your world my tomorrow

A little uneasy came to the high living room, seeing a familiar figure standing by the window facing him, Fei Qinan's eyes immediately turned red.

None of the three people here dared to speak out first to break the terrible silence. In the end, it was An Cancan who wanted to relieve the tension of his beloved idol:

"Nanshu...you sit down first, I'll pour you a cup of tea! Hey~~ why are you pulling me again, let go, I'm going to pour tea for Nanda!! Song Rui!!!" An Cancan was raped again Pulled out the door.

"What kind of tea to pour? He is still in the mood to drink tea at this time? Don't be a light bulb here, walk around, I will take you to play~~" The housekeeper couldn't bear her nympho look, and dragged An Can Chan ran away, leaving Fei Qinan to face Qi Shun alone.

During these more than 4000 days and nights, Fei Qinan repeatedly rehearsed the scene when he met him, thinking about how to smile, thinking about how to say hello to him for the first time, but when the day really came, he found that My mind went blank, I couldn't even breathe...

Qi Shun finally turned around to face Fei Qinan who was not far behind him. When he really saw the man who thought he had been dead for more than ten years standing in front of him, his heart was beating wildly under the cover of a cold face. More than agitation.

He just quietly stared at the 'resurrected' man, his blazing eyes almost piercing his body.

The two of them just stared at each other silently for more than ten minutes without saying a word. Finally, Qi Shun, who was dressed in casual home clothes, took the first step and walked up to him, carefully looking back and forth from top to bottom over and over again.

When he saw the ring on his left hand and the same earring on his left ear, he smiled wryly:

"Heh~ Since you lied to me and you are already dead, why bother acting?"

Fei Qinan greedily looked at the familiar yet somewhat unfamiliar handsome face. His hair had grown, his facial features had become more three-dimensional, and his skin had turned darker. For the young and frivolous Qi Shun in his memory, the impression he had in front of him was completely different. Another breath of a mature man.Without speaking, he handed over the brocade box in his hand.

"You really haven't changed, you still talk less, or...or you don't want to talk to me at all?" Opening the brocade box and taking out the earring, Qi Shun brought it back to his left ear without the slightest hesitation.

"Okay... Long time no see." Fei Qinan finally found his own voice.

"Hehe! What a 'long time no see'! Haha!!" Qi Shun felt extremely ridiculous!

"You, how have you been all these years?" I prepared a lot of things to say, but at this moment, I didn't think of a single word.

"Okay? Of course I'm fine! Do you think I can't live anymore after you die? Let me tell you, don't even think about it! I'll just live in a world without you, live a prosperous life, Live wonderfully! I want you who died to understand that without you, there is nothing wrong with me except that I won’t fucking love anyone anymore!!” This damned guy still has the nerve to ask him How are you doing?

"Qi Shun... I'm sorry..." Fei Qinan wanted to step forward to hold his hand, but was thrown away violently.

"Don't! You didn't apologize to me, none of you sorry to me! I want to apologize to my past self, tell him that I was really wrong, loved the wrong person, believed in the wrong group of people, let that be for a fundamental A person who is not worthy of what I have paid for has been alone for 12 years and wasted so many years of feelings!" Qi Shun said loudly that it was his fault, which made Fei Qinan even more uncomfortable.

"Qi...uh!" Before he could react, Qi Shun punched him hard and knocked him to the ground, and then he punched him a few more times until Fei Qinan's left cheek was swollen and the corner of his mouth was bleeding. Qi Shun, who sat on him and was violent, grabbed his collar and shouted:

"12 years, a whole 12 years!! I don't dare to go to your grave to pay homage, because I'm afraid that if I go, I will really admit that you are dead!! Do you understand!? I have been like a fool for so many years, imagining Imagine that you didn't die at all, imagined that you went to a certain city, entered a university and became a college student, imagined how you read in the library, imagined that you rode a bicycle to class, and imagined that you were sick without me The way I accompanied myself to the hospital, I was still idiotic imagining you wearing a suit and tie at work!! Haha... What happened? You didn’t die!!! You didn’t die!!! You guys, why are you so cruelly lying? You've been cheating on me for so long, you've been lying to me for so long!!!"

Qi Shun collapsed, really completely collapsed this time.

For these 12 years of longing, for these 12 years of parting, for these 12 years to see the person who is no longer alive... Time is so ridiculous, it taught me how to mature, and also taught me the reality of living, but But I forgot to teach me how to forget you.

He lay on Fei Qinan's body and cried so heartbreakingly, heart-piercingly, the pain that had been suppressed in his heart for so many years finally broke out completely, tears washed away everything in the past, and infected the people under him crying It was a mess, and the two hugged each other like this for a long time, crying and hurting for a long time...