I'm not the only one in the mountain

It was only after five o'clock when Xiao Greed woke up, it was still dark, and there was no one around.He lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

It's not very comfortable on the body, but it has obviously been cleaned carefully, but it is still clean and refreshing.Xiao Greed turned over and watched the dim light pass through the curtains, illuminating the room softly.

He was tired, tired from heart to body.

The limbs were as heavy as lead, and they were too lazy to move while resting on the quilt. The broken hair on the forehead hung down smoothly, and the eyes were so unfocused that they didn't know what to think or what to think.

Xiao Greed thought of Lin Su, the two of them went from friends to lovers, even though Lin Su never admitted the relationship between the two in front of outsiders, but every day when he woke up in his arms, he was always extremely satisfied.

He fumbled around for a while, closed his eyes and buried his face in the pile of quilts.

After a while, muffled weeping came from the quilt, as if he had been stuffed in his chest for a long time, and his emotions finally broke through the perfect disguise in front of others.

Like a raging flood, the uncomfortable emotion from the heart rolled through the blood of the whole body, and the dark night gave him the most spacious and perfect stage.

Xiao Greed's hand holding the quilt kept tightening, blue blood vessels protruding from the back of his hand.

The crying gradually turned into a low and desperate roar, as if it was completely hurt and painful.

Xiao Lian curled up his body into a defensive posture, as if this could relieve the continuous pain in his heart.

But can't stop.

uncomfortable.

I can't stop the tears, and I can't stop the pain.

Wave after wave hit every part of the body.

damn it.

Xiao Greed cursed, biting his lips to death, hugging his shoulders tightly with his hands, and resting his head on his knees.

let me die ok

He heard a voice in his heart screaming in despair.

It's not hard to die.

Let me die.

let me die.

I don't know how long it took, but the tears seemed to have dried up, and even though my heart was still extremely uncomfortable, I would not shed a single drop.Xiao Greed lay quietly in this position, watching the light gradually brighten up outside the window.

The sun came up and it was day.

Xiao Greed looked at it blankly for a while, then slowly got up, ignoring the mess on the bed, went to the bathroom to wash, changed his clothes and went to work.

Everything is as usual, the only thing that is no longer the same is Xiao Greed's life.

In the next few days, Xiao Greed didn't have any contact with Gu Donghe, as if this person was very dedicated to fulfilling the duty of "friend with benefits"-everything is lingering on the bed, but never entanglement off the bed.

But the conditions given by this person at that time made Xiao Greed hard to believe.

You have to be busy with work too, how can anyone be free to hang around him all day.

Xiao Greed thought well, Gu Donghe was indeed busy recently, but what he didn't know was that Gu Donghe was busy decorating the house - it was the house that was bought in the neighborhood opposite his home.

After finalizing the decoration plan, Gu Donghe worked on the documents in the company. He sat down in the afternoon until ten o'clock in the evening. Except for a meeting in the middle, he hardly left the office. The secretary brought the dinner and ate a few bites to deal with it.

"Mr. Gu, there is a reception in Nancheng this weekend, do you want to go?"

weekend……

"Push it."

"Ok."

Gu Donghe leaned on the swivel chair and rubbed the center of his brows tiredly, then walked to the floor-to-ceiling windows of the office and opened the curtains to look out, the lights were like stars.In this most prosperous part of the city, even at night, there is still no shortage of people running around for their lives.

High-rise buildings rise from the ground, supporting an era, and trapping the people of an era.

How many people go around in a building all day long, wearing decent suits, neatly coded documents on the table, they analyze the market, speculate on consumers, control top-notch data, and are powerful in the workplace, but You will be at a loss in your own life.

I don't know the way back, seeing the future is like seeing stratus clouds.

Gu Donghe stood silently, looking at the city like a dormant monster, resting in the dark for a while, waiting for tomorrow, to face new struggles and new struggles.

Never stop, never stop.

Gu Donghe used to only think about working hard and taking Lan Lan out to live a good life when he is capable, but many times, he was also at a loss for his own life.

Desperately circling in the upper class, with long sleeves and dancing skills, he has both ways, until he rests and realizes that he has been walking alone for so many years, and he wants to talk to someone, but there is no one to complain to.

Day after day of life, negotiations, official documents, meetings, entertainment, these unpleasant things are actually the whole of his life.

Until he met Xiao Greed.

It is undeniable that what first attracted Gu Donghe was this person's good-looking skin. He had a glimpse of him in the hospital, but he had been thinking about it for so many years.

The hospital's all-out efforts did not save Xiao Li's mother. Gu Donghe stood outside the ward and looked at Xiao Li standing by the bed, with bandages on his hands, thin clothes, and his head hanging down, unable to see his expression clearly.

He stood in the dim light, with his back straight, staring at the dying woman.

There was a harsh sound from the instrument, someone in the ward sighed silently, Xiao Lian clenched his fists tightly, and the moment he looked up, Gu Donghe saw the flash of water in his eyes, which was quickly wiped away.

His eyes were red, and his eyes were full of unclear emotions.

The boy stubbornly endured all kinds of feelings in his heart. This woman gave him the happy time when he was young, but also put him in hell for so many years.

Why, to torture him for so many years?

Why, ruined your own family, and still not let go of your own life?

Why, despite being so disgusted, instinctively turned the danger towards him at the last moment?

Why save him after destroying him.

All the resentment, anger and unspoken questions disappeared at this moment.

Xiao Greed calmly followed the doctor's procedure and went through the formalities until the funeral. He never cried again. When the last intersection between the woman and the world was cut off by a pile of loess, the guests dispersed, and Xiao Greed stayed alone in front of the tomb for a long time.

These are all Song Li told Gu Donghe. Song Li said that he actually couldn't see through Xiao Greed. He sealed all his emotions in his heart. , no one knows.

Later, Gu Donghe would occasionally ask about Xiao Greed's situation, and Song Li only thought that he was slightly concerned about the hospital at that time, so he would also tell him about Xiao Greed's situation.

He said that he didn't pay attention to his body and caught a cold for a week or two, but he still didn't get better. He said that he returned to City H after graduation to take the civil service exam. .

It seems that life is no different from most people.

He suddenly wanted to see Xiao Greed, and wanted to know how this person spent every night in this ever-changing society.

Should I stay at home quietly, or would I be drunk and dreamy in the bar just like the first night?

So he did.

"Hey."

Xiao Lian didn't pick up the phone quickly, if it wasn't for his sober voice, Gu Donghe almost thought he had fallen asleep.

"You haven't slept yet?"

"No." There was a pause on the phone, "I'm tired today and don't want to do it."

Gu Donghe laughed out loud.

"Tired and still not sleeping?"

"It's okay, I'll hang up," Xiao Greed said calmly, "Take care of yourself."

"Don't hang up, something is up."

Xiao Greed didn't speak, and waited for him to speak.

"Come with me on weekends,"

"Where?"

"Lin Su's wedding banquet."

As soon as Gu Donghe's words came out, it was obvious that his breathing was concentrated and his voice stopped.

He was not in a hurry, and the two confronted each other in silence.

"Gu Donghe," Xiao Greed finally said, his voice a little hoarse, "What do you want to do?"

"Find a partner and drink wedding wine."

Xiao Greed laughed angrily.

How did I provoke this person?

"understood."

Xiao Greed didn't want to talk to him anymore, feeling very annoyed.

"At five o'clock in the afternoon on Saturday, I will pick you up at your house."

"what ever."

Saying that Xiao Greed quickly hung up the phone as if fleeing, while Gu Donghe kept holding the mobile phone, with an inexplicable smile on the corner of his mouth, he walked slowly back to the desk, clicked the mouse a few times, and clicked the file from the file. Drag a file from the folder to open it.

—Psychiatric medical records.

The name is Song Lan.