ever present future

The relationship between the two has remained lukewarm for a long time, until the day of the winter vacation when school is over...

Because Rao Xueliang had a lot of things, he packed up in the classroom for a long time. After he finished, he found that there were only two or three people in the classroom. Personally, the first thing he saw was a cute and innocent girl who was facing him, blushing and talking about something, and the boy whose back was facing Rao Xueliang knew it was Ma Yi without looking at the front.

Rao Xueliang took a glance, and then walked away. The reason why he walked so calmly was because this was a common occurrence for Ma Yi, so Rao Xueliang, a childhood sweetheart, had long been used to it, but this time he didn't know why. There was a feeling of anxiety in his heart. He didn't know if he was angry when he saw Ma Yi, so he chose to take a look and walked away.

But unexpectedly during the winter vacation, something happened.

After a week of vacation, Rao Xueliang was watching TV at home at four or five in the afternoon, when suddenly his mother called him from the kitchen.

"what's up?"

"Go to the nearby supermarket and help me buy some salt, and the washing powder at home is gone, so you can also buy a bag by the way."

"Oh." Rao Xueliang thought he was bored anyway, so he took the change his mother gave him and went out.

Not long after I went out, I saw Ma Yi at the nearest intersection with the girl I saw on the previous day of vacation. This is strange for Rao Xueliang. He used to confess to a girl and would not be by Ma Yi’s side anymore. I saw that girl, what happened this time?After thinking about it, Rao Xueliang walked in secretly.

Because it was not dark yet, he didn't dare to get too close, for fear of being discovered by Ma Yi, so he just squinted his eyes and watched from a distance. The two who were walking stopped on the road near the door of Ma Yi's house. At this time, Ma Yi was facing Rao Xueliang, and Rao Xueliang saw Ma Yi gently reaching out to caress the girl's cheek, looked at the girl with a doting eyes that Rao Xueliang had hardly seen before, and then kissed her .

For some reason, when Rao Xueliang saw Ma Yi kissing him, his heart seemed to stop beating, and his body trembled slightly. It wasn't until Ma Yi straightened up and left the girl's lips that Rao Xueliang felt a tingling pain in his heart. He suddenly touched his chest, hoping that this feeling would disappear quickly, but he didn't expect that touching his heart seemed to hurt even more. He didn't know why?In the end, he left in a panic and returned home without buying anything.

"Are you back? Where are the things?" Rao Xueliang's mother came out of the kitchen and asked strangely when she saw her son who had entered the house empty-handed.

Rao Xueliang didn't speak, just put the money on the table, and walked up to the attic in a trance.

"You child, you won't even be able to do anything you're asked to do. It's really useless!" My mother's curses on me sounded in my ears.

After entering his room, Rao Xueliang sat on his bed in a daze. Some water droplets suddenly appeared on his face for some reason. He reached out to wipe it off. It turned out that he was crying. Why?Why is he sad?Rao Xueliang asked his heart, is it because his friends abandoned him or what?He suddenly thought of the gay movie he had seen on the Internet. It seemed that a man saw his friend walking very close to other women, and then realized that he fell in love with his friend, and was finally discovered by his friend. He also admitted his secret love, and then the two fell in love.Thinking of this, Rao Xueliang asked himself, is it because he likes him that he has had so many complicated emotions with Ma Yi?

Rao Xueliang, who was sitting on the bedside, suddenly smiled. It turned out that the homosexual he hated was himself... It turned out that all of this was not Ma Yi's fault, but his own fault. Not really friends, but something above friends, and this kind of thing is called liking, not the liking between friends for friends, but the liking between men and women.Only now did he realize that every time Ma Yi's emotions involved him, it was because he cared about him so much.

But what is the use of realizing this now?Others have girlfriends, and it is impossible to break up others, so they can only bury them silently in their hearts.

He couldn't help but think of when he was a child, when the classmates in the kindergarten were very annoying and harassed Ma Yi, Ma Yi ran behind him and pulled his clothes, showing fear in his eyes, and he just patted Ma Yi's head and said : "It's okay, I will always be by your side, they just want to be friends with you!"

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Thinking about it now, Ma Yi alienated me when I was in junior high school, and I was sad for a long time. I didn’t know much at that time. Thinking about it now, maybe I fell in love with Ma Yi from then on. Later, I was in the same school in high school. , Rao Xueliang was really happy, until Ma Yi was willing to get close to him again in the second year of high school, Rao Xueliang was really happy in his heart, as if one of his favorite toys was stolen by others and found again.Until that day when Ma Yi fell ill and died after being joked by Ma Yi like that, Rao Xueliang was afraid, afraid that Ma Yi would discover something that he hadn't even discovered.Although he yelled that he was a friend, he was actually afraid, because he felt that something was about to surface at the time, and he stopped it to prevent it from coming out.