sun washed by spring rain

53,

Dr. Liang found Zhang Ke on the side of the overpass. Zhang Ke's mind is not difficult to guess. Even though he has learned to deliberately conceal himself, it is not difficult to understand him if he turns around a little.

Standing by the bridge, Zhang Ke just breathed out the clouds, and then took out the cigarette case from his pocket again.It's just that it was empty this time, so I could only crush it angrily and throw it into the trash can on the side.

Zhang Ke threw away the cigarette case and just turned around, seeing Dr. Liang watching him not far away.

"It's not good to smoke too much." Dr. Liang stood there for a while, but he didn't step forward, but quietly observed Zhang Ke's every move, watching silently until he saw the other party's eyes and finally noticed this. side, just said a word.

"Zhuang Zhuang, it's no fun if you always follow me like this." Zhang Ke shrugged his shoulders and smiled bitterly, he was upset now.This uncontrollable appearance was seen by others, after all, he was still a little uncomfortable, so he could only reply jokingly.

Dr. Liang choked on Zhang Ke's teasing "strong", walked up to him and smiled helplessly.

"I didn't follow you on purpose, it's just that the unhappiness you exude has infected me, so I will follow you to relax."

"Me? Is there?" Zhang Ke twitched the corners of his mouth, not knowing how to answer for a moment.

"Why not, I almost wrote the four characters of being unhappy on my face." Dr. Liang patted Zhang Ke on the shoulder, sighed softly, and said again.

"Do you remember, I asked you a question at that time. At that time, you looked the same as now, with a haze on your face, but when I asked you, did you do what you wanted to do? Are you happy? Do you remember your answer at that time?"

Zhang Ke lowered his head and thought for a while, pursed his lips and did not answer.

Dr. Liang continued to speak. "You said it was your own choice, it was voluntary, and there is nothing to be unhappy about." Zhang Ke was stunned for a moment after hearing this, and then there was continued silence.

He looked at Zhang Ke and paused again. "Now, let me ask you again. Are you happy?"

Dr. Liang didn't force Zhang Ke, he gave him enough time to think and answer this question.

I don't know how long it has passed, but Zhang Ke's thoughts drifted away, and he looked under the bridge, but he never replied.

"Back then, you did that for the sake of Yan Qianming, right?" Dr. Liang suddenly broke the silence.

"I don't know what happened between you, and I don't have the right to know, but you didn't hesitate to answer this question at that time, even if you are going through that kind of thing, you can still express your inner feelings sincerely. In fact, no matter how difficult it is, if you have thoughts and hopes in your heart, nothing is difficult. But now, you look very relaxed, free and easy, and have overcome all kinds of difficulties, but you can’t answer, you I don’t know if this is what you want to do, if you are really happy. People are like this sometimes, they like to force themselves to numb themselves, to do things that are not happy but they think they are willing..."

"Are you here to be a lobbyist?" Zhang Ke raised his eyebrows. The more he heard Dr. Liang's words, the weirder he became, and if he couldn't hear anything, something was wrong.

"Well... because I saw his pain, and your pain..." Dr. Liang didn't beat around the bush, and directly admitted that these words were not thought out in advance, but were sent out of feeling.

"I'm in pain? Why am I in pain? He's in pain? A stick to the head doesn't mean it hurts!"

Dr. Liang was somewhat amused by Zhang Ke's words.

"He kept talking about you on the way to the hospital. He said a lot, and his sanity was not clear, but he cried and said, every sentence was incomplete. But everyone who heard it was very sad... He loves you, and you...seem like you can't let him go, just like this..."

"I don't understand..." Zhang Ke shook his head, turned around, his heart seemed to twitch instinctively, and his mind began to uncontrollably imagine Yan Qianming's miserable state according to Dr. Liang's narration.

"I don't know much about emotional matters. The important thing is that you don't regret it." Dr. Liang shrugged and patted Zhang Ke on the shoulder. Zhang Ke can rely on himself to think.He just felt that people who clearly cared about each other and couldn't live without each other shouldn't just miss each other like this.If redemption is the best option, then there should be no regrets.

Dr. Liang took a few steps back, it was time for him to go back, but he didn't forget to yell to Zhang Ke before leaving.

"He's awake!"

Zhang Ke turned his head and glanced at Dr. Liang walking backwards.

"Zhuang Zhuang! You talk a lot!" After yelling, he was surprised to find that the pressure in his chest had dissipated a lot.

Yan Qianming, Yan Qianming, can I really not escape from you?

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The kitchen at home has not been used for a long time, and the pots and pans are almost rusted.It took Zhang Ke an hour to clean up the kitchen, put on an apron, and planned to get started.

After studying in the store for two days, the stall was left to Jiang Zheng to sort it out.And he tried to find the real thoughts deep in his heart.

Remove the fishy smell, thicken the cornstarch, and add oil. If you look at it skillfully, it is a professional technique. Slowly simmer on low heat, and there is a sound of chug chug.Zhang Ke listened, almost lost his mind again.

Everything seemed to be done in one go. By the time Zhang Ke realized it, he was already walking in the corridor of the hospital with an insulated box.

The corridor wasn't very long, but it made him walk it over and over again.

Isn't it just to deliver a meal to the patient, I don't want him to starve to death after sleeping for so long, what are you talking about!

Zhang Ke patted his head, took a deep breath, and walked over straight.

When he reached the door, he was about to knock but stopped.The door was not closed tightly, and Zhang Keying could be seen in the ward holding bowls and chopsticks to feed Yan Qianming, who was leaning on the bed, from the crack of the door, but Zhang Ke just glanced at it and wanted to throw away the thing in regret, but A voice of conversation suddenly came from the door, curiosity made him stop, leaning against the door, listening quietly.

"Ke Ying, don't do these things, I'll do it myself." Facing the spoon that Zhang Keying handed to his mouth, Yan Qianming paused, and he smiled embarrassedly, maintaining a polite tone and unfamiliar movements.

"I signed it! But do you really have no feelings for me at all? I lost to a man just like that?" The spoon in Zhang Keying's hand fell back into the bowl, as if he couldn't lift his strength anymore.

"Ke Ying, I owe you, but there is only so much I can make up for..." Yan Qianming spoke very slowly, and his voice was a little weak. "If we talk about love, none of us have ever really loved anyone..."

"Yes, I know, you must say that I only love myself! I admit that I love myself more than anyone else, but I love you too!"

It seems to be a little silent.

"Ke Ying, do you know? We have never been really happy together, and your feelings for me only stop at thinking that I am a suitable husband candidate. I have always had Zhang Ke in my heart, and I and Zhang Ke met first, it wasn't that he destroyed our relationship, it was because I didn't see it clearly, I couldn't let go of him, and I was still with you. It's so wrong..."

"I didn't see it clearly myself! I didn't know that you liked men!" Zhang Keying seemed a little choked up after speaking, a little unwilling, but more of a helpless compromise.

"Love is just one person falling in love with another person, regardless of gender, and... I don't like men. I just love him, just him."

There seemed to be no more sound from inside the door.Zhang Ke heard Yan Qianming's last words outside the door, and had to admit that his heart trembled violently.

Love is a person falling in love with another person. This love was what he had been looking forward to before, but when he finally admitted that his hope had been wiped out, he never expected it to come true in the end.Zhang Ke was in a daze, with mixed feelings for a moment, and didn't know how to react...

"wish you happiness!"

Yan Qianming's voice came from inside the door again, louder than the previous few words.The door was jerked open, and Zhang Keying rushed out, covering her mouth and striding forward. She didn't notice Zhang Ke on the other side of the door, and just walked like that, never looking back.

No one went to close the door that was wide open, Yan Qianming stood up reluctantly and looked towards the door, he stared at Zhang Ke who was standing outside the door with some surprise, while the other party looked at the back of Zhang Keying leaving, It seems that he still hasn't recovered.

54,

"Zhang Ke..." Yan Qianming called Zhang Ke's name tentatively, his voice was very low, and he looked over cautiously.

Zhang Ke heard the voice turning his head back, and didn't do anything else. He walked in a few steps, closed the door, and sat on the chair beside the bed.

"You... are you here to see me?" Yan Qianming's voice was full of excitement and disbelief that could not be hidden, and his gaze fell on Zhang Ke, flickering non-stop.

Zhang Ke didn't say anything, and he didn't look up at Yan Qianming a few times. He silently put the insulated box in his hand on the table beside him, opened it, and filled the bowl.The small ward was instantly filled with a strong aroma.

"Eat!" Zhang Ke handed over the bowl with one hand, his tone was fierce, and his movements were not gentle at all.To be honest, he doesn't know how his brain circuit is built at all. Hearing Yan Qianming's words, there are a hundred kinds of intricate emotions constantly intertwined in his heart.But this time, he had no intention of escaping.

Yan Qianming's eyes fell on the bowl that Zhang Ke handed over, and he raised his hands, holding the bowl almost tremblingly.

"Is this specially made for me?" The warm touch is not real at all.

"What? Are you full just now? Then I'll take it." Zhang Ke rolled his eyes, and said that he was about to take back the bowl in Yan Qianming's hand.

"Don't... I didn't, I didn't eat. I'm just hungry, I'm just hungry." Yan Qianming lowered his head, picked up the spoon and looked at it again, the corners of his mouth raised up inadvertently, and quickly scooped up a spoonful into his mouth sent.

"Hey!" Zhang Ke just wanted to remind Yan Qianming that it was very hot, but it was too late. Yan Qianming grinned his teeth as soon as he scooped it in, but his first reaction was not to spit it out immediately, but to move his mouth, rolled his throat, and swallowed it in one gulp .

"Hey! Are you stupid!"

After swallowing it, his throat started to burn and hurt. Yan Qianming breathed out with his mouth open, unable to speak, but still had a smile on his mouth.

Zhang Ke didn't know why, seeing his pitiful appearance, his heart suddenly twisted. He frowned, walked quickly to the side and poured a glass of cold water, and took the bowl that Yan Qianming was still holding.

"Drink a few sips!" Zhang Ke reprimanded angrily, and handed over the water glass so directly.

"I'm sorry... I ate too fast..." Yan Qianming said these words hoarsely, took the water glass, and drank slowly.

Zhang Ke didn't answer, and the atmosphere in the room fell into silence again.

After a while, Yan Qianming put down the empty water glass in his hand, leaned forward, and filled the bowl not far away.

Zhang Ke turned his head to look at him, and couldn't help showing contempt in his eyes.

"It's almost cooled down...I'm really hungry..." Yan Qianming smiled embarrassedly, picked up the spoon, this time he was not in a hurry, and slowly savored mouthfuls.

"Zhang Ke... this is really delicious, smooth, tender and refreshing. Is it tofu flower?" Yan Qianming couldn't stop eating it. It was made by Zhang Ke, and the taste was familiar for a long time.After eating it, Yan Qianming's heart seemed to become as hot as this dish, and the hot air slowly rose, evaporated into mist, and directly covered his eyes.

Zhang Ke glanced at him, and replied lightly.

"Pig brain."

"Ah?" Yan Qianming was surprised, but he didn't hear clearly.

"I said, this is a pig's brain!" Zhang Ke repeated again, with the corners of his mouth slightly raised, a little proud.Yan Qianming never ate animal offal or brains. He knew that, but he just made this thing. Thinking about it, there was also an element of intentionally messing with him, so he added another sentence.

"Don't they all say what to eat to make up for it? Your head was beaten, so eat more to make up for your brain. Pig brain is very good, with high nutritional value, and it is suitable for you to eat."

"..." Yan Qianming was silent for a while, couldn't help swallowing his saliva, his eyebrows twisted into a character horoscope, and he looked down at the half-filled bowl in his hand.

Zhang Ke smiled disdainfully, just when he thought that Yan Qianming would be nauseated and even went to the toilet to induce vomiting, unexpectedly, the man brought the bowl to his mouth and ate it all.

"Delicious! Really, this is the best pig brain I've ever eaten in my life!"

Zhang Ke's eyes widened, and he rolled his eyes speechlessly.

Heh, this should be the first time in his life to eat it!It's quite skilled in flattering.Zhang Ke thought this way, but afterward, he couldn't stop feeling sour in his heart.

……

"Zhang Ke..." Yan Qianming finished eating everything in an insulated box before slowly putting down the bowl and chopsticks.He took a sharp breath, and suddenly spoke earnestly, wanting to have a good talk with Zhang Ke.

"Just now...Ke Ying is here, and she and I are...completely over..." Yan Qianming paused at this point, glanced at Zhang Ke's reaction, and continued.

"Now, I have become nothing again... But it's okay, this time, I won't panic, I won't be chaotic, I won't be afraid, and I won't escape. Even if everything is cleared to zero, everything will have to start all over again... "

Yan Qianming raised his eyes and stared at Zhang Ke closely, his eyes were extremely firm.

"Do it all over again, Zhang Ke. I want to do it all over again. This time, let me be your reliance. It was always you before, but now, change me, no matter ten years, 20 years, 30 years, or my whole life... I will always be you." I am willing to wait, and I am willing to repay you and me for the previous ten years."

"Okay?"

Zhang Ke raised his head and glanced at him. With just one glance, the exchange of eyes contained too many emotions. Zhang Ke was startled, and immediately moved his eyes away, not daring to stay any longer.

"Don't say these fancy words, sweet words, I don't like to hear them, wait until you are discharged from the hospital... let's talk about it."

After Zhang Ke finished speaking, he immediately stood up, packed up his things, turned around and was about to leave.He didn't know how to answer, at least for now, he didn't want to answer.

Zhang Ke was walking, and when he reached the door, Yan Qianming stopped him with difficulty.

"Then tomorrow, do I still have pig brains to eat?"

The man standing at the door didn't look back, but left his back and waved his hands.

"Look at my mood!"

55,

After the incident of being smashed last time.After the rest, the Happiness Restaurant reopened, but the business was still affected a little.This is also normal, this shop has just been smashed, anyone who comes to have a meal has to worry about whether they will be accidentally injured.

Business has been bad these past few days, Zhang Ke didn't pay much attention to it, but Jiang Zheng was really worried.These few days the shop wasn't making any money at all, but there was one more person with a mouth, just stuck here and didn't leave.

When there are customers, he will greet them outside and pass the dishes. When there are no customers, he will start cleaning.No, Jiang Zheng watched this man wipe the table that had been cleaned for the third time in the lobby, and the paint was about to be wiped off...

Jiang Zheng shook his head, there were not many guests, he and Lao Wang were too busy to stay in the kitchen.As for Zhang Ke, because that person occupied the hall where he often wandered around, he could only squat at the back door of the back kitchen, secretly smoking two cigarettes.

"I said, Master, why is he here again? He used to come only occasionally, but now it's getting worse!" Jiang Zheng winked at Zhang Ke, who sighed and took a puff of smoke.

"Didn't his ex-wife smash our store? He has to pay for it. Doesn't he have to work hard to pay off the debt?"

Zhang Ke flicked the soot on his fingertips, and kept looking at other places, as if he didn't take it seriously at all.On the contrary, Jiang Zheng was taken aback when he heard this, and hastily pulled his trouser legs and squatted down next to his master.

"Isn't it, Master! He is so rich, does he still need coolies to pay off his debts? Didn't you get tricked by him again?"

Zhang Ke rolled his eyes away. "What do you mean again? Cough...he, divorced and left the house, is now a pauper."

"Ah?! Divorcing and leaving the house without leaving the house, isn't it too much to play! He must have done too many immoral things and be punished! Master, don't provoke him anymore!" Jiang Zheng said while disgusting He glanced in the direction of the hall.

Zhang Ke hit him on the back of the head. "If you don't work hard, you'll be thinking about something messy all day long!"

Jiang Zheng turned around and covered the back of his head with a look of grievance.

"Why don't I work hard, these two days are too busy, those ingredients are all wilted..."

Zhang Ke shook his head, finally stood up, pinched the cigarette butt and threw it into the trash can, turned and walked out.

Yan Qianming was still cleaning the table vigorously, but he didn't realize that there was someone standing behind him at all.Zhang Ke sometimes really wonders if that sap really made him stupid with this persistent and rudimentary look.

"Oh!" Zhang Ke snorted.The person in front of him turned his head immediately, looking nervous and excited.

"Hey... Zhang Ke, look, have you wiped my table clean?" With a courteous look on his face.

Zhang Ke glanced at the shiny table behind him, took the coat and put it behind his back.

"Come on, come with me to load the goods?"

"Huh? Where are you going?"

"Shipping!"

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The so-called stocking is to follow Zhang Ke to the farmer’s market to buy some ingredients. Zhang Ke bought a second-hand pickup truck in the past two years. back.

With the store so idle, he really couldn't bear to let those tables be repeatedly raped by Yan Qianming. Anyway, Jiang Zheng also said that the ingredients stored in the store were all wilted, so he happened to go shopping and dragged this person along the way. Go together and be a porter.

Since Yan Qianming was discharged from the hospital, he has been working as a handyman in the Happy House, and Zhang Ke never drove him away like before.Although Zhang Ke didn't give Yan Qianming any answer, and he didn't know how to proceed with Zhang Ke... But Yan Qianming had already prepared for a protracted war.The two lived together peacefully like this. On the surface, it seemed that nothing had changed, but in reality, it was tacit understanding.

When he arrived at the farmer's market, Yan Qianming followed Zhang Ke's butt all the way. It was his first time visiting this place. It was crowded and everything he saw was fresh.Zhang Ke walked in front, with his waist straight, but he liked to keep his hands behind his back. Not to mention walking slowly, he also liked to stop for a while from time to time, looking left and right.Yan Qianming watched from behind and couldn't help laughing. No matter how he looked at this person, he looked like an old man who went out for a walk.Yan Qianming often had the illusion that many years later, they were already old, and Zhang Ke was still walking in front with his hands behind his back, his straight back was already bent, and he might still follow him with a cane In the back, I go shopping in the vegetable market every day.

Yan Qianming followed Zhang Ke to stop and go, but he stopped in front of a booth.The vendor who set up the stall was an old man in his 60s, his skin was dark and wrinkled, and he was sitting on a small bench and slowly setting up all kinds of vegetables on the stall.

"Hey, man, is today's dish fresh?"

Zhang Ke finally raised his eyelids and talked to the old man opposite.

"Why is it not new? I just picked these from the field this morning. You can see for yourself and pick them yourself!" The old man smiled at Zhang Ke, as if he was an acquaintance.

Zhang Ke walked up to the old man with the corner of his mouth curled up, and handed him a cigarette as soon as he stretched out his hand.

"Men, just this one, this one and that one over there, give me fifty catties for the same, it's cheaper." While speaking, Zhang Ke handed him the lighter and lit a cigarette for him.

"Okay, you come here often. Whenever I ask you for a waffle, I will give you the lowest price." The old man grinned and opened his mouth, with a cigarette in his mouth, he straightened up quickly and wanted to take a bag for Zhang Ke to put vegetables in. .

Yan Qianming stared blankly at the side, this may be an ordinary thing that ordinary people would do, picking and buying vegetables and bargaining, even though it is so ordinary, he has never done it.When I was with Zhang Keying before, I usually went out to eat. Occasionally, I wanted to cook, so I went to a large supermarket where there was no bargaining to buy packaged and sealed vegetables.But today he just watched Zhang Xingyun and the vegetable vendor complete the matter like this, and for some reason, he felt a kind of warmth from the bottom of his heart, feeling a kind of warmth that spontaneously emerged from Zhang Ke's body. An indescribable charm.

"Why are you still standing there, help pack the vegetables and carry them to the car!"

Zhang Ke's voice brought Yan Qianming back to his senses, Yan Qianming responded and hurried to help.

On the way back, the two returned with a full load, and the truck was loaded with a load of purchased ingredients. Zhang Ke drove the car, and Yan Qianming sat in the passenger seat, turning his head occasionally.

"Zhang Ke, the store's business has been bad these two days. You bought so many vegetables this time, can you..." Can it be broken directly... Yan Qianming didn't say anything later.

"No, it's only been in the limelight for the last two days. When I get started, the traffic will come back." Zhang Ke's tone was flat, but he was so confident.

"Haha, okay, if you cook the dishes, then the business must be good." Yan Qianming's brows relaxed, and he felt at ease after hearing Zhang Ke's words.But it didn't take long for his brow to wrinkle again.

"But it will be very hard for you in this way! Then, what should I do, how can I help you, or you can teach me how to cook."

After hearing this, Zhang Ke cast a direct glance at him.

"Use you? Then why do you need Jiang Zheng? Just don't make trouble when the time comes."

Yan Qianming suffocated and was afraid of causing trouble, so he didn't say anything else along the way.

……

In the evening, both Jiang Zheng and Lao Wang were off work, and only Zhang Ke was left alone. Oh no, there was also Yan Qianming who was too lazy to leave.

There was no one in the store, the two set up the tables and chairs, Zhang Ke sat down and stared blankly for a while, Yan Qianming also walked over and sat next to him, the air was quiet.

Yan Qianming spoke first: "Zhang Ke, you have worked so hard, I... still have some money in hand, if I don't count my investment, Xingfu Restaurant will open a few more branches."

Zhang Ke turned his eyes away at that time.

"Aren't you going out of the house without being clean? How do you still have money? You are just fooling people?"

Yan Qianming raised his eyebrows, looking a little guilty. "No, I left the house completely. The company, house, and assets were all given to Zhang Keying... But, I made some investments in other places before and made a profit... um..."

Zhang Ke laughed. "You really are you. You have always been so shrewd. How could you not leave yourself a way out. But I am just a petty citizen. I don't have much promise or ambition. To me, things like money , enough to spend."

After so many years of tempering, Yan Qianming's experience and ability are naturally nothing to say, and he has nothing, but it is not difficult for him to find a decent job again or start a new business.As for Zhang Ke himself, he is just an ordinary ordinary person, and what he thinks about is just an ordinary life.

"No one will restrain your wings anymore. You don't have to do anything deliberately for me. You have seen my life. Every day I open a shop, buy vegetables, daily necessities, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea. I'm sure my life will be the same in the future. If it gets boring like this, you can just do what you want.”

What Zhang Ke said was meaningless, and he didn't deliberately try to push Yan Qianming out, but the words changed in Yan Qianming's ears, and he felt wronged.

"Zhang Ke, do you think I can't live an ordinary life? Why do you think so, do what I want to do? What do I want to do? What else can I want to do? What I want to do most is to be by your side I will never leave for the rest of my life. You are a petty citizen, and I am also a petty citizen. For me, any great ideals are nothing compared to yours. I will accompany you every day to go grocery shopping. I'll change everything...don't let me leave..."

"You..." Seeing the look on the verge of crying, Zhang Ke couldn't laugh or cry.

"Hey, I just said that sentence, how can you think so much..." Zhang Ke stood up, not knowing how to explain it for a while.Yan Qianming saw that Zhang Ke stood up, and he also stood up anxiously, as if he was going to leave, stepped forward, hugged him tightly, buried his head in his shoulder, and almost greedily sucked the warmth of Zhang Ke's hair around his neck the taste of.

"Zhang Ke, the two of us from now on, live a good life, live a good life!" Yan Qianming's voice was almost choked up.

Zhang Ke didn't speak, just froze for a while, and gradually embraced him uncontrollably...