible. I gave up a good university and stayed here with me. Sometimes I think it's a pity when I think about it, but well, I really don't trust her. Go abroad alone."

She turned to look at Xu Meiyin: "Sister Xu, you must also know that Xiaoyu back then could have gone to University A or Qingheng, but why did he choose to stay?"

"He's very filial." Meng Lu looked forward, "Didn't you often tell me that Jiang Dezhi and his younger brother Jiang Dexing, the two children were raised without one of them by their side, as if they had no home, very estranged. At our age, we are richer than our career or anyone else, but compared to the past, nothing is better than having children by our side."

"Although Jiang Dexing is rich, no matter how much his daughter-in-law looks down on us, she will always lose to us in this regard." Meng Lu clapped her hands, "If there are some knots in our hearts that need to be untied, let's untie them. Have you forgotten how you persuaded Jiang Dezhi back then? Since Xiaoyu has chosen to stay, you mother and son should live a good life."

Meng Chunxin had already entered the ward, Meng Lu looked at the figure at the end, the boy didn't drink the glass of water, he didn't move after smoking a cigarette, and the window didn't close.

"That child saved Xiaoyu." Meng Lu pointed, "None of us thought that Xiaoyu would go to Tian'an Lake, he did."

Xu Meiyin didn't look in that direction from the beginning to the end, Meng Lu saw his coat was still dripping, and said distressedly: "It's a cold day to jump into the lake to save people, and I haven't changed my clothes, so it's not good to catch a cold. "

Meng Lu patted her hand.

The wind became stronger at night, and Zi Luo's clothes were soaked by the icy lake water, and there was no place in his body that was warm. He turned his back and lit a cigarette again. Sober up.

Although he is already sober enough.

He hung up the phone and bought the nearest subway and rushed back. After getting off the train, he almost went directly to Tian'an Lake without even thinking about it. The surrounding was dead silent, and he saw a passing figure jumping down from a long distance away.

At that moment, his heartbeat almost stopped.

He didn't dare to think about what would happen if he came later.

He didn't dare to think about what kind of life Jiang Yu lived during the time of separation. As long as he thought about it, the burning pain would come one after another, as if to tear him alive.

Footsteps came from behind, and Zi Luo saw Xu Meiyin appearing behind him from the reflection in the glass.

He put out the cigarette, closed the window, turned around and called out, "Aunt Xu."

Xu Meiyin didn't look up, she kept looking at his wet clothes and trousers, and when she walked in, she could feel the cold air from his body, which made people tremble uncontrollably.But he stood up straight and was much taller than in previous years.

They were silent for a while, Xu Meiyin gave him Jiang Yu's key, told him the address, and said, "Go back and wash it, and find Jiang Yu's clothes to wear... just put these clothes there, and I will give them to you tomorrow." you wash."

Zi Luo looked at her, but didn't reach out to take it: "Thank you, Aunt Xu, no need."

"Go." Xu Meiyin stretched her hand forward again, "Thank you for saving Xiaoyu. If you are sick, I can't explain to your mother."

Zi Luo didn't move, but glanced at the direction of the ward, hesitating.Xu Meiyin put the keys in his pocket, but her fingers ached from the ice. She turned around and said, "You take a rest and go straight away. You don't need to come back. The keys are at home."

"Auntie." Zi Luo stopped her and said what she wanted to say just now, "I just want you to stay with Jiang Yu."

"He's just ignorant, and he'll be fine when he wakes up."

"Please be sure to stay with him." Zi Luo paused, his voice softer, "I'm a little worried."

Xu Meiyin looked back at him, her eyes were red: "I know my son myself."

At the beginning, Xu Meiyin was in a hurry to find a house. The house Xu Meiyin rented was in an old community, the environment was average, the house was not well soundproofed, the house had been cleaned, and the furniture was only scattered, making it look very empty.

Zi Luo rubbed the key a few times, then put it on the table. He walked forward and saw Jiang Yu's room.

A bed, a wardrobe, a desk, nothing else.

There were several thick medical books on the desk, Zi Luo's fingertips lightly scratched across the cover, and slowly stopped beside a pack of cigarettes.

This pack of cigarettes is empty.

He opened the drawer and took a look, only to find that there were seven or eight empty cigarette boxes. Jiang Yu was not used to throwing them away, and he knew it all along.

After taking a shower, Zi Luo was wearing Jiang Yu's sweater and trousers, the coat was still his own. He went out to buy some vegetables, and cooked some porridge when he came back. He glanced at the time and it was almost six o'clock in the morning.

After staying up all night, he was very tired.Originally promised Cheng Mingzhang to go to the piano room today, but it seems that he can't go.

When Zi Luo returned to the inpatient department, he heard a noise from a long distance away. There were several patients standing in the corridor, and they all looked into a ward in unison. Zi Luo ran over quickly and heard a roar: "Get lost—— "

His footsteps stopped outside the door.

"Brother Jiang Yu, don't move, you're still hanging water..." Meng Chun's eager voice rang out, but was covered by Jiang Yu's out-of-control voice.

Hurrying footsteps came from behind, Xu Meiyin pushed him away and rushed in, what she saw was a mess, her whole body was numb, she pointed at Jiang Yu and wanted to reprimand: "What are you doing..."

However, Jiang Yu couldn't listen to anything, pulled out the needle on the back of his hand, and threw the bottle on the ground so hard that it shattered.

"Get out! Get out! Get out!" He screamed and yelled, not knowing why he was still in this world when he opened his eyes, he didn't want to see anyone, no one.

After the doctor and the nurse went in, Xu Meiyin slowly died down. Xu Meiyin was helped out by Meng Lu, and saw Zi Luo standing beside her.

No one spoke.

Meng Lu asked her to sit down on the bench, sighed deeply, and finally said after a long time: "We don't know Xiaoyu well enough."

No one knew when Jiang Yu woke up. When Meng Chunxin entered the ward again, he saw him staring at the ceiling with his eyes open. He was quiet, without making a sound, his face was as white as paper, and his eyes were blank.

The porridge that Ziluo brought had become slightly cold, so he went to heat it up and asked Meng Chunxin to bring it in, while he himself stayed outside the door.

One minute after Meng Chunxin entered, Jiang Yu frowned suddenly, his eyes turned to the steaming bowl of porridge, and he didn't look away for a long time.Meng Chunxin glanced outside the ward, approached him step by step, and said, "Brother Jiang Yu..."

The closer she got, the harder Jiang Yu gripped the quilt, his eyes were like bottomless black holes, and his body began to tremble violently, like a bird on the verge of death.

Meng Chun stopped and passed the bowl forward: "Let's eat something..."

Before the words fell, Jiang Yu said, "...No."

The shadow outside the door moved, and the resistance in Jiang Yu's heart almost broke through the top of his head, and he shouted in panic, "...don't come over!"

He didn't dare to look at the shadow outside the door again, but buried his head very low, muttering this sentence as if lost his soul, don't come over.

Meng Chunxin looked at the empty corridor, went back to the ward again, and called Jiang Yu with red eyes.

She didn't quite understand why the two people who were so carefree at the beginning became what they are now, why they were avoiding each other when they were glued to each other, and they could recognize each other by a bowl of porridge, and they were so familiar with each other. You can see it when you turn around, but the distance of these few steps seems like an insurmountable gap.

Why is it so difficult.

"Brother Jiang Yu." Meng Chunxin looked at him and said, "He's gone."

The man curled up in a ball on the hospital bed slowly raised his head, his scarlet eyes looked terrifying, but he kept looking in one direction, and reached out to take the bowl.

Jiang Yu said, "Go out."

"But you..."

"I'm fine." He looked at the bowl of fish porridge and said softly, "Go out."

The strong smell of potion around was covered by the aroma of the bowl of porridge in front of him. Jiang Yu took a spoon and stuffed it into his mouth one bite at a time. He ate anxiously, as if he had been hungry for a long, long time. The sound fell into the bowl.

Holding the bowl of porridge, he was crying softly, trying to cover his voice with his hands, but he endured a sharp pain in his throat. The bowl was filled with thin needles, which would pierce his heart bit by bit if he swallowed it. Every time I breathe, the sharp pain will go through the limbs and bones.

Zi Luo ran into Xu Meiyin who had just come back on the stairs. She was holding a packing box in her hand, but her footsteps stopped there and did not move forward.

She seemed to have something to say.

"Fall down."

Zi Luo faced her, silently waiting.

"Auntie, thank you for saving Xiaoyu." Xu Meiyin said, "But it's really enough...really... let's stop here, do you know what you are like? I don't know how to answer when people ask me. "

Hearing the trembling of her ending, Zi Luo looked down at the unlit cigarette between his fingers, and suddenly remembered that he had persuaded Jiang Yu to quit smoking.

But now he seems to be addicted too.

"He has a stubborn temper. He seems to be by his side all the time, but his heart has already gone to nowhere. I don't care if he really doesn't want to live anymore or is forcing me in this way, even if he dies together, I don't care. I may accept it, I am his only son, and I will never accept him doing this kind of thing." Xu Meiyin's gaze quietly stopped at a certain corner, and she took a deep breath, "I don't care when you guys started this matter, it will always happen." To make a break."

"You are a smart boy," Xu Meiyin turned to look at him, "Go and walk the path you should walk."

In the second semester of his senior year, Hou Yi had more free time, and he returned to Zhangcheng basically once a month. When spring came again, he brought a ticket with him when he came back.

He stood beside Jiang Yu and put the ticket on the table.

It was a ticket to the International Piano Finals.

"After this game is over, Luoluo will go abroad." Hou Yi looked at him, paused and said, "Let's go and have a look."

The spring sun was warm, the windows were half open, and the fragrance of flowers in the air was blown into the house with the wind. The ticket was in the sun, and it took a long time for someone to pick it up.

Jiang Yu's fingers stroked those words, one after another, and gently raised his head to look out the window.

This year's International Piano Competition is slightly different from four years ago. Everyone knows that Cheng Mingzhang has accepted an apprentice. , Some people admired and remembered that he hadn't touched the piano for a year now. The reason is unknown, but it is not easy to draw conclusions on whether he can win the championship.

There were quite a few reporters at the gate on the day of the final. Cheng Mingzhang was standing in the crowd and was being interviewed. People around him came and went. Before the game started, the auditorium was almost full.

Hou Yi and the others were sitting in the front row. He had to turn his head to look, but his sight was always blocked by people. When he stood up, he saw that the seat was still vacant. Qiu Ning said that he would come.

That person will come.

An hour after the start of the competition, the profile of the contestants appeared on the big screen, and the photos of Zi Luo appeared in the sight of everyone together with the awards he had won. The surrounding lights went out, and 10 minutes later, a figure appeared on the stage. Following in his footsteps, he came to the center.

The surroundings were unbelievably quiet. They looked at the young man on the stage and saw his face clearly. His expression was as pale as that in the photo. He bowed to the audience without looking up.

Zi Luo sat in front of the piano, looked at the black and white keys in front of him, and raised his hands after a few minutes.

The sound of the piano lingered in the ears, quietly and peacefully, as if telling a story, the sound at the beginning lingered in the heart, melodious and melodious followed the memory to the distance, how far is it, Jiang Yu closed his eyes, as if seeing Two small figures ran before the eyes, the boy in front kept turning his head, smiled and extended his hand to the boy behind him, the trees by the wall grew vigorously, a gust of wind blew, and the fallen leaves slid over their shoulders, as if they had participated in the their time of year.

When they grow up, the two figures walk side by side, still in this alley, with the fragrance of flowers in spring, the green trees in summer, the fallen leaves in autumn, and the white snow in winter. They have never missed any season, and they have left footprints with every step. , leaving traces everywhere.

The sound of the zither became louder and louder, as if every note had life, and the figure in front of him grew into a teenager, with evasive eyes, unnatural shyness, bold temptation, fiery heart, longing for the future... everything follows the zither The sound became clear again, and Jiang Yu pinched his fingers until they turned white, and his nails sank into the flesh, as if he was about to pinch blood.

This song seems to be different from what he has heard before, there is something more that he can't describe, maybe it is more sad than the previous tone, more thoughts that break through the brain, more unreachable love, heavy Beating everyone's heart, Jiang Yu felt that his whole body was about to explode with the sound of the piano. The scenes of the past, every sentence, and every single sentence reappeared in his mind uninterruptedly, almost killing him late.

The powerful sound of the piano touched everyone's heart. They held their breath and looked at the young man on the stage. His eyes were closed, his brows were slightly wrinkled, and he played the melody with his flexible ten fingers. The emotions that slipped out from his fingertips Gradually became low, with a hint of desolation, from slow to strong, repeatedly, as if to recover the best time that has been lost, he was conveying with the sound of the piano, begging, slow down... Don't leave.

A gripping double-tone resounded, and the sound of the piano stopped abruptly. The boy did not move, his eyes were still closed, as if he was immersed in his own world.A few seconds later, the sound of the piano slowly came out again, and the past echoed everywhere, and the sadness touched people's hearts.

Jiang Yu bent down and breathed heavily, but he was afraid that he would crush the flowers in his arms. He squatted down and curled up. The people around were immersed in the sound of the piano, and no one noticed his abnormality.

He couldn't listen anymore.

The sound of the piano is like a complaint, precipitating all the past. With the wind, it touches new buds, flowers, and every corner, but it can no longer touch the life that belongs to them.

As soon as the song ended, the surroundings were silent. People stared blankly at the young man, his body was covered with light, his hands dropped heavily, and he sat there quietly.

After an unknown amount of time, he opened his red eyes and looked directly towards a certain part of the auditorium.

Many people's eyes followed him. The woman was startled by so many eyes, but found that the young man was looking at the position beside her. She turned her head to look, and couldn't remember whether there was anyone beside her just now, but she I saw a bunch of small daisies, its flower language is pure, the love hidden in my heart.

Zi Luo didn't look back.

He knew that he had completely lost the world that belonged to him and Jiang Yu.

He won the gold medal in this final without any suspense. After the game, the reporters were pleasantly surprised to learn that he agreed to the interview. They asked some questions around the performance, and finally someone asked: "Is there anything you want to say to everyone?"

Zi Luo looked down at the white petals of the little daisy, and didn't answer for a moment. The noise around him gradually disappeared with his silence, and everyone was watching him.

He slowly raised his head, looked at the camera, and said, "Live your own life well, and never forget each other."

The award-winning song is called "Sprout"

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In August 2016, Zi Luo left China.

In February 2018, Jiang Yu passed the postgraduate entrance examination and entered University A as he wished.

In April 2019, the cherry blossoms in Big A bloomed, and the delicate petals fell with the wind, like a rain of flowers. Jiang Yu looked at it from a distance for a long time, but turned and left without approaching.

In June 2019, the news reported that there would be a meteor shower tonight. Jiang Yu was watching the news in the dormitory, got up, packed his things and went back to Zhangcheng.

He went back to Baihua Street, walked across the path, opened the door and saw the leafy persimmon tree, and at night he climbed onto the roof and quietly looked at the starry sky.

Still bright, as in previous years.

The heat wave is rolling, the night is getting darker and darker, the full moon hangs in the sky, quietly looking down at the ups and downs of this vast world, joys and sorrows, it does not know how many people's fragile emotions and deep secrets are contained in it, Day after day, year after year.

A faint light slid across the starry sky in the middle of the night, and the person under the moonlight closed his eyes at some point. He breathed steadily, as if he was in a dream. In the dream, he and Zi Luo were snuggling together. Arrived at Meteor.

……

I've thought about death many times, and I've asked why many times, but I didn't say it, and I knew no one would hear.I have always longed for companionship and love, and I have always been afraid of acceptance and confrontation. I have always wanted to hide, but because of him, I can run forward regardless of everything. I know he will hold me back and look back at me. , will stop and wait for me, he will never abandon me.

In the past, I thought it was good to be heartless, and it was good to listen to the words "it's okay" in my heart. I carefully protected my relationship with him. I was working hard. He is so good, I also want to change. To be excellent, so that I can stand in the same place with him, no matter how difficult it is, I will not be afraid.But which step did I go wrong, starting from choosing to stay, or from hiding from him again and again, or from saying goodbye to him completely at the end?

I don't know, I don't have an answer, the most irreplaceable and important person in my life was pushed away by my own hands, I love him so much, but I can't keep him, I rely on him so much, but I still talk to him first goodbye.

He was right, life is your own.He sees all my sadness and pain, but this is my life after all, and it is already great for him to share with me. If his company ends up causing me to suffocate and die, I think, I Seeing his appearance after death, my soul will also be in pain and frantically want to crawl back into my cold body.

I only have this life, and his company supports me. I have no choice until now. I should live a good life. His life is so brilliant. I am the one he loves. I also want to shine a light on him. You can see it at a glance.

He has his achievements, and I have my life.

Although I know we have no future.

-end of story-