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It took about 10-[-] minutes to drive from the hospital to Xu Xun's residence. It had been more than an hour since Wu Gou arrived home, and two thunderbolts rang out, but Xu Xun hadn't returned home yet.

Wu Gou sat on the sofa, and the phone was placed on the coffee table. Until the sound of the rain became louder and filled the entire living room, Wu Gou still didn't reach out to touch his phone.

The appearance of Xu Xi seems to have brought some changes to Wu Gou, but it seems that it has not.During the time spent with Xu Xun, his life was filled with each other, but once he had the space to be alone, Wu Gou was quickly beaten back to his original shape, and even the sound of rain could oppress his breathing.Wu was afraid of the palpitations caused by the sudden ringing of the doorbell, but he also hoped that Xu Xun would come back soon, as if it was really like what he saw when others commented, "Without Xu Xun, I can't walk independently."

But normal people will not be unable to live without someone, and no one can accompany him for a lifetime.

Long-term habitual staying up late allowed Wu to check out his arrhythmia early on. This is not a rare problem. Eight out of ten people who love to stay up late can be caught.However, in the recent period, his palpitations became more and more frequent, which was also reflected in the physical examination Xu Xun arranged for him.He didn't quite remember what the doctor said, but judging from Xu Xi and Feng Qiu's expressions, it was not a very good thing after all.The moment the sound of the key falling into the door lock sounded, Wu Gou's heart seemed to have stopped beating.

When Xu Xun came in with big and small takeaway bags, what he saw was Wu Gou froze on the sofa.

"There will be a traffic jam on the road, so I'm coming back late." Xu Xi put down his things, saw Wu Gou's expression was numb, and put the back of his hand on the other's forehead to test the temperature.

"Fortunately," he confirmed, and asked Wu Gou, "Why do you have such an expression?"

Wu Gou pressed the position of the heart and whispered, "I was just scared."

Xu Zi was bent over before, but he became serious when he heard the words, kneeling on one knee in front of Wu Gou, and put his palm on Wu Gou's chest.It was raining heavily outside, but Xu Xun's body smelled dry.The tip of Wu Gou's nose was suddenly surrounded by the warm scent of soap, and the part of his skin that was touched through the clothes was so hot that it almost burned.The fire quickly spread to the ears, but the instigator didn't seem to notice it. He even rubbed his fingertips on the short sleeve of cotton fabric, fully confirming that the other party's heartbeat was normal before withdrawing his hand.

"This is also a shock."

Xu Xun's tone was not distasteful, but Wu was sensitive enough to hear something strange.Not only the words, but even the expressions are obviously different.This strangeness lasted all night, until after ten o'clock, the two of them washed up and returned to the master bedroom.

Wu Gou and the others have experienced a high-pressure state where there is not enough time to sleep and rest, but now they suddenly relax, and they are not very overwhelmed.

Some things that are difficult to say can be known to a second person under the addition of night.When Wu Gou saw that Xu Wei turned off the headlights but kept the bedside lamp on, he suddenly felt that maybe he and Xu Wei had a tacit understanding again.

The dim light gave Wu Gou a sense of déjà vu that they were still in the game, but the illusory illusion contained a real sense of security. Wu Gou's hand moved under the air-conditioning quilt rustlingly, and found Xu Xun's back.

Xu Zun turned over, and his gaze fell directly into Wu Gou's eyes in the dim environment.The eyes of the two met, and Wu Gou took the lead to break the silence: "Are you... not very happy today?"

Xu Xi didn't say yes or no, and suddenly asked Wu Quou if his heart was better.Wu Gou thought that he was going to attack again, so he hurriedly said that it was much better. Xu Xi didn't attack again, and after two seconds of silence, he changed the subject: "The doctor told me something today."

Xu Xi didn't say it clearly, but Wu Gou immediately realized what he was talking about.

Doctors cannot disclose the content of conversations with patients to others. However, for the purpose of "helping to improve the condition", Xu Xi learned something from the doctor that he did not know before.

"The doctor didn't tell me what you talked about. I want to ask you myself." Xu Wei looked into Wu Gou's eyes and emphasized seriously: "You don't have to say what you don't want to say, you don't have to force it."

According to his own memory, Wu Gou pinched the other person's wrist like Xu Xun did to him: "Ask."

Xu Wei let Wu Gou hold his hand and asked him what he was thinking when he was alone before.He spoke decisively, without hesitation at all, but the speed of speech and other things in person were cautious.In Wu Gou's impression, this was the first time he had seen such contradictory feelings appearing in Xu Xun's body. In addition, this question itself was not a very easy to answer, so Wu Gou didn't speak right away.

"It's fine if you force it." Xu Zun said again.

"It's okay, don't force it." Wu Gou smiled at Xu Xun, closed his eyes, and seriously recalled the time when Xu Xun was away.

It was undoubtedly a relatively difficult time. Wu Gou once thought that he would not be able to survive this time, and had the idea of ​​"or else it would be like this". However, looking back now, it seems that it is not completely untouchable.Wu Gou has always been used to incorporating his illogical and trivial thoughts into his creations, and it is basically impossible to cut his heart to a "living person with thinking and memory"-this was the case before Xu Xun.

"At that time, my mind was quite divided. I thought a lot in a chaotic way, some of which I don't remember now, but in general, it's probably like this."

"My soul was torn in two, one half longed for someone to pull me out of that hole, and the other half..."

"That's it, don't pull it, let me just fall like this, and disappear completely in this world."

After a long time, Xu Zun asked again: "What do you still think now?"

Wu Gou struggled for a long time, and finally nodded hesitantly: "Occasionally."

Xu Xi almost wanted to ask Wu Gou if he had spent too much money and energy for Wu Gou, and Wu Gou felt that he had nothing to repay, so he took his honesty and sincerity as the right to repay the debt.But it was impossible for him to say, and there was no need to ask this question any more.

The empathy ability beyond the normal threshold is very easy to cause harm to the person concerned. The brain blocks part of the ability to perceive the world out of self-preservation, and at the same time unconsciously locks itself in the spiritual world, reducing information reception and external communication. transfer.Most of Wu Qu's slowness and bad words come from this.And vocaloid, a niche music form, well satisfies Wu Gou's need for self-expression.Wu Gou got to know Hatsune by chance, came into contact with flipping, and finally started to create by himself. Before participating in the show, he was able to maintain the balance of his mental state.

Participating in the future tour is a challenge he has given himself. If there are no subsequent series of accidents, the impact on him should be positive.It's a pity that the assumption is not valid, and those things that happened later directly caused a devastating blow to Wu Gou's spiritual world.It doesn't matter if Wu Gou's luck is bad: there are too many bad things, but the good things are relatively simple. Xu Xi is Wu Gou's greatest luck.

"He has developed a strong trust and reliance on you for no apparent reason. Generally speaking, this kind of excessive trust is not a very healthy state."

"But for some special groups in this world, the universal meaning of 'health' may not apply to them."

"At least for now, for Wu Gou, if there is such a person, it is much better than him shrinking in his own world alone."

It is not difficult to understand what the doctor said, but Xu Xun just couldn't believe some of the statements for a while.

"Are you sure I can be that person?" Xu Wei looked at the doctor, his eyes were full of caution that read as prudence and writing unbelief.

"I didn't expect you to have a day when you were not confident." The doctor briefly pulled away from his work and looked at the other party playfully.

You are that person.

Xu Zi looked at Wu Gou, recalling the doctor's determined tone in his mind.

Wu Gou is a person who can stay in his room for a long time without social media or talking to people.Although he always thinks he is not good at socializing, in fact, in the program group, there are quite a few people who have a good relationship with him, not to mention Ji Yingfeng and others who have performed in the same group, they are willing to take care of his character in front of the camera, and take the initiative to cue him to talk .Where there is no camera, I have never disliked Wu enough for being not good at words, and I am willing to be the one who takes the initiative to open the topic.

He was indeed pampered silently by his friends, even though many small things showed Wu Gou's accommodating to Xu Xun, Xu Xun was still not sure whether he was special enough to Wu Gou.

Wu Gou opened Weibo for him, and took the initiative to talk to him, even if this was the case, Xu Wei was still not sure.However, when Wu Gou just told him "occasionally", Xu Zun suddenly had the urge to say something.

"Be so honest with me." Xu Zi turned the question into a statement. Wu Zuo didn't understand why, but he could still hear the ups and downs of Xu Zi's emotions.

Wu Gou still doesn't know why Xu Wei is not happy, but he hopes that Xu Wei can be happier.

"But don't be so honest with others." Xu Zi said again.

Wu was not clear enough, so he gave a humming sound.

"During the interview in the morning, I was chatting and thinking at the same time," Xu Wei suddenly stopped, and asked Wu Gou nonchalantly, "Do you want to hear it?"

Wu Enough naturally wouldn't say he didn't want to.

"I'm actually a very indifferent person. Although what I said in the interview is not a lie, what I really want to say is actually more ugly."

"I don't like to care about others, and I don't want others to care about me. Even my parents don't tell me how to live. Why can these people order me to live according to their ideas?"

"But why should I blame others? Don't I want to influence other people's thoughts?"

This was the first time Wu Gou saw Xu Zi's tone so intense, and before he could react, Xu Zi suddenly turned over, and the distance between the two quickly narrowed.

Xu Zong put his hands on both sides of Wu Gou's neck, his warm breath breathed on Wu Gou's face, and it quickly turned cold.

At Datongpu, the two of them had never been closer, but Wu Gou's heartbeat had never been as violent as it is now.Xu Xi's eyes were dim, and his voice was slightly hoarse due to emotional fluctuations.

"How old are you, you just feel like you can't find a reason to live on."

"Have you ever been in love? Have you ever held hands? Have you ever kissed? Have you ever had sex?"

Before Wu could answer, he had already fallen into the overwhelming kiss.

Xu Xun's overbearing kiss was completely inconsistent with his own personality, like a wild beast biting its prey, and there was no trace of the greenness of a first kiss.It was so fierce that it seemed to be venting the anger in his chest, but there was some inexplicable grievance.Wu En didn't know why he felt this way, but subconsciously felt that this was the case.

Before closing his eyes, Wu Gou broke free from Xu Zi's shackles, went around behind Xu Zi, and hugged him gently.