Born to haggard my heart

Lao Gao handed me a new song, a public welfare song, and an artist with a good image has to be linked to public welfare and get a little bit of it.dad?

Why is this song sung by me, who doesn't even know who my father is?I don't want to sing this song, it is very likely that the company will use me as a gimmick without a father to earn a lot of tears from fans

I don't want to use my scars to make money for the company!Earn attention!

Lao Gao coaxed me as always: "It's just a few sentences in total, the four of you will each have a paragraph, just a few dozen words?"

Just a few dozen words!Hold on.

Clouds float over the mountainside, sunflowers are smiling

You are holding me on your shoulders, chasing butterflies and running,

A clear brook with a bridge over it,

Turning the corner, I saw my mother waving at me at the door

The memory of that time, all turned into a knife

I don't know when the taste changed

I don't want to hear your quarrel,

My brother and I don't know anything

daddy can you come back

Let's go back to the past,

Take my hand and cross the bridge,

Cicada in the forest

This kind of song, of course, must be matched with a desolate, pitiful, and sad style to win the sympathy of the public.

Take the time to practice a few times, a few people in the busy work, in the nanny car, in the dormitory, cooperate with the exercise several times

The requirement for myself is to sing the phonetic notation, pitch and tone in place, and don't let go of emotion.

The recording was done, and the four of them finished recording together.

Teacher THeONe is also the music director, knocking on the microphone: "Hanhan, you can put some emotions into it, okay? It touches people's hearts! The audience's tears flowed when they sang."

How do I let go of my emotions?

If I had a father, would I be sold to a horse?

If I had a dad, I would still be in school now!

If I had a father, I would also go to the amusement park with him, maybe they will teach me how to drink now!

If I had a father, he would definitely save me if he knew that I was being abused inhumanly!I won't be insulted by Ma again!

Get emotional, dad where are you?I really want to have a dad too! I can't hold it anymore, the grievance in my heart, the humiliation of being under others for a year, the pain!Who can stand it?

collapse,!Dad, come to me, your son is suffering here, I can't take it anymore!

Weeping uncontrollably, tears poured down like rain, squatting on the ground, wailing loudly, everyone panicked and came to comfort them one after another.

Teacher THeone came over: "You guys go out first, I'll talk to Hanhan."

Let me cry for a while, "You have always been an artist with good expression management, why? Can you tell me?"

I do not want to say.All the people in the circle around me, I don't want to tell them what's in my heart.

"It's okay, it will be fine in a while."

"Okay, you can record this part alone."

Complaints and praying songs together, "sing, sing" finished, tears came down.

"One more time." It's over, the nasal voice is too heavy.

. . . . .

In the end, director Theone said: "Hanhan, you just need to sing this section correctly, and don't sing the rest of the harmony, let the three of them sing."

After the recording, it was very late. As always, I saw Xun waiting outside with concerned eyes, but I still ignored it.

But I am human!People with feelings know that the other party treats them very well, but you can't respond, and you don't want to hurt him!I don't want to hurt him!

I am sorry.

A group of people went back to the dormitory, the mobile phone rang, Ma □□, bastard!He answered the phone with his back to them: "Come here, I miss you very much today."

"I'm not in good shape today, I was recording just now,"

"I know, Gao told me just now."

"It's getting late."

"The driver is already waiting for you in the lobby. Come right over"

Hang up the phone and hit the wall!Still let people live?

I want to calm down the out-of-control emotions!I want to sleep peacefully, and I have to record a show tomorrow!Just keep pretending to be a normal person!

I'm tired, really tired!

Xun was waiting for me where I was, I waved him back to the dormitory, and he asked, "Where are you going?"

I pointed to the back, he knew who was looking for me.

He was slightly angry; "The night before yesterday, didn't you?"

Does he know the truth?It's been almost a year, don't tell me, others will know about me, my shameful existence!

I bid farewell to my hand, but he didn't go on, Lao Gao and I went down.

This apartment is rented by □□.Indoor rockery, running water, swimming fish, plants.

It's only one street away from the company. They say it's convenient for me to go to work, but it's actually convenient for me to come over anytime!

Going upstairs with the driver, there are always two bodyguards by my side, one belonging to him and one belonging to his father. Is it worth guarding me like this for a hundred pounds?

The imprisoned person couldn't breathe, his headache and insomnia became more and more serious, and he became more and more sleepy during the day. It may also be that Lu Xiaohan's vitality is almost at the end.

The bodyguard nodded at him, and the handover was complete.

I tossed my bag on the couch, went straight to the shower, changed into my pajamas, and went to sleep.Both mind and body need rest.

When he fell directly on the big bed, he whispered in his ear: "Are you tired again today?"

"Ah."

Stretching out his hand to stroke my neck and back, the familiar and irresistible palm slowly walked over my body, "In the recording studio, did you cry?"

"Ah."

"why?"

I turned my face; "I lost control of my emotions."

He gently stroked my sensitive area, itching and numb, I can't hide it again tonight!

I don't want to talk about recording in this state, singing is the only thing I enjoy now!

"Why are you out of control?"

He increased the strength of his hands, and I couldn't help but snorted, trying to complete the sentence, but the tone still changed: "Because it's a song about Dad."

"What's wrong with Dad?" He lowered his head and sucked on my chest, can you stop torturing me with soul and body at the same time?

"I don't have a father, I don't know who my father is." Uh, ah, come on

"Brother, I don't want to talk about this, I,, um," was numb and weak, and my voice also subsided

"Okay baby, brother will make you forget about it"

Don't do it, I'm feeling uncomfortable, don't do it with my body, okay?ah

"Baby, you're too sensitive. My brother likes to tease you so much that you can't help but scream, beg *forgive, call me brother."

"Brother, I, don't want to, I, brother, um,,, don't,,"

Once again on the variety show talk show: Monkey Detective, pick it up

In conjunction with the new song, to do a promotion, the host asked the four people if they could talk about the memorable things with their father when they were young, and share interesting things with fans.

Leng Chuan said that when he was a child, his father went with him to catch small fish in the stream in the countryside, and his whole body got wet.

What Xia Mu talked about was that when he was lost in the amusement park when he was a child, his father found him, cried, and told him about his ancestors, saying that since then, he knew that his father really loved him.

What Ke Yixun said was that his father endorsed other people's loans, was defaulted on the debt, and was lying on the bed with a cerebral hemorrhage. Then he came out to practice acupuncture at a young age, sang to earn money, and supported the family, and finally paid off the debt.

The accountant sent him money, but he didn't know how to spend it.

I didn't know that Xun had such an experience, and I didn't care about him too much.If he doesn't tell, I'll never ask him

The master knew my basic situation and said: "Hanhan, please tell me about your childhood and your family. Fans are very interested. As the most popular artist in LXK, please share with your fans."

I hesitated and said: "Sister Kuan and I,,, she loves me very much, I can feel it." Too dry, this answer.

At this time, someone in the auditorium stood up and said loudly: "I heard that you are the illegitimate son of Sister Kuan, are you?"

I am stunned!Where did this rumor come from?All eyes were on my reaction,

I replied calmly and forcefully: "I really want to be Sister Kuan's illegitimate child, at least she is my biological mother."

The host felt my anger, and Xun was beside me, reaching out to pat me on the shoulder to comfort me.

The man asked again: "In this case, do you know who your biological mother is?"

I know, Aline, Sister Kuan only told me about it before she died, but I don't want to sell the tragic experience of my biological mother to the public as entertainment gossip.

"I do not know."

"Then you haven't thought about looking for her for so many years?"

"The people around me and my company take good care of me. I feel like they are my family."

As an artist, you have to speak generously and beautifully, but you can't answer your true thoughts.

He glanced at Xun: "Fans have rumored that you and Xun are lovers, and I saw you interacting with him just now, so the people around you you mentioned are Xun? Are the family you mentioned Xun?"

I endured the anger in my heart and wanted to slap him, don't drag Xun'er into it!

"The people around me are all the staff of LXK."

Leng Chuan said next to him: "Our team includes clothing, physics and chemistry, external links, and transportation. They all cooperate with each other. Without them, there would be no LXK."

Xun Er said: "Our team has a very good relationship in private. During filming, we ate and lived together, really like a family."

Thank you my brother!support me.

Back at the company, the three of them were called away by the agent again, for dinner and entertainment.

Sometimes I really doubt whether our company is a place to professionally train elite prostitutes and male prostitutes?

Those rich people, lawyers, doctors, who have money to give to the company, arrange someone to have dinner with me!Then you have to go!not going?dare?

A voice sounded in the hall: "Lu Xiaohan." Fans often gather in the company, and I just waved to them. This voice made me turn around

God, An Feifan!I feel inexplicably comforted.Can't help but smile at him

He came over, looked at the bodyguards and Lao Gao beside me, and I asked, "Why are you here?"

He laughed and said, "I'm here to study at Tsinghua University. I can see you often in the future."

"Yeah, it's getting late, I invite you to dinner. Let's talk slowly."

Lao Gao was surprised by my attitude towards An Feifan.

"Let's go to the company restaurant for dinner, it's inconvenient for me to go out."

"Row."

"What do you like to eat?"

"Boiled Prawns"

"I also like to eat shrimp. They are live, but the company doesn't have them. When they are given to me, they are cooked on the whole side."

"I'm free that day, please eat something alive."

"OK."

We were moving together, and I said; "With you, I feel like I am back to my school days, I miss it so much."

He smiled; "With you, I feel like I've become a star, with a high rate of return." I laughed too.

With him, I don't have to pretend to be a man or a star.He is not from this circle, let alone from this company, especially not from the people around me.

When I was most desperate and helpless, he saved me. He knew that I was miserable, but he didn't dislike me. I was willing to tell him all the things I didn't want to say to the people around me.

He is the only channel in my life where I can vent, and he is my emotional trash can, innocently storing many of my negative emotions.Give me a lot of comfort and encouragement.

My blue-faced confidant.

Just saying, I have a campus concert recently, and I asked Lao Gao to give you a few tickets, and you can bring your friends.How many do you want?

I was inexplicably moved by a familiar, cold air approaching from behind, and I saw the figure of the devil from the strip mirror decorated on the pillar!

I hurriedly took out my glasses and mask from my bag, put them on, and said, "I'm in a hurry, let's go first, I'll contact you through MSN."

Carrying the bag, I walked out of the restaurant and waited for the elevator. Come on, press the 13th floor, and hurry back to the dormitory!

The door was blocked and closed by the horse as expected.