a mountain flower blooms

"Why is your father willing to let you out? Has he relaxed his surveillance on you?" His face was solemn, his eyes seemed to freeze everything around him into ice. "He has gone to Hong Kong." "Sit here?" I greeted He sat down and poured him a glass of water. "Did he go on a trip?" "Going to have an affair" "Ah? Are you kidding your dad like that?" I thought he was being mischievous again. "He's gay too." "Huh?" I was so surprised that I couldn't say anything else.He continued to say bitterly, "So you said he was cheating?" "How did you know?" "He doesn't close his QQ, I read his chat records." Every time he talks about his dad, It was like talking about an enemy, so I asked him: "Do you hate him?" "Hate" "Did he treat you badly?" "I hate him for bullying my mother." It's the same with my ex-wife, who can't get my true love, at most it is caring like a family member.When I was having sex with her, I never took the initiative. She could feel that I was dealing with her.Once she asked me if I was gay, and I guiltyly denied it at that time.If she was not pregnant at that time, I think I would be like his father, hiding my wife behind my back and looking for a man outside.With this feeling, every time a gay friend talks about whether they should get married, I will talk to them earnestly and tell them not to.You will definitely regret it after getting married, and if you are not happy, will your parents be really happy?Don't get married for the sake of your family, and everyone will be unhappy by then.I patted him on the shoulder and said, "I can understand your mother's feelings, and I can also understand why you hate your father." In fact, I want to say that I can understand why you care so much about my child's feelings.Because he knows what it's like to have a gay father. "Since you like men, why do you want to get married?" He began to question me, and I knew he actually wanted to question his father. "At that time, I was emotionally hurt and felt that I would never be happy again, so I wanted to make my parents happy, so I agreed." "When you made friends, you were not divorced, right? I shouldn't have believed you when I came out to look for it." "I know I hurt a woman, and she is a woman who loves me. No matter how much you scold me, I can't refute it. I wanted to spend a good time with her, but there is something that is always with me. Come on, it won't disappear with time, the desire for a man will only become more and more irresistible with time. I hurt not only him, but also myself, and I can't give my child a healthy home." "So you are cruel Dumped her" He began to insist on me. "Originally, I was out of town. I came back once a week, stayed for a day and then went back to work. As the child grew up, she asked me to go back to develop and help take care of the child. I also felt that it was time to teach the child. So I quit my job there and went back to her to develop my career. She gradually found that even if I returned to her, even if she was sure that there was no one around me, she would not get what she wanted from me. Plus this year Many things happened to our family. My grandma had a stroke and she can only lie in bed. The day after my grandma had an accident, my dad had another car accident. Both of our closest relatives were hospitalized. Our family was very busy. She I couldn't see hope in me, and I was afraid of this accident, so I put her savings for many years into it. I secretly transferred the money to her brother's door. He hates me and I admit it. After all, I am sorry for her. But it was life-saving money. Except for the basic living expenses, all my wages were handed over to her. But he filed for divorce when my father was just out of danger. In this family that was almost on the verge of collapse , kicked hard. In the end, I couldn’t help my grandmother, and my brother paid all the expenses on my father’s side. My brother doesn’t care, but his wife is not happy. Now seeing me and my child is like seeing an enemy. My child is strictly forbidden to go to their house. My mother once took my child to their house to play, and my sister-in-law lost her temper and ran back to her mother’s house." "Uncle now How?" "Shouldn't I be called Dad?" "Be serious!" "Can I joke with you like this if he has something to do? Now that he has recovered, he thinks that my wife ran away because of his accident, and he has been blaming himself , I want to make up for me and my child. So far he has asked me 3 times, and each time he asked the same thing, did your wife ask for a divorce because I was lying on the hospital bed? I always said yes Because of my relationship, I explained a lot to him, but I almost didn't tell him that I like men. It's not a last resort to stimulate him." After I finished speaking, I gave Xiaozhe a bright smile.He was puzzled and asked: "So many things have happened to you, how can you still laugh?" "Because I always think of them as good things. Grandma is over 90. Thank goodness that the stroke didn't leave us." Yes. Dad has suffered a bit, but now he has almost recovered. The doctor said that his feet may be disabled, but now he can go out for a walk every day. He even cooked for us yesterday. Divorce is right It’s a relief for me, I know that I can’t make up for her, so I don’t blame him for what she did. Although the child can’t enjoy the love of his parents at the same time, but his mother wants to take him to live with his grandmother for a while, I don’t know. She said that she wanted the child to spend the Spring Festival at her house, and I agreed. He is still pampered by 6 adults, and they love him more than usual." I gave him another heartfelt Smile.At this time, the ice in his eyes slowly melted and warmed up slowly. I continued to try my best to enlighten him: "You may not be able to fully understand the things about your father and your mother now at your age. You see It's just in your eyes. Your mother may still be sad, but how did she treat your father in front of you?" "When my father hit me, she always helped my father." I thought to myself You are so naughty that even she wants to hit you.But at this time, how dare you say that to provoke him.I continued: "Whether she is happy soon, does she feel that your father has hurt her? Only she knows in her heart. Although you are her closest person, their affairs will only be caused by you and your father. It's going bad, isn't it? You're an adult, and the two of them live in peace, or they have found their way to get along. Your father is shameful, behind your mother's back, find someone. But this is already a fact, you and If he makes trouble, it will only make your mother feel more uncomfortable. You should be able to understand whether he treats you well. After all, he is your father, so let the adults deal with it. You live your own life well, just treat your mother The best help. Think about the good in everything, okay?" "Okay." He leaned his head on my shoulder.When he raised his head, he had recovered his spirit.He relieved, but I frowned. : "Just now you told me to think about the good, why do I have such an ugly face?" "You don't want to get back with your father, do you date me?" He didn't answer me directly, picked up his mobile phone, and fiddled with me A few clicks, then show it to me.He changed his screen name to "Your smile warms me up every second." There is no need to say anything now, I understand.If we were just admiring each other's appearance or body before, now we have reached a spiritual communication. I like his kindness, and I can see the shadow of my child in him, and I can't help but feel deep pity.He likes my smile that can infect those around me.I like my natural stupidity, and I like the embarrassment of begging my grandpa to sue my grandma when I am being played around by him.If you say that I am like a cow to him, I just plunged into it, unable to extricate myself.His love for me should be little by little.