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Duan Li is very irritable now, and even the classmates around him toasted to him were frightened away by his arrogance.He stared intently at the door of the private room. It had been almost 20 minutes since Cheng Zhensheng went to the bathroom, but the other party still didn't come back.

Just now, two classmates came back from the bathroom and asked them, and they also said that they saw Cheng Zhensheng still in the bathroom.

But it's been so long, it's time to come back even if I get a tuba!And... Duan Li recalled the flustered and hesitant expressions of those two classmates just now...

never mind!He jumped up from the stool. Since the man won't come back, why don't he go look for him?

Duan Li said hello to Xie Wuming, who was still awake, and said that he went to find Cheng Zhensheng, and after finding Cheng Zhensheng, the two of them went back first, but they didn't care about him.

Xie Wuming knew that there must be something going on between him and Cheng Zhensheng, so he didn't leave him alone, and waved his hand, letting him solve his own family problems.

Duan Li smiled, turned around and walked out the door, heading straight for the bathroom.

Cheng Zhensheng was pouring water on his face at the sink at this time.He moved so loudly that the splash of water soaked half of his clothes from collar to cuffs.But he didn't care, and continued to pour water on his face, and even buried his head in the pool full of water.

After a while, he raised his head and looked at his pale face in the mirror.He kept thinking about what those two people said just now.

Duan Li.He asked in his heart, have you finally made up your mind... to leave me...

The man stood blankly in front of the mirror, with no expression on his pale face, and water droplets kept falling on his cheeks, and the gold-rimmed glasses that had been inseparable all this time were left alone on the water table, and there was a lot of water splashing around for unknown reasons. Even the man's own clothes were mostly soaked—this is what Duan Li saw when he walked to the bathroom.

He was surprised at first, and then felt an unspeakable anger. He strode up to the man, grabbed the man's shoulder, made the man face him, and asked, "Are you crazy!" His voice With a roar, this was the first time he got angry at him after the two met.

Cheng Zhensheng stared blankly at the menacing man in front of him, feeling the temperature from the hand touching his shoulder. He used to feel that it was very warm, but now, he only felt that the temperature was very hot, as if it was going to come soon. burn him.

Seeing that he didn't respond, Duan Li shouted again: "Cheng Zhensheng, what are you trying to do?"

What does he want to do?Cheng Zhensheng thought, what can he do?He has always been able to only look at this person's back, silently walking behind this person, being a quiet and humble friend.

He never wanted to do anything, because he knew that no matter what he did, the last person standing next to this person... would never be him.

"Duan Li." He tried his best not to tremble, "Are you going to City B?"

Duan Li was stunned, he didn't expect Cheng Zhensheng to ask him this.

"Who told you that?" he asked.

Cheng Zhensheng didn't answer him, he heard the hesitation in his tone.Cheng Zhensheng smiled, looked at him with raised eyebrows, and asked, "Why?"

Duan Li stared at the other party's eyes intently, he is not wearing glasses now, Duan Li could see the raised eyebrow movement very clearly, but it was too clear, when the other party raised his eyebrows, he felt his heart was also restless.

"Is it because of me?" Cheng Zhensheng asked again, but this time he used an affirmative sentence.

Duan Li subconsciously denied: "No...it's not." His tone obviously lacked confidence.

Cheng Zhensheng laughed again, loudly and flamboyantly, and asked, "Duan Li. Do you know that you are not suitable for lying?"

Duan Li looked at his flamboyant smiling face and felt very heartbroken.

"Duan Li. You hate me, you hide from me, I know all this. But now you don't hesitate to abandon your family and go to work so far..." Cheng Zhensheng's voice suddenly calmed down, "You just don't want to see me?"

"No! It's not like this!" Duan Li said anxiously.

It's not like that... He never thought of staying away from Cheng Zhensheng, nor did he hate him.

He was just confused, about Cheng Zhensheng's feelings for him, and his feelings for Cheng Zhensheng... He thought that if the two of them separated for a while, maybe he could think clearly, he just thought clearly...

But Cheng Zhensheng didn't want to listen to his explanation at all, he shook off his hand on his shoulder, covered his chest in pain and said: "Duan Li, I never knew that the relationship between us would be because of this incident It became like this. I always thought that even if I confess to you, you don’t accept me, you won’t leave me, at least you won’t leave me so completely. But I was wrong! So confident."

His voice trembled with forbearance, as if venting his unwillingness to this relationship.

He said: "Duan Li. Is it because I like you that you are leaving me?"

He said: "Duan Li. Is it because I like you that you don't want to see me and avoid me?"

He said: "Duan Li... Is it because I like you that we can't even be friends."

Duan Li wanted to say no: Yes!no!Of course they are still friends!He never thought about leaving him, never!

But looking at Cheng Zhensheng in front of him, it was as if he had been deprived of all his language.

This kind of Cheng Zhensheng, this kind of Cheng Zhensheng who roared and trembled, made Duan Li feel very strange.

They had known each other for more than four years, but Duan Li didn't realize until today that he didn't know Cheng Zhensheng at all.The Cheng Zhensheng he knew was always calm and expressionless, but occasionally he would smile at him;

He doesn't speak very loudly, even if he makes him angry, he just scolds him in a stern tone, or simply ignores him;

He is very quiet, and when he is broken in love and full of complaints, he will quietly accompany him and listen, and silently eat the food he puts in his bowl:

Cheng Zhensheng was like this, standing quietly beside him all the time, seemingly silent and watching coldly, but in fact he was obedient to him.

but……

Duan Li stared blankly at the person in front of him, his face full of pain and despair.And all of this is because of him, it is because of him that he became like this.

Duan Li was suddenly very scared. If he continued to be with this person, if he still couldn't respond to this person's feelings, would he hurt this person more?Just like those people who have dated him, he always thought that as long as they were together, one day he would let the other party see his sincerity, but the result told him that it was just his self-righteous innocence.

Because of his naive and irresponsible character, he has hurt too many people.But this time, that person was Cheng Zhensheng, his best and most cherished friend, and he didn't want to hurt him.so……

"I'm sorry," he said.

Duan Li saw that Cheng Zhensheng smiled, the smile was light, his thin lips slightly raised, his beautiful eyes bent down into a crescent shape, a drop of water slipped quietly from the corner of his eyes, if it wasn't because his face was covered with water, Duan Li would think it was his tears.

The air seemed to freeze in an instant, and after an unknown amount of time, Duan Li heard the man reply in his usual cold voice, "Duan Li. I hate you."

Duan Li didn't want to recall what happened later.He only remembered that when he left the restaurant that night, he followed Cheng Zhensheng all the time.It wasn't until he saw that he had returned to the dormitory safely that he turned back to the restaurant to join Zhang Yang and the others, and drank until the night fell.

When he woke up the next day, he was lying on the bed in his dormitory, but the bed opposite was already empty.

This time, Cheng Zhensheng avoided him.

Until the graduation certificate was completed and the school started to drive people away, Duan Li didn't show any side to the process.But the person who took the postgraduate entrance examination with Cheng Zhensheng said that he was doing well, and he was eating three meals a day normally, so Duan Li felt a little relieved.

That person, even without him can eat well.Duan Li thought, but he didn't know whether he was relieved or lonely.

After getting his diploma, Duan Li went home first.

He finally decided to go to City B.

Although there is no one to hide from now, he still wants to go out alone and be quiet.Staying here, he will always inevitably think of all kinds of entanglements with Cheng Zhensheng.

Before leaving, Duan's mother pulled Duan Li aside and asked him if he had a fight with Cheng Zhensheng, and didn't even come to see him off when he was about to leave.

Duan Li smiled wryly in his heart, why did he come back to see him off?But on the surface, he still pretended to be good, and said with a smile: "It's okay. He is currently a graduate student and is busy. How can you bother him for such a trivial matter like me!"

"Are you all right?" Duan's mother looked suspicious.

"Really! What can we do?" He patted his chest and assured, with a firm tone.

Mother Duan was finally relieved, sighed, and said, "You! Go over there and work hard! Don't act like you are at home. Work hard, and when Zhensheng graduates from graduate school, I will come and find you in the future. The two of you can do well together. point."

Duan Li was confused when he heard this, and asked, "Why did he go to see me?"

Duan's mother saw his confused and stupid face, rolled her eyes, and said, "I don't care what you do!" Then she slapped him on the back and urged him, "Hurry up and get in the car! It's time to drive !"

Duan Li hurriedly got into the car with his luggage, not forgetting to turn around and wave to his relatives who came to see him off: "Dad, Mom, brother, sister-in-law, you all go back quickly!"

"Don't forget to call back often!" Mother Duan finally reminded.

"Understood! Mom! You go back quickly, ah!"

Abandoning the last hesitation and reluctance, Duan Li walked into the carriage with his luggage.

Now I really need to be alone.Going to his seat and sitting down, Duan Li looked at the drowsy sky outside the window and said to himself: "What is that guy doing now?"

He remembered what his mother had said to him just now. It seemed that everyone thought that he and Cheng Zhensheng would always be together. Even if they were just friends, they were good brothers that both parents agreed with.

But such a relationship was ruined by himself.