Male heart trembling

The happy life with Mr. Tang is different from what I imagined. I used to meet once a week, and he always spared two days for me. But when we can meet every day, although a longing is still there, But he is not as hungry as in the past. There are not many opportunities for Mr. Tang to go home early.

I will probably come back every other night, sometimes I am very tired and fall asleep, sometimes I am full of alcohol and want me to talk with him for a long time, until I am distressed to see him suddenly stop suddenly and sleep like a dead pig.Sometimes I sit on the sofa with a sad face and smoke, no matter it is two o'clock or three o'clock at night, I just ask me not to disturb him.

When the rest came home on time, he always brought gifts from someone, such as crabs from abroad, fruits from the south, mushrooms and fungus from the northeast, and asked me to find a way to put them on the dining table.But I am a poor boy, how can I do this?Bite the bullet and make it right, but Mr. Tang wants to scold me for ruining things and waste everything, while eating up all of them.

Getting along for a long time has also allowed me to see a more real Mr. Tang. He is no longer always tall, mighty, sexy and charming, and he is also sloppy when he spends a day at home with messy hair and staring at the stubble. After eating half a watermelon, I kept running to the toilet, ouch, screaming in pain, and knelt on the bed the night before doing piston movements crazily, like a tireless god of war, but the next day, I caught cold at night But with a cold and fever, his face was flushed with fever, and he talked nonsense.

We would hug on the sofa, and I would drink yogurt while watching variety shows, laughing to the point of tears.Mr. Tang put his arms around my waist, while holding his ipad to look at the stocks, and called from time to time to thank his buddies for the inside information, and also called from time to time to blame the inaccuracy of the inside information.

Only then did I know that some people are using their lives to trade stocks, and some people are using inside information to trade stocks.

When Mr. Tang was happy, he would smile and say, I will give all the money I earned from this sum, but when I was shy and didn’t want the money, Mr. Tang frowned and said, I didn’t make any money, I lost it.I was about to comfort him, but he dismissed it as if I could earn it back tomorrow.In the consciousness of a rich man like him, money really becomes a number, which keeps increasing and decreasing, but the general direction is still increasing.

He touched my legs, or my chest, sometimes just for fun, or because it felt good.But once he gets interested, he will move towards the middle. Whenever his underwear is bulging and entangled by him, it is the time when we turn upside down.

Now it is much better than before, no longer every time we meet, we will drink red wine and chat when we are calm, I ask him about business, he asks me about my studies .Two or three days a week we'd be less peaceful, just one look away, and I'd be bare assed between his legs, and he'd be enjoying building up his energy, and later on I'd be confused.

This is the life I have experienced, and this autumn in Tianjin has become different from the past.Pleasant in spirit and natural in body, we live like a husband and wife without any quarrels, he gives orders and I execute them desperately, each gets what he wants, and each takes what he likes.

So in this autumn, I transformed into the standard dress and equipment of young people in this city, or in the whole of China, even a little higher than them.

I wear limited edition basketball shoes, expensive trendy brands, a full range of Apple products, drink Starbucks, and post photos on social software frantically.All the equipment that conforms to the aesthetics of young people today appear on me.

My classmates were very interested in how much I had changed. Why did people who were originally simple and even a little poor suddenly change and ran in front of them?I can only tell them again and again that my cousin takes good care of me, not only let me live in his house, but also bought me presents, everything on my body was given by my cousin.

But in fact, Mr. Tang really gave me a credit card, I can buy everything I want, and the feeling that I can get it immediately as long as I want it makes me a little unbearable.

Therefore, I have repeatedly warned myself that everything that Mr. Tang has given me may become a mirror image at some point in the future.He likes me now, so he will give me all the good things. One day he doesn't like me anymore, and my gains may still return to the past.

Mr. Tang expressed his worries about money corrupting people's hearts, fearing that I would forget my original intention under the impact of money, and no longer be the obedient, simple, honest and simple Lu Zhenghao he likes.

So I can't become smug just because I hold money that doesn't belong to me, but can be a luxury.After all, what I like is Mr. Tang, I like being held in his arms, I like his big palm gently stroking my back, and I like the itchy feeling his stubble leaves on my chest .I like the love words he said when he kissed me, and I like the way he looks at me tenderly when I wake up in the morning.

I was too short of money before, and now I am too rich. This gap really hit my heart, especially when I got the attention of my classmates, for a few moments, I really couldn't find North.So that morning, when I was sitting in Mr. Tang’s car waiting for him to finish his phone call, I said to myself, I must keep my original intentions, only in this way can I win the love of the men around me, and only in this way can I not be abandoned, and only in this way can I be with him. Isn't it what I'm looking forward to living together as long as possible?