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In the middle of the night, Yang Chu frowned and fell asleep.Although it was only done once, the first sex was a little bit forced after all.

Zhou Jianxin hugged Yang Chu and couldn't sleep, his desires were like a temporarily dormant volcano that hadn't completely receded, so hugging became a torment, but he didn't want to let go.

The long night is long, and at this moment, there is silence, and the dark curtain of practice strikes from the four dimensions with loneliness, closing the door of lovesickness.

Beside the pillow, there was the man's breathing.

Can sleep tonight.As if in a blooming tranquility, he fell asleep slowly and slowly.

In the past, Zhou Jianxin had a faint reluctance for Ye to come.In the long night, there seems to be the sound of an hourglass, and the sound enters the ears, and it is accompanied by the dawn.He hadn't really fallen asleep in a long time.And no matter how strong the will is, it will eventually be defeated after a long sleepless night.

As a result, the night was cool and cold, and memories spread unknowingly.

At that time, Zhou Jianxin couldn't help recalling that he was the one who proposed to go to the United States with his father.

That was a really tough decision.

The day before going to the United States was the first few days of the summer vacation of the first year of high school.Yang Chu came to play with him as usual.They eat ice cream together, watch funny movies together, and rollerblade together.There may be something else, but unfortunately I have forgotten it.

In the end, Yang Chu's back was as casual as usual.He wanted to stop him and tell him that he was going to America this time, and that goodbye might be in a few years.He could foresee that he would regret it over and over again every night he recalled this moment in the future.To be precise, his day was full of loopholes.Sure enough, he was right.

But he had to go, he told himself.Some time ago, his father reminded him casually: you can do whatever you want, but you must not be addicted to one.

He was sure his father already knew about them, but he wasn't sure if the sentence was aimed at that.But he knew his father's consistent attitude.Although his father doesn't say a word about the matter between him and Yang Chu now, it's just because he doesn't think such things between juniors can be taken seriously.After all, young people are always allowed to make mistakes, as long as they bow their heads in front of time and learn from it.

And all he can do is to guide his father to continue this wrong cognition.

Moreover, the days with Yang Chu by his side are really beautiful.Gentle Township, Hero Tomb, nothing more.

But it's not Yang Chu's fault, it's his fault.

He can only go.he thinks.As for why he didn't tell Yang Chu, he couldn't tell.

Before making this decision, he thought of many reasons to convince himself.All of the above are just reality, an objective existence, and they have to be done but not the driving force for making this decision.They just frustrate people.

The real reason for calming his restlessness was that he wanted to see if he could take this opportunity to calm down his emotions a little.Based on the considerations I have gained from my own education for more than ten years, it is already dangerous to contain things that I cannot control.And a relationship that can make people lose themselves is obviously extremely dangerous.

He was sure that he would not forget Yang Chu this time.

But if Yang Chu doesn't stop when he comes back—just thinking about it, it's scary.

No matter what the result is, he hopes Yang Chu can remember him for the rest of his life.Not a vague impression, not a few general labels, but a real person.It would be even better if it could be unforgettable.

In fact, he only has to remember.

At the end of eight years ago, Yang Chu, who turned his back to leave, did not know that Zhou Jianxin behind him was imprisoned by many thoughts at that moment, like a magic spell chanting scriptures, and let his future pain go.

It's just that Zhou Jianxin didn't expect that the harm to Yang Chu this time without saying goodbye would be deeper than he imagined.

He never underestimated his weight in Yang Chu's heart, but underestimated his admiration for him.

In the past, this was a thorn in Zhou Jian's confidence, bleeding day and night.

Between them, for Zhou Jianxin, they are the ones who love each other completely, but for Yang Chu, they are brothers, classmates, teachers and friends who can't love each other.He always remembered that they started because of his coercion, not Yang Chu's wish.It was he who despicably used Yang Chu's youth and ignorance to confuse love with the habit of dependence, making him mistreat friendship and family as love.

He has waited too long.

Not long after meeting Yang Chu for the first time, the heartbeat has sprouted in the bottom of my heart.At some point, he discovered that the little germ had already taken root in his heart, and a heart had grown in it, and it would not take long for it to merge with this heart.

At first sight of this, he was startled.

But he can't do it.He has studied it carefully, and if he digs out the roots directly, it is equivalent to cutting his heart.He once tried to let a plant wither by imitating not seeing the sun, but within a few days, the rooted love was still vigorous, but the heart was haggard.

It frightened him.

He can only try to prune the branches bit by bit in the trivial life.Too bad it didn't work.

In a corner where no one knew, he tossed and tossed and tossed and tossed countless times, but finally let it go.

The love is getting stronger day by day, but there is no response.Because a person cannot ask for love from someone who does not understand love, he is waiting indefinitely.

But one day, Yang Chu grew up.Just a little bit of timing, he can walk to the love that is neither a step too early nor a step too late.

This made Zhou Jianxin increasingly anxious, because no one could say where the love was waiting.

——I simply didn’t wait.He wants Yang Chu to see him every step of the way.

Together with this idea, it was overwhelming to obtain the consent of the entire Zhou Jianxin.But it was also it that made Zhou Jianxin feel the taste of force.

Although he can force Yang Chu to live his life, it may not be that Yang Chu is willing to be forced to live his life.What's more, what he wants is never just to force.

He wants to be sympathetic.

So, he left voluntarily eight years ago.

Zhou Jianxin dreamed of the past in his sleep.

In his dream, he watched with cold eyes how many days and nights the other one was tossing and turning.

Seeing his lovesickness overflowing with cold eyes, he had to suppress it.

Seeing his unbearable embarrassment when he was alone.

He sneered, a little smugly.At this time, in the dream, he turned his head and looked at him.