him and him

I am well-clothed and well-fed.

I am silk and satin.

If you shake your body, the capital will also tremble.

When first-rank officials met me, they called me brothers, and they were all relatives of the emperor and famous families.

Outsiders see me as elegant and energetic.Even if it is the number one scholar with ten miles of red flowers, bright clothes and angry horses, it is just a momentary scenery.And me, it's different.

My future will only be brighter.No one doubts this.

But in front of one person, all my glory, all my romance, all my self-esteem will be reduced to dust.

Because, I love him.More because he is my master.

He is my master, and also the future master of the world, the present prince Mu Chengqian.

I am the housekeeper of his residence, and my name is Li Ziqi.

I first saw him when I was five years old. At that time, I was dressed in rags, and he was wrapped in white silk and stretched out his hand to me: "Come, come home with me."

That was the first and only time I held his hand.

After entering the palace, he is master and I am slave.In private, he asked me to call him brother.

"Your Highness, I dare not." I said more than once.

He always smiled and touched my head: "Ziqi Ziqi, you are so cute, everyone wants to be your brother. Just let me take advantage of this, okay?"

I said 1 good things in my heart, but I couldn't utter a single word.He didn't mind, and when it was just the two of us, he called me brother on his own.

I do not know when, he lived in my heart.Ever since I had a daring dream, I knew that I was possessed.In this life, you can't love, you can't escape.

In the dream, he stripped off his clothes and entertained me under my body.I hugged him, hugged him, couldn't get enough, never got enough.

When I was 16, he married the princess.

The Empress Dowager is a kind person, even if I love him to the bone, I can't hate the Empress Dowager who has usurped him.

The Crown Princess is a poor person. His husband, my Highness, doesn't love her.During the day, they are as respectful as guests, but at night they often stay alone in the vacant room.

She was walking in the courtyard in a thin shirt, and saw me worried behind the tree: "Ziqi, are you worried about me?"

"Your Majesty, the courtyard is cool, go back to the house." I was stopped by her when I wanted to salute, so I had no choice but to say something innocuous.

"Ziqi, what would you do if you were me?" She looked up at me, the water in her eyes reflected the moon in the sky, it was round.

"Your Majesty, the child is a man. You will never become a Empress, but your life is something that many people envy but wish for." Like me.

She laughed out loud: "Envy me? Envy my status, or my handsome husband? Envy me as a princess, envy me as a future queen?" After all, she couldn't hold back, squatted down and cried: " But I don't care about it, I don't even want it anymore, my husband doesn't give me a chance at all. What should I do, what should I do?"

I could have picked her up, but I didn't.

I turned my back and said, "Your Majesty, fate is determined by God. You still want to be more open." Before she could speak, I left.

Princess, do you know how much I envy you?Do you know how much I envy you?Why should I worry about you and comfort you.I can not do it.

……

In spring and March, the peach blossoms in the Prince's Mansion are in full bloom.The garden is full of peach blossoms, I stand under the peach tree and think of the past.

That day I pointed to a wild peach tree on the outskirts of Beijing and said, "Your Highness, look, how beautiful are the flowers blooming on the peach tree?"

He rode his horse and circled around me: "Do you like it? Do you like it? Does Ziqi like it?"

I saw the opportunity and slapped his horse on the buttocks. The horse was frightened and took him far away.I laughed and ran away, and he chased me on the horse, surrounded by his bright laughter: "Ziqi, Ziqi, you have learned to be naughty."

On the second day after returning home, I woke up in the morning, opened the door, and the yard was already full of peach trees.He stood under the tree and looked at me with a smile: "Ziqi, Ziqi, next year my little Ziqi will be able to watch peach blossoms at home."

……

A burst of hearty laughter interrupted my memory, and the person who appeared in front of me made me frown.

"Ziqi, are you always like this? Did I offend you?" Jiang Li always regarded himself as my good friend, even if I was impatient in every possible way, he didn't mind.

"Yes." I sneered, thinking in my heart that you are not just offending me?You have offended the whole world.Even if you are a powerful general, so what, once that secret comes out of my mouth, you will die without a place to bury you.

"Okay, let me accompany you if I offended you, tell me quickly, where is Cheng Qian, I have something good for him." He posted it like a dog's skin plaster.

"Princess on the bed." I said.

"Are you kidding me?" His face immediately changed: "Ziqi, there are some jokes, even you can't tell them."

"I'm not joking, the prince is now on the princess's bed, both of us." I watched his face turn pale, and I felt a strange sense of satisfaction in my heart.

His hands began to tremble: "Impossible, Cheng Qian won't do this."

"Then why don't you go see it yourself?" I didn't want to talk to him anymore, I reached out to caress the petals that fell on my body, and reached out to call for the young man in the distance: "Don't be dazed, go and prepare hot water, the prince The princess will definitely use it."

After walking a few steps, I turned around and saw Jiang Li madly rushing into the room of the prince and concubine, and then I heard a shrill cry, the cry of a woman, and the curse of a man.

……

"Is that you?" I knelt on the ground, Mu Chengqian didn't look at me, turned his back and asked, "Is that you?"

"What if I say no?" Chuchun, the ground is still very cold, and my heart is also very cold: "I say no, will you believe it?"

"Not you, who else?" He sneered, "You think I can't see your thoughts, do you?"

"Your Highness doesn't believe me, so the slave will admit it." I bent down and touched my forehead to the ground, so that he wouldn't see my lips being bitten to pieces.

"It really is you." He snorted coldly, "Ziqi, I really misread you."

"The servant deserves to die. Your Highness should kill the servant." The heart is dead, do you still care about a life?Take it, take it, I will give you whatever you take.

"Kill you? Hmph, you have eaten at the Prince's Mansion for more than ten years, and you want to die easily without any credit. Heh, I want to keep you, keep you and watch me and Jiang Li be happy." He said Every word feels like a heavy hammer hitting my heart.

It is broken, my lord.

……

Paper cannot contain fire, and there is no impenetrable wall in the world.

When the Dongchuang incident broke out, the story of Mu Chengqian and Jiang Li reached the emperor's ears. The emperor was furious and insisted on killing Jiang Li's nine clans.

Jiang Limu Chengqian fled to Chenzhou overnight, and the princess was already pregnant at this time, so she insisted on following.I escorted her to Chenzhou.But only the little emperor's grandson was left in the Chenzhou palace. The little emperor's grandson saw the world for three months, and the only people he saw were me and the princess.

After all, the emperor's heart was soft, and he summoned Mu Chengqian back to the palace one after another, promising that as long as he returned to the palace, Jiang Li would be saved from death.

But Mu Chengqian refused, and the emperor ordered to kill without mercy in a fit of anger.The thieves took advantage of the opportunity, and more than 100 people in the palace of the crown prince in Chenzhou died. Only me and the two princess concubines escaped with the little emperor's grandson in their arms.

I often think of the last conversation with the princess.

I hold the little grandson in my arms, and the secret passage is behind me.

The mother-in-law with tears in her eyes: "Ziqi, the person I am most sorry for in my life is you. But, please protect my child well."

I looked at her with a sneer: "I finally admitted it, my concubine, it was you who gave the prince the medicine, and it was you who led the fuse to me. stand."

She broke down in tears: "It's me, it's all me. Ziqi, I, Duan Liuli, can't forgive you in this life, and I will be your cow and horse in the next life..."

I interrupted her: "Enough, you are not worthy. But the little emperor is innocent, I will protect me."

The little grandson gradually grew up, and he became my son.

Just when I almost forgot his life experience, Prime Minister Zuo found me. He told me that the emperor was critically ill and his only blood was the little emperor's grandson. He hoped that I would take care of the overall situation.

I'm not surprised that he can find me. Before Prime Minister Zuo became an official, he was the master of the famous Fengling Pavilion in Jianghu. Fengling Pavilion knows everything in the world.

I looked at Sonny who was sleeping soundly, and thought of more and more people of unknown origin in the town recently who said, "Okay."

Even if I insisted that he was my son, regardless of the overall situation, someone would come and take our lives.

I forced Sang'er to practice the plum blossom pile, but in fact it was the long-lost magic trick that Prime Minister Zuo found.I don't want Sang'er to be world-class in martial arts, I just hope that he can run away when danger comes.I forced Sonny to take inexplicable pills since childhood, but he cried and refused to take them. I fed him cruelly, just to make him invulnerable to all poisons.

……

I failed to see Sonny grow up, Prime Minister Zuo came to tell me that day: "Let him go, it's too late."

I let Sonny go away with the two children adopted by the shadow guards, and I stayed and waited, waiting to die.

If yes, I hope he is the one who kills me.

God still has mercy on me.

Seeing that he was the first to come to the door, I was relieved.

Mu Chengqian, in this life, my life is yours, no matter when you want it, I will never complain.

He held his sword and looked at me: "What about the brat?"

I knelt down to him: "My lord, that is your own flesh and blood."

"I don't have such lowly flesh and blood." He spurned: "You guys really hide well enough, I've been looking for you for more than ten years."

"I have also waited for Your Highness for more than ten years."

"Really?" He smiled: "Even if I don't come, others will come back to kill you. Who doesn't want the position of the Lord of the World."

"Yes, Your Highness. You don't want this position."

He stabbed the sword into my chest and laughed: "You are right, I don't want this position. But I don't want this position and I will kill you too. If it wasn't for you, Jiang Li wouldn't have died .”

I don't feel any pain at all, really, nothing at all.I looked at the blood flowing from my chest and smiled: "Your Highness, if you don't kill me, I won't live long."

He sneered: "What does it have to do with me? Back then you planned me to have sex with Duan Liuli and give birth to a bastard, and then you went to the emperor's place to expose the matter between me and Jiang Li. Do you know that Jiang Li died and was stabbed ten times?" A few knives, the ridiculous thing is that this person is you, Li Ziqi!"

Yes, it's me.my lord.Just because I hate him, I hate him.

At that time, I thought that only the four of us escaped, but I didn't expect to meet Mu Chengqian and Jiang Li on the way to escape.They were all in rags, Mu Chengqian was seriously injured, Jiang Li was also injured, and both of his hands were useless.

I killed Jiang Li with my sword, and threw the seriously injured Mu Chengqian in front of a remote hospital.I can't forget that when I left, Mu Chengqian almost ate my eyes.

That hatred is unforgettable.

I suddenly felt that there was no need for me to embarrass myself, anyway, I was going to die, and I was too miserable in this life, and I could feel the blood in my body slowly draining.

I looked up and saw Mu Chengqian called him for the first time: "Brother Gan."

I saw that he was obviously taken aback, he still has friendship with me, I am relieved.

"Brother Gan, you fell in love with Jiang Li because Jiang Li gave you his eyes, but you are so stupid, you have been with him for so long and you haven't realized that his eyes are not blind at all?"

Mu Chengqian didn't expect me to mention this matter, he was startled and asked: "What do you mean?"

I pointed to my right eye: "Look, this eye is actually invisible, because it is not my eye, it was just taken from a fur animal. At that time, you shot an arrow while riding In a coma, I lost my right eye. I gave you my right eye. I stayed in Xiaoyao Valley with Dr. Xiao for a while, and returned to the Prince’s Mansion when I got used to the false eye. When I went back, I found that You and Jiang Li are already together, my lord."

Mu Chengqian began to tremble: "What are you talking about..."

I didn't intend to stop, I knew I was running out of time, and I wanted to die without obsession.The strength in my body is getting weaker and weaker, and I can't speak more and more: "Jiang Li lied to you. Do you remember when I said he was a liar? No matter what I say, you don't believe me, but I can't, I can't Let you know that I gave you the right eye, I don't know what choice you will make. Also, my Highness, the matter of the Crown Princess..."

"Stop talking, stop talking..." Mu Chengqian interrupted me, he knelt down and hugged me: "I...I'll take you to the doctor, I..."

"No need, I can't do it anymore. In order to test Sonny's poison, my body is already riddled with holes. I said it today to make you feel guilty and make you never forget me for the rest of your life."

He started to cry: "I'm guilty, I'm guilty, you forgive me..."

I smiled: "Your Highness, why did you trust me so easily this time? What if I lied to you..."

"No, no, no," he shook his head, talking incoherently: "Go... Let's go to the doctor. You forgive me, forgive me..."

I still want to speak, but I have no strength.

I can only say in my heart: Goodbye, my lord, I will not forgive you, because I have never blamed you, for you, there is only obsession, my lord.In the next life, I will never miss you again.