what is it like

"Xu Yi, your brother is waiting for you downstairs again." He Chen from the same dormitory said as he entered the door with fried rice noodles. It happened that Xu Yi's cell phone also received a text message.

The mobile phone was bought together by two people in Beijing, the same model and the same color.

"Thanks, then I'm going out, do you have anything to bring?" Xu Yi asked with his coat on.

"I don't have anything to bring, let's go, you and your buddies have such a good relationship, waiting for you downstairs every now and then, it's almost become a sight in our apartment four." He Chen said teasingly.

Xu Yi wasn't annoyed either, "Then you won't be envious, we have been in love since childhood."

"Hurry up, hurry up, you two are a medical student and a science student, I dare not get close to your aura." He Chen winked, watching Xu Yi's eyes twitch.

"I'm also a wit, okay? Can we look at the connotation?" Xu Yi complained and walked out of the dormitory door.

Xu Yi and Mo Heng have already entered their sophomore year, and Mo Heng's reputation as a talented scholar is still due to the good handwriting at the freshman party, splashing ink and smearing it, he is very arrogant.

"It's been a long time." Xu Yi asked with a smile.

"Not long, let's go." Mo Heng casually adjusted Xu Yi's collar.

Today is Valentine's Day, and the atmosphere on the campus is a little imminent. The capital is the political center of Huaguo and a frontier city, leading the country's trends and trends.

University A is located here, and the atmosphere is relatively open. During the more than a year here, Xu Yi and Mo Heng also saw a few pairs of the same kind.

These groups, which are so small that they can be ignored, are secretive and concealed, but precisely because they are small, they are more sensitive among the same kind.

"Shen Yihang is also here today, we haven't seen him for a long time." Xu Yi was a little happy, after all, the friendship between friends in high school has become even deeper now.

Mo Heng raised his eyebrows, "Hasn't he been hiding from Wei Chuan? Why did he dare to show up today?"

Wei Chuan was their senior two years older, also gay, and took good care of them.

"Ahem, the two of them got on good terms last week." Xu Yi was a little embarrassed when he thought of the phone call he had made at midnight before.

"Wei Chuan acted quickly." Mo Heng smiled, "You don't have class tomorrow, so let's sleep out."

"Okay." Xu Yi looked away, blushed and nodded.

The day he turned eighteen, the two did it.

The two people who had no experience for the first time were not happy at all at first. There was a big gap between theory and practice. To cover up the psychic thrill of merging.

After that day, I didn't do it a few times, and I could count it with both hands, but because of the strong desire to make the other comfortable, the two became more and more compatible.

The so-called sleeping out implies an invitation, as long as it is Mo Heng, Xu Yi cannot refuse.

When they walked into the gay bar, a group of people were booing together, Xu Yi and Mo Heng stepped forward and saw Wei Chuan and Shen Yihang kissing, the battle was very intense.

The gay bar is opened by Wei Chuan's friend, the environment is good, the staff is simple, purely to provide a place for gays to relax and relax.

Those standing around were not familiar faces, and some people greeted them familiarly when they saw them.

Wei Chuan was tall, and Shen Yihang was bound to be suppressed. Panting and feeling dizzy, he leaned against the other party's arms, listening to Wei Chuan greet the two of them, "You guys are here, let's have a drink today too?"

Mo Heng nodded, Xu Yi said with a smile, "Listen to the senior."

Wei Chuan graciously put his arms around Shen Yihang and sat on the sofa, beckoned Xu Yi and Mo Heng to sit down, and walked towards the bar.

One characteristic of Shen Yihang is that he is thick-skinned, he doesn't blush when he recovers, and hugs Xu Yi happily, "I haven't seen you for a month, how come I feel so handsome again!"

"Is there?" Xu Yi asked seriously.

"You asked if there was Mo Heng in your family." Shen Yihang blinked and said.

Xu Yi looked over, and Mo Heng said dotingly, "You have always been handsome."

Shen Yihang rubbed his arms exaggeratedly, in exchange for Xu Yi's stare and Mo Heng's cold eyes, and he muttered to Wei Chuan who came back with the wine, "The two of them bullied me, come here quickly."

"Now you know the benefits of having me around?" Wei Chuan put his arm around Shen Yihang's shoulders, and smiled at Xu Yi and Mo Heng. He just likes Shen Yihang's temperament, what kind of pot goes with what cover, if it is planted, it will be planted, there is no way.

"Cut, it's cool." Shen Yihang said in his mouth, but his face was smiling openly.

When Wei Chuan and Shen Yihang sat down, the four of them chatted relaxedly.

The people around also had pleasant smiles on their faces, comfortable and relaxed, compared with the outside world, in this small bar.

If you don't specifically explain what is different between them, they also have the right to happiness. If you can understand a little bit more, words such as same/wife, surrogate childbirth, and fraudulent marriage may not appear on them.

Xu Yi still remembered that the bartender K standing behind the bar said something with that kind of crying and laughing expression, "It's just the world, vision, ethics. When I went to see his parents with him , I have heard too many insults. For me who was an orphan since I was a child, it seems that there is nothing unbearable to be humble for the sake of my lover, but we still separated. Those pressures finally turned into an excuse. You can’t have children, really. Is it because of the child?"

"If possible, I would also like to give birth to him, but I can't. The brainwashing of my parents and people around me is terrible. People who used to be firm will tell me that I should continue to have an affair with him after he gets married. In this way, it is still a kind of charity. He said that he loves me, but he just borrowed that woman's belly to give birth to a child. If I want to understand, how do you understand such a thing?! It's disgusting. But because he is gay, it becomes like Inferior...Maybe it will be fine in the future."

"What are you thinking about? I'm dazed again." Mo Heng asked softly.

Xu Yi shook his head and said with a smile, "I don't think about anything, I just hope that I can continue to be happy."

Mo Heng looked at Xu Yi who cast a shadow on his face with his back to the light, stretched out his hand to rub his soft lips, and gently covered them, "Yes..."

At twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, the bar was instantly quiet, and the light blue with some cool lights enveloped everyone in it.

Who can say that this is not love?

Maybe I can only keep one person in my heart for a lifetime, quietly watching the other person's emotions, and carefully collecting my own feelings.

Or if you are lucky enough to meet that person in the vast crowd and start the life of two people, the joy will spread quietly in the bottom of your heart, and it will be calm and quiet over time until they stay together for a lifetime.

or...

No matter what, this is the love I can do my best to express.

The author has something to say: Two more days of sweetness, I am a little afraid to write down 〒▽〒... Persevere!