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In the next few days, Yang Chu treated Zhou Jianxin coldly—it didn't reach the height of a cold war.Although Zhou Jianxin thinks Yang Chu like this is quite cute, but it might not be so wonderful to continue to develop.What's more, he knew very well why the other party was angry.

Watching TV at home at night, Zhou Jianxin grabbed Yang Chu who was dangling in front of him, pointed his face and said, "I've been sulking for a few days, and it hasn't gone away?"

At this moment, Yang Chu looked at Zhou Jianxin as if he saw a big stone blocking the road. It would be difficult for pedestrians to pass by and think that it didn't exist, so he was very annoyed by his knowingly asking.He responded with a "hehe".

Zhou Jianxin caressed his face pitifully, and said, "Don't be angry. I was wrong."

However, he didn't mention anything specifically, which seemed perfunctory in Yang Chu's view.Yang Chu was impatient with him like this, and hated him from the bottom of his heart for getting to this point and hoping to settle the matter with one stroke.

Zhou Jianxin pressed Yang Chu on the sofa, put his hands on both sides to trap him, looked straight into his eyes, and slowly touched his nose with his nose affectionately.

Zhou Jianxin said: "I was wrong, I promise there will be no next time. Please spare me this time?"

Yang Chu pushed it, but didn't push it away, and said with restraint: "Do you think I'm making trouble for no reason?"

Zhou Jianxin immediately replied: "No."

Yang Chu looked at Zhou Jianxin with an expression of forbearance, resentment and other things.

Zhou Jianxin began to realize that things should not be like this.This man was his little prince, always had been.How could he bring tolerance with him, his most precious prince?What is the resentment for?

He recalled the details of the two people getting along in the past few days, and it was indeed different from the past.As for the reason...

In Yang Chu's eyes, Zhou Jianxin was looking at him with distressed face at this moment.His hardened heart inevitably sank.He doesn't like the way Zhou Jianxin treats himself, but he dislikes himself even more.This means an endless vicious circle. He doesn't agree with Zhou Jianxin's certain practices, but he can't let go, so what he doesn't agree with is even more disapproving, and it becomes a will.This cycle makes him fall into the absurd circle involuntarily.

Yang Chu finally said, "I can't control anything else. But that day, you couldn't fake your pale face and dripping cold sweat. Don't you want to say something?"

"I don't want you to worry," Zhou Jianxin continued, "It is true that my heart is weaker than ordinary people, but only a little. It was true that nothing happened before, until I went to the United States. In order to return to your side sooner, the workload is too heavy. The load was too heavy. At first it was just a faint tightness in the chest, but when I found out it was already hurting, but fortunately it was not serious. Last time it was a sudden angina pectoris, and I didn’t expect those people to make such big movements.”

Yang Chu asked: "Is it the first time I have had angina pectoris?"

Zhou Jianxin: "Yeah. The doctor's order said that you need to rest for a while, it will be fine."

After Yang Chu listened calmly, he mentioned: "However, you had sex with me the next night."

Zhou Jianxin was silent.

Yang Chu asked him: "Are you not going to talk about these things if I don't mention them?"

Zhou Jianxin looked at him with an inexplicable flash in his eyes, but remained silent.

Seeing that Zhou Jianxin did not refute, did not speak or had nothing to say, Yang Chu's face gradually turned cold.

Zhou Jianxin looked straight at Yang Chu, and shook his hand: "I want to be with you. No matter what. I will solve everything that blocks the way. You just need to wait where you are."

Yang Chu's face became even uglier: "How do you know that I am willing to stay where I am? Or, have you told me to stay where I am? You didn't. And I don't want to either. Zhou Jianxin, I'm a man."

Such eight years remind Yang Chu all the time that Zhou Jianxin will leave the first time because of some things, and he can leave the second time because of some things.And the next time he leaves, he has a feeling that it won't be too far away.But what should he do when he leaves next time?

Actually he lied.He and Zhang Junhe were planning to get engaged, after he met Zhou Jianxin last week.Because people have to look forward when they live, both for him and for her.But now things are messed up.

It is true that he loves Zhou Jianxin.But it was a mistake for him to love Zhou Jianxin.The time is too long to consume enthusiasm, just feel tired.

When he was repeatedly confessed by Zhou Jianxin, he was not indifferent, in fact, it was his biggest heartbeat.He thought it was good, and deceived himself to enjoy the beauty of the present.Regardless of the twists and turns of the future.He told himself that he was just falling in love, and then faced the possible loss of love.Who doesn't have a lovelorn time?

No matter what happens in the future, because the present can be very good.

However, he recalled the life and death of others who had been laid out in front of him, and faced the blood dripping directly.Parting from the death that he personally experienced at that moment, and the parting from life that he once had.How miserable it is for him to be left behind after parting.

The dark past came to mind over and over again.That kind of sadness renders the heartstrings for a long time.

At that time, he thought that he would be able to see Zhou Jianxin again after the summer vacation, just like before.So, he looked forward to the day when school started.

On the first day of school, Zhou Jianxin did not come.

The next day, he didn't come.

……

A week passed and he still hadn't come.

Because Yang Chu was worried about their (couple) relationship, he couldn't ask others.So he waited in silence.

But within a few days, he could hardly sleep or eat.

He made up his mind to ask a classmate who was close to Zhou Jianxin, only to realize that he couldn't wait for anyone.

At first he didn't believe it.But when he later found out that more than one person said that, he was surprised and shocked.

It turned out that he really lost Zhou Jianxin, before he knew it, more than two months ago.

It's unbelievable that this is what Zhou Jianxin did.

He knew that he was broken in love and began to feel sad.So in the next month or so, he walked the road of broken love, stumbled and stumbled, but finally came to an end.During this period, the life of all kinds of lovelorn people would be worse than death, no exception.

Then, he goes to class, eats, and sleeps as usual.

But he begins to find that he is so out of place in this world.It's been a year since he found out, and he and all the high school classmates around him are still just familiar with each other.He has no buddies at school.He is always alone.He watched other people chatting in groups of three or four, but when he passed by, there was no sound at all.He heard others bragging about playing basketball, but no one thought of him from the beginning to the end.In the cafeteria, he occupied a seat by himself to cook and buy vegetables. He was surrounded by noise, but he finished his meal quietly.He does exercises alone after class and evening self-study, but he doesn't know who to turn to when he encounters problems.Back in the dormitory at night—Zhou was his former roommate in the two-person dormitory in high school—he stared blankly at the vacancy on the opposite bed, tossing and turning.

He found it such a difficult thing to communicate with people.When to speak, what kind of words are suitable to say, how to answer the words, how to look at people's faces... all became difficult problems.He found that he always said the wrong thing, couldn't read people's faces, and people misunderstood him...so he didn't know how to speak.He had to devote all his energy to studying.This made him look even more gloomy and withdrawn.

He finds it such a difficult thing to communicate with people, let alone make friends.In the past, because of Zhou Jianxin, he didn't need to do extra things, and someone would naturally do everything for him.But now, he is left alone.

He suddenly discovered that his old friends from the past had already disappeared in time.

Before he knew it, Zhou Jianxin became his everything.

The days are getting tougher.Loneliness seems like a hundred years.

He missed Zhou Jianxin even more.

As the days passed day by day, thoughts surged and piled up, giving birth to repeated grievances.

Resentment knows long (zhang) and hates long (chang), he misses Zhou Jianxin's warmth even more.

So, for eight years, he thought of him all the time.He couldn't forget him.

He despises himself like this. A man is as lingering and resentful as a boudoir.

In what should have been the best years, his youth was barren.

Witnessing that car accident was an accident.Meeting Zhang Junhe, I have to say it was a kind of fate, similar to Zhou Jianxin's fate.

So, he has friends again.

His world is no longer just him alone, with memories of another person.Although it's just sprinkled flower seeds on the desolate wild land.

This is an opportunity.He was heartened by the hope of getting out of that world.He is trying to get rid of Zhou Jianxin's shadow.

Then Zhou Jianxin returned to China.But for him, compared with the time when he did not return to China, there is not much difference.But this person is here, and he can see him several times a year, which is a threat.

He would feel that getting rid of this shadow is hopeless in this life, no matter what.

Afterwards, he felt soft-hearted and impulsive for a moment, allowing him to see that person again.

——Sure enough, he will never escape the shadow of that person in this life.