Epigenetic edge

Chapter 7 Goodbye

When Ye Shenyi woke up, she was in her own bed.He was the only trace left on the light blue bed, his home was clean and quiet, and there was no one else but himself.He nervously held on to the handrail and went downstairs, stood in the empty living room and called out, "Nanjiro."

Of course no one answered.The room and the living room and kitchen were tidied up as if everything was just a dream of his.If it wasn't for him to really feel the pain.

There was a text message in his cell phone, which was sent to him by Echizen Nanjiro.Um, are you waiting for him at the ballpark?The heart that sank to the bottom of the valley suddenly soared with these few words.

Ye Shenyi went upstairs to wash up, and tied up his hair with the hair rope Echizen Nanjiro gave him.He stood in front of the closet and chose for a while, and finally chose his favorite clothes that he thought were the most suitable.

This is the first time Ye Shenyi didn't bring a racket when he went to that place to meet him.Even with his physical condition, he does not allow him to play tennis well.

When Ye Shenyi arrived, Echizen Nanjiro was already waiting there early.He was lying on the railing with his back to the road, with his head lowered as if he was counting how many grasses there were at his feet.Ye Shenyi approached him anxiously, opened his mouth but didn't know how to address him.

Echizen Minamijiro turned around slightly, he still had that decadent and casual attitude.He scratched his short hair and looked squarely at the person in front of him.The long and smooth hair was neatly gathered into the hair rope, leaving only two shorter strands hanging on the side of the face and on the chest.The snow-white shirt was spotless, and the jeans that wrapped the slender legs were light and clean light blue.No matter how you look at it, this is just a young man who is ignorant of the world, pure white like a piece of newly cut white paper.

Echizen Nanjiro stood up straight, and he bowed to Ye Shenyi at a straight and standard ninety degrees: "Yeshenyi, I'm sorry."

He had never seen this person so serious and upright.Ye Shenyi was stunned for a moment, he didn't know why he was in a hurry, it seemed that no matter how he put it or how he did it, it was wrong.

"Ex...Senior...you..." He finally wanted to get him up quickly.

Echizen Minamijiro straightened his back and instantly returned to his lazy look.He put his hands in his sleeves, and said to Ye Shenyi who still couldn't see the development of the matter clearly: "Young man, I'm very sorry for what happened yesterday. So, in the future, it's better not to get too close. Learn to avoid suspicion. If you think you can't If you forgive me, you can do whatever you want, if you want to scold or beat me, you can do it now."

Ye Shenyi shook his head lightly, and he blinked his eyes, as if he finally understood why he came to this moment.Because they did something wrong, and since they are wrong, they cannot continue.He also bowed to Nanjiro: "Senior, I'm sorry. I'm very sorry."

Echizen Nanjiro sighed: "It's none of your business." He drank the wine himself, and it was also the one who got drunk and went crazy and didn't control himself, and the one who suffered the most was obviously this boy.He is quite the right age, as a senior, no matter how you look at it, it is very wrong.Ye Shenyi didn't need to apologize at all, he was the one who did something wrong.

Ye Shenyi shook his head.He was the one who liked Nanjiro, he was the one who wanted to drink, and he was the one who crossed the line first.He thought he was sorry for Echizen Nanjiro and his family.Ye Shenyi's expression was not very good, he lowered his head and remained silent.

Echizen Minamijiro scratched his hair again, the silence spread between the two of them, the mistake had already been made, neither of them could recover, and it was very embarrassing to meet each other.He said: "Then, if you don't want to vent your anger, I will leave. In the future..."

Ye Shenyi moved his finger when he heard the words, he lowered his head and watched Echizen Nanjiro turn around, "Wait!"

Ye Shenyi grabbed Echizen Nanjiro's hand, and his cold fingertips were on Echizen Nanjiro's warm palm.He gritted his teeth as if desperate, and seemed to be telling him the most beautiful feelings with the most sincere heart.

"I love you."

Echizen Nanjiro was taken aback for a moment, but he didn't turn around.He could feel Ye Shenyi's fingers gripping his hand tightly.Ye Shenyi raised his head, his eyes fixed on Echizen Nanjiro, he smiled with all his strength: "Echizen Nanjiro, I love you."

That might be the last time he saw him.He may never see him again in his life.Never to be seen again.

"Then have you, have you ever loved me? It's okay to feel that you love me a little bit for a moment. Do you love me?"

Echizen Nanjiro pressed the back of Ye Shenyi's hand, and slowly but firmly pushed his hand away.Without looking back, he said, "Young man, goodbye."

Ye Shenyi understood.He doesn't love.

He looked at the back of him leaving, his figure became more and more blurred and smaller, and finally disappeared from sight.Ye Shenyi pressed down on Kong Kong's heart, and it seemed that her stomach ached.He dragged his feet and turned around, his stomach hurting from drinking too much alcohol and not eating anything in the morning.Ye Shenyi pressed his stomach, he walked home, the house was quiet.

"I'm back." He called softly.

Then he got used to taking off his shoes without hearing any answer.He first went to the kitchen and found a pot of porridge inside.It must have been made by Echizen Nanjiro before he left, Yagami Yi filled a bowl.The porridge was already cold, but he didn't care, he ate it slowly spoon by spoon, the cold food irritated the rebel's stomach even more.Ye Shenyi hurried to the sink, spit out all the food he had just eaten, the smell of blood came out of his throat, Ye Shenyi spat out the blood, then rinsed his mouth, and returned to the dining table without changing his face I finished the remaining half bowl of porridge before.

He calculated the time, and the tennis tournament would be over in half a month.He still has time, he still has time, this time he must win the championship.

……

"Oh! Congratulations on winning the trophy!" All the main players of the tennis club gathered in the barbecue restaurant, holding drinks as if they were wine.

The main candidates around were all overjoyed and excited, and the noise in the private room almost turned upside down.Yamato also couldn't hold back the smile on his face.Ye Shenyi was also laughing. He looked at the contenders who were making a fuss together, and slowly sipped his iced drink.

Yamato fought his way out from a group of starving ghosts and grabbed a piece of barbecued meat and put it on Ye Shenyi's plate: "Eat it quickly. Put it down, Fujiyan, that piece of meat is mine!"

Ye Shenyi didn't have much appetite, especially greasy meat, but he still picked up the barbecue and put it in his mouth.

Yamato successfully snatched a large plate of barbecue, and he gave most of it to Ye Shenyi, muttering in his mouth: "Is it because you have been under too much pressure recently, and you have lost several catties in a row, so hurry up and make up for it. Have a look." Your dark circles are also the same in today's game. I was scared to death when I saw it, but you actually looked straight at his high-profile ball. Although you won in the end, you worked too hard. You didn't care about winning or losing before."

Ye Shenyi smiled: "Occasionally, I also want to prove myself once. Only by giving myself a goal can I persevere."

"what?"

Ye Shenyi smiled: "No. I'm going abroad, Yamato, I don't want to tell you the time, so don't send me off."

Yamato's grabbing hand paused, and the barbecue rack was immediately emptied. "okay, I get it."

"I'm really grateful to you all these years. Thank you for always taking care of me." Ye Shenyi said.

Yamato took a sip of the cold drink and said helplessly: "We are friends. You have been helping me with tutoring all these years. I don't know how many times I would have failed the surprise exam without you. Besides, you took care of me after eating so many lunch boxes from you." Me. But we are friends." If you are friends, you shouldn't care so much.It's a pity that I still can't reach your heart, and I don't know where I went wrong with the relationship for so many years. It seems that the key point is always missing if it is not far or close to your heart.

Ye Shenyi stuffed his stomach with barbecued meat and then vomited it all out again.This time he vomited worse than ever, probably because he had already finished what he wanted to do, and his body couldn't take it when he suddenly relaxed.

He had just wiped away the blood around his mouth when his convulsed stomach regurgitated another mouthful of blood. "Ahem..." Ye Shenyi was lying on the mouthwash table, his eyes were a little dark, his exhausted body softened, and he fell heavily on the ground in a whirl.He pressed his throbbing stomach, curled up uncontrollably, like a child sleeping in his mother's belly.

But the cold tiles are not warm, and the sound of "squeaking" water keeps ringing, and it is not peaceful.Ye Shenyi felt very uncomfortable, his long messy hair covered his face, slightly blocking the light.Ye Shenyi's radiating arc finally completed a long lap at the speed of a turtle crawling, stimulating the lacrimal glands and crying.

He cried silently, just closed his eyes and wept.In his hand, he tightly held the hair rope that Echizen Nanjiro gave him, as if holding on to salvation.He suddenly sobbed and pressed the hair rope to his chest.

Minamijiro...Echizen Minamijiro...I miss you...I miss you so much...I really want to see you again...If only I could see you again...

I am afraid, afraid that one day I will die here without a sound.No one knows and no one cares because of me.

In the dark night, Ye Shenyi hugged himself, he coughed repressedly, blood overflowed from his mouth.He sat up with difficulty, wiped away his tears and blood, hugged his legs and curled up in a small corner, trembling slightly.But he dared not go out.

He didn't want to see that face, because he would miss him so much.I really want to see him, think about it, and hear his voice.But no, don't disturb him, Nanjiro would not want to disturb his life by himself.

However, I still think about it.

The abdomen seemed to be torn apart again and again, the feeling of vomiting and nausea welled up in the throat, and the coldness penetrated into the bone marrow.If only he was here, if only he could hug him, if...he could love him...how wonderful...

He tried hard to control himself, and even threw the phone far away.He buried his face in the crook of his arms, enduring the pain in his stomach and the cold loneliness that followed him everywhere.No one will come, and no one will know what Ye Shenyi is suffering at the moment.

"Nanjiro..."

Ye Shenyi was crying silently, he was grabbing the clothes on his chest as if he wanted to hold onto something, like the deepest obsession in his heart: "...I love you...you..."

If only you could love me a little bit.

I live, I live.I used to see the future, plan my life, and live a cold life alone.Now, I have no future, but I long for you to exist in my life.I can't see the future, and you don't belong to me. This world is too big and too lonely to accommodate my insignificance.