Rihu's Pit Brother's Journey

Everyone who knows Osamu Dazai always thinks Osamu Dazai is too frivolous.

It's easy to say sweet words, and he often talks about his likes. He even seeks death so frequently that it's full of mischief, which makes it hard to feel sympathy for him.

It wasn't until Osamu Dazai really left that Iwakatsu recalled that he could be sure. In fact, Mr. Dazai was very serious every time he wanted to seek relief.

In modern times, it should soon be discovered that it is actually quite serious depression.Whether you suffer from depression is related to diet, sunshine, psychology, etc. It is not that people who look cheerful and optimistic will not suffer from depression.This is a biological pathological phenomenon, even animals will suffer from depression, let alone human beings with delicate and complex minds.

Katsuki Kuniwa only started to know this information after Mr. Dazai left.The more he understands, the more he realizes that he knows many symptoms, but he didn't think about the reasons - Dazai's character is too bad, and he wants to play tricks on himself - always because of similar thoughts, he didn't think deeply and understand.

A queer man does everything because he is queer, which, like the common belief of the blindly following public opinion, makes him miss the opportunity to make redemption.

In fact, looking back now, with Mr. Dazai's character, even if it is true, even if you expose it in person, he will still cover it up with a smile.

He failed, in fact, to investigate the root cause, just because...

Ji Guoyansheng is not a person who can save others.

He has too many worries about himself, and he is even more narrow-minded than ordinary people. He can't even solve the things around him, so how can he have the mood and ability to help others?

It was the realization of this that made him suffer even more.

It wasn't until... until he lost Dazai that he realized that those troubles, those troubles that he couldn't solve, and those reasons that kept his mind tired and busy, were not important at all compared to his teacher.

He was exhausted and busy for unimportant things, and he failed to retain the only truth in his illusory life.What is his whole life?

If you think about it more deeply, it will be even more sad.Even this reality is just his imagination.Ji Kuniwakatsu, who met Osamu Dazai, was not him at all, and all he got was the memory of that person.

But for Ji Guoyan Sheng... for Hei Si Mou, this memory is actually the most important truth in their lives.Without this pain as the core, Hei Si Mou would have been like any evil ghost, forgetting the human heart and disappearing in emptiness.Precisely because of the pain of being lost, the evil spirits remember the hearts of human beings.

The black death Mou in the past, and the current Jiguoyankatsu are the Jiguniyankatsu who lost the rule of Dazai, and they are the former evil spirits who were redeemed by that memory and regained their hearts.Only such Ji Guoyansheng is the most authentic self.

Matou Sakura opened her eyes, her pillow was already wet with tears.

"The anesthesia took longer than I thought, did you have a nightmare?"

Kotomine Kirei—this first time meeting, the man who claimed to be his biological father's apprentice asked this question, but his expression naturally revealed a feeling similar to joy.

Yes, this man was originally in a daze, like a moving robot, without any desire, like walking ashes.But now for some reason, he is extremely gentle towards Sakura.

"I..." Sakura said hoarsely, "I probably dreamed about Uncle Berserker."

Kotomine Kirei understood: "You have a good compatibility with your servant, this is a very common phenomenon of attunement. You cried in your dream... Does he have a past that is extremely painful even in the eyes of others?"

Sakura Matou couldn't answer.

Pain, what is it?

When she stopped crying for herself, she felt that she understood the pain.

After her dry tears flowed for others, she felt that she didn't understand the term at all.

Berserker is a person who seems to be materially satisfied and powerful, but is suffering from great mental pain.This makes Matou Sakura feel kind, you can't believe that those who have not encountered darkness and pain, their sunshine and cheerfulness are all because they know nothing.Kotomine Kirei was right, she and her servant got along surprisingly well.

Kotomine Kirei changed the subject, and he took Sakura's hand: "Your Command Seal is a fake, but it accidentally worked as a real Command Seal. Presumably that servant was not your servant in the first place, but you from another Did you snatch it from the Master?"

Sakura tried to withdraw her hand, but Kotomine Kirei pinched her wrist.The martial artist's hand is too huge, just a thumb and palm can prevent her from escaping.

"How did you manage to take someone else's servant and use you as a fake?" Kotomine Kirei asked, his voice a little passionate, "Where's the original master? Was it killed by you? As long as the servant has For single action power, you can make a contract immediately after killing the master, right?"

Kotomine Kirei was a little excited.

Just think about it, such a little girl, in order to survive, killed the original master and snatched away the other party's servants, he became inexplicably excited.

It's a pity that he himself didn't pay attention to his gaffe, his behavior obviously aroused Saber's vigilance. Saber stepped forward and put her sword against Kotomine Kirei's neck.

"Let go." Saber ordered murderously, "Or I'll chop it off."

It was impossible for Kotomine Kirei to fight head-on with Heroic Spirit, he let go of his hand, and took a step back to give a safe distance.

"Sorry, I'm just too curious. After all, it has never been possible to use imitations of Command Spells that are not real Command Spells to instruct Heroic Spirits in previous Holy Grail Wars."

So Kotomine Kirei changed the subject, and explained to Sakura again why he came here.He said that after examining Sakura's body, he confirmed that Sakura's body has recovered very well, and she can't see the appearance of being hurt before. The person who treated her is like using time magic. If you can see this healer Enough.

In addition, his master Tosaka Tokiomi is still a little confused at the moment. He doesn't know exactly what happened to Sakura and what happened to Matou's house, so he hopes to meet Sakura to understand the details.And Master Tohsaka must also miss his daughter very much, he thought it would be better for Master to confirm his daughter's condition with his own eyes.

Sakura Matou was unmoved.

I'm afraid this man doesn't know that Matou Sakura has long since lost expectations of her father Tosaka Tokiomi.

Matou Zouken, the so-called 'grandpa' is actually extremely distorted psychologically.He couldn't understand Tosaka Tokiomi's daughter, even though she was full of fear when she fell into the insect's nest, she still had a glimmer of hope and wanted to return to her sister Tosaka Rin.The appearance of "as long as I endure to the end anyway, I can go back in the end" made him resentful.He couldn't tolerate such a desperate soul that hadn't been destroyed yet, struggling with a glimmer of hope.

So he continued to torture Sakura in various ways, words, and actions.

It's like... look, that trash from the Matou family (Kaya Matou) ran to your father and begged him to take you back, you know what Tosaka Tokiomi said?He said, no, our family does not have a second child, and my daughter only has Tohsaka Rin.You have no home to go back to!Your father is no longer your father, he doesn't need you!Your sister is only a child and will soon forget about you!Do you think there is any other place you can go besides here?

It's not a lie, and it's not a rant.

In fact, as long as Tohsaka Tokiomi came to visit Sakura even once, he would discover her situation.Tosaka Tokiomi, a man who wasn't quite a magician, was actually not as cold-blooded as Matou Zouken said.He always thought that Sakura was working hard to become an excellent heir of a magician. If Sakura always thought that she had a place to go back to, how could she agree with the Matou family and become an excellent head of the family?He told himself, like an eagle that pushes a child off a cliff, how can the young eagle learn to fly if it is not cruel to let the young eagle be independent?He didn't know that there was no room for young eagles to soar below, but instead a bottomless wormhole that gnawed at the parasitic young lives.

But from Matou Ying's point of view, her father never came to see him, that must have completely abandoned her as Matou Zouken said.Apart from Matou's house, she has nowhere to go back.

It was only now that he told her that his father wanted to see her and was worried about her, so how could she believe it?In her opinion, this was just another lie told by someone who pitied her like Matou Kariya.Even if it was true, he probably mistook her for the current Patriarch of the Matou family and the Master of the Berserker, and wanted to use her.

However, Sakura wanted to meet her older sister.She misses her sister hopelessly, allowing her to endure these inhuman tortures. She has persisted until now because she believes that she will always have the opportunity to see her sister Rin Tosaka when she is alive.

Although Tohsaka's Patriarch, her biological father chose her sister and abandoned her, her older sister did not abandon her, she was hopelessly convinced of this.

"I actually don't want to meet the head of the Tosaka family. As the head of the Matou family, we are competitors."

Matou Sakura said indifferently, it was hard to imagine that this was the child who had no thinking ability before.

"I... want to see my sister. Can you arrange it for me?"

This time, Kotomine Kirei showed a rather obvious smile: "Of course, Patriarch of the Matou family. If you have any other wishes, you can also say them together. I, I don't know why, but I really want to satisfy all your desires." , maybe our compatibility is not bad, right?"

Matou Sakura didn't answer, but Kotomine Kirei sensed her answer and restrained her smile.

"Understood, the timing is indeed not very good. But I am waiting for you to come to me at any time, I am waiting for you at the church, Sakura Matou."

They don't know that outside the door is actually...

"My lord, that man has malicious intentions, I will kill him right now—"

"Stop it! He's just a subpoenaer. Even if he has other intentions, don't do anything until you confirm it!"

Ji Guoyansheng was heartbroken, why did he still have to work so hard when he got here?Yuanyi was not like this before, obviously he didn't despise human life like this, before Yuanyi chopped up either monsters or ghosts, when did he say so easily that he wanted to kill people!Sure enough, it was all the fault of the spirit world. Too many dungeons made Yuanyi blur the weight of human life. Sure enough, he still couldn't keep this younger brother. He is his only real younger brother if he gets angry again. If he keeps raising him, he will grow even worse!

"If you are disobedient, I won't take you to the amusement park."

Hearing this, Yuanyi really obediently stopped trying to draw his sword.

Ji Guoyan had a stomachache, obviously he was the younger brother, how could he feel embarrassed about raising a son.Forget it, he owed it to Yuan Yi, who made him abandon it after raising half of it back then, and really can't blame others for the child's crooked growth, it's all his own fault.

After comforting his brother, Ji Guoyansheng knocked on the door and entered, chatting with Kotomine Kirei.Kotomine Kirei said that Sakura wanted to see her family, and she would make arrangements for it, and then they would meet at church.Sakura's body is not in serious condition so far, but if you have other questions, you are welcome to come to him.

After the man left, Katsuki Kuniwa told Sakura to be careful with Kotomine Kirei, this man seemed to be...

Ji Guoyansheng is very serious: "He seems to be that one, people often say shaking S, and it is hidden. This kind of person is quite troublesome, he is a sadist, he will abuse the target, and transfer the other party . Teach him to be a masochist according to his own will. So Sakura stay away from him in the future."

Matou Sakura silently looked at Iwakatsu.

Saber also silently looked at Iwakatsu.

Ji Guoyuan looked at his elder brother, and then questioned his soul: "Brother, how did you know these things?"

Ji Guoyansheng fell silent, and then decisively turned into a heroic spirit and disappeared.

Yuan Yi: "My lord, heroic spirit transformation is useless, I can see it."

"shut up!"

Yuanyi: "..."

Brother, are you being shy? The elder brother in Berserker form is more courageous than usual to express his feelings, this dungeon doesn't seem too bad.

That is, I think it’s good for my elder brother to become angry from embarrassment, isn’t it also a little bit, that, what’s it called, shaking S?

Yuan began to think seriously about this profound question.